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700 Club Interactive: Love Isn’t Supposed to Hurt - August 29, 2012

Danielle was a porn star and a high class call girl when the reality of her vulnerability to violence and death woke her up. Read Transcript


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[APPLAUSE]

Gordon: WELCOME TO THE

SHOW.

WITH OBESITY ON THE RISE IN

THE NATION, AMERICANS FIND

THEMSELVES OBSESSED WITH

THEIR WEIGHT.

FOR THE GIRL YOU'RE ABOUT TO

MEET, BEING SKINNY MEANT

EVERYTHING, NO MATTER THE

COST.

Terry: AND WHILE THE

REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR

SPIRRED ANDREA TO LOSE MORE

WEIGHT, SHE SAW A MESSAGE IN

A CAR WINDOW THAT CHANGED

HER LIFE.

I HAD EXTREMELY LOW

SELF-ESTEEM AND NEVER FELT

GOOD ENOUGH, SMART ENOUGH,

PRETTY ENOUGH.

Reporter: FROM HER

EARLIEST MEMORIES, ANDREA

LOGAN WHITE FELT INVISIBLE.

SHE WAS HUNGRY FOR AFFECTION

AND ATTENTION.

MY FATHER WAS A POLICE

OFFICER.

AND MY MOTHER, YOU KNOW,

STARTED WORKING QUITE OFTEN

AT FULL-TIME JOBS.

WE GREW UP IN A VERY

EMOTIONALLY STERILE

ENVIRONMENT.

SO THERE WAS NOT A LOT OF

AFFECTION OR ATTENTION.

Reporter: WHEN ANDREA

TURNED 13 YEARS OLD, HER

PARENTS DIVORCED AND HER

GRANDPARENTS DIED.

AND I REALLY WAS HOPELESS

AND WAS DIAGNOSED WITH

DEPRESSION AT 13.

I WAS THREATENING SUICIDE

BECAUSE I WAS SO DESPERATE

TO JUST HAVE SOMEBODY PAY

ATTENTION TO ME AND TO LOVE

ON ME.

Reporter: WHEN ANDREA'S

CRIES FOR HELP WERE IGNORED,

SHE REALIZED THAT BY

CONTROLLING HER EATING

HABITS SHE COULD TAKE CHARGE

OF HER LIFE.

REALLY GOING INTO HIGH

SCHOOL IS WHEN THE EATING

DISORDER STARTED BECAUSE MY

LIFE WAS A MESS.

SO I STARTED TO CONTROL MY

ENVIRONMENT.

IF I CAN JUST DO THIS ONE

THING AND BE STRONG IN THIS

AREA, THEN I'LL BE

DIFFERENT.

AND I THINK THAT WAS THE ONE

THING THAT MADE ME, ODDLY

ENOUGH, FEEL STRONG.

Reporter: SOON ANOREXIA

CONSUMED ANDREA'S LIFE.

I REMEMBER AT THE WORST

POINT OF THE EATING

DISORDER, I THINK I WAS

EATING 500 CALORIES OR

LESS.

SO I WOULD COUNT EVERY STICK

OF GUM.

AND EVERYTHING I WOULD PUT

IN MY MOUTH, AND EVEN WITH

78 POUNDS, 85 POUNDS,

90 POUNDS, I WOULD SEE A

FAT, UGLY PERSON.

I WAS ALIVE, BUT I WAS SO

DEAD INSIDE AND SO BROKEN,

AND IT WAS JUST ALL

CONSUMING.

THE OBSESSION, THE

COMPULSION.

AND IT JUST TAKES EVERY PART

OF YOUR LIFE AWAY FROM YOU.

Reporter: WHEN SHE WAS

18, ANDREA WENT TO AN

OUTPATIENT FACILITY FOR TWO

WEEKS TO GET HELP WITH THE

ANOREXIA.

BUT SHORTLY AFTER THE

TREATMENT ENDED, ANDREA

MOVED TO LOS ANGELES TO

RESUME HER DREAM OF ACTING.

THE ANOREXIA WANT FAR

BEHIND.

I WAS AROUND SEX AND

DRUGS AND MONEY, AND IT

BECAME NORMAL TO ME.

I WOULD RELAPSE IN AND OUT

OF THE ANOREXIA BECAUSE THAT

WAS, AGAIN, BECAUSE I HAD NO

SUPPORT, AND NO FOUNDATION.

I WAS LOOKING AT PEOPLE WITH

PLASTIC SURGERY AND LOOKING

AT WHAT APPEARED TO BE THE

PERFECT LIFE AESTHETICALLY.

Reporter: AFTER A

COUPLE OF YEARS IN

HOLLYWOOD, THE COMPETITION

FOR JOBS AND THE FEAR OF

REJECTION BEGAN TO WEAR ON

ANDREA.

THAT'S WHEN SHE STARTED

WORKING A SIDE JOB AS A

PERSONAL TRAINER.

SEVERAL OF HER CLIENTS ARE

CHRISTIANS.

I WAS EXHAUSTED

PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, AND

SPIRITUALLY.

I WAS TIRED OF DOING

EVERYTHING IN MY OWN

STRENGTH.

I WAS AT THAT PLACE WHERE MY

EYES WERE OPEN.

I WAS READY FOR IT.

I STARTED SEEING THE JOY AND

THE PEACE THESE OTHER

CHRISTIANS I WAS WORKING

WITH, AND I COULD SEE THE

DIFFERENCE IN THEIR LIVES.

Reporter: DRIVING HOME

FROM WORK ONE DAY, ANDREA

PRAYED TO GOD WHEN SHE

STOPPED AT A LIGHT.

I GOT TO ROCK BOTTOM, AND

I REMEMBER CRYING OUT TO GOD

AND I WAS SOBBING.

SOMEBODY THAT BEEPED THEIR

HORN, AND SO I HESITATED TO

EVEN LOOK OVER.

AND HE HELD UP A SIGN, AND

HE POINTED TO IT.

BUT IT WAS THE SIGN TO A

RADIO STATION.

I TURNED THE RADIO STATION

ON, AND THERE WAS A PASTOR

REPEATING THE PRAYERS, AND I

CRIED OUT.

AND GOD WAS REPEATING MY

WORDS AND MY CRY-OUT TO GOD

RIGHT BACK TO HIM.

THAT WAS A HUGE SIGN, NOT

ONLY PHYSICALLY, BUT

SYMBOLICLY OF GOOD SAYING,

LISTEN.

YOU'RE HERE FOR A REASON.

I HAVE A PLAN FOR YOU.

I AM HERE AND I AM REAL.

AND, REALLY, THAT'S WHEN MY

LIFE MADE A DRAMATIC CHANGE

AND I ACCEPTED CHRIST AS MY

SAVIOR.

I JUST REMEMBER FEELING THAT

PEACE AND THAT JOY AND

KNOWING THAT IT WAS REAL.

Reporter: IN 2003

ANDREA MARRIED DAVID WHITE,

A MAN WHOM SHE MET AT HER

CHURCH.

BUT ANDREA CONTINUED TO

STRUGGLE WITH EATING

DISORDERS, EVEN AFTER

BECOMING A CHRISTIAN AND

MARRIAGE.

SHORTLY AFTER HER WEDDING,

SHE SLIPPED INTO BULEMIA.

THE ANOREXIA, I THOUGHT

I'M A NEW CREATURE AND I'M

HEALED, BUT THE OTHER PART

KNOWING THAT WE STILL HAVE

THE EMOTIONAL WOUNDS AND THE

SOUL WOUNDS.

I THINK BEING A CHRISTIAN

AND LEARNING YOUR IDENTITY

IS ONGOING.

FOR TWO YEARS STRAIGHT, MY

HUSBAND AND I WERE ON OUR

KNEES AND CRYING OUT TO

GOD.

AND AS A BELIEVER, ASKING

GOD FOR HIS MERCY.

Reporter: THROUGH

CONSISTENT PRAYER AND BIBLE

STUDY, ANDREA BEGAN TO SEE A

BREAKTHROUGH.

GOD IS SO GOOD, WHEN HE

HEALS, HE HEALS YOU AND THEN

SOME.

GOD HEALED ME OF BULEMIA IN

AN INSTANT.

I STOPPED THROWING UP.

IT WAS A MIRACLE.

Reporter: DOCTORS HAD

TOLD HER SHE WOULD NEVER GET

PREGNANT BECAUSE OF THE

RAVAGES OF ANOREXIA.

WHEN SHE BECAME PREGNANT

WITH HER FIRST SON, SHE KNEW

HER HEALING WAS COMPLETE.

NOT ONLY HEALED ME OF

BULEMIA, BUT BLESSED ME WITH

A STRONG, HEALTHY CHILD.

I GOT A DOUBLE HEALING.

Reporter: TODA TODAY

ANDREA HAS TWO HEALTHY

CHILDREN AND HAS BEEN FREE

FOR YEARS.

SHE WORKS ALONGSIDE HER

HUSBAND, A FAITH AND FAMILY

COMPANY.

SINCE I'VE BEEN SAVED,

99% OF MY WORK HAS BEEN IN

THE CHRISTIAN MARKET.

IT IS SUCH A BLESSING TO DO

A STORY, TO A PART IN IT AND

ALSO HAVE REDEMPTION IN IT.

HE IS FAITHFUL EVERY TIME HE

SEES YOU, WHETHER IT IS

ANOREXIA OR BULEMIA OR

DEPRESSION, HE IS RIGHT

THERE TO CRADLE YOU.

AND I'M TELLING YOU, HE WILL

NOT LET YOU DOWN.

I WOULD SAY CRY OUT TO HIM

AND BE RELENTLESS.

Terry: I THINK THAT'S

THE MESSAGE THAT YOU SEE IN

HER HEALING AND IN HER BEING

SET FREE, IS SHE CRIED OUT

TO GOD AND SHE WOULD NOT

STOP UNTIL SHE GOT HER

BREAKTHROUGH.

AND THAT'S THE ANSWER FOR

YOU, TOO, AS YOU STRUGGLE

TODAY.

SO MANY TIMES WITH ALLOW

OURSELVES TO BE DEFINED BY

THE WORLD AROUND US.

SOMETIMES BY SELF-LOATHING,

OUR FEELINGS ABOUT, YOU

KNOW, OURSELVES, WHETHER WE

LIKE THE WAY WE LOOK, LIKE

THE WAY WE ARE.

WE ABSORB WHAT OTHER PEOPLE

THINK ABOUT US.

BUT THE BIBLE SAYS THAT WE

ARE MADE -- MADE IN THE

IMAGE AND LIKENESS OF GOD

HIMSELF.

HE DOESN'T JUST SHARE

HIMSELF WITH US, THAT WE'RE

MADE IN HIS IMAGE AND

LIKENESS.

HE REJOICED IN WHAT HE DID.

HE SAID THIS IS GOOD.

AND HE MADE YOU AND I TO

HAVE FELLOWSHIP WITH HIM.

I WANT TO SAY TO YOU TODAY

THAT IF YOU STRUGGLE IN YOUR

OWN HEART AND IN YOUR OWN

MIND WITH WHO YOU ARE AND

WITH YOUR VALUE AS A PERSON,

GO TO THE ONE WHO CREATED

YOU.

GO TO THE OWNER'S MANUAL.

FIGURE OUT WHAT HE HAS TO

SAY, NOT JUST ABOUT YOU AS

HIS CREATION, BUT ABOUT

HIM.

IT REALLY, IN THE END, IS

ALL ABOUT HIM.

UNDERSTANDING WHO WE ARE.

HOW MUCH WE ARE LOVED, HOW

FORGIVEN WE ARE, HOW MUCH WE

ARE LOVED RIGHT WHERE WE ARE

AT, JUST THE WAY WE ARE.

NOT HAVING TO GET CLEANED UP

OR GOOD ENOUGH FOR HAVE OUR

ACT TOGETHER.

HE SAYS, THAT'S MY JOB WHEN

I COME INTO YOUR LIFE.

I'M GOING TO CLEAN ALL OF

THAT UP.

I'M GOING TO REVEAL TO YOU

MORE OF WHO YOU ARE AND HOW

MUCH I LOVE YOU.

CRY OUT TO HIM TODAY, JUST

LIKE ANDREA DID.

THAT'S WHERE IT ALL BEGINS.

JESUS SAID I STAND AT THE

DOOR AND KNOCK.

HE IS STANDING OUTSIDE OF

THE DOOR OF YOUR HEART,

RIGHT NOW, KNOCKING AND

SAYING, I WANT TO COME IN.

I WANT TO BE A PART OF YOUR

LIFE.

I WANT TO KNOW YOU AND I

WANT TO REVEAL MYSELF TO

YOU.

IF YOU DON'T KNOW HIM TODAY,

YOU KNOW YOU CAN KNOW ABOUT

HIM AND NOT KNOW HIM.

YOU CAN HAVE RELIGIOUS

EXPERIENCE.

YOU CAN BE A CHURCH GOER.

I'M ASKING YOU, DO YOU KNOW

HIM?

AND HAVE YOU LET HIM KNOW

YOU, THE INNER MOST PART OF

YOUR BEING, BY SHARING YOUR

HEART AND YOUR FEARS AND

YOUR LONGINGS AND YOUR NEEDS

FROM HIM, AND YOUR

FAILURES -- HOW ABOUT THAT?

LOTS OF TIMES THAT KEEPS YOU

FROM THE INTIMACY WITH GOD.

HE IS STANDING THERE SAYING

I WANT YOU, I LOVE YOU,

YOU'RE VALUABLE TO ME.

LET YOURSELF BE IDENTIFIED

IN HIM.

YOU CAN CRY OUT TO HIM FROM

RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE.

IT IS A CONVERSATION.

IT'S JESUS, HELP.

I NEED YOU.

SHOW ME WHO I AM.

SHOW ME WHO YOU ARE.

AND SHOW ME HOW TO LET YOU

LOVE ME.

AND RECEIVE HIS FORGIVENESS,

AND FORGIVE YOURSELF.

GOD WANTS TO GIVE YOU A

BRAND NEW BEGINNING AND

REDEFINE WHO YOU ARE IN YOUR

OWN HEART AND MIND.

IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO PRAY

WITH SOMEONE ABOUT YOUR

NEED, YOU CAN DO THAT BY

CALLING THAT TOLL-FREE

NUMBER THAT HAS JUST COME UP

ON YOUR SCREEN.

1-888-777-1999.

WHEN YOU CALL, SOMEONE IS

GOING TO ANSWER WHO HAS

PRAYED THAT SAME PRAYER

THEMSELVES AND FOUND FREEDOM

AND WHOLENESS AND LIFE.

AND THEY'D LOVE TO SHARE

THAT WITH YOU.

SO CALL NOW.

GORDON?

Gordon: COMING UP, FIND

OUT HOW A GROUP OF ISOLATED

GYPSIES FINALLY FOUND HOPE

AND ACCEPTANCE.

THAT'S NEXT ON "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE."

Cara: ON A RECENT TRIP

TO UKRAINE, I MET A SINGLE

MOTHER NAMED ANNA.

HER CHILDREN WERE DENIED

HEALTH CARE AND HAD EVEN

BEEN REFUSED EDUCATION, ALL

BECAUSE THEY ARE GIP SEES.

TAKE A LOOK.

I WAS RETURNING HOME FROM A

SUCCESSFUL TRIP TO UKRAINE

WHEN I RECEIVED AN E-MAIL

FROM ONE OF OUR "ORPHANS'

PROMISE" PARTNERS NAMED

NANCY.

SHE HAD READ A BLOG ABOUT

OUR MINISTRY TO GYPSY

CHILDREN.

GYPSY SETTLEMENTS I HAD

VISITED DAYS BEFORE.

SHE WROTE, "I'VE JUST BEEN

MOVED TO TEARS AS I READ

YOUR REPORT ABOUT THE

GYPSIES.

TRULY THEY ARE A FORGOTTEN

PEOPLE.

MY HEART IS BROKEN OVER

THEIR PLIGHT."

Terry: AS WE SHARED IN

OUR BLOG, GYPSY PEOPLE ARE

CONSIDERED SOCIAL OUTCASTS.

NO ONE WILL HIRE THEM, AND

MANY ARE ILLITERATE, AND

THEIR CHILDREN ARE NOT

WELCOME IN LOCAL SCHOOLS.

SO POVERTY AND SOCIAL STIGMA

BRING A SENSE OF

HOPELESSNESS.

IN THE PAST YEAR, "ORPHANS'

PROMISE" HAS BEGUN TO REACH

OUT TO THESE PEOPLE,

ESPECIALLY THE CHILDREN, WHO

ARE EAGER TO LEARN.

TEACHERS COME INTO THEIR

COMMUNITIES TWICE A WEEK TO

TEACH RUSSIAN AND BASIC LIFE

SKILLS AND TO SHARE THE

GOSPEL.

KNOWLEDGE AND FAITH IS THE

BEGINNING OF A FUTURE FILLED

WITH POSSIBILITIES.

IN THIS PARTICULAR GYPSY

COMMUNITY, I MET A PRECIOUS

WOMAN NAMED ANNA.

SHE IS A SINGLE MOM WITH

PLENTY OF HER OWN NEEDS, YET

SHE CHOOSES TO REACH OUT TO

THE CHILDREN WHO ATTEND THE

"ORPHANS' PROMISE" CLASSES,

PROVIDING FREE MEALS TWICE A

WEEK.

ALL OF THIS AT HER OWN

EXPENSE.

HER DAUGHTERS ATTEND THE

CLASSES AND ARE EAGERLY

LEARNING TO READ AND WRITE.

BOTH FOUND JESUS THROUGH THE

BIBLE CLASSES HERE.

SHE SHARED WITH ME HER DREAM

TO RAISE LIVESTOCK TO

PREPARE BETTER MEALS FOR THE

CHILDREN.

THIS IS NOT JUST FOR YOUR

CHILDREN, BUT FOR ALL OF THE

CHILDREN HERE?

YES.

Terry: IF ANNA WOULD

DARE TO DREAM MORE, IT WOULD

BE FOR HER GRANDSON'S

HEALTH.

HE IS A BRIGHT, HAPPY LITTLE

BOY, BUT IS ALMOST

COMPLETELY DEAF IN BOTH

EARS.

WITH THE MEMORIES OF MY

VISIT STILL FRESH IN MY

MIND, I AM BLESSED IMMENSELY

BY THE GENEROSITY OF NANCY

AND HER HUSBAND, JOHN.

IF THERE IS A PARTICULAR

NEED WE CAN HELP TO MEET,

PLEASE LET US KNOW AS WE ARE

OPEN TO THE LORD'S

LEADINGS.

Terry: AS I STAND IN

THE AIRPORT AWAITING MY

FLIGHT, I AM STRUCK BY THE

SCRIPTURE FROM ISAIAH:

"BEFORE THEY CALL, I WILL

ANSWER."

