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700 Club Interactive: Picture of an Addict - April 29, 2013

What makes someone an addict? One man shares how he nearly lost his life to addiction. Read Transcript


Gordon: A PHOTOGRAPHER

BATTLES AN ADDICTION TO

CRACK COCAINE.

I'D GIVEN UP ALL HOPE OF

RECOVERY.

Gordon: HE FINDS THE

STRENGTH TO SAY NO.

I HEAR THE LORD SAY,

BRAD, YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY

NO TO DRUGS ANYMORE.

I'LL SAY NO FOR YOU.

Gordon: ON TODAY'S "700

CLUB INTERACTIVE."

ON "700 CLUB INTERACTIVE,"

WE USE TECHNOLOGY TO PRAY

FOR EACH OTHER AND EXPLORE

TOPICS THAT MATTER TO YOU.

WATCH WHAT GOD IS DOING IN

THE WORLD TODAY.

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Gordon: WELCOME TO THE

SHOW, AND THANKS FOR JOINING

US.

ALICIA KEYS FAMOUSLY SANG

"THE BIG LIGHTS WILL INSPIRE

YOU, AND THERE IS NOTHING

YOU CAN'T DO IN THE CITY OF

NEW YORK."

FOR BRAD GEESE, HIS DREAM

WAS TO WORK IN THE BIG

APPLE, AND IT DIDN'T TAKE

LONG FOR HIM TO ACHIEVE THAT

DREAM, AND BECOME A TOP

FASHION PHOTOGRAPHER.

Terry: HOWEVER, THE

MORE SUCCESSFUL BRAD BECAME,

THE MORE OVERWORKED HE

FELT.

HE BEGAN LOOKING FOR AN

ESCAPE, AND BRAD FOUND THAT

IN THE MANHATTAN NIGHT

LIFE.

TAKE A LOOK.

Reporter: I GRADUATED

FROM ART COLLEGE, AND I

DECIDED TO GO TO NEW YORK

CITY.

AND NEW YORK CITY WAS LIKE

THE PREMIER PLACE TO BE A

COMMERCIAL PHOTOGRAPHER.

THE FIRST WEEK I ACTUALLY

OPENED UP THE DOORS TO THE

STUDIO, I HAD THREE NATIONAL

AD COMPAIGNS.

ALL OF A SUDDEN MY LOVE FOR

PHOTOGRAPHY JUST GOT DROWNED

BY ALL OF THIS WORK.

I WAS WORKING SO HARD AND

LONG HOURS THAT I HAD NO

SOCIAL LIFE.

ONE OF MY CLASSMATES WAS A

FASHION PHOTOGRAPHER, AND HE

NEEDED A PLACE TO STAY, TO

SLEEP, AND I PUT HIM UP ON

MY COUCH IN MY APARTMENT,

AND WE DECIDED TO START

GOING OUT TONIGHT CLUBS.

I REMEMBER THAT WAS THE

FIRST TIME I DID COCAINE.

THERE WAS THIS ONE TIME WE

WERE INVITED BACK TO A

PENTHOUSE APARTMENT, AND I

REMEMBER THAT WAS THE FIRST

NIGHT I TRIED FREE-BASING

CRACK COCAINE.

AND I INSTANTLY GOT ADDICTED

TO IT.

WHEN I DID FREE BASE, IT WAS

LIKE A RUSH.

YOU HAD THE FIRST RUSH AND

YOU CONSTANTLY WANTED

ANOTHER AND ANOTHER AND

ANOTHER.

I WAS ENTANGLED.

IT WAS AWFUL, AND I COULDN'T

GET OUT OF IT.

I STARTED PAWNING MY CAMERA

EQUIPMENT.

I STARTED LYING, CHEATING,

STEALING, ANYTHING TO GET

DRUNK.

I STARTED REALLY NOT

SHOWING UP FOR JOBS.

MY AGENT STARTED TO NOTICE.

IT GOT SPREAD AROUND NEW

YORK THAT I WAS A DRUG

ADDICT, AN ACTIVE DRUG

ADDICT, AND MY WORK STARTED

TO FALL OFF.

IT WAS BAD.

YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND AT

THAT POINT IN TIME, I HAD

GIVEN UP ALL HOPE.

I HAD GIVEN UP ALL HOPE OF

RECOVERY.

I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE

AS A DRUG ADDICT.

MY FAMILY HAD DISOWNED ME.

