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Christopher Yuan: Leaving Behind A Double Life

He was a student by day and a drug dealer at night. After the police raided his home, Christopher Yuan had a choice to make. Read Transcript


Terry: CHRISTOPHER YUAN

THOUGHT HE WAS IN

INVINCIBLE.

HE WAS A BIG TIME DRUG

DEALER AND PARTIER.

ONE DAY IN A NURSE'S OFFICE,

CHRISTOPHER FOUND OUT

VULNERABLE HE WAS.

MY PARENTS WANTED TO HOLD

ON TO OUR CHINESE HERITAGE.

Reporter: CHRISTOPHER

IS THE SON OF CHINESE

IMMIGRANTS.

ALTHOUGH HE WAS BORN IN THE

U.S., HE NEVER FELT LIKE HE

FIT IN WITH HIS AMERICAN

CLASSMATES.

KIDS ARE ALWAYS KIND OF

CRUEL.

AND THEY PICK ON KIDS FOR

BEING DIFFERENT.

Reporter: HE WAS SMALL

FOR HIS AGE.

HE PLAYED PIANO AND WORKED

HARD IN SCHOOL, AND WASN'T

GOOD IN SPORTS LIKE THE

OTHER BOYS.

USHORTER.

I -- I WAS SHORTER.

I WORRY GLASSES.

I WAS PICKED ON BECAUSE I

WAS A LITTLE MORE

AFEMININE.

Reporter: WHEN HE WAS

NINE YEARS OLD, HE SAW

PORNOGRAPHY, AND THAT'S WHEN

HE THOUGHT MAYBE HE WAS

DIFFERENT.

THOSE IMAGES OWE WOKE IN

ME -- AWOKE IN ME SOMETHING

I DIDN'T KNOW WAS THERE.

I NOTICED I WAS ATTRACTED TO

BOTH THE MEN AND WOMEN.

Reporter: HE DECIDED TO

KEEP HIS FEELINGS SECRET IN

HOPES THEY WOULD GO AWAY,

BUT THEY DIDN'T.

ALL OF THESE FEELINGS

BUBBLED UP IN ME.

BUT THEY WERE HELD DOWN.

I FELT I NEEDED TO GET THEM

OUT.

Reporter: WHEN HE WAS

ABOUT 20 YEARS OLD,

CHRISTOPHER STARTED GOING TO

GAY BARS.

I WAS DOING IT SECRETLY,

BEHIND MY PARENTS' BACK AND

MY FRIENDS DIDN'T KNOW.

BUT IT WAS BEING MORE

SEXUALLY ACTIVE THEN.

Reporter: WHEN HE MOVED

AWAY TO DENTAL SCHOOL, HE

DECIDED TO LET HIS SECRET

OUT AND LIVE THE HOMOSEXUAL

LIFESTYLE FULL ON.

AT THAT POINT, I FELT

LIKE I COULD REALLY EXPRESS

MYSELF AND EXPLORE WHO I WAS

AND EXPLORE THESE FEELINGS I

HAD KEPT HIDDEN FOR SO

LONG.

Reporter: THEN ONE DAY

AT HOME, HE TOLD HIS PARENTS

ABOUT HIS SEXUALITY.

I HAD THE WORST -- THERE

IS NOT ENOUGH TO DESCRIBE

HOW I FELT WHEN HE TOLD US

HE WAS GAY.

I WAS, I FELT ASHAMED.

AND BETRAYAL, REJECTED,

DEVASTATED AND JUST FULL OF

SORRY.

MY REACTION WAS THAT I

FEEL THAT TOTAL HOPELESS,

AND I JUST GIVE UP HOPE.

Reporter: THE TWO BEGAN

TO PRAY FOR THEIR SON.

HE WAS A DENTAL STUDENT BY

DAY, BUT BY NIGHT HE WAS

GETTING DEEPER INTO

HOMOSEXUALITY AND DRUG

ABUSE.

I WAS TRAVELLING AROUND

THE COUNTRY AND DOING DRUGS

AND SELLING DRUGS, SO I WAS

MISSING MORE AND MORE

CLASS.

I REALLY FELT I COULD LIVE A

DOUBLE LIFE, AND HAVE MY

DRUG LIFE ALONG WITH MY

SCHOOL LIFE AND NOT LET THEM

INTERFERE.

Reporter: IT WASN'T

LONG BEFORE THE TWO WORLDS

SLIDED.

HE WAS EXPELLED FROM DENTAL

SCHOOL JUST FOUR MONTHS

BEFORE GRADUATION.

NOW THAT THEY EXPELLED

ME, I JUST COMPLETELY

CONSUMED MYSELF WITH LIVING

IN THE GAY COMMUNITY.

I BEGAN DOING WHAT I KNEW

HOW TO DO WELL, AND KNEW HOW

TO DO BEST, AND THAT WAS

DRUG DEALING.

Reporter: HE WAS MAKING

BIG MONEY AND HAVING SEXUAL

ENCOUNTERS EACH DAY.

I WAS TREATED LIKE A

SUPER STAR.

I REALLY FELT LIKE I WAS

GOD.

Reporter: HIS PARENTS

REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON HIM,

EVEN THOUGH HE REFUSED TO

STAY IN TOUCH.

EVERY MORNING, BEFORE I

STARTED MY DAY, I WAS GOING

INTO MY PRAYER CLASSES.

AND ONE OF THE PRAYERS WAS,

LORD, HAVE MERCY ON HIS

SON.

Reporter: THE ANSWER TO

THE PRAYER CAME ONE DAY WITH

A KNOCK ON CHRISTOPHER'S

DOOR.

