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700 Club Interactive: Grieving a Broken Heart - August 8, 2013

I do or I don’t? Blogger and filmmaker Gil Gatch shares about his break-up with religion. Read Transcript


Terry: IT SHOULD HAVE

BEEN THE HAPPIEST DAY OF HIS

LIFE.

WHEN I THINK OF MARRIAGE,

I THINK OF NO MATTER WHAT

THE COST, NO MATTER WHAT THE

SITUATION, IT IS FOREVER.

Terry: BUT THE

HONEYMOON WAS SOON OVER.

MAY 23rd, SHE SENT ME

AN E-MAIL AND SAID HE WANTED

A LEGAL SEPARATION.

Terry: HEAR HOW HE

HEALED HIS BROKEN HEART ON

TODAY'S "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE."

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Terry: HI, EVERYBODY.

WELCOME TO THE SHOW.

GORDON IS OUT TODAY, AND

JOINING US AGAIN IS "700

CLUB" PRODUCER DAVID

KITHCART, AND, DAVID, IT IS

GREAT TO HAVE YOU BACK.

THANKS, DEAR.

IT IS GOOD TO BE HERE.

TODAY WE WANT TO TALK ABOUT

ONE OF LIFE'S MOST MEMORABLE

MOMENTS, FROM THE FAIRYTALE

DRESS TO THE PERFECT VENUE.

A WEDDING DAY IS A DREAM

COME TRUE.

FOR NEWLYWEDS GILL AND

SYDNEY, THEIR WEDDING WAS

PICTURE-PERFECT.

BUT ONLY A FEW SHORT MONTHS

AFTER THEY SAID I DO, SYDNEY

SAID, I DON'T.

I HAVE TO ASK YOU A

QUESTION?

WILL YOU MARRY ME?

* PUT YOUR HANDS TOGETHER

I REMEMBER ME THINKING

CHRIST'S QUALITIES WERE IN

HER.

THE LORD DEFINITELY

BROUGHT US TOGETHER.

I KNEW THE SECOND I SAW

HIM.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HIS

NAME.

I WASN'T OUTRAGEOUSLY

PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED TO

HIM.

IT WAS JUST ONE OF THOSE

THINGS I KNEW.

THE WIFE'S MAIN JOB IS TO

SUBMIT.

BUT WE DECIDED NOT TO EVEN

KISS.

YEAH.

THE DECISION, FOR SOME

REASON -- WHEN I WAS SAVED,

EVERYTHING THAT I KNEW

REALLY BECAME A PART OF A

GUY'S LIFE, WHO I

REMEMBERED, HIS NAME WAS

GILL, BUT IT WASN'T ME.

I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING

TO TALK ABOUT LAST NIGHT.

WHAT TIME?

LAST NIGHT.

WHEN I THINK OF MARRIAGE,

I THINK OF NO MATTER WHAT

THE COST, NO MATTER WHAT THE

SITUATION, IT'S FOREVER.

THE MARRIAGE WORKS IF YOU

CHOOSE TO MAKE IT WORK AND

YOU SUBMIT IT TO THE LORD

EVERY DAY.

IT IS REALLY HARD, BUT IT IS

THE MOST AMAZING

RELATIONSHIP YOU'LL EVER

HAVE.

A GOSPEL THAT DOESN'T

INCLUDE SUFFERING ISN'T THE

GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST.

YOU KNOW, GILL ACTUALLY

CALLED ME UP IN TEARS AND

SAID, YOU KNOW WHAT?

GOD IS TRYING TO KILL ME.

IT'S BEEN A ROLLERCOASTER

RIDE.

MAY 23rd SHE SENT ME AN

E-MAIL AND SAID SHE WANTED A

LEGAL SEPARATION.

YOU WATCH THOSE MOVIES,

WHERE THERE IS A GUY AND

GIRL AND THEY SPLIT, AND

THERE IS A WAY THAT IT ALL

COMES BACK TOGETHER.

BUT THERE IS NOTHING AT ALL

ABOUT THIS SITUATION IS LIKE

ANY MOVIE I'VE EVER SEEN.

JESUS' SUFFERING HAD A

PURPOSE.

HIS SUFFERINGS ENDED IN THE

DEFEAT OF THE POWER OF SATAN

AND THE POWER OF DEATH.

SATAN IS ALIVE AND HE IS

ON THE MOVE.

HE SAW WHAT THE TWO WERE

BEING TOGETHER.

THE FORCE THEY COULD HAVE

FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD.

I FEEL LIKE WE KNEW IT

WASN'T RIGHT, BUT WE DID IT

ANYWAYS BECAUSE EVERYTHING

WAS ALREADY IN PLACE.

AND WE HAD ALREADY BEEN

PLANNING IT, SO WE JUST DID

IT.

I READ IN THE BIBLE AND

GOD SAID, AND I, QUOTE,"I

HATE DIVORCE."

YOU SAY THIS AND THE

SCRIPTURE SAYS THIS, AND

YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE LIVING

LIKE THIS.

WHICH IS LEGIT.

PEOPLE HAVE THE RIGHT

INTENTION.

IT IS LEGIT, BUT --

THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF

REACHING OUT, BUT THERE

HASN'T BEEN A LOT OF

COMMUNICATION.

I HOPE THAT CHANGES SOON.

TO ME, IT DOESN'T FEEL

LIKE THERE IS A GILL SIDE

AND A SYDNEY SIDE.

THERE IS A GOD SIDE.

IT'S REALLY HARD.

IT IS ALMOST BEEN 13

MONTHS.

HOW LONG AM I SUPPOSED TO

WAIT.

HOW LONG AM I SUPPOSED TO GO

WITHOUT EVEN HEARING HER.

HOW LONG SHOULD YOU WAIT?

THAT'S A TOUGH QUESTION.

*

* WHEN MY EARS HEAR THE

SOUND *

Terry: JOINING US LIVE

IS THE MAN WE SAW IN THAT

VIDEO, GILL GATCH.

WELCOME TO "THE 700 CLUB."

THANK YOU.

GOOD TO BE HERE.

Terry: YOUR STORY IS

BEING TOLD IN THIS

DOCUMENTARY "I DO; I

DON'T."

IT IS TOTALLY FASCINATING.

AND WONDERING AT THE END,

HOW DID THEY HAVE ALL OF

THAT VIDEO TO TELL THAT

STORY.

YOU SAID AS WE WERE WATCHING

IT, IT ALMOST LOOKS FAKE.

IT IS NOT FAKE, BUT YOU WIND

UP SAYING WHY WERE THEY

VIDEOTAPING ALL OF THIS

STUFF.

IN ACTUALITY IT WASN'T

SUPPOSED TO BE WHAT IT

TURNED OUT TO BE.

A LOT OF PEOPLE ASK THAT

QUESTION AND WONDER IF IT IS

FAKE.

THE PRODUCERS HAD APPROACHED

SYDNEY AND MYSELF TO BE PART

OF ANOTHER DOCUMENTARY ABOUT

EVANGELICAL COUPLES GOING

THROUGH DIVORCE.

I GUESS IT WAS DEPRESSING,

SO THEY NEEDED A HAPPY

COUPLE ON THE WAY TO THE

ALTER.

WE VOLUNTEERED.

AND SO NO ONE KNEW WHAT WAS

GOING TO HAPPEN -- HOW COULD

ANYBODY KNOW THAT?

ON THE BACKSIDE OF IT, WHEN

THEY HAD CALLED ME AND

WANTED TO KNOW, CAN I GET

SOME FOOTAGE OF YOUR

ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY, I LET

THEM KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, AND

THEY WANTED TO INTERVIