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A Homeless Heart is Healed

A victim of childhood sexual abuse, Chatman Payne's life veers off course. After living on the streets, he gets a second chance when a group of Christians model the love of God. Read Transcript


I WAS IN THE HOUSE, AND

MY UNCLE SAID COME AND LAY

DOWN WITH ME IN THE BED.

AND I SAID, I'M GOING TO

TELL MOM.

AND HE SAID TO ME, IF YOU DO

SAY ANYTHING TO MOM, YOU'RE

GOING TO GET A BEATEN.

Reporter: CHAPMAN PAYNE

GREW UP IN THE PROJECTS OF

PHILADELPHIA, WHERE HE WAS

ONE OF 11 CHILDREN BORN TO

ALCOHOLIC PARENTS.

MY PARENTS -- SOMETIMES

MY MOTHER WOULD BE DRUNK.

MY FATHER, HE HAD LEFT AND

HE COMES BACK EVERY NOW AND

THEN.

AND THEN THEY WOULD LAY

TOGETHER, AND THEY WOULD

HAVE ANOTHER BABY.

AND THEN HE WOULD GO AWAY.

Reporter: THE TRAUMATIC

MOLESTATION THAT STOLE

CHAPMAN'S INNOCENCE HAPPENED

WHEN HE WAS JUST SIX YEARS

OLD.

BECAUSE OF HIS UNCLE'S

THREATS, CHAPMAN NEVER TOLD

ANYONE, AND THE ABUSE

CONTINUED FOR A YEAR.

BITTERNESS, ANGRY,

LONELINESS, MAD, UPSET,

OUTRAGED -- I JUST WANTED TO

SCREAM AT SOME POINT.

Reporter: BY THEN HE

WAS ALREADY STEALING HIS

MOTHER'S WINE TO DEADEN THE

PAIN.

WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?

IT FEELS LIKE SOMEBODY

JUST WALKED INTO ME AND JUST

RIPPED ME APART.

AND I TRIED TO PUT IT BACK

TOGETHER, BUT IT JUST WON'T

FIT.

BEFORE I EVEN GOT TO 17, I

TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

I TRIED TO HANG MYSELF.

BECAUSE I SAID NO ONE LOVED

ME.

NO ONE CARES ABOUT::TÑ ME.

Reporter: THEN AT 17,

HE HAD HIS FIRST HIT OF

SPEED, AND HE WAS

IMMEDIATELY ADDICTED.

HE FINANCED HIS ADDICTION BY

SELLING DRUGS, BUT NO DRUG

COULD NUMB HIS INTENSE

PAIN.

IT WAS UNBEARABLE.

FOR ME TO EVEN FACE MYSELF.

BECAUSE NOT ONLY FEAR WAS

THERE, SHAME WAS THERE.

Reporter: CHAPMAN

JOINED THE RANKS OF THE

HOMELESS BECAUSE HE WOULD

RATHER LIVE ON THE STREETS

THAN WITH HIS ABUSIVE

FAMILY.

MY FIRST NIGHT ON THE

STREET WAS VERY

FRIGHTENING.

I WILL NEVER FORGET IT.

I DIDN'T CARE.

BECAUSE I WAS SO HURT AND

VIOLATED, THAT IT DIDN'T

MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE TO ME

ONE NIGHT.

Reporter: HE WAS

DESPERATE FOR A WARM PLACE

TO SPEND THE NIGHT.

SO HE MET A GROUP OF

CHRISTIANS.

THEY TOOK HIM TO A HOMELESS

MISSION.

THEY SAID, YOU'RE COMING

INTO OUR PRAYER ROOM.

I SAID, UH-OH.

OKAY, FAN.

-- FINE.

ALL OF THESE PEOPLE CIRCLED

ME AND PRAYING AND LAYING

HANDS ON ME.

I'M FEELING SOMETHING WAS

HAPPENING TO ME.

AND THEY STARTED TALKING

ABOUT GOD AND THIS AND

THAT.

AND IT WAS SOMETHING THAT I

HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED

BEFORE.

BUT I KNOW IT GOT A HOLD OF

ME.

Reporter: DURING THIS

STAY AT THE MISSION, HE

HEARD A CEREMONY THAT

CHANGED HIS LIFE.

AND WHEN HE CALLED US

DOWN TO THE ALTER, I CAME

DOWN TO THE ALTER, AND HE

SAID, REPEAT AFTER ME.

SO I REPEAT THE SINNER'S

PRAYER.

THIS WAS A NEW RELATIONSHIP

IN MY LIFE.

Reporter: CHAPMAN

REALIZED HOW MUCH HE NEEDED

GOD'S LOVE AND FORGIVENESS.

I NOW LIVE BY FAITH.

AND I CAN LOVE FOR REAL

NOW.

WITH THAT UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

THAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME AND

NOT TAKE ANYTHING FOR

GRANTED ANYMORE.

Reporter: CHAPMAN

WORKED AT THE MISSION FOR 12

YEARS WHILE ATTENDING

SEMINARY.

TODAY HE IS MARRIED, AND THE

PASTOR OF HOUSE OF WORSHIP

INTERNATIONAL CHURCH.

I FOUND THE LOVE THAT I

HAD BEEN SEARCHING FOR IN MY

WHOLE LIFE.

AND THAT LOVE IS JESUS

CHRIST.

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