WHEN SHE GAVE ME AN
ULTIMATUM, THE ULTIMATUM WAS
EITHER WE GET MARRIED OR SHE
WAS GOING TO HAVE AN
ABORTION.
MY DECISION WAS THAT I WAS
NOT GOING TO GET MARRIED.
Reporter: MORE THAN
ANYTHING, MAURICE HUFF
WANTED TO BE A TEACHER.
AFTER HIGH SCHOOL, HE
ENLISTED IN THE AIR FORCE TO
PAY FOR COLLEGE.
BUT AN ANNOUNCEMENT FROM HIS
GIRLFRIEND JE JEOPARDIZED
HIS PLANS.
SHE WAS PREGNANT.
SHE BACKED ME INTO A
CORNER.
I FELT CONFUSED AND ANGRY.
Reporter: MAURICE WAS A
CHRISTIAN AND HE KNEW
ABORTION WAS WRONG.
ONCE I WAS FACED WITH
THAT DECISION, WITH MARRIAGE
HANGING OVER MY HEAD, I
LOOKED AT ABORTION WAS MY
ONLY WAY OUT.
Reporter: SO HE AND HIS
GIRLFRIEND WENT TO THE
CLINIC, AND THE ABORTION WAS
PERFORMED.
FOR A WHILE, MAURICE WAS
RELIEVED, THEN HIS
GIRLFRIEND SAID SOMETHING
THAT LEFT HIM STUNNED.
SHE SAID THE CHILD WOULD
HAVE BEEN A BOY.
AND THAT REALLY HIT HOME
HARD.
WHEN SHE SAID THE CHILD
WOULD HAVE BEEN A BOY.
I THINK THAT'S WHEN, FOR THE
FIRST TIME THROUGH THIS
WHOLE ORDEAL, I REALLY
STARTED THINKING OF THIS NOT
JUST BEING AN ABORTION, BUT
REALLY BEING A LIFE.
THEN ALL OF THESE THINGS
STARTED GOING THROUGH MY
MIND. I COULD HAVE HAD A
SON.
Reporter: AND WHEN HE
GOT HOME, HE HAD A VISION.
I GOT THIS DARK VISION OF
MINE.
I COULD SEE MYSELF WITH A
GUN.
AND BASICALLY I TOOK A GUN
AND PUT THE GUN TO A BABY'S
HEAD.
I COULD FEEL THE EXPLOSION
TAKE PLACE.
THAT'S WHEN EVERYTHING JUST
HIT ME FULL FORCE.
YOU JUST TOOK A LIFE.
I FELT WORTHLESS.
I FELT, LIKE, YOU KNOW, YOU
TOOK A LIFE.
SO WHY SHOULD YOU BE
LIVING.
YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE.
Reporter: HE AND HIS
GIRLFRIEND EVENTUALLY BROKE
UP, BUT THE GUILT STILL
HAUNTED HIM DAILY.
THE EMPTINESS THAT I
FELT, I WOULDN'T WISH IT ON
ANYONE.
IT WAS JUST A TOTAL EMPTY
FEELING.
SAD, GUT GUT-WRENCHING
FEELING.
MORE THAN ANYTHING IT WAS
TREMENDOUS, TREMENDOUS
GUILT.
Reporter: MAURICE GREW
TIRED OF DAYS FILLED WITH
ANXIETY AND SLEEPLESS
NIGHTS.
SO HE RETURNED TO THE ONE
PLACE WHERE HE EXPERIENCED
PEACE, HIS FAITH IN CHRIST.
I WAS READING SCRIPTURES
ABOUT FORGIVENESS,
SCRIPTURES ABOUT
RESTORATION, SCRIPTURES
ABOUT HEALING.
THE MORE I READ THE BIBLE,
THE BETTER I WAS BEGINNING
TO FEEL.
YOU KNOW, A LOT OF THE GUILT
WAS BEGINNING TO LIFT.
I WAS GETTING A BETTER
UNDERSTANDING OF GOD'S
FORGIVENESS, BUT I STILL HAD
HAD NOT FORGIVEN MYSELF
COMPLETELY.
Reporter: ONE DAY WHILE
HE WAS WATCHING "THE 700
CLUB," TERRY TALKED ABOUT
USING WRITING TO HELP IN THE
HEALING PROCESS.
MAURICE DECIDED TO GIVE IT A
TRY.
EACH DAY I WOULD BEGIN TO
SORT OF WRITE MY THOUGHTS
ABOUT THE ABORTION, WHAT
HAPPENED.
AND THE MORE I BEGAN TO
WRITE, THE BETTER I WAS
FEELING.
ONE NIGHT I WAS SLEEPING AND
IT WAS PROBABLY ABOUT 3:00
IN THE MORNING.
I JUST WAS AWAKENED WITH A
WHOLE STORY LINE FOR A
BOOK.
AND SO I JUMPED OUT OF BED
AND JUST STARTED WRITING A
WHOLE STORY RELATED TO THIS
ABORTION.
Reporter: MAURICE
EVENTUALLY WROTE TWO BOOKS:
"THE CHOICE THAT HAUNTS
FOREVER," AND "THE CHOICE
THAT NO LONGER HAUNTS."
HE IS NOW HAPPILY MARRIED
AND HAS TWO CHILDREN.
HE SAYS HE IS THANKFUL FOR
GOD'S FORGIVENESS.
THAT'S THE AWESOMENESS OF
GOD.
IS THAT NO MATTER WHAT WE
DO, GOD IS A GOD OF MERCY
AND HE'S A GOD OF
FORGIVENESS.
EVEN IF YOU MAKE THIS
MISTAKE, YOU DON'T HAVE TO
WALLOW IN GUILT.
ASK GOD FOR FORGIVENESS, AND
GOD WILL GRANT YOU
FORGIVENESS.