I OPENED UP MY DOOR, AND

IT WASN'T ANYBODY I HAD SEEN

BEFORE.

BUT IT WAS 12 FEDERAL DRUG

ENFORCEMENT AGENTS.

RIGHT BEHIND ME, ON MY

KITCHEN COUNTER, WAS ALL OF

MY DRUGS.

THEY REALLY CAUGHT ME

RED-HANDED.

I WAS CHARGED WITH THE

STREET EQUIVALENT OF

9.9 POUNDS OF MARIJUANA.

JUST THREE DAYS BEFORE

CHRISTOPHER WENT TO JAIL,

SOMETHING CAUGHT HIS

ATTENTION.

I SAW SOMETHING OUT OF

THE CORNER OF MY EYE.

IT WAS A BOOK.

I STOPPED AND PICKED IT UP.

IT WAS THE GIDEON'S BIBLE.

FOR THE FIRST TIME I OPENED

UP THAT GOOD BOOK.

WHEN I STARTED READING IT, I

UNDERSTOOD MY REBELLION

AGAINST THE LAW AND ALSO

AGAINST GOD.

Reporter: CHRISTOPHER

LEARNED THERE WERE QONS

CONSEQUENCES TO HIS

ACTIONS.

THEY SENT ME TO THE

NURSE'S OFFICE, AND AS I

LOOKED DOWN, I SAW THREE

LETTERS AND A SYMBOL, AND IT

READ "H.I.V. POSITIVE."

Reporter: HE WENT BACK

TO HIS LIKE HEELING

HAD RECEIVED A DEATH

SENTENCE.

HE LAID DOWN AND LOOKED UP

AT THE GRAFFITI-COVERED

CEILING.

I LOOKED UP, AND IT READ,

"IF YOUR BORED, READ

JEREMIAH 29: 11, "FOR I KNOW

THE PLANS THAT I HAVE FOR

YOU DECLARES THE LORD.

PLANS TO PROSPER YOU AND NOT

TO HARM YOU."

AND AT THAT POINT WAS

PROBABLY THE DARKEST AND

MOST HOPELESS POINT IN MY

LIFE.

AFTER I WAS SENTENCED FOR

SIX YEARS, AND AFTER I

RECEIVED NEWS OF MY H.I.V.

STATUS.

GOD GAVE ME ENOUGH FAITH

THAT NIGHT TO JUST SIMPLY

GET THROUGH THAT ONE DAY.

Reporter: CHRISTOPHER

RELIED ON GOD'S HELP TO GET

BY ONE DAY AT A TIME.

IT WAS DURING THIS

PROBABLE THE YEAR-LONG

PROCESS THAT I SURRENDERED

MY LIFE TO CHRIST, AND THAT

I KNEW THAT I NO LONGER WAS

GOING TO LIVE ACCORDING TO

MY WAYS AND ACCORDING TO THE

THE WAYS OF THE THE WORLD,

BUT SURRENDERING ALL OF MY

HOPES AND DREAMS TO HIM.

Reporter: AS HIS

RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD GREW,

CHRISTOPHER STRUGGLED TO

FIND JUSTIFICATION FOR HIS

HOMOSEXUAL LIFE TILE.

I TURNED TO THE BIBLE

ALONE, AND I WENT THROUGH

EVERY VERSE, EVERY CHAPTER,

EVERY PAGE OF SCRIPTURE

LOOKING FOR JUSTIFICATION

FOR HOMOSEXUALITY.

I NEVER FOUND ANYTHING.

SO I WAS AT A TURNING

POINT.

AND A DECISION HAD TO BE

MADE.

IT WAS EITHER ABANDON GOD

AND HIS WORD TO LIVE AS A

HOMOSEXUAL BY ALLOWING MY

FEELINGS TO DICTATE WHO I

WAS, OR ABANDON

HOMOSEXUALITY BY LIBERATING

MYSELF FROM MY FEELINGS AND

LIVE AS A FOLLOWER OF JESUS

CHRIST.

MY DECISION WAS CLEAR AND OF

OBVIOUS, AND I CHOSE GOD.

Reporter: CHRISTOPHER

WAS RELEASED FROM PRISON

AFTER SERVING HIS SENTENCE.

TODAY HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH

HIS PARENTS HAS BEEN

RESTORED.

HE IS AN INSTRUCTOR AT MOODY

BIBLE COLLEGE IN CHICAGO AND

LIVES EACH DAY WITH

PURPOSE.

NO PERSON HAS EVER BEEN

PROMISED THAT WE WOULD HAVE

TOMORROW.

YET MOST OF US LIVE WITH THE

EXPECTANCY OF TOMORROW.

BUT IT TOOK GETTING H.I.V.

FOR ME TO REALIZE THAT I

MUST LIVE WITH THE SENSE OF

URGENCY.

Reporter: AND HE NO

LONGER DEFINES HIMSELF WHY

HIS SEXUALITY.

MY IDENTITY AS A CHILD OF

GOD MUST BE IN JESUS CHRIST

ALONE.

GOD WAS TELLING ME DON'T

FOCUS UPON YOUR FEELINGS, OR

DON'T FOCUS UPON YOUR

SEXUALITY, BUT FOCUS ON

LIVING A LIFE OF PURITY.

BEING A CHRISTIAN IS NOT AN

EASY THING.

I MAY STILL STRUGGLE, BUT

GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE GRACE.

GOD HAS CLAIMED THE VICTORY

ON THE CROSS.

AND THOUGH I MAY STILL HAVE

STRUGGLES, I'M NOT GOING TO

BE BOUND BY THEM.

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