Gordon: STILL AHEAD, A

YOUNG WIFE AND MOTHER

STRIVES TO STAY ON TOP.

I WOULD BE OVERWHELMED

WITH EXTREME NAUSEA, TO THE

POINT WHERE I WOULD BEGIN TO

VOMIT.

IT WAS MY SECRET.

IT WAS MY BIG SECRET.

Gordon: BUT SHE

COULDN'T KEEP HER SECRET FOR

LONG.

FIND OUT WHY ON TODAY'S "700

CLUB INTERACTIVE."

Gordon: ON "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE," WE USE

TECHNOLOGY TO PRAY FOR EACH

OTHER.

AND EXPLORE TOPICS THAT

MATTER TO YOU.

WATCH WHAT GOD IS DOING IN

THE WORLD TODAY.

♪♪♪

Gordon: WELL, WELCOME

TO THE PROGRAM.

NO ONE LIKES TO MAKE

MISTAKES, AND NO ONE LIKES

TO FAIL.

HOWEVER, WE'RE OFTEN OUR OWN

WORST CRITIC, AND OUR

DRIVE FOR PERFECTION CAN

SOMETIMES BE OVERWHELMING.

Terry: I WANT YOU TO

MEET TRISH WILKINSON.

LIKE MOST MOTHERS, SHE

WANTED TO BE BE BE THE BEST

WIFE AND MOTHER SHOULD COULD

BE, AND ONE TODAY TRISH HAD

A MELTDOWN AND SHE HAD NO

IDEA WHY.

MY HEART WOULD BEGIN

BEATING SO HARD THAT YOU

COULD LITERALLY LOOK AT MY

CHEST AND SEE MY HEART

BEATING FROM MY CHEST.

IT WAS MY SECRET, MY BIG

SECRET.

AND WHEN I EXPERIENCED THOSE

EPISODES, MOST OF THE TIME I

WERE HIDE MYSELF.

I WAS THE MASTER OF

DISGUISE.

BEING GOOD WAS NEVER GOOD

ENOUGH FOR TRISH WILKINSON.

SHE WANTED TO BE PERFECT.

BEST MOTHER.

BEST WIFE.

HAD THE CLEANEST HOUSE.

BEST CHRISTIAN.

BEST TEACHER.

BEST FRIEND.

BEST PERFORMER.

Reporter: SO TRISH MADE

SURE EVERY MOVE SHE MADE WAS

FLAWLESS.

NO SHORT CUTS, NO REST, AND

CERTAINLY NO MISTAKES.

I EQUATED PERFORMANCE TO

VALUE.

I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE

IF YOU DISLIKED ME OR IF YOU

WERE DISSATISFIED WITH ME.

AND IF I WAS A FAILURE, THEN

YOU WEREN'T GOING TO LOVE

ME.

Reporter: AS A WIFE AND

MOTHER, TRISH'S LIFE GOT

MORE DIFFICULT AS SHE TRIED

TO HAVE THE PERFECT MARRIAGE

AND PERFECT CHILDREN.

EVENTUALLY, IT ALL CAUGHT UP

WITH HER, AND SHE BEGAN

HAVING PANIC ATTACKS.

THE EPISODES WOULD PASS, BUT

TRISH DIDN'T DARE TELL

ANYONE ABOUT THEM.

INSTEAD, SHE PRETENDED

EVERYTHING WAS NORMAL, BUT

THE ATTACKS GREW WORSE.

I WOULD BE OVERWHELMED

WITH EXTREME NAUSEA.

TO THE POINT WHERE I WOULD

BEGIN TO VOMIT.

AND THEN YOU HAVE THIS

OVERWHELMING SENSE OF

EXTREME FEAR.

IT WOULD BE AN ARRAY OF

THINGS.

WELL, I'M AFRAID OF LOSING

MY MIND.

I'M AFRAID OF DYING.

I'M AFRAID OF LOSING

CONTROL.

Reporter: FINALLY, WHEN

THE ATTACKS GREW TOO PAINFUL

TO BEAR, SHE WENT TO THE

E.R. TO SEE A DOCTOR.

AND HE DIAGNOSED ME WITH

SEVERE CLINICAL DEPRESSION.

I REFUSED TO BELIEVE THAT

DIAGNOSIS BECAUSE I WAS A

BORN-AGAIN CHRISTIAN.

I THOUGHT, I'M A CHRISTIAN.

I LOVE GOD WITH ALL OF MY

HEART.

AND NOT ONLY DO I LOVE GOD

WITH ALL OF MY HEART, I AM

WORKING FOR HIM.

THIS DIAGNOSIS HAS GOT TO BE

INCORRECT.

I IGNORED THE FACT THAT I

WAS CLINICALLY DEPRESSED FOR

FOUR YEARS.

Reporter: SHE DIDN'T

UNDERSTAND WHY THIS WAS

HAPPENING.

AFTER ALL, IN HER MIND, SHE

HAD DONE EVERYTHING

PERFECTLY.

I WAS PERPLEXED, AND I

WAS ANGRY.

AND I HAD A CONVERSATION

WITH GOD IN MY HEART.

AND IN MY MIND, I BEGAN TO

SAY, GOD, I DON'T UNDERSTAND

WHY YOU WOULD ALLOW THIS TO

HAPPEN IN MY LIFE.

Reporter: FOR FOUR

YEARS TRISH IGNORED THE

DIAGNOSIS, BUT THE PANIC

ATTACKS INTERFERED WITH

EVERY ASPECT OF HER LIFE.

TRISH COULD NO LONGER

PRETEND EVERYTHING WAS

OKAY.

I TOTALLY BROKE DOWN, AND

IT BECAME REALITY FOR ME.

AND I HAD TO FACE IT.

I HAD TO FACE MY FEAR AND I

HAD TO FACE REALITY.

AND I NEEDED DAILY MEDICAL

ATTENTION.

Reporter: THROUGH HER

SESSIONS WITH THE CHRISTIAN

COUNSELLOR, SHE REALIZED GOD

LOVES HER UNCONDITIONALLY.

EVEN WHEN SHE'S NOT

PERFECT.

HE JUST BEGAN TO MOLD ME

AND MAKE ME, AND JUST BEGAN

TO HEAL ME FROM THE DEPTHS

OF WHO I WAS IN MY SOUL, AND

HELP ME TO REALIZE, TRISH, I

LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.

AND MY PERSPECTIVE OF

EVERYTHING WAS FRESH AND NEW

AND HEALTHY AND VIBRANT.

AND I WAS EMPOWERED.

AND I WAS MOTIVATED.

Reporter: TODAY TRISH

IS AT PEACE.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE PANIC

ATTACKS ANYMORE, AND SHE

SAYS SHE CLEARLY UNDERSTANDS

GOD'S LOVE FOR HER.

NOW MY RELATIONSHIP WITH

HIM -- I WORK FOR HIM, BUT I

WORK FOR HIM BECAUSE I LOVE

HIM.

I DON'T WORK FOR HIM BECAUSE

I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO MERIT

HIS LOVE OR HIS GRACE OR HIS

BLESSING.

YOU CAN BE HEALED FROM

CLINICAL DEPRESSION.

YOU CAN LIVE IN VICTORY THAT

EVERY CHALLENGE THE ENEMY

BRINGS YOUR WAY, EVERYTHING

SOCIETY BRINGS YOUR WAY, GOD

IS GREATER.

Gordon: TERRY, I THINK

THAT IS A WONDERFUL STORY.

WHY TODAY THERE SEEMS TO BE

SO MUCH MORE PRESSURE ON

WOMEN TO PERFORM AND TRY TO

BE THE BEST WIFE, THE BEST

MOTHER, HOLD A JOB, DO

EVERYTHING, AND BE SORT OF A

SUPER WOMAN.

HAVE WE SORT OF CAUGHT

OURSELVES IN A STRANGE

TRAP?

Terry: WELL, I THINK

SO.

AND, YOU KNOW, WE ASKED FOR

IT, AND WE GOT IT.

AND ALSO, I THINK, FOR

WOMEN, EVEN WHEN YOU HAVE A

HUSBAND IN YOUR LIFE, IF YOU

HAVE CHILDREN AND ARE

MARRIED, THAT COMES

ALONGSIDE AND HELPS WITH A

LOT OF THAT, IT IS STILL THE

MOM WHO USUALLY KNOWS WHEN

THE PEANUT BUTTER JAR IS

EMPTY.

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

OR IN OUR HOUSE, EVEN WHAT

IS GOING ON IN THE KIDS'

LIVES.

Gordon: YOU'RE THE ONES

WHO GET ALL OF THE

CONFIDENTIAL CONVERSATIONS.

I'VE NOTICED THAT WITH MY

KIDS.

WHEN THEY REALLY WANT TO

TALK, IT'S TO MOM.

THEY'LL OPEN UP TO ME, BUT

I'VE GOT TO BE A LITTLE BIT

OF A CAN OPENER TO GET

THAT.

Terry: WELL, I THINK

DADS LIKE TO FIX THINGS.

THAT'S THE MALE ROLE, HOW

CAN I MAKE THIS BETTER.

AND SOMETIMES KIDS JUST WANT

TO UNLOAD.

Gordon: THEY WANT YOU

TO HEAR AND THEY DON'T WANT

YOU TO FIX.

I'VE REALLY GOTTEN THAT FROM

MY DAUGHTERS.

DAD, I DON'T WANT YOU TO

INTERVENE; I JUST WANT YOU

TO HEAR ME.

Terry: SOMETIMES I HAVE

TO SAY THAT TO MY HUSBAND.

I'M NOT ASKING YOU FOR AN

ANSWER HERE -- I'M JUST

TALKING.

BUT I DO THINK YOU REALLY

HAVE TO CARVE OUT -- THE

BIBLE SAYS BE STILL AND KNOW

THAT I AM GOD.

AND PROBABLY NEVER BEFORE IN

HISTORY HAS THERE BEEN A

TIME WHERE IT HAS BEEN MORE

IMPORTANT TO COME APART FROM

THE FRAY, WHETHER IT IS JUST

ON OUR CELL PHONES OR OUR

COMPUTER SCREENS, OR ALL OF

THE CHAOS GOING ON IN THE

WORLD AROUND US, TO JUST GET

WITH GOD, I MEAN REALLY BE

WITH HIM.

NOT JUST READ THE BIBLE

BECAUSE I'M SUPPOSED TO AS A

CHRISTIAN.

Gordon: IF YOU'RE DOING

IT OUT OF DUTY, I THINK

YOU'RE DECEIVING YOURSELF.

ONE OF THE KEYS, I KNOW FOR

ME, IS FINALLY UNDERSTANDING

HOW MUCH GOD LOVES ME JUST

FOR ME.

Terry: YEAH.

Gordon: THAT IN HIS

EYES, I'M INFINITELY

VALUABLE.

Terry: HOW DO YOU GET

THERE?

Gordon: FOR ME IT WAS

REVELATION.

I DIDN'T GET THERE FROM

BIBLE STUDY OR SUNDAY

SCHOOL.

THAT WAS SOMETHING GOD HAD

TO SHOW ME HIMSELF.

Terry: SO ONE COULD

PRAY, GOD, SHOW ME.

Gordon: SHOW ME.

ONE OF THE GREAT SPIRITUAL

EXERCISES I TRY TO GIVE

PEOPLE, JUST THE OPENING

DIALOGUE OF JUST LISTENING

TO THE VOICE OF GOD.

WHERE THE PSALMIST SAYS,

MANY, O LORD ARE YOUR

THOUGHTS TOWARDS US, IF I

COULD NUMBER THEM, THEY

WOULD BE MORE THAN ANY

NUMBER I COULD NUMBER THEM.

SO IF YOU ASK GOD, COULD YOU

JUST LET ME KNOW ONE OF YOUR

THOUGHTS TOWARDS ME?

IF YOU DO THAT ON A REGULAR

BASIS, YOU'LL GET THE

REVELATION.

I WOULD ENCOURAGE YOU TO

START WRITING IT DOWN.

BECAUSE SO OFTEN WE DON'T

WANT TO BELIEVE THAT GOD

REALLY LOVES US.

WE STILL HAVE THIS IMAGE OF

SOMEHOW HE IS THE ANGRY

FATHER WHO WANTS TO PUNISH

US FOR ALL OF OUR SINS.

Terry: AND WE'RE SO

AWARE OF OUR SHORTCOMINGS.

Gordon: AND ANOTHER

GREAT REVOLUTION WAS FINALLY

UNDERSTANDING THAT HOW GOD

MADE ME AND MADE ALL OF US,

THAT WE WOULD NEVER KNOW

GOOD AND EVIL.

THAT WAS NEVER PART OF HIS

PLAN, THAT WE WOULD JUDGE

OURSELVES FOR MISTAKES AND

FOR MISSING THE MARK.

HE DIDN'T WANT US TO GO

THROUGH THAT BECAUSE HE KNEW

WHERE THAT LED.

IT ALWAYS LEADS TO DEATH.

WE CONDEMN OURSELVES, WE

JUDGE OURSELVES -- WE DO IT

CONSTANTLY.

PSYCHOLOGISTS SAY ROUGHLY

80% OF YOUR THOUGHTS TOWARDS

YOU IN YOUR OWN HEAD ARE

NEGATIVE.

AND SO IF YOU JUST TURN THAT

AROUND BY GETTING GOD'S

THOUGHTS ABOUT YOU, IT WILL

GO A LONG WAY.

WE'LL BE RIGHT BACK WITH

MORE.

WE'VE GOT A STORY COMING UP

ABOUT HOW A CHURCH FAILED

SOMEBODY, BUT GOD NEVER

DID.

WE'LL BE BACK AFTER THIS.

Gordon: COMING UP, A

TRAGIC CAR ACCIDENT TURNS

ONE MAN'S WORLD UP SIDE

DOWN.

I DON'T THINK I EVER

CRIED FOR THAT LONG.

IT WAS AN OVERWHELMING PAIN

OF A LOSS.

Gordon: UNTIL HE FOUND

PEACE IN THE ONE PERSON HE

REJECTED.

HE IS SO FAITHFUL TO

COMFORT THOSE WHO MOURN.

Gordon: ON THE NEXT

"700 CLUB INTERACTIVE."

NINA LANDIS GREW UP KNOWING

THAT THE CHURCH WAS A SAFE

PLACE, BUT IN HER TIME OF

NEED, SHE FELT ABANDONED,

UNTIL AN OLD FRIEND REMINDED

HER OF HER FIRST LOVE.

MY MOM SAID THAT WHEN I

WAS 10 MONTHS OLD, I WAS

WORSHIPPING ALREADY.

THAT IT WAS JUST IN ME.

I KNEW THAT THE LORD WAS

REAL.

I KNEW THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS

REAL.

BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHO HE

WAS.

I BEGAN TO EXPERIMENT WITH

THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT WERE

LUKE WARM, THAT WERE GREY

AREAS FOR ME.

I STARTED HANGING OUT WITH

PEOPLE THAT SMOKED POT ALL

OF THE TIME AND DRANK.

THE MORE THAT I DRANK, THE

MORE THAT I WANTED TO DRINK,

AND THE MORE THAT I REALIZED

THAT IT MADE ME FEEL

DISCONNECTED.

IT WAS SOMETHING THAT TURNED

OFF MY I MOTIONS.

IT TURNED OFF THIS

WORLD-WIND OF CHAOS IN MY

MIND.

AND BY THE TIME I WAS 17

YEARS OLD, I WAS GOING TO

PARTIES ON SATURDAY NIGHT

AND DRINKING.

AND SHOWING UP TO CHURCH ON

SUNDAY MORNING TO SING ON

THE WORSHIP TEAM.

I STARTED DATING THIS GUY

WHEN I WAS 18 YEARS OLD.

I REMEMBER MY DAD PLEADING

WITH ME AND SAYING, PLEASE

DON'T.

PLEASE DON'T DATE HIM.

AND I DIDN'T LISTEN.

AND I WAS ANGRY AT MY DAD.

AND I WAS ANGRY AT MY MOM.

AND I DIDN'T TRUST THEM TO

LEAD ME.

AND I IMMERSED MYSELF IN THE

RELATIONSHIP WITH A VERY

AGGRESSIVE MAN.

AND HE PUSHED ME SEXUALLY,

AND PUSHED ME SEXUALLY.

AND EVEN IN ALL OF THIS

COMPROMISE IN MY LIFE, I HAD

THIS ONE RESOLVE IN ME, AND

IT WAS I DON'T WANT TO HAVE

SEX UNTIL I'M MARRIED, AND

IT GOT TO THE POINT WHERE HE

HAD PRESSURED ME SO MUCH

PHYSICALLY, AND I LET

BOUNDARY AFTER BOUNDARY

AFTER BOUNDARY SLIP AWAY,

THAT I SAID I CAN'T DO THIS

ANYMORE.

I WANT OUT OF HIS

RELATIONSHIP.

AND THE DAY THAT I WENT TO

BREAK IT OFF WITH HIM, WAS

THE DAY THAT I BECAME THE

VICTIM OF A VERY BRUTAL,

DEMONIC, SEXUAL ASSAULT.

AND IT DESTROYED ME.

AND I REMEMBER FEELING LIKE

SOMETHING FROM ANOTHER WORLD

HAD SLIPPED INTO MY REALITY

AND STRIPPED THE ONLY PURE

IDENTITY THAT I HAD LEFT.

AND I CAME HOME, AND I WENT

STRAIGHT TO THE BATHROOM,

AND I TURNED THE WATER ON AS

HOT AS I COULD GET IT.

AND I GOT INTO THIS SCALDING

HOT WATER, AND I REMEMBER

FEELING LIKE IF I CAN JUST

GET IT HOTTER, THEN I WON'T

FEEL DIRTY ANYMORE.

I'LL FEEL CLEAN.

AND I COULDN'T.

AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I

SCRUBBED, AND NO MATTER HOW

HOT THE WATER WAS, IT DIDN'T

GO AWAY.

EVERY TIME I TOLD THIS

STORY, I WOULD GET MORE

ANGRY.

AND EVERYONE HAD THEIR

SOLUTION.

THEY WOULD SAY, MEN ARE VERY

VISUAL.

AND IF YOU STIMULATE THEM,

THEN THEY CAN'T BE

RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR

ACTIONS.

AND IT'S REALLY YOUR

RESPONSIBILITY TO MAKE SURE

THAT THEY DON'T ACT OUT.

THE MORE THAT CHRISTIANS

TOLD ME THINGS LIKE, THE

MORE I WAS JUST LIKE WHAT?

WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE?

WHO IS GOD?

WHAT IS CHRISTIANITY?

I'M SO ANGRY, AND I HATE

THIS.

I HATE ALL OF YOU.

I HATE GOD.

I HATE MEN.

I HATE LIFE.

AND I BEGAN TO CONTEMPLATE

WAYS TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE, TO

END MY LIFE.

I WAS SO ANGRY AND I WAS SO

BROKEN.

AND I DIDN'T WANT ANYBODY'S

ADVICE.

I DIDN'T WANT ANYBODY'S

COUNSEL.

EVERYTHING THAT EVERYONE WAS

SAYING MADE ME FEEL LIKE I

COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING

DIFFERENTLY TO STOP WHAT

HAPPENED TO ME.

AND PEOPLE EVEN ASKED ME,

WELL, WHY DIDN'T YOU FIGHT

BACK?

DID YOU FIGHT BACK?

AND I REMEMBER THINKING, HOW

DARE THEY ASK ME A QUESTION

LIKE THAT.

OF COURSE I FOUGHT.

WHO WOULDN'T FIGHT?

BUT I WASN'T STRONG ENOUGH,

AND I DIDN'T FIGHT HARD

ENOUGH.

AND IF I COULD DO IT OVER

AGAIN, YOU PRAY OVER AND

OVER AGAIN.

AND SAY IF I COULD DO IT

OVER AGAIN, I WOULD HAVE

FOUGHT HARDER.

I WOULD HAVE FOUND ANOTHER

WAY.

THERE HAD TO BE ANOTHER

WAY.

AND I PUSHED AND PUSHED AWAY

FROM THE LORD AND AWAY FROM

CHRISTIANS AND AWAY FROM

ANYTHING THAT MIGHT HAVE

PULLED ME OUT.

AND I REMEMBER AT THAT TIME

MICHAEL AND KAREN BRIE WERE

THE WORSHIP LEADERS THAT HAD

ME STARTED SINGING WITH THEM

WHEN I WAS 11 YEARS OLD.

HE CALLED ME UP OUT OF THE

BLUE.

SO I WENT OVER THERE.

AND THE MORE TIME I SPENT

WITH THEM, THE MORE THE

MYSTERY OF GOD STARTED TO

INTRIGUE ME.

AND THE MORE I DISCOVERED

HOW MUCH HE LOVES ME, THE

MORE I LOVED HIM BACK.

AND I LOVE THAT PASSAGE OF

SCRIPTURE THAT SAYS, "SHE

LOVES MUCH BECAUSE SHE HAS

BEEN FORGIVEN MUCH."

AND THAT IS THE TRUTH OF

ME.

IT WAS AT THAT TIME THAT I

MET, WHO IS NOW MY HUSBAND,

RYAN LANDIS, AND IT IS A

LOVE STORY, AND WE GET TO BE

A PART OF IT.

AND MY STORY WITH RYAN IS MY

GIFT FROM THE LORD.

IT WAS A HARD JOURNEY.

IT WAS A DEEP SEASON, AND IT

WAS A CONFRONTIVE SEASON.

AND I HAD TO LOOK AT THE

CORE OF MY LIFE, AND I HAD

TO LOOK AT THE CORE OF MY

HEART.

AND IT WAS LAID BARE BEFORE

THE LORD.

AND I HAD TO SAY, HERE I AM

JUST THE WAY THAT I AM, AND

DO YOU STILL WANT ME?

AND EVERY TIME, THE LORD

SAID YES.

Gordon: AND HE'LL SAY

YES TO YOU.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS COME

TO HIM AND DO THE SAME THING

THAT NINA DID.

JUST LAY IT BEFORE HIM, AND

SAY, LORD, HERE IS MY LIFE.

HERE IS MY HEART.

YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT

ME.

IF YOU STILL WANT ME, WILL

YOU TAKE ME?

WILL YOU HAVE MY NOW?

WILL YOU LET ME BE YOUR

CHILD?

FOR NINA, IT WAS WILL YOU

LET ME BE YOUR CHILD AGAIN?

FOR SOME OF YOU, YEAH, YOU

GREW UP IN CHURCH.

MAYBE YOU WERE EVEN PART OF

THE WORSHIP TEAM.

BUT THERE WAS A POINT IN

YOUR LIFE WHERE YOU STARTED

MAKING DECISIONS ON YOUR

OWN.

YOU WANTED TO DO YOUR OWN

THING.

YOU WANTED TO LIVE LIFE YOUR

WAY, AND SO YOU WALKED

AWAY.

AND NOW YOU'RE WONDERING,

DOES GOD STILL WANT ME?

DOES HE STILL WANT ANYTHING

TO DO WITH ME?

WELL, ANSWER FOR YOU IS

QUITE CLEAR, YES.

YES.

AND HE IS ACTUALLY LOOKING

FOR YOU.

THAT'S THE STORY OF THE

PRODIGAL SON.

HE TOOK THE INHERITANCE AND

SPENT IT ON RIOTOUS LIVING

AND THEN WOKE UP AND CAME TO

HIMSELF AND SAID, YOU KNOW,

IT'S BETTER FOR ME TO BE A

SERVANT IN MY FATHERS HOUSE

FATHER'S HOUSE THEN TO

BE A KING HERE.

AND HE WENT BACK.

AND HE FOUND HIS FATHER WAS

WAITING FOR HIM, LOOKING FOR

HIM.

AND WHEN HE CAME BACK, HE

GOT THE RING ON HIS FINGER.

HE GOT THE ROPE, AND HE WAS

RECEIVED WITH GREAT PARTYING

AND GREAT REJOICING.

MY SON, WHO I THOUGHT WAS

DEAD, IS ALIVE AND HE IS

BACK.

THAT'S HOW GOD THINKS ABOUT

YOU.

DON'T FOR A MINUTE THINK

YOU'VE GONE TOO FAR.

DON'T THINK THAT YOU'RE TOO

DIRTY OR TOO USED UP.

GOD LOVES YOU, AND HE WANTS

TO TAKE CARE OF YOU.

AND HE WANTS TO WASH AWAY

ALL OF THAT.

HE WANTS TO TAKE IT AND DROP

IT INTO THE DEEPEST PART OF

THE OCEAN AND SEPARATE IT

FROM YOU AS FAR AS THE EAST

IS FROM THE WEST.

THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS TO DO.

AND RESTORE YOU.

NOT JUST FORGIVE, BUT IT'S

LIKE YOU NEVER DID IT.

THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS TO DO.

SO IF THIS IS FOR YOU.

IF YOU'VE BEEN RUNNING FROM

GOD, IF YOU THINK THAT

SOMEHOW OR ANOTHER GOD

DOESN'T WANT YOU, TRY THIS.

TRY THE SAME PRAYER THAT

NINA PRAYED.

LORD, HERE I AM, HERE IS MY

LIFE, CAN YOU STILL USE ME?

CAN YOU STILL LOVE ME?

CAN YOU STILL BE WITH ME?

AND IF YOU PRAY THAT WITH

ALL OF YOUR HEART, HE'LL

ANSWER.

AND THAT'S THE KEY.

WHEN YOU SEEK ME WITH ALL OF

YOUR HEART.

SO STOP TRYING TO DO IT ON

YOUR OWN.

STOP TRYING YOUR OWN

SOLUTIONS.

BECAUSE YOU ALREADY KNOW

THEY WON'T WORK.

AND TRY THAT ONE.

JESUS, CAN YOU STILL USE

ME?

DO YOU STILL WANT ME?

THAT'S A PRAYER FOR YOU.

AND IF YOU PRAY IT, HE'LL

ANSWER.

IF YOU WANT SOMEONE TO PRAY

WITH YOU, IF THERE ARE

ISSUES THAT YOU HAVE NEVER

TOLD ANYBODY.

WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.

WE'RE NOT HERE TO JUDGE

YOU.

WE'RE HERE TO TELL YOU THAT

GOD LOVES YOU, WE LOVE YOU,

AND THERE IS SOMETHING THAT

IS WONDERFUL THAT HAPPENS.

WHEN YOU CONFESS YOUR SINS

TO ONE ANOTHER, AND YOU

SHARE ONE ANOTHER'S BURDENS,

THAT'S HOW YOU FULFILL THE

LAW OF CHRIST.

THE LAW OF CHRIST IS TO LOVE

GOD AND TO LOVE ONE

ANOTHER.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR

NAME.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO TELL US

WHO YOU ARE.

YOU CAN CALL US AND SAY, I

HAVE NEVER TOLD ANYONE, I

NEED TO KNOW, CAN GOD

FORGIVE ME?

AND THE ANSWER WILL BE YES.

BUT THERE IS SOMETHING THAT

HAPPENS.

WHEN YOU CONFESS, HE WILL

THEN FORGIVE AND CLEANSE YOU

FROM ALL UNRIGHTEOUSNESS.

IF YOU WANT THAT, WE'RE

HERE.

IT'S TOLL-FREE,

1-888-777-1999.

COMING UP, PARENTS ARE

DESPERATE TO HELP THEIR ONLY

SON WITHOUT A PENNY IN THEIR

POCKET.

FIND OUT HOW VIEWERS JUST

LIKE YOU MADE THE

DIFFERENCE, RIGHT AFTER

THIS.

Terry: THE COUPLE IN

OUR NEXT STORY WOULD DO

ANYTHING FOR THEIR LITTLE

BOY, SO WHEN HE WAS

DIAGNOSED WITH A SERIOUS

HEART CONDITION, THEY DID

EVERYTHING THEY COULD TO

RAISE MONEY.

Reporter: ALL MR. AND

MRS. CHI EVER WANTED WAS A

HEALTHY CHILD.

THEIR FIRST BABY DIED OF A

BAD COLD AT FIVE MONTHS.

THEY HAD A MISCARRIAGE WITH

THEIR SECOND CHILD.

AND EIGHT YEARS INTO THEIR

MARRIAGE, MRS. CHI GAVE

BIRTH TO YANMI.

HE LOOKED PERFECTLY

NORMAL AT FIRST, BUT THEN

HIS LIPS STARTED TO TURN

PURPLE.

Reporter: MR. CHI

RUSHED HIM TO THE HOSPITAL.

WHERE THEIR COUPLE'S WORST

FEARS WERE REALIZED.

THEIR SON HAD TWO HOLES IN

HIS HEART.

WITHOUT OPEN-HEART SURGERY,

HE, TOO, WOULD DIE.

I COULDN'T HANDLE LOSING

ANOTHER CHILD.

EVERY DAY I ASKED MYSELF,

WHY DO ALL OF THESE BAD

THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO

ME.

Reporter: SO MR. CHI

SET OUT TO RAISE MONEY.

HE TOOK ANOTHER JOB IN THE

COAL MINE.

HE EVEN BORROWED FROM

FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

STILL, THERE WAS NEVER

ENOUGH, AND YANMI'S HEALTH

GOT PROGRESSIVELY WORTH.

HE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN,

HE CRIED SEVEN DAYS AND

SEVEN NIGHTS.

I BURNED INCENTS TO MY IDOLS

TO SEE IF THAT WOULD HELP,

BUT IT DIDN'T.

Reporter: THEY

SUGGESTED THAT THEY CONTACT

CBN IMMEDIATELY FOR HELP.

MR. CHI WROTE THE LETTER.

I REALLY DIDN'T THINK THE

LETTER WOULD GET US

ANYWHERE.

I STARTED TO THINK NOTHING

GOOD WOULD EVER HAPPEN.

Reporter: BUT CBN

CHANGED THAT.

CBN CALLED US AND SAID

THEY HAD ARRANGED FREE

SURGERY FOR MY SON.

I WAS SO HAPPY.

Reporter: YANMI CAME

THROUGH HIS SURGERY AND

RECOVERY TIME WITH FLYING

COLORS, AND TODAY HE IS A

HEALTHY BABY BOY.

HE EATS WELL AND HE

SLEEPS WELL, AND HE IS SO

FULL OF ENERGY.

YOUR HELP AND COMPASSION FOR

THE POOR MEANS A LOT TO MY

FAMILY.

NOW I BELIEVE THERE ARE

GOOD-HEARTED PEOPLE OUT

THERE BECAUSE YOU HAVE GIVEN

MY SON NEW LIFE.

Terry: WHEN YOU SEE

WHAT A HAPPY, ENERGETIC

YOUNG BOY YANMI IS TODAY, IT

IS REALLY HARD TO IMAGINE

THAT HIS LIFE MIGHT HAVE

BEEN TAKEN, LOST, BECAUSE OF

HIS HEART CONDITION, JUST

BECAUSE HIS FAMILY LIVED IN

A POVERTY SITUATION AND

COULDN'T AFFORD TO HAVE THAT

HEART CONDITION FIXED.

BUT YOU STEPPED RIGHT INTO

THE MIDDLE OF THAT NEED AS

"THE 700 CLUB" MEMBERS.

THAT'S THE KIND OF THING

THAT WE'RE DOING ALL AROUND

THE WORLD.

THIS LITTLE BOY HAS HOPE AND

A FUTURE.

HERE ARE PARENTS WHO HAVE

LOST THEIR FIRST TWO

CHILDREN, ALMOST LOST THEIR

THIRD, AND THEN YOU SHOWED

UP RIGHT IN THE MIDST OF

THEIR NEED.

WE WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR

JOINING "THE 700 CLUB."

THANK YOU FOR CARING ABOUT

PEOPLE AROUND THE WORLD WHO

HAVE NEEDS THAT CAN BE MET

WHEN YOU AND I SAY YES.

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GORDON?

Gordon: WE'VE GOTTEN

SOME CHATS IN OUR CHATROOM.

LET'S GO OVER TO

MARGUERITE.

TEA CHATS, "I'M FAMILIAR

WITH THE LADY IN THE PIECE

THAT JUST AIRED.

I FEEL THAT EVERYTHING WOULD

HAVE TO BE PERFECT FOR ME TO

BE A GOOD MOTHER, GOOD WIFE

AND GOOD TEACHER.

CAN YOU PRAY FOR ME TO BE

STILL, LIKE YOU SAID?"

Gordon: HERE IS A

REVELATION I GOT FROM GOD.

HE SAID, "GORDON, I CAN LEAD

YOU TO STILL WATERS, BUT

YOU'VE GOT TO DRINK IT."

THERE IS SO MUCH TO YOU

SAYING, LORD, I JUST WANT TO

BE STILL.

WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART, JUST

ASK HIM FOR THAT.

ASK HIM, CAN YOU ENTER INTO

HIS REST, WHERE YOU'RE NO

LONGER SO BUSY THAT YOU

DON'T HAVE TIME FOR HIM.

AND HE'LL ANSWER THAT.

IF YOU PRAY THAT, HE'LL

ANSWER IT.

SO DO THAT.

WE LEAVE YOU WITH THESE

WORDS FROM PROVERBS 29: "THE

FEAR OF MAN BRINGS A SNARE,

BUT WHOEVER TRUSTS IN THE

LORD MAY BE SAFE."

MAKE SURE YOUR TRUST IS IN

GOD.

THAT'S THE ONLY PLACE FOR

IT.

GOD BLESS YOU.

WE'LL SEE YOU AGAIN.