Gordon: A CHILD LOCKED

AWAY FOR HOURS.

HE WAS PUT IN THE CLOSET

WHEN MY DAD WASN'T THERE.

Gordon: TRYING TO

ESCAPE FROM A LIFETIME OF

DEPRESSION.

THAT WAS A MIRACLE TO

ME.

THAT CHANGED MY LIFE.

Gordon: ON TODAY'S "700

CLUB INTERACTIVE."

ON "700 CLUB INTERACTIVE,"

WE USE TECHNOLOGY TO PRAY

FOR EACH OTHER AND EXPLORE

TOPICS THAT MATTER TO YOU.

WATCH WHAT GOD IS DOING IN

THE WORLD TODAY.

WELCOME TO THE SHOW.

MANY KNOW THE NAME STORMIO

MARTIAN, FROM HER

BEST-SELLING BOOK

SERIES, "THE POWER OF A

PRAYING WIFE."

AFTER SELLING OVER

23 MILLION BOOKS AND PACKING

OUT STADIUMS WITH HER

EVENTS, MANY LOOKED TO HER

AS AN INSPIRATION.

WHAT HER FANS MAY NOT KNOW

IS THAT STORMY BATTLED

SEVERE DEPRESSION, AND IT

NEARLY TOOK HER LIFE.

IT WAS A TERRIFYING

CHILDHOOD.

MY MOTHER WAS MENTALLY ILL,

FROM THE TIME SHE WAS ABOUT

19.

SHE REALLY JUST GOT

PROGRESSIVELY WORSE AS TIME

WENT ON.

HER CRAZINESS, OF COURSE,

WENT UNTREATED AND

UNDIAGNOSED.

SHE WAS VERY ABUSIVE,

VERBALLY ABUSIVE AND

PHYSICALLY ABUSIVE.

SHE WOULD LOCK ME IN A

CLOSET.

IT WAS A CLOSET UNDER THE

STAIRWAY IN THIS FARMHOUSE.

AND THERE WAS LIGHT UNDER

THE BOTTOM OF THE DOOR, SO

THAT'S THE LIGHT I HAD,

WHICH WASN'T MUCH.

IT CREATED IN ME A LOT OF

LONELINESS, ANXIETY,

DEPRESSION, SADNESS.

I NEVER KNEW QUITE WHY I WAS

PUT THERE.

IT WASN'T LIKE I DID THIS

AND I'M GOING TO THE

CLOSET.

IT WAS NEVER LIKE THAT.

I WAS PUT IN THE CLOSET WHEN

MY DAD WASN'T THERE.

BETWEEN 3 AND 5, I WAS IN

THAT CLOSET, WHENEVER MY DAD

WAS GONE.

I WENT TO SCHOOL WITHOUT ANY

PREPARATION.

I WAS PUT ON A BUS, SENT

30 MILES AWAY TO THE

SCHOOL.

I WAS TERRIFIED OF THE

KIDS.

THEY WERE LOUD AND THEY WERE

SCARY.

AND SO IT WAS A TERRIFYING

TIME.

I WAS AFRAID TO GO TO SCHOOL

AND I WAS AFRAID TO COME

HOME.

WHEN I GOT INTO JUNIOR HIGH,

I HAD SUCH PAIN INSIDE OF ME

ALL THE TIME, ALWAYS

HURTING, ALWAYS FEARFUL.

AND I JUST COULDN'T DEAL

WITH IT ANYMORE.

I COULDN'T STAND THE PAIN

AND I JUST WANTED TO END

IT.

I DIDN'T WANT TO WAKE UP

WITH THE PAIN ANYMORE.

I HAD A SUICIDE ATTEMPT AT

14.

MY MOTHER HAD SLEEPING PILLS

AND THINGS LIKE THAT, AND I

THOUGHT I WAS TAKING THAT,

BUT SHE HAD FILLED THEM WITH

OTHER PILLS.

I ENDED UP NOT DYING, OF

COURSE, BUT MAKING MYSELF

REALLY SICK.

ONCE I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL,

IT SEEMED LIKE I WAS ABLE TO

DEAL WITH THE INSECURITIES

BETTER.

BUT I ALWAYS HAD THAT

DEPRESSION.

I HAD TO WORK THROUGH THE

DEPRESSION.

EVERY MORNING, GET UP AND

GET ON TOP OF MY LIFE SO I

COULD GET TO SCHOOL AND

FUNCTION.

I ALWAYS HAD THAT SADNESS,

THAT DEPRESSION, THAT FEAR,

THAT ANXIETY.

THAT WAS ALWAYS THERE.

BUT I WAS BETTER AT COVERING

IT BY THAT TIME.

SO I JUST STARTED

AUDITIONING.

AND, YOU KNOW, THIS IS

WITHOUT REALLY ANY TRAINING

AT ALL.

BY THE SEAT OF MY PANTS

GOING TO THESE THINGS AND

GETTING THE JOB.

I LOVED TO SING AND LOVE TO

DANCE AND LOVED TO ACT.

BUT I WAS AFRAID THEY WERE

GOING TO FIND OUT THAT THERE

WAS NOTHING BEHIND THE

FACADE.

I WAS EMPTY.

MY MOTHER PROCLAIMED TO BE

CHRISTIAN, AND AT ONE POINT,

I DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO

WITH CHRISTIANS, NOTHING.

I GOT INTO DRUGS AND ALCOHOL

AND OCCULT PRACTICES AND

EASTERN RELIGIONS.

THERE WAS A GIRLFRIEND WHO

WORKED WITH ME ON A LOT OF

THE TV SHOWS, HER NAME WAS

TERRY.

SHE WAS A CHRISTIAN.

I DID NOTICE SOMETHING

DIFFERENT ABOUT HER.

SOMETHING REALLY GREAT.

I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS.

I SAW HER FAMILY AND I SAW

SOME OF HER FRIENDS, AND I

THOUGHT, THERE IS A GREAT

QUALITY TO THEM THAT I

REALLY LIKE, BUT DON'T TALK

TO ME ABOUT THIS CHRISTIAN

THING.

I KEPT THINKING DOWN AND

THINKING DOWN, AND I WAS ON

A RECORDING SESSION WITH

TERRY, AND PLANNING MY

SUICIDE AGAIN.

THIS TIME I'M GOING TO MAKE

IT WORK.

I AM GOING TO GET THE RIGHT

PILLS AND I'M GOING TO GO TO

SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP

AGAIN.

BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO

LIVE WITH THE PAIN ANYMORE.

SHE SAID TO ME, I CAN SEE

YOU ARE NOT DOING VERY

WELL.

SHE SAID, WHY DON'T YOU COME

WITH ME TO MEET MY PASTOR.

I SAID, OKAY.

I THOUGHT, AT LEAST I CAN DO

THIS FOR HER BEFORE I PUT

MYSELF TO DEATH.

HE STARTED TALKING TO ME

ABOUT JESUS.

NOT THE WAY MY MOTHER TALKED

ABOUT JESUS, BUT, YOU KNOW,

IN A NEW WAY, AND THAT HE

WOULD CHANGE ME FROM THE

INSIDE OUT.

I THOUGHT, WOW, THAT SOUNDED

SO GREAT.

IT WAS PRETTY FAR-FETCHED,

BUT WORTH A TRY.

I TRIED EVERYTHING ELSE.

HE SAID, I'VE GOT THREE

BOOKS I WANT TO GIVE YOU.

YOU GO HOME AND READ THEM

THIS WEEK, AND COME BACK AND

LET'S MEET.

AND YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU

THINK OF THOSE BOOKS.

ONE OF THE BOOKS WAS THE

GOSPEL OF JOHN.

I READ THE BOOKS, AND

SOMETHING IN ME CHANGED.

I KNEW I HAD READ THE

TRUTH.

I WENT BACK AND MET WITH HIM

AND RECEIVED THE LORD

THERE.

I COULD FEEL A SENSE OF

HOPE.

THAT WAS THE BIGGEST THING,

THAT SENSE OF HOPE.

WOW, I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT,

I NEVER HAD THAT BEFORE.

BUT I STILL HAD THE

DEPRESSION.

HERE I AM, I HAVE AN ETERNAL

FUTURE THAT IS GOOD, AND I

HAVE LIFE WITH THE LORD.

I HAVE LIFE WITH HIM HERE,

NOW.

AND I'M THINKING, WHY AM I

SO DEPRESSED.

THE DEPRESSION GOT WORSE.

I CALLED THE CHURCH, AND

THEY PUT ME WITH THIS

PASTOR'S WIFE.

HER NAME WAS MARIANNE, AND I

TOLD HER EVERYTHING.

SHE SAID, I WANT YOU TO FAST

AND PRAY FOR THREE DAYS.

IN THE MEANTIME, I WANT YOU

TO WRITE DOWN EVERY SIN THAT

COMES TO MIND.

I WAS AFRAID I WAS GOING TO

DIE IN THE NIGHT WITHOUT

DINNER BECAUSE I HAD GONE TO

BED WITHOUT DINNER TOO MANY

NIGHTS IN MY LIFE, BUT I DID

IT.

I WAS WILLING TO DO WHATEVER

IT TOOK TO GET RID OF THOSE

FEELINGS.

I CAME BACK TO THE OFFICE TO

MEET HER IN HER OFFICE, AND

SHE JUST HAD ME LIFT THAT

LIST UP TO THE LORD AND JUST

ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FOR IT.

YOU KNOW.

AND THEN SHE HAD ME CONFESS

MY UNFORGIVENESS TOWARDS MY

MOTHER, WHICH I HAD.

AND I HAD TO CONFESS AND

RENOUNCE MY OCCULT

PRACTICES, WHICH I HAD NEVER

DONE.

WHEN I DID THOSE THREE

THINGS, THE LORD SPOKE TO ME

THROUGH THAT COUNSELLOR,

SAYING, MY DAUGHTER, YOU'VE

BEEN LOCKED IN A CLOSET ALL

YOUR LIFE, FIRST PHYSICALLY

AND THEN EMOTIONALLY.

BUT I HAVE THE KEYS.

YOU CAN WALK THROUGH THAT

DOOR AND BE FREE.

WHEN THEY PRAYED, I COULD

FEEL THAT DEPRESSION LIFT.

IT IS NOT SOMETHING I

CONJURED UP IN MY OWN MIND

BECAUSE I HAD NO IDEA WHAT

WOULD HAPPEN.

U.S. DEPARTMENI WASN'T

EXPECTING THAT.

I WAS EXPECTING TO FEEL

BETTER, BUT I WAS NOT

EXPECTING TO BE SET FREE

COMPLETELY.

THAT WAS A MIRACLE TO ME.

THAT CHANGED MY LIFE.

BEING A CHRISTIAN OR A

BELIEVER DIDN'T MEAN YOU

DON'T GO THROUGH THINGS, BUT

HE IS THERE WITH YOU.

THAT'S SUCH AN IMPORTANT

THING BECAUSE WE ALL GO

THROUGH STUFF.

NO MATTER HOW DARK THAT TIME

IS, YOU HAVE A LIGHT IN YOU

THAT WILL NOT GO OUT.

NEVER FORGET THAT.

NEVER, EVER FORGET THAT.

Gordon: YOU CAN'T

FORGET THAT WHEN THE LIGHT

IS IN YOU.

JESUS PROMISES IT.

YOU FIND THE PROMISE IN

JEREMIAH 29: 11, THAT HE

WANTS TO GIVE YOU A HOPE AND

A FUTURE.

THAT'S WHAT GOD WANTS FOR

YOU.

NOW, THE ENEMY COMES AND HE

WANTS TO TELL YOU THAT

YOU'RE STILL TRAPPED.

THAT YOU'RE STILL LOCKED IN

WHATEVER CLOSET YOUR LOCKED

IN.

NOW, DEPRESSION IS A VERY

TRICKY THING.

I'M NOT HERE TO TELL YOU

THAT THERE ARE SOME, YOU

KNOW, PROCESSES THAT WILL

GET YOU OVER IT.

WHAT YOU NEED IS TO HAVE

JESUS DELIVER YOU FROM IT.

AND I KNOW CHRISTIANS THAT

HAVE STRUGGLED WITH

DEPRESSION AND HAVE GONE

THROUGH COUNSELLING, AND

THEY HAVEN'T HAD THE RESULT

THAT STORMY HAD.

WHERE THROUGH THAT PROS OF

FORGIVENESS, AND THROUGH THE

PROCESS OF CONFESSION, AND

THROUGH THE PROCESS OF

RENOUNCEING THOSE THINGS,

SHE WAS ABLE TO GET FREE.

SOMETIMES IT TAKES YEARS,

AND IT TAKES YEARS OF

COUNSELLING, BUT HOLD ON TO

THE PROMISE.

AND THE PROMISE OF JEREMIAH

29: 11, THAT GOD WANTS TO

GIVE YOU A HOPE AND A

FUTURE.

HE DOESN'T WANT HIS CHILDREN

SUFFERING WITH DEPRESSION.

HE WANTS TO DELIVER YOU AND

SET YOU FREE.

AND WHEN YOU PUT YOUR MIND

ON THAT, IT WILL GIVE YOU

THE HOPE THAT YOU NEED JUST

TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE DAY.

NOW, WITH DEPRESSION, A LOT

OF PEOPLE WILL TELL YOU,

WELL, GET HAPPY.

YOU ALREADY KNOW YOU CAN'T

CHANGE YOUR FEELINGS.

BUT WHAT YOU CAN CHANGE AND

WHAT YOU CAN CONTROL IS WHAT

YOU THINK ABOUT.

AND WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT

OBEYING WHAT PAUL SAYS,

WHATEVER IS PURE, WHATEVER

IS LOVELY, WHATEVER IS A

GOOD REPORT, WHEN YOU START

FOCUSING ON THOSE THINGS AND

START THINKING THOSE

THOUGHTS, THEN THE FEELINGS

WILL START.

LET TODAY BE THE DAY.

DO WHAT STORMY DID.

SAY, LET'S WRITE DOWN ALL OF

THE SINS, ALL OF THE TIMES

I'VE MISSED THE MARK, AND

THEN LET'S GET RID OF THEM.

AND THEN LET'S CREATE A LIST

OF THOSE I NEED TO FORGIVE,

AND SET THEM FREE.

AND SEE IF A CHANGE DOESN'T

COME OVER YOU, THAT GOD WILL

COME TO YOU AND HE'LL SET

YOU FREE.

REALIZE HE WANTS TO GIVE YOU

HOPE.

HE WANTS TO GIVE YOU A

FUTURE.

HE WANTS TO SET YOU FREE.

NOW, IF YOU NEED SOMEBODY TO

HELP YOU WITH THIS, WE'RE

HERE FOR YOU.

AND WE'RE HERE FOR YOU 24

HOURS A DAY, SEVEN DAYS A

WEEK.

SO WHEN THESE FEELINGS COME

OVER YOU, AND IT SEEMS TO BE

OVERWHELMING, ALL YOU HAVE

TO DO IS PICK UP THE PHONE

AND MAKE A TOLL-FREE CALL,

1-888-777-1999.

JUST TELL THEM, I NEED TO

FIND SOME HOPE TODAY.

I NEED TO FIND THAT GOD

REALLY LOVES ME AND HE WANTS

TO SET ME FREE.

WILL YOU PRAY FOR ME?

IT WILL BE OUR HONOR.

IT WILL BE OUR PRIVILEGE TO

PRAY FOR YOU.

USE THAT NUMBER.

WRITE IT DOWN.

1-888-777-1999.

THIS IS "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE," AND WE'VE

ALREADY GOTTEN SOME CHAT

QUESTIONS ON THIS.

SO LET'S GO OVER TO JOSEPH

IN THE CHATROOM.

WE HAVE SOMEBODY WHO IS

SAYING, "SINCE MY MID-20s,

I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH

ANGER AND DEPRESSION.

I HAD AN ABUSIVE CHILDHOOD,

AND MY PARENTS HAVE NOT

SPOKEN IN OVER 10 YEARS.

NOW I'M IN MY 40s, AND MY

TEENAGER IS STRUGGLING WITH

THE SAME EMOTIONS THAT I

AM.

I'M IN COUNSELLING NOW AND I

HAVE APOLOGIZED TO HER, BUT

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX

IT."

Gordon: I WOULD

ENCOURAGE YOU TO STOP TRYING

TO FIX IT.

IT IS THAT STRUGGLE TO FIX

THAT ACTUALLY GETS YOU

FURTHER INTO TROUBLE BECAUSE

YOU START WONDERING, HOW CAN

I FIX IT, AND THEN YOU START

DOING THOSE THINGS AND THEN

IT DOESN'T GET FIXED, AND

THEN YOU GET EVEN MORE

FRUSTRATED, AND THAT WILL

LEAD TO MORE ANGER AND MORE

DEPRESSION.

PARTICULARLY IF YOU'RE

STARTING TO SEE THIS

GENERATIONALLY, AND NOT ONLY

DID I HAVE IT, BUT IN MY

PROCESS I'VE PASSED THIS

SAME THING ON TO MY

TEENAGER.

REALIZE THAT IF YOU COULDN'T

CONTROL IT, YOUR TEENAGER

CAN'T CONTROL IT, AND YOU

NEED TO SET THEM FREE.

IT'S WONDERFUL THAT YOU'VE

APOLOGIZED.

BUT I WOULD ENCOURAGE YOU TO

DO THE STEPS THAT WE'VE

ALREADY TALKED ABOUT.

HAVE YOU FORGIVEN YOUR

PARENTS FOR WHAT THEY'VE

DONE TO YOU?

AND HAVE YOU SET THEM FREE

FROM IT?

AND IN THAT PROCESS OF

COUNSELLING, ARE YOU SEEING

HOPE AND ARE YOU SEEING A

FUTURE FOR, AND FOR YOU

LAYING HOLD OF THAT PROMISE,

THAT WONDERFUL PROMISES FROM

JEREMIAH 29: 11.

AND THEN ENCOURAGE --

INSTEAD OF TRYING TO FIX,

ENCOURAGE YOUR TEENAGER.

AND ENCOURAGE THEM IN

PATHWAYS THAT WILL LEAD THEM

OUT OF WHAT YOU'VE GONE

THROUGH.

AND YOU CAN SAY, LOOK, I

WENT THROUGH THIS.

THIS IS HOW I DID IT.

I'M NOT TRYING TO FIX YOU.

I'M TRYING TO ENCOURAGE

YOU.

AND WHEN YOU DO THAT, YOU'LL

FIND THAT LOVE NEVER FAILS.

THAT'S A WONDERFUL VERSE.

"LOVE NEVER FAILS."

AND WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE,

YOU WANT TO ENCOURAGE THEM.

YOU WANT TO LIFT THEM.

YOU WANT TO PICK THEM UP.

AND JUST START DOING IT THAT

WAY AND SEE IF YOU DON'T GET

A CHANGE.

UP NEXT, THE WOMAN MOVES TO

THE PROMISE LAND ONLY TO BE

GREETED WITH TRAGEDY.

FIND OUT HOW VIEWERS LIKE

YOU GAVE HER JOY FOR THE

FIRST TIME IN HER NEW HOME.

RIGHT AFTER THIS.

Gordon: IN 1991, THE

ISRAELIS MILITARY CONDUCTED

OPERATION SOLOMON, AIR

LIFTING THOUSANDS OF

ETHIOPIAN JEWS FROM AFRICA

TO ISRAEL.

FOR MANY OF THESE

IMMIGRANTS, STARTING A NEW

LIFE IN ISRAEL WAS

DIFFICULT.

FOR ALANA, IT WAS TRAGIC.

Reporter: ALANA WAS

JUST A CHILD WHEN HER FAMILY

MOVED TO ISRAEL, AND AT 19

SHE FOUND HERSELF IN AN

ARRANGED MARRIAGE TO A MAN

WHO BEAT HER.

Translator: MY HUSBAND

WOULD TAKE OUT HIS ANGER ON

ME.

ONE NIGHT HE ALMOST KILLED

ME.

IT IS A MIRACLE I SURVIVED.

AND NOW HE IS IN JAIL FOR

EIGHT YEARS.

Reporter: ALANA WAS

LEFT TO RAISE HER THREE

SMALL CHILDREN ALONE.

AND THEN JUST A FEW MONTHS

AGO, HER 6-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER

DIED UNEXPECTANTLY DURING A

ROUTINE SURGERY.

SINCE THEN, ALANA HAS

SUFFERED FROM CRIPPLING

DEPRESSION.

MOST DAYS SHE SITS IN THIS

DARK APARTMENT, UNABLE TO

WORK.

HER SMALL WELFARE CHECK

BARELY COVERS A THIRD OF THE

FAMILY'S EXPENSES.

I HAVE A LARGE DEBT ON MY

MORTGAGE, AND THEY'RE ABOUT

TO TAKE MY APARTMENT.

MY WATER AND ELECTRICITY

WILL SOON BE CUT OFF AS

WELL.

Reporter: LIFE IS

ESPECIALLY HARD FOR ALANA'S

SON, TOMAR.

AT JUST 13 YEARS OLD, HE HAS

TO TAKE CARE OF THE WHOLE

FAMILY.

HE DIDN'T WANT TO BE

INTERVIEWED, BUT OFF CAMERA

HE TOLD US HE TRIES TO

PROTECT HIS MOTHER BECAUSE

HE STILL REMEMBERS THE NIGHT

SHE WAS TAKEN AWAY IN AN

AMBULANCE.

ON HIS BIRTHDAY HE TOLD

ME I WILL NEVER FORGET.

HE TOLD ME NOT TO BUY HIM A

PRESENT.

HE SAID, "MOM, DON'T FEEL

BAD.

I KNOW THAT WE'RE POOR."

AS A MOTHER, THAT IS VERY

HARD FOR ME.

Reporter: RECENTLY A

TEAM FROM CBN ISRAEL GAVE

THE FAMILY SOME MUCH-NEEDED

HELP.

WE MADE THE BACK PAYMENTS ON

ALANA'S MORTGAGE SO SHE

WOULDN'T LOSE HER HOME.

BUT IT WAS A SMALL GIFT THAT

OVERWHELMED HER, A BASKET

FULL OF LOTION, SOAP, AND

OTHER PERSONAL ITEMS.

THESE ARE THINGS I NEED

EVERY DAY BUT I CAN'T GET

FOR MYSELF.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Reporter: FOR TOMAR, WE

BOUGHT CLOTHES AND NEW

RUNNING SHOES HE NEEDED FOR

SCHOOL.

AND FOR HIS LITTLE BROTHER,

SOME NEW TOYS.

YAY!

Reporter: WE ALSO TOOK

THE FAMILY GROCERIES

SHOPPING, AND THEN WE

ARRANGED FOR ALANA TO SEE A

COUNSELLOR, TO HELP HER GET

WELL SO SHE CAN GO BACK TO

WORK AND SUPPORT HER

FAMILY.

I FEEL LIKE I'M IN THE

CLOUDS.

I THINK YOU CAN SEE MY

MOOD.

I CAN'T FIND A WORD TO

DESCRIBE THIS BEAUTIFUL

EXPERIENCE.

FOR ME AND MY CHILDREN.

THANK YOU VERY, VERY MUCH.

Gordon: AND THANK YOU.

IF YOU'RE A MEMBER OF "THE

700 CLUB," YOU'RE PART OF

BLESSING THAT WONDERFUL

FAMILY.

IF YOU'RE NOT A MEMBER, CALL

US AND JOIN.

THE NUMBER IS TOLL-FREE,

1-888-777-1999.

JUST SAY I WANT TO SIGN UP

AND BE A PART OF WHAT YOU'RE

DOING.

HOW MUCH IS IT TO JOIN "THE

700 CLUB"?

$20 A MONTH, 65 CENTS A

DAY.

WHEN YOU JOIN, I HAVE

SOMETHING FOR YOU I WANT YOU

TO HAVE, LIF "LIFE BEYOND

THE GRAVE, PART TWO."

THESE ARE STORIES OF PEOPLE

WHO DIED.

SOME WENT TO HEAVEN, AND

SOME WENT TO HELL.

AND GOD SENT THEM BACK SO

THEY COULD TELL THEIR

STORY.

THESE ARE EYE WITNESS

ACCOUNTS OF WHAT THEY SAW IN

HEAVEN AND WHAT THEY SAW IN

HELL.

I WANT YOU TO HAVE THIS.

1-888-777-1999.

CAN COMING UP, A SINGER WHO

WROTE ABOUT HEARTBREAK FINDS

A CURE, RIGHT AFTER THIS.

Gordon: THEY SAY YOU

JUST CAN'T PLAY THE BLUES,

HAVE YOU TO FEEL THEM AS

WELL.

IT IS ONLY NATURAL THAT A

SINGER NAMED ANGELA WOLF

GRAP GRAVITATED TOWARDS

BLUES MUSIC, SHE HAD A

LIFETIME OF NEGATIVE

EMOTIONS TO EXPRESS.

*

I'D WRITE SONGS ABOUT

THINGS THAT I STRUGGLED

WITH, HEARTACHE, HEARTBREAK

OF ANY KIND.

Reporter: SOME SAY

BLUES MUSIC GOES DEEP,

UNCOVERING THINGS THAT ARE

OFTEN HIDDEN.

IINJUSTICE, WANT, AND

PAIN.

* I'M GOING UP TO HEAVEN,

BABY *

* I'M GOING TO GET WHAT HE

PROMISED ME *

EVERYBODY GOES THROUGH

THESE THINGS.

SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST BETTER

AT COVERING IT UP THAN

OTHERS.

Reporter: BLUES ARTIST

ANGELA WOLF KNOWS ABOUT

HIDDEN THINGS.

SHE HAD A LOT OF PEOPLE

FOOLED.

SHE LOOKED LIKE THE SWEET,

INNOCENT CHURCH GIRL, BUT

THE REALITY WAS SHE CARRIED

A LOT OF PAIN.

IT'S HARD, SOMETIMES, TO

LOOK BACK AT THE

PHOTOGRAPHS.

I WAS SMILING IN THEM.

I WAS PUTTING ON AN ACT, BUT

UNDERNEATH IT ALL, I KNOW

THAT LOOK.

I KNOW HOW HURT I WAS

INSIDE, AND I WAS JUST

REALLY GOOD AT COVERING IT

UP.

Reporter: ANGELA WAS

ONE OF THOSE KIDS PICKED ON

BY BULLIES.

SHE BELIEVED SHE WOULD NEVER

FIT IN, AND SCHOOL BECAME A

NIGHTMARE.

I WAS LOOKING FOR

ANYTHING THAT MADE ME FORGET

WHO I WAS, FORGET THE

TROUBLES THAT I DEALT WITH

AT SCHOOL.