BEFORE I COULD EVEN ASK, GOD

HAD PROVIDED A WAY.

I WISH I COULD BE THERE TO

SEE ANNA'S FACE WHEN SHE IS

TOLD HER DREAMS WILL COME

TRUE, NOT JUST FOR THE

LIVESTOCK AND BARN, BUT ALSO

FOR HER GRANDSON'S HEARING.

THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

OF OUR WORK HERE.

WE WOULD LIKE TO PROVIDE A

BATH HOUSE BECAUSE THERE IS

NO RUNNING WATER, NO PROPER

BATHROOMS FOR 5,000 PEOPLE.

THE CHILDREN BATHE ONLY IN

THE SUMMERTIME, AT A RIVER

MORE THAN A MILE AWAY.

NOT ONLY WILL A BATH

FACILITY HELP WITH THE

LAYERS OF DIRT ON THESE

SMILING FACES, IT WILL HELP

SOLIDIFY OUR COMMITMENT TO

THIS COMMUNITY.

WE WANT THE PEOPLE TO KNOW

WE ARE HERE FOR THE LONG

RUN.

DURING OUR SHORT VISIT, WE

MET SEVERAL CHILDREN WITH

MEDICAL NEEDS, INCLUDING A

YOUNG GIRL WITH CROSSED

EYES.

A GIRL WITH A CLEFT LIP AND

PALLET, AND A BOY WITH A

CLUB FOOT.

THESE CHILDREN WILL NEVER

HAVE A CHANCE FOR ANY TYPE

OF MEDICAL CARE UNLESS WE

HELP THEM.

I'M EXCITED THAT "ORPHANS'

PROMISE" CAN BE A PART OF

THE WORK GOD IS DOING HERE,

LITTLE BY LITTLE, SHOWING

THESE GYPSY PEOPLE THEY ARE

NOT ONCAST OUTCASTS IN HIS

EYES.

IN TIME, THE CRIPPLING

LABELS WILL BEGIN TO MELT

AWAY, AND DREAMS WILL BEGIN

TO RISE.

SO MUCH PROMISE IN THE

CHILDREN OF THOSE GYPSY

CAMPS.

WE'RE WORKING IN FIVE GYPSY

CAMPS IN THAT PART OF

UKRAINE.

IN THAT CAMP ALONE, THERE

ARE BATH HOUSES BEING

BUILT.

THE ONLY RUNNING WATER THEY

HAVE -- IT'S NOT RUNNING,

BUT IT IS A STREAM AND A

RIVER ABOUT TWO MILES AWAY

FROM THAT CAMP.

SO THE CHILDREN ONLY GO TO

THAT RIVER TO BATHE EN THE

SUMMERTIME.

ALL OF THAT IS CHANGING FOR

THESE PEOPLE.

THEY ARE LEARNING TO PLANT

THEIR OWN CROPS.

ANNA IS GETTING A BARN AND A

COW SO THERE WILL BE FRESH

MILK FOR THE KIDS.

YOU ARE MAKING A

DIFFERENCE.

IN THAT CULTURE, I WOULD SAY

YOU COULD CLEARLY SAY THESE

PEOPLE ARE THE LEAST OF

THESE.

AND JESUS IS MAKING A

DIFFERENCE THROUGH PEOPLE

LIKE YOU AND ME.

SO HELP "ORPHANS' PROMISE"

REACH OUT TO CHILDREN WHO

ARE VULNERABLE, TO FAMILIES

WHO ARE SOMETIMES HAVING LET

THEIR CHILDREN GO SIMPLY

BECAUSE OF POVERTY.

YOU AND I REALLY CAN MAKE A

DIFFERENCE.

COME ALONGSIDE OF US IN WHAT

WE'RE DOING.

IT IS SO EXCITING TO SEE GOD

MOVE IN THE LIVES OF THESE

PEOPLE.

TO SEE THEM COMING ALIVE AS

THEY LEARN HOW MUCH GOD

LOVES THEM, AND THAT HAPPENS

THROUGH YOU AND THROUGH ME.

GIVE A GIFT TO "ORPHANS'

PROMISE," 1-888-777-1999.

OR YOU CAN GIVE BY LOGGING

ON TO CBN.COM.

WHEN WE COME BACK, A WOMAN

KIDNAPPED, ABUSED, AND FULL

OF ANGER.

FIND OUT HOW SHE TURNS THAT

HATE INTO LOVE AFTER THIS.

Gordon: GROWING UP,

DANELL WILLIAMS COULD NEVER

TRUST MEN.

SHE HAD GOOD REASON.

FROM A YOUNG AGE, SHE WAS

ABUSED BY EVERY ONE OF THEM

SHE KNEW.

BY THE TIME SHE BECAME A

TEENAGER, DANIELLE DEVISED A

PLAN TO HURT THEM BACK.

I STARTED TO HATE MEN AT

THIS TIME BECAUSE EVERY TIME

I WAS HURT IT CAME FROM A

MAN.

Reporter: DANIELLE

WILLIAMS BELIEVED SHE HAD

GOOD REASON TO HATE MEN.

IT BEGAN WITH A DAIRY

DAYCARE PROVIDER'S SON

STARTED MOLESTING YOU.

HE WOULD INSTILL THAT

FEAR.

IF YOU TELL, THIS IS WHAT IS

GOING TO HAPPEN TO YOU.

I WAS LIKE, MAYBE IF I TELL,

MAYBE I WOULD GET IN

TROUBLE.

SO I DIDN'T SAY THING.

Reporter: SHE LIVED

WITH HER FATHER AFTER HER

PARENTS' DIVORCE, AND SHE

WATCHED HIM BEAT EVERY

GIRLFRIEND HE HAD.

HE EVENTUALLY ADDED DANIELLE

TO THAT LIST.

HE PICKED ME UP BY MY

THROAT.

HE BEAT ME SO MUCH THAT I

PASSED OUT.

Reporter: DANIELLE'S

FATHER WENT TO JAIL FOR

CHILD ABUSE, AND SHE WENT TO

LIVE WITH HER MOTHER IN

LOS ANGELES.

THERE A MAN IN THE

NEIGHBORHOOD BEGAN TO INVITE

YOUNG DANIELLE OVER TO HER

HOUSE.

SHE LOVED THE ATTENTION FROM

HIM UNTIL HE RAPED HER.

I KNEW THAT I HATED MEN

EVEN MORE.

NOW I'M 12 YEARS OLD, I HAD

ALREADY BEEN MOLESTED WHEN I

WAS EIGHT, AND MY DAD TRIED

TO KILL ME WHEN I WAS 10,

AND THIS MAN I TRUSTED RAPED

ME.

I HATED MEN.

Reporter: YEARS LATER,

DANIELLE'S ATTITUDE TOWARDS

MEN SAUF FEND.

WHEN SHE WAS A TEENAGER, SHE

FELL IN LOVE FOR THE FIRST

TIME AND THOUGHT HE WAS IN

LOVE, TOO.

THIS OLDER MAN IS TELLING

ME EVERYTHING I WANTED TO

HEAR AND MORE.

I JUST WANTED TO BE HIS.

Reporter: AFTER THE

FIRST TIME SHE SLEPT WITH

HIM, THE MAN TOLD HER HE WAS

A PIMP AND WANTED HER TO BE

HIS PROSTITUTE.

DANIELLE WAS DEVASTATED AND

REFUSED.

THEN SHE DISCOVERED SHE WAS

PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD.

EVERY TIME I GET WITH A

GUY, SOMETHING BAD IS

HAPPENING.

I'M DONE.

THEN THEY TELL ME I'M

PREGNANT.

I'M 13, AND I'M IN EIGHTH

GRADE.

WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH A

BABY?

AND THE BABY'S FATHER IS A

27-YEAR-OLD PIMP.

Reporter: DANIELLE

DELIVERED PREMATURELY AND

THE BABY DIED WITHIN HOURS.

IT WAS OVER AS FAR AS ME

CARING ABOUT LIFE, ME CARING

ABOUT MARITIME, ME CARING

ABOUT MEN -- OH, MEN WAS OUT

OF THE QUESTION.

I WAS DONE.

I HATED -- OH, MY RAGE.

IT WAS A RAGE THAT I HAD FOR

MEN.

THE SIGHT OF MEN MADE ME

SICK.

Reporter: A FRIEND

CONVINCED HER SHE COULD

MANIPULATE AND CONTROL MEN

BY STRIPPING.

SHE STARTED DANCING IN

NIGHTCLUBS, AND PROSTITUTION

QUICKLY FOLLOWED.

SHE PUSHED AWAY ANY THOUGHT

THAT WHAT SHE WAS DOING WAS

WRONG.

EVEN THOUGH SHE HAD BEEN

RAISED IN A CHURCH, SHE HAD

NO MORAL CONVICTIONS.

I DIDN'T CARE.

I KNEW WHO GOD WAS.

I KNEW WHAT I WAS DOING WAS

WRONG, BUT I DIDN'T CARE.

I HATED MEN, AND I THOUGHT

THIS WAS A WAY TO REPAY

THEM.

THAT'S HOW I LOOKED AT IT.

I'M GETTING THEM BACK FOR

THEM HURTING ME.

I FELT LIKE I HAD THE UPPER

HAND.

BEFORE YOU GUYS HAD THE

UPPER HAND AND YOU WERE

HURTING ME.