THEY HAD WRITTEN ME A LETTER

SAYING, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE NO

LONGER OUR CHILD.

THE DRUG HAD SUCH CONTROL

OVER ME THAT I COULD NOT

STOP.

I WENT INTO MY BEDROOM TO

SEE -- YOU KNOW, I SAT DOWN

ON MY BED AND I PULLED OUT

THE MONEY OUT OF MY POCKETS

TO SEE HOW MUCH CRACK I

COULD GO BUY.

AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I JUST

HEARD THE DEMONIC VOICES.

I LOOKED UP, AND I LOOKED AT

MY WALLS, AND I SAW THE

SATANIC SYMBOLS, AND I WAS,

LIKE, OH, MY GOSH.

AND I STARTED SHAKING

UNCONTROLLABLY.

I WAS SO SCARED.

AND I JUST SAID, GOD, IF

YOU'RE REAL, I NEED YOU

NOW.

I REALLY NEED YOU NOW, GOD.

PLEASE SHOW ME THAT YOU'RE

REAL.

I'VE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN YOU,

GOD.

I'VE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN

YOU.

AND THE NEXT THING THAT

HAPPENED WAS THIS INCREDIBLE

WARM, PEACEFUL FEELING CAME

OVER ME.

AND I CLOSED MY EYES AND I

JUST PUT MY ARMS OUT TO MY

SIDE.

IT WAS THE MOST WONDERFUL

FEELING I'VE EVER HAD IN MY

LIFE.

IT WAS THE WHOLE SPIRIT

TOUCHING ME.

AND I SAID, GOD, YOU JUST

PROVED TO ME THAT YOU'RE

REAL.

BUT, GOD, I'M A DRUG

ADDICT.

I HEAR THE LORD AS CLEAR AS

DAY JUST SAY, BRAD, YOU

DON'T HAVE TO SAY NO TO

DRUGS ANYMORE.

I'LL SAY NO FOR YOU.

A GUIDE FOR YOUR SINS.

THAT WAS IT.

I WAS -- THE LORD CAME INTO

MY LIFE.

THE NEXT DAY I WAS CLEAN.

I DIDN'T DO DRUGS AGAIN.

THE BIBLE SAYS THAT HE'LL

RESTORE THE YEARS THAT THE

CANCOR WORM ATE AWAY, AND HE

HAS DONE THAT.

HE HAS REALLY RESTORED AND

GIVEN ME A WONDERFUL LIFE, A

WONDERFUL WIFE AND TWO

KIDS.

GOD CAN DO IT.

IT MAY SEEM IMPOSSIBLE.

YOU MAY THINK THAT YOU CAN

NEVER, NEVER GET OUT OF YOUR

ADDICTION, THAT THERE IS NO

HOPE FOR YOU, BUT THERE IS.

AND IT'S THROUGH GOD, AND

THROUGH CHRIST JESUS.

HE IS ABLE.

HE IS TOTALLY ABLE.

Gordon: HE IS ABLE, AND

HE IS ABLE FOR YOU.

THE BIBLE SAYS, "WHO THE SON

SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED."

HE IS ABLE TO CHANGE YOU.

SO YOU NO LONGER HAVE A

DESIRE TO GO AFTER DRUGS.

YOU KNOW, YOU CAN LOOK AT

BRAD'S STORY AND GO, CAN

THAT BE REAL?

CAN THAT BE FOR ME?

CAN I LITERALLY BE SET FREE

IN AN INSTANT?

AND IN A DAY GO FROM A

HARD-CORE DRUG ADDICT TO

BEING FREE?

NO LONGER HAVING A

COMPULSION.

NO LONGER EVEN HAVING A

DESIRE FOR IT.

AND WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT

JESUS HAS DONE AND IS

WILLING TO DO FOR YOU, YOU

CAN HAVE THAT SAME

EXPERIENCE, WHERE YOU GET

SET FREE.

YOU MAY BE THINKING ABOUT --

THE AMAZING THING ABOUT

BRAD'S STORY IS GOD TOUCHED

HIM.

AND HE FELT THE HOLY SPIRIT,

AND HE UNDERSTOOD THAT, YES,

IT IS REAL.

IT IS NOT SOME MADE-UP

STORY, BUT HE GOT TOUCHED.

AND THEN HIS OBJECTION, BUT,

GOD, I'M A DRUG ADDICT.

THAT TOUCH WASN'T ENOUGH TO

OVERCOME WHAT HE THOUGHT WAS

AN UNCONTROLLABLE

ADDICTION.

AND THEN THAT WONDERFUL

STILL, SMALL VOICE SPOKE TO

HIM.

BRAD, YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY

NO ANYMORE.

I'LL SAY NO FOR YOU.

I'LL TAKE IT FOR YOU.

AND THAT'S WHAT JESUS DID.

HE PAID THE PENALTY.

HE PAID THE PRICE.

HIS PERFECT LIFE, HIS

PRECIOUS BLOOD PAID THE

PRICE SO THAT YOU DON'T HAVE

TO.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY NO

ANYMORE.

YOU JUST HAVE TO SAY, I KNOW

JESUS.

JESUS KNOWS ME.

AND HE HAS TAKEN THAT DESIRE

AWAY FROM ME.

NOW, IF YOU WANT THIS, ALL

YOU HAVE TO DO IS ASK FOR

IT.

AND JUST LIKE BRAD, JUST

HUMBLE YOURSELF AND SAY,

GOD, I CAN'T DO IT.

BUT YOU CAN.

AND WHEN YOU DO THAT, AND

YOU DO IT WITH ALL OF YOUR

HEART, HE'LL ANSWER.

DON'T DO IT CASUALLY.

BUT WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART.

JUST LIKE BRAD.

HE WAS AT THAT POINT OF

DESPERATION.

I'VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO

GO.

WHEN YOU DO IT THAT WAY, AND

SAY, JESUS, COME IN, FORGIVE

ME, CHANGE ME, HE'LL

ANSWER.

WHAT HE'S DONE FOR OTHERS,

HE WILL DO FOR YOU.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS COME

TO HIM.

SO IF THIS IS FOR YOU, IF

THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT, DON'T

PLAY GAMES WITH GOD.

BUT IF THIS IS FOR YOU, BOW

YOUR HEAD.

LET'S PRAY, AND LET JESUS DO

FOR YOU WHAT HE DID FOR

BRAD.

PRAY WITH ME.

JESUS -- THAT'S RIGHT, JUST

SAY HIS NAME.

SAY IT OUT LOUD.

JESUS, I NEED YOU.

I CAN'T CONQUER THIS ON MY

OWN, BUT WITH YOU, I CAN.

SO I ASK RIGHT NOW THAT YOU

DO THE SAME THING FOR ME

THAT YOU DID FOR BRAD.

I ASK THAT YOU TAKE AWAY THE

DESIRE FOR DRUGS, FOR

ALCOHOL, FOR THE THINGS THAT

HAVE ENSLAVED ME, I ASK THAT

YOU TAKE THEM AWAY.

AND THAT YOU SAY NO TO THEM

FOR ME.

AND, JESUS, I NEED

FORGIVENESS FOR ALL OF THE

THINGS THAT I'VE DONE

WRONG.

SO FORGIVE ME.

CLEANSE ME.

MAKE ME NEW.

AND, LORD, I ASK THAT YOU

TOUCH ME AND FILL ME WITH

YOUR HOLY SPIRIT.

DO THIS FOR ME, FOR I ASK IT

IN JESUS' NAME.

FATHER, FOR THOSE WHO JUST

PRAYED, I PRAY THAT THE

CHAIN OF ADDICTION BE BROKEN

IN THEIR LIVES, THAT FROM

THIS DAY FORWARD, THEY WOULD

HAVE NO MORE DESIRE, NO MORE

INCLINATION, THAT THEY WOULD

BE FREE FROM IT NOW IN

JESUS' NAME.

FILL THEM WITH YOUR HOLY

SPIRIT.

FILL THEM WITH FORGIVENESS,

RIGHTEOUSNESS, PEACE, AND

JOY.

LET THEM KNOW JUST HOW MUCH

YOU LOVE AND CARE FOR THEM.

FOR WE ASK IT ALL IN JESUS'

NAME.

AMEN.

THE BIBLE SAYS THAT IF YOU

WILL BELIEVE IN YOUR HEART

AND THEN CONFESS WITH YOUR

MOUTH, YOU SHALL BE SAVED.

WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO IS

MAKE A TOLL-FREE CALL AND DO

JUST THAT, TO SAY, I WANT

JESUS TO BE LORD OF MY

LIFE.

I WANT A NEW LIFE.

I WANT A FRESH START.

I WANT TO BE MADE NEW.

THE NUMBER IS ON THE SCREEN,

1-888-777-1999.

WHEN YOU CALL, I'VE GOT

SOMETHING FREE FOR YOU.

THERE IS NO FINANCIAL

OBLIGATION.

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THIS PACKET IS FREE.

AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE IT.

SO THAT'S WHY WE'RE SENDING

IT TO YOU.

IT'S CALLED "A NEW DAY."

IN THERE THERE IS A C.D.

TEACHING ON WHAT DO

CHRISTIANS BELIEVE, WHAT ARE

THE FOUNDATIONS OF OUR

FAITH.

AND WHAT DO YOU DO NOW, NOW

THAT YOU'VE MADE A DECISION,

YOU'VE PRAYED THE PRAYER,

YOU'VE ASKED JESUS INTO YOUR

LIFE, WHAT DO YOU DO?

HOW DO YOU LIVE THE

CHRISTIAN LIFE?

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Terry: A POLICE RAID

LEAVES TWO YOUNG GIRLS ALONE

AND SCARED.

FIND OUT HOW YOU HELPED THEM

FIND SECURITY, AFTER THIS.

Terry: RECENTLY IN

THAILAND, WE MET TWO SISTERS

WHO WERE LEFT ON LIAR THEIR

OWN WHEN THEIR PARENTS WERE

PUT IN PRISON.

THANKS TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU,

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TO CALL HOME.

THE CHILDREN REMEMBER THE

DAY THAT THE POLICE RAIDED

THEIR HOME AND ARRESTED

THEIR PARENTS.

13 YEARS OLD DANEKA, AND HER

EIGHT-YEAR-OLD SISTER, EVE,

WERE LEFT TO FEND FOR

THEMSELVES.

WE WERE VERY SCARED WHEN

THE POLICE TOOK AWAY OUR

PARENTS.

WE WONDERED IF WE WOULD EVER

SEE THEM AGAIN.

Terry: THEIR PARENTS

WERE SENTENCED TO 45 YEARS

IN PRISON FOR DRUG

TRAFFICKING.

THAT'S WHEN THE SISTERS CAME

TO LIVE HERE, AT THIS HOME

FOR CHILDREN, SPONSORED BY

CBN'S "ORPHANS' PROMISE."

WHEN WE GO FIRST GOT

HERE, I WAS SCARED.

BUT THEN THE OTHER CHILDREN

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US.

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Terry: CBN HAS HELPED

CHILDREN AT THE HOUSE OF

BLESSING SINCE 1999,

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AND SHELTER.

THEY REALLY TAKE GOOD

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THEY GIVE US DELICIOUS FOOD

AND BEAUTIFUL CLOTHES.

I AM REALLY HAPPY HERE.

I ALSO LIKE OUR HOUSE

PARENTS A LOT.

THEY HAVE INTRODUCED US TO

JESUS AND TAUGHT US HOW TO

PRAY.

NOW I FEEL GOD IS WITH ME

ALL OF THE TIME.

Terry: AND DANEKA AND

EVE HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN

THEIR OWN PARENTS.

IN FACT, THEY PRAY FOR THEM

EVERY DAY.

ONE DAY THEY RECEIVED A

LETTER FROM THEIR MOM IN

PRISON.

THEY TOLD US THEY HAVE

PRAYED TO ACCEPT JESUS AS

SAVIOR.

THEY HAVE TURNED FROM THEIR

OLD WAYS AND ARE LIVING A

NEW LIFE.

Terry: FOR DANEKA AND

EVE, THAT'S THE BEST NEWS OF

ALL.

THANK YOU, "ORPHANS'

PROMISE," FOR LETTING US

LIVE HERE.

Terry: YOU KNOW, THERE

ARE SO MANY THINGS THAT

HAPPEN AROUND THE WORLD IN

THE LIVES OF ADULTS,

FAMILIES, THAT IMPACT THE

CHILDREN.

AND THEY ARE OFTEN LEFT

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GORDON?

Gordon: COMING UP, A

PORN ADDICT ON THE VERGE OF

A MENTAL BREAK DOWN.

HE SAT DOWN AND HE ASKED

ME A THOUSANDS QUESTIONS.

AND HE SAID, ERIC, I THINK,

AS YOUR DOCTOR, THAT YOU'RE

GOING CRAZY.

Gordon: HEAR HOW HE

SILENCED THE VOICES IN HIS

HEAD.