I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE I COULD

DISCUSS THOSE THINGS WITH MY

PARENTS.

AND I JUST KEPT WANTING TO

FIT IN.

Reporter: ANGELA

STARTED SMOKING CIGARETTES

AND THEN POT.

THAT LED TO DRINKING AND

EVENTUALLY INHALING

HAIRSPRAY.

IN TIME, ANGELA HAD BOYS

OVER AFTER SCHOOL.

BOTH HER PARENTS WORKED AND

OFTEN THINGS GOT OUT OF

HAND.

I WANTED TO GET A BOY'S

AFFECTIONS, AND FOR A BOY TO

LIKE ME, THAT'S WHAT I

NEEDED TO DO.

SO I BEGAN HAVING SEXUAL

INTERCOURSE AT THE AGE OF

14.

Reporter: NO MATTER HOW

MANY BOYS ANGELA WAS

INVOLVED WITH, SHE NEVER

FELT ACCEPTED.

THEN HER HIGH SCHOOL MUSIC

TEACHER ENCOURAGED HER TO

TRY OUT FOR THE SCHOOL

MUSICAL.

HE KNEW ARCH ANGELA HAD

TALENT.

HE KEPT ENCOURAGING ME.

HE SAID, YOU KNOW, YOU CAN

REALLY DO THIS.

YOU JUST NEED TO REALLY

APPLY YOURSELF AND NOT BE

AFRAID ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE

THINK.

Reporter: HER VOICE

GAVE HER THE ATTENTION SHE

NEEDED.

SHE FOUND HER WINGS AFTER

THAT.

AND IN COLLEGE, TOOK ON A

NEW PERSONA.

GONE WAS THE LITTLE CHURCH

GIRL.

INSTEAD, SHE WOULD SING IN

NIGHTCLUBS AND BARS, WHERE

DRUGS AGAIN BECAME PART OF

HER LIFE.

HER MOM SAW SOMETHING WAS

NOT RIGHT, AND ENCOURAGED

ANGELA TO GO BACK TO

CHURCH.

STILL, ANGELA DID WHAT

ANGELA WANTED TO DO.

I HAD HAD BOYFRIEND AFTER

BOYFRIEND AND ONE-NIGHT

STAND AFTER ONE-NIGHT

STAND.

AND I ENDED UP WITH AN

S.T.D., AND I HAD BECOME A

BULEMIC, AND THE BULEMIA HAD

EATEN AWAY AT THE GUMS OF MY

TEETH.

Reporter: THE REALITY

OF WHAT SHE HAD BECOME WAS

BEGINNING TO HIT HOME.

THERE IS NOBODY WHO IS

GOING TO WANT SOMEBODY LIKE

ME.

I WAS A PIECE OF TRASH.

Reporter: LIFE CAME

CRASHING DOWN WHEN THE MAN

SHE WAS ENGAGED TO DECIDED

HE DIDN'T WANT TO MARRY

HER.

THEN CAME ANOTHER BLOW.

HER MOTHER GOT CANCER.

WHEN I REALIZED SHE WAS

DYING, I SAID, I CAN'T DO

THIS TO HER.

SHE HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME.

SHE HAS BEEN MY SUPPORTER

ALL THESE YEARS, AND SHE IS

DYING.

SO I WENT TO CHURCH AND I

LISTENED.

AND I REMEMBER THE MINISTER

TALKING ABOUT HOW GOD LOVES

YOU.

AND IT WAS AS IF HE WAS

TALKING DIRECTLY TO ME.

AND HE KEPT SAYING, GOD

LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT

YOU'VE DONE, NO MATTER WHO

YOU ARE, NO MATTER WHO YOU

HAVE HURT, NO MATTER WHAT

HAS HAPPENED TO YOU, HE

LOVES YOU.

AND IT BROKE MY HEART.

I REMEMBER SITTING THERE IN

THE BACK ROW, CRYING.

AND I REALIZED THAT GOD

LOVED ME.

AND ALTHOUGH I HAD BEEN IN

CHURCH MY WHOLE LIFE AS A

CHILD, I DID NOT REALIZE

THAT HE LOVED ME SO MUCH

THAT HE HAD DIED TO FORGIVE

PEOPLE JUST LIKE ME.

AT THAT POINT, THAT WAS THE

TURNING POINT FOR ME.

Reporter: IT TOOK TIME

AND PRAYER FOR ANGELA TO GET

ON HER FEET.

SHE WENT INTO COUNSELLING

FOR THE BULEMIA AND GOT

INVOLVED IN A CHURCH.

SHE FOUND WHERE SHE HAD NO

STRENGTH, GOD DID.

I WAS STILL THE SAME

PERSON ON THE OUTSIDE.

I FELT DIFFERENT INSIDE, BUT

I STILL HAD ALL OF THAT

NASTY STUFF HANGING ON ME.

AND HE BEGAN TO CHANGE MY

DESIRES.

HE TOOK AWAY MY DESIRE FOR

DRUGS.

HE TOOK AWAY MY DESIRE FOR

OTHER MEN.

HE TOOK AWAY THE VERY THING

THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST

DESTRUCTIVE THINGS IN MY

LIFE.

Reporter: THEN SHE MET

MICHAEL, AND THEY MARRIED.

AS FAR AS HER MUSIC, SHE IS

HEARD AROUND THE COUNTRY IN

BIKER BARS AND PRISONS WITH

A MESSAGE, TO FREE PEOPLE

FROM THE BLUES.

* I'M GONNA GET WHAT HE

PROMISED ME *

WHEN YOU TRY TO PLUG

SOMETHING OR SOMEBODY INTO

AN EMPTINESS IN YOUR LIFE,

IT'S NEVER GOING TO FILL

THAT HOLE.

*

Gordon: YOU CAN NEVER

FILL IT UP.

THE BIBLE TALKS AND SAYS --

THIS IS FROM SOLOMON, THAT

HE HAS PUT ETERNITY IN OUR

HEARTS.

THAT WE HAVE THE CAPACITY TO

FEEL AND TO EXIST ON AN

INFINITE BASIS, AND THAT'S

GOD-GIVEN.

BUT UNLESS YOU FILL UP THAT

ETERNITY WITH HIM, THERE IS

ALWAYS GOING TO BE AN

EMPTINESS.

YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO FILL

IT UP.

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH MONEY IN

THE WORLD TO FILL IT UP.

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH SEX.

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH DRUGS.

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH

ALCOHOL.

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH THINGS

THAT THE WORLD OFFERS THAT

WILL EVER FILL THAT UP

BECAUSE IT IS AN INFINITE

THING.

IT IS ETERNITY, AND IT IS IN

OUR HEARTS.

AND GOD DID THAT SO THAT WE

WOULD WANT A RELATIONSHIP

WITH HIM, THAT WE WOULD

NATURALLY WANT THAT.

NOW, WE MESSED THAT UP.

YOU KNOW, GOD'S PLAN WAS FOR

US TO BE IN A GARDEN AND

ENJOY HIM.

THAT WAS GOD'S PLAN.

AND WE'RE THE ONES THAT

MESSED IT UP.

AND IN THE PROCESS OF

MESSING IT UP, SOME OF YOU

ARE JUST LIKE ANGELA, YOU

THINK THERE IS NO WAY A

RIGHTEOUS GOD WILL HAVE

ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME.

WELL, YOU COULDN'T BE ANY

FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH

BECAUSE THE BIBLE SAYS VERY

CLEARLY, AND THIS IS THE

WORDS OF THE APOSTLE PAUL:

"THIS DAY IS WORTHY OF ALL

ACCEPTANCE, THAT JESUS

CHRIST CAME TO SAVE SINNERS,

OF WHOM I AM CHIEF."

AND WHEN YOU GET THE

UNDERSTANDING THAT JESUS

CAME FOR YOU, JUST FOR YOU,

AND JUST AS YOU ARE.

HE IS READY, WILLING, AND

ABLE TO FORGIVE YOU AND SET

YOU FREE RIGHT NOW.

AND HE DIDN'T COME THAT YOU

WOULD HAVE A WHOLE BUNCH OF

NEGATIVITY AND THAT YOU'D

LEARN ALL OF THE THINGS NOT

TO DO.

NO.

HE CAME THAT YOU MIGHT HAVE

LIFE AND HAVE IT MORE

ABUNDANTLY.

THAT'S GOD'S PLAN.

AND HE HASN'T GIVEN UP ON

HIS DREAM.

SO IF THIS IS FOR YOU.

IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT,

WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO RIGHT

NOW IS GO TO THE PHONE AND

MAKE A TOLL-FREE CALL.

1-888-777-1999.

JUST TELL THE PERSON I WANT

TO ASK JESUS TO COME INTO MY

HEART.

MAKE THE CALL.

DO IT RIGHT NOW.

WE LEAVE YOU WITH THESE

WORDS FROM THE BIBLE: "THE

LORD IS GOOD.

WHEN TROUBLE COMES, HE IS A

STRONG REFUGE, AND HE KNOWS

EVERYONE WHO TRUSTS IN