NOW THE ROLES HAVE SWITCHED,

AND THAT'S HOW I LOOKED AT

IT.

Reporter: ONE DAY

DANIELLE WAS INVITED ON TO

THE SET OF A PORN FILM IN

HOLLYWOOD.

AND I SAW THE CHECK THAT

WAS WRITTEN OUT TO ONE OF

THE GIRLS THERE.

AND I SAID, THAT'S WHAT YOU

GOT FOR DOING THAT?

WHERE DO I SIGN UP.

BECAUSE I WAS MAKING A LOT

OF MONEY AS A DANCER AND AS

AN ESCORT ALREADY, BUT WITH

THE PORN, I LOOKED AT IT

THAT THAT WOULD BE AN EVEN

BETTER WAY FOR ME TO MAKE

EVEN MORE MONEY.

AND I SAID, OKAY, LET'S GO

TOR IT.

AFTER SO LONG IT BECAME

NORMAL.

IT BECAME COOL THAT I WAS A

PORN STAR.

Reporter: DANIELLE

CONTINUED AS A CALL GIRL AS

WELL.

AND ONE NIGHT SHE ACCEPTED A

CLIENT WHO TURNED OUT TO BE

A PSYCHOPATH WHO WANTED TO

KILL HER.

OPEN THE DOOR!

AND FOR THREE WEEKS THAT

MAN CAME IN THERE AND HE

RAPED ME AND HE BEAT ME AND

HE TOLD ME OVER AND OVER

AGAIN I'M GOING TO KILL

YOU.

YOU'RE NOT LEAVING HERE.

AND I BELIEVED IT.

I KNEW THAT I WAS SUPPOSED

TO DIE.

AND EVERY DAY I GOT WEAKER

AND WEAKER AND WEAKER, TO

THE POINT WHERE I JUST GAVE

UP.

I COLLAPSED TO THE FLOOR.

AND I WEPT AND I WEPT AND I

WEPT.

BUT I LAID THERE AND I CRIED

SO MUCH THAT I COULDN'T

SPEAK.

AND I GOT MY WORDS TOGETHER,

AND I SAID, LORD, IF YOU GET

ME OUT OF THIS, I'LL CHANGE

MY LIFE FOR YOU.

DON'T LET ME DIE LIKE THIS.

NOT LIKE THIS.

19 YEARS OLD.

HE HAD TO GET ME TO THAT

POINT TO SHOW ME THAT I'M

GOD.

I'M STILL GOD.

IT'S ME AND YOU.

AND AT THAT VERY MOMENT I

GOT MY SALVATION.

Reporter: DANIELLE

PRAYED TO ACCEPT JESUS

CHRIST.

A FEW DAYS LATER, A MAN

OVERHEARD HER CRYING AND

HELPED HER ESCAPE.

SHE IMMEDIATELY SEVERED HER

RELATIONSHIPS WITH ANYONE IN

THE SEX INDUSTRY AND STARTED

GOING TO CHURCH.

SURROUNDED BY NEW FRIENDS,

DANIELLE'S LIFE BEGAN TO

CHANGE.

I WAS STARTING TO FALL IN

LOVE WITH CHRIST.

THE MORE I DID THAT, THE

MORE HE STARTED TO PURGE ME

AND DELIVER ME.

THE MORE I REACHED OUT TO

HIM, THE MORE HE WORKED IN

ME.

EVERYTHING I DIDN'T HAVE,

THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY

MOTHER, THE RELATIONSHIP

WITH MY FATHER, THE HURT

FROM MEN, HE FILLED EVERY

VOID.

Reporter: DANIELLE IS

NOW IN MINISTRY FULL-TIME

SHARING THE LOVE OF JESUS

CHRIST.

THERE IS NO SIN TOO BIG

OR TOO BAD FOR CHRIST.

WHEN EVERYONE ELSE LEAVES

YOU, HE'LL NEVER FORSAKE

YOU.

I'M A LIVING WITNESS, A

WALKING EXAMPLE OF WHAT

CHRIST CAN DO FOR SOMEBODY'S

LIFE.

Gordon: LISTEN TO HER,

WHAT SHE IS SAYING, THERE IS

NO SIN TOO BIG FOR CHRIST.

THE AMAZING THING IS JESUS

CAME, AND HE DIDN'T SET

HIMSELF APART AS SOME KIND

OF RIGHTEOUS HOLY MAN THAT

COULDN'T BE APPROACHED.

WHAT DID HE DO?

WELL, HE WENT TO SINNERS,

AND HE WOULD HAVE DINNER

WITH THEM.

HE WOULD LET THEM BE AROUND,

HE WOULD LET LEPERS COME AND

TOUCH HIM.

HE WOULD LET THE OUTKAST

OUTCAST RIGHT NEAR.

HE LET THE WOMAN OF BETHANY

COME AND CRY AT HIS FEET AND

ANOINT HIM.