UP NEXT.

Terry: FOR YEARS, ERIC

BLEDSOE WAS AT WAR WITH HIS

OWN MIND.

HE WANTED TO GET CLEAN.

HE WANTED TO FIGHT HIS

ADDICTION.

YET THE MORE ERIC FOUGHT,

THE WORSE HE GOT, AND THE

FIGHT WAS DRIVING HIM

CRAZY.

I WOKE UP IN THE MIDDLE

OF THE NIGHT, AND I'M NOT A

WEIRD GUY, BUT I SWEAR TO

YOU IT WAS ALMOST LIKE

AUDABLY TAUNTING ME.

HE WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY

PORNOGRAPHY.

HE SAT HOME ALONE DAY AFTER

DAY.

WHEN YOU'RE ALONE WITH

YOUR THOUGHTS, SITTING ON

THE COUCH, IT IS AWFUL.

I FELT AND KNEW THAT

SOMETHING WAS SO BROKEN AND

SO WRONG IN MY HEART.

Reporter: HE GREW UP IN

CHURCH AND ACCEPTED CHRIST

WHEN HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD,

BUT WALKED AWAY AFTER A

HUMILIATING CONFLICT WITH

CHRISTIAN LEADERS DURING

COLLEGE.

I BECAME VERY HURT AND

VERY BIDDER.

I CHOSE TO RUN TOWARDS

WHATEVER WOULD TAKE ME IN.

Reporter: ERIC DROPPED

OUT OF SCHOOL AND EVENTUALLY

MOVED TO NASHVILLE TO PURSUE

A MUSIC CAREER.

ALONE IN A NEW CITY, ERIC

TURNED TO PORNOGRAPHY FOR

COMFORT.

I JUST DIDN'T WANT

ANYTHING OR ANYONE, AND THIS

WAS THE ONLY THING I COULD

TURN TO, I THOUGHT.

PORNOGRAPHY WAS A GREAT

NARCOTIC BECAUSE IT WAS

WHATEVER I WANTED IT TO BE.

IT LIKED YOU, AND IT WOULD

FULFILL YOU, AND AS SOON AS

YOU HAVE GIVEN YOURSELF TO

IT, IT STABS YOU IN THE

BACK.

Reporter: HE EVENTUALLY

TURNED TO WOMEN FOR

COMPANIONSHIP, AND BOUNCED

FROM ONE RELATIONSHIP TO THE

NEXT.

I NEEDED INTIMACY TO FEEL

LOVED, TO FEEL VALIDATED AS

A MAN, TO FEEL IN CONTROL

BECAUSE MY WHOLE LIFE WAS IN

A TAIL SPIN, TO FEEL A SENSE

OF BELONGING TO ANYTHING.

Reporter: HE ALSO

STARTED GOING TO A STRIP

CLUB.

THAT WAS MY MOMENT OF, I

AM SICK.

I'M IN A STRIP CLUB, AND YET

I CAN'T EVEN ENJOY IT

BECAUSE I'M SO OVERCOME WITH

COMPASSION FOR THIS PERSON

BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO BE

WHOLE, AND YET I AM IN THE

SAME BOAT AS SHE IS.

Reporter: ERIC RAN TO

THE ONLY PEOPLE HE COULD

TRUST, HIS PARENTS.

THEY DIDN'T KNOW ANY OF

THE THINGS THAT I WAS

DOING.

I GOT IN A HUGE FIGHT ABOUT

THE PURPOSE AND VALUE OF MY

LIFE, AND IT GOT SO BAD

EVENTUALLY THEY SAID, LOOK,

WE LOVE YOU AND WE ARE OUT

OF OUR LEAGUE HERE.

YOU NEED SOME HELP.

Reporter: HE WENT TO

SEE A PHYSICIAN WHO'S

PRESCRIPTION CAUGHT HIM

OFF-GUARD.

HE SAT DOWN AND ASKED ME

A THOUSAND QUESTIONS WITH

HIS CHART.

AND THEY STARTED OFF

MEDICALLY AND THEY WENT MORE

AND MORE PERSONAL AND

PSYCHOLOGICAL AT SOME

POINT.

AND HE SAID, ERIC, THE WAY

THAT YOU BELIEVE AND THE

THINGS THAT YOU DO ARE IN

SUCH CONTRADICTION TO EACH

OTHER THAT I THINK, AS YOUR

DOCTOR, THAT YOU'RE GOING

CRAZY.

HE SAID, IF I WERE YOU, AS

YOUR MEDICAL DOCTOR, NOT

YOUR PASTOR, I THINK THE

BEST PRESCRIPTION I COULD

WRITE FOR YOU IS FOR YOU TO

GO TO CHURCH.

Reporter: ERIC DROVE

HOME TO NASHVILLE, AND

CALLED A FRIEND WHO JUST

HAPPENED TO BE GOING TO A

CHRISTIAN CONFERENCE.

HE INVITED ERIC TO GO

ALONG.

I KNEW I COULDN'T SAY NO

TO THE LORD FOREVER.

ALL OF THOSE FEARS AND

EMOTIONS AND SHAME AND GUILT

ARE SO LOUD IN MY HEAD, AND

THEY ARE PLAYING LIKE A

TAPE, OVER AND OVER, YOU

NEED TO GET OUT.

YOU SHOULD NOT BE HERE.

WAIT UNTIL THEY FIND OUT

WHAT YOU'VE DONE.

ALL OF THOSE THINGS.

THEY'RE GOING TO REJECT YOU

AGAIN.

BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, IT WAS SO

LOUD.

Reporter: HE WALKED

FORWARD THAT NIGHT TO

REDEDICATE HIS LIFE TO

CHRIST.

WHEN I SET MY FACE TO

WALK DOWN THE AISLE, IT JUST

STOPPED.

ME PUTTING MY FOOT IN THE

AISLE AND WALKING UP FRONT

TO TALK TO ANYBODY REQUIRED

ABSOLUTE SURRENDER BECAUSE

OF HOW FAR I HAD BEEN.

Reporter: ERIC BEGAN

STUDYING THE BIBLE AND FOUND

A MAN WHO WOULD MENTOR HIM.

I WAS GOING TO DIE IF I

DIDN'T CHANGE.

IT MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN THE

WEEK AFTER, BUT I WAS ON A

PATH TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE OR

LOSE IT, JUST OUT OF SHEAR

DEPRESSION AND LONELINESS.

AND ONLY THING THAT I HAVE

EVER SEEN, THAT I HAVE EVER

HEARD WORK, IS WHEN YOU

CULTIVATE SUCH A

RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST,

THAT IT BECOMES A GREATER

HIGH THAN LOGGING ON TO

PORN.

TO BE CHASED WHOLLY UNTO

GOD, SO MUCH WHICH TO SELL

OUT TO PORN IS LIKE A JOKE.

I'M PRACTICING RENEWING MY

MIND, BEING AROUND MEN AND

WOMEN OF GOD, BEING IN

CHURCH, DOING THE RIGHT

THING, AND SLOWLY, OVER

TIME, ONE THING IS REPLACED

FOR ANOTHER, AND EVENTUALLY

IT JUST CLICKED.

Reporter: TODAY ERIC IS

MARRIED WITH A YOUNG SON.

I LONG TO BE FAITHFUL TO

MY WIFE NOW.

WHY WOULD I GIVE UP MY HOME,

MY MARRIAGE AND MY FAMILY

FOR 15 MINUTES WITH A

COMPUTER?

COME ON.

THERE IS A PLACE THAT IS

ONLY MEANT FOR GOD.

AND WHEN WE TRY TO TAKE

ANYTHING THAT'S NOT GOD AND

FILL THAT VOID IN US WITH

IT, WE ALSO END UP MORE

EMPTY AND MORE ALONE AND

MORE DEPRESSED.

THERE SA GOD WHO SEES YOU,

JESUS, WHO KNOWS THE THINGS

THAT YOU'RE CHOOSING OVER

HIM, THE THINGS YOU'VE BEEN

A PART OF, AND HE IS WAITING

TO FORGIVE YOU FOR THOSE

THINGS.

HE HAS DECIDED THAT HE WOULD

RATHER DIE THAN LIVE WITHOUT

YOU.

Terry: THERE IS A PLACE

IN EACH ONE US THAT IS ONLY

MEANT FOR GOD.

AND YOU KNOW, SIN PROMISES

US SATISFACTION.

IT PROMISES US POSITION,

POWER, MONEY, THE THINGS

THAT WE THINK IT WILL TAKE

TO MAKE US HAPPY, AND IN THE

END, WE ARE EMPTIER THAN WE

WHEN STARTED.

BUT WHEN JESUS CHRIST COMES

INTO THAT PLACE CREATED FOR

HIM IN OUR HEARTS AND LIVES,

ALL OF THOSE OTHER THINGS

JUST FALL BY THE WAYSIDE,

AND WE SAY, WHY DIDN'T I GET

THIS BEFORE?

IT IS BECAUSE SIN TRAPS US.

IT TRAPS THE WAY WE THINK.

IT TRAPS THE WAY WE SEE

THINGS.

IT TRAPS US IN SHAME, LIKE

ERIC WAS TALKING ABOUT,

WHERE YOU'RE AFRAID TO EVEN

TELL ANYBODY WHO YOU REALLY

ARE, IN THE QUIET AND THE

DARK OF YOUR OWN HOME AND

LIFE, BUT GOD CREATED YOU

WITH A HOPE AND A FUTURE,

WITH PROMISES IN MIND TO BE

ONE OF HIS KIDS.

TO HAVE LIFE, AND HAVE IT

ABUNDANTLY.

WHEN WE DON'T HAVE THAT,

IT'S BECAUSE WE CHOOSE NOT

TO.

TODAY YOU CAN MAKE A CHOICE

TO COME OUT OF THE DARK INTO

THE LIGHT.

WHATEVER IT IS THAT IS

HOLDING YOU BACK, THAT IS

KEEPING YOU FROM KNOWING AND

LOVING AND BEING LOVED BY

HIM, YOU CAN COME OUT FROM

UNDER THAT RIGHT NOW.

IT IS AS SIMPLE AS DECLARING

IT, AS SPEAKING IT, AS

DETERMINING IT IN YOUR

HEART.

NOT JUST EMPTY WORDS, BUT A

HUNGER WITHIN YOU THAT SAYS,

GOD, I'M DONE WITH ME.

I WANT YOU.

YOU CAN HAVE THAT RIGHT

NOW.

YOU CAN HAVE IT RIGHT NOW.

JUST STOP WHAT YOU'RE DOING

AND MEAN THIS.

COMMUNE WITH GOD, WITH ME,

RIGHT NOW.

JUST BOW YOUR HEAD AND LET'S

PRAY TOGETHER.

GOD, I AM SO SICK OF MY

SIN.

I'M SICK OF MYSELF.

I'M SICK OF LIFE.

JESUS, I WANT WHAT YOU SAID

YOU CAME FOR.

I WANT TO HAVE FREEDOM AND

LIFE AND HAVE IT

ABUNDANTLY.

YOUR WAY.

NOT MY WAY.

NOT THE WORLD'S WAY.

I'VE TRIED ALL OF THAT.

I'M HOOKED ON SOME STUFF

THAT HAS REALLY DISTORTED

WHO I AM AND WHO YOU ARE.

AND I'M FALLING ON MY FACE

BEFORE YOU TODAY SAYING

PLEASE HELP ME.

HELP ME.

RESTORE UNTO ME THE JOY OF

MY SALVATION.

GIVE ME EYES TO SEE WHAT YOU

SEE, EARS TO HEAR YOU WHEN

YOU SPEAK TO ME.

GOD, I'M ASKING YOU TODAY TO

FORGIVE MY SIN.

I CALL IT THAT.

I KNOW WHAT IT IS.

I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN WHAT IT

IS.

I'M NOT ENTERTAINING IT

ANYMORE IN MY LIFE.

I GIVE IT TO YOU.

JESUS, HELP ME.

SET ME FREE TODAY.

BE THE LORD OF MY LIFE.

I DON'T WANT TO CALL THE

SHOTS ANYMORE.

I GIVE IT TO YOU.

COME INTO ME, SOW ME WITH

YOUR SPIRIT.

TEACH ME DAILY, MOMENT BY

MOMENT, HOW TO LIVE FOR YOU

AND WALK IN THE FULLNESS OF

WHO YOU ARE.

I RECEIVE YOU TODAY IN EVERY

ASPECT OF MY LIFE, ON EVERY

LEVEL OF MY BEING.

TAKE MY LIFE AND MAKE IT

COUNT FOR YOU.

THANK YOU, GOD, FOR WAITING

FOR ME.

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME.

THANK YOU FOR MERCY AND

GRACE THAT GOES BEYOND

ANYTHING I COULD HOPE FOR,

AND CERTAINLY DON'T

DESERVE.

TODAY I WANT TO BE YOURS,

LORD.