THE PHARISEES WERE SAYING,

HE CAN'T BE THE MESSIAH.

IF HE KNEW WHAT MAN OR WOMAN

THAT WAS, HE WOULD NEVER LET

THEM TOUCH HIM.

BUT THAT'S NOT JESUS.

HE LET'S YOU TOUCH HIM.

HE COMES TO WHERE YOU ARE,

TO WHERE YOU LIVE.

HE SAID TO THE KID UP IN A

TREE, TODAY I'M GOING TO

HAVE DINNER WITH YOU.

I'M COMING TO YOUR HOUSE.

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU'VE

DONE.

I DON'T CARE THAT YOU WERE A

TAX COLLECTOR AND THAT YOU

CHEATED PEOPLE AND TOOK MORE

THAN WAS DUE.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT.

I CARE ABOUT YOU.

THAT'S WHY ONE OF HIS TITLES

IS HE'S A FRIEND OF

SINNERS.

AND HOW ISAIAH PROPHESIED

THAT HE WOULD BE NUMBERED,

HE WOULD BE COUNTED, WITH

THE TRANSGRESSORS.

AND THE PHARISEES, THEY

SPOKE EVIL OF HIM, BUT NO

EVIL COULD TOUCH HIM.

BECAUSE WHEN JESUS IS

AROUND, HE CHANGES IT.

HE CHANGES THE ATMOSPHERE.

HE CHANGES THE SPIRIT.

HE CHANGES THE HEART.

HE CHANGES THE

CIRCUMSTANCE.

HE CHANGES IT ALL.

BECAUSE HE IS ALL POWER.

NOW, WHAT MANNER OF LOVE IS

THIS THAT WHILE WE WERE YET

SINNERS, CHRIST DIED FOR

US.

NOT ONLY DID HE DIE FOR US,

HE COMES TO LIVE WITH US,

AND HE EVER PRAYS FOR US.

HE GIVES INTERCESSION FOR

THE TRANSGRESSORS.

THAT'S WHAT IS ISAIAH

SAID.

AND THAT'S YOU.

RIGHT NOW IMAGINE, JESUS IS

PRAYING FOR YOU.

AND HE IS ASKING, FATHER,

THIS ONE, I WANT THIS ONE.

I WANT THEM TO BE WITH US.

FOR ALL ETERNITY.

AND HE IS SAYING, I'M

STANDING AT THE DOOR OF

THEIR HEART.

I'M STANDING.

I'M NOT SITTING.

I'M STANDING AND I'M

KNOCKING.

AND IF ANYONE HEAR MY VOICE

AND OPEN THE DOOR, I'LL COME

IN.

AND THAT'S WHAT DANIELLE

DID.

AND SHE IS IN THE BIGGEST

DISPAIR OF HER LIFE.

WHAT A TRAGIC LIFE.

IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL OF

THAT, SHE CRIES OUT, JESUS,

IF YOU CAN HEAR ME, IF

YOU'RE REAL, IF YOU'RE

THERE, CAN YOU COME IN AND

CAN YOU CHANGE MY LIFE?

AND THAT'S THE PRAYER THAT

WORKS.

IT'S THE PRAYER THAT IS WITH

ALL OF YOUR HEART, FOR YOUR

SEEKING HIM WITH ALL OF YOUR

HEART, AND YOU'RE SAYING I

NEED YOU NOW.

NOT MY WAY ANYMORE, BUT LET

IT BE YOUR WAY IN MY LIFE.

SO, JESUS, IF YOU'RE REAL,

SHOW UP.

COME IN.

CHANGE ME.

AND IF YOU PRAY IT WITH ALL

OF YOUR HEART, HE'LL

ANSWER.

IF YOU NEED PRAYER, WE'RE

HERE FOR YOU.

IT'S AN HONOR TO PRAY WITH

YOU.

WE'RE NOT HERE TO JUDGE

YOU.

WE'RE NOT HERE TO CONDEMN

YOU.

WE'RE HERE TO TELL YOU THAT

GOD LOVES YOU AND HE HAS A

WONDERFUL PLAN FOR YOUR

LIFE.

AND IT JUST TAKES CRYING OUT

TO HIM AND ASKING HIM TO

DISCOVER THAT PLAN.

SO IF YOU WOULD LIKE SOMEONE

TO PRAY WITH, JUST CALL US.

1-888-777-1999.

THAT'S ALL THE TIME WE HAVE

FOR THIS PROGRAM.

WE LEAVE YOU WITH THESE

WORDS FROM JAMES: "IT IS

GOOD WHEN YOU TRULY OBEY OUR

LORD'S ROYAL COMMAND FOUND

IN THE SCRIPTURES, LOVE YOUR

NEIGHBOUR AS YOURSELF."

GOD BLESS YOU.

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