I DRAW THE LINE EN TH IN

THE SAND.

YOU TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE

AND SHOW ME HOW TO LIVE.

IN JESUS' NAME, I PRAY.

AMEN.

IF YOU'VE PRAYED THAT

PRAYER, THEN THE JOURNEY HAS

BEGUN FOR YOU.

IT'S NEW.

IT'S FRESH.

IF YOU WANT TO PRAY WITH

SOMEONE ABOUT THE COMMITMENT

YOU'VE JUST MADE, CALL THE

NUMBER ON YOUR SCREEN.

IT'S 1-888-777-1999.

THE PERSON WHO SAYS HELLO ON

THE OTHER END OF THE LINE IS

SOMEBODY WHO HAS ALREADY

PRAYED THE PRAYER YOU JUST

PRAYED.

THEY'RE WAITING TO HEAR FROM

YOU, SO CALL RIGHT NOW.

GORDON?

Gordon: THIS IS "700

CLUB INTERACTIVE," WHERE WE

INTERACT WITH YOU.

LET'S GO TO JOSEPH IN THE

CHATROOM.

WE HAVE CONNIE IN THE

CHATROOM, AND SHE SAYS, "MY

BROTHER HAS BEEN ADDICTED TO

CRACK FOR MANY YEARS.

HE GOES TO CHURCH OFF AND

ON, AND SEEMS TO HAVE A

DECISION FOR CHRIST.

AFTER A WHILE, HE RETURNS TO

LIVING THE LIFE ANY WAY HE

WANTS.

WILL IT ALWAYS BE THIS WAY

FOR HIM?

WILL HE EVER BE ABLE TO GET

RID OF DRUGS?

WHAT DO YOU SUPPOSE THE LORD

IS THINKING ABOUT HIM?

I'M PRETTY ANGRY WITH HIM."

Gordon: THE BIBLE TELLS

US CLEARLY WHAT THE LORD IS

THINKING ABOUT HIM, THAT HE

HAS THOUGHTS OF GOOD, NOT

EVIL, TO GIVE YOUR BROTHER A

FUTURE AND A HOPE.

THAT'S WHAT GOD WANTS.

I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE

ANGRY, BUT GOD IS NOT ANGRY

WITH HIM.

GOD'S LOVE WILL WIN OUT.

NOW, IF YOUR BROTHER HAS

MADE A DECISION FOR CHRIST,

JUST KEEP REMINDING HIM OF

THAT.

AND LET THAT PERFECT LOVE

THAT CHRIST WANTS TO GIVE

HIM DRIVE OUT THE DESIRE TO

GO BACK AND USE CRACK

COCAINE.

IT WORKS.

LOVE NEVER FAILS.

AND JUST GET HIM TURNING

BACK INTO THAT LOVE.

ONE OF THE THINGS ADDICTIONS

LIKE TO DO IS THEY LIKE TO

HIDE IN GUILT AND SHAME.

AND SO YOU NEED TO JUST

REMIND YOUR BROTHER THERE'S

NO MORE CONDEMNATION FOR

THOSE WHO ARE IN CHRIST

JESUS.

YOU CAN BE FREE.

LET'S GO BACK TO JOSEPH FOR

ANOTHER CHAT.

DAKOTA SAYS, "I HAVE

PRAYED FOR TWO DECADES FOR

MY DAUGHTER TO BE SAVED.

BUT SHE STILL CLAIMS TO HATE

GOD.

SHE HAS A HISTORY OF

PROMISCUITY, DRUG ABUSE, AND

NO FUTURE.

I'M SO DISHEARTENED.

WILL GOD EVER ANSWER MY

PRAYER TO SAVE HER?"

Gordon: YES.

GOD ANSWERS PRAYER.

I WOULD ENCOURAGE YOU TO

PRAY TWO SPECIFIC PRAYERS:

ONE, THAT THE PRODIGAL WILL

COME TO THEMSELVES.

THAT'S THE KEY.

THEY'VE GOT TO COME TO

THEMSELVES.

AND PRAY JEREMIAH 3: 13:

THAT GOD WOULD SEND

MESSENGERS AFTER HIS OWN

HEART TO YOUR DAUGHTER.

WE LEAVE YOU WITH THESE

WORDS FROM PROVERBS: "THE

NAME OF THE LORD IS A STRONG

TOWER.

THE RIGHTEOUS RUN TO IT AND

ARE SAVED."

GOD BLESS YOU.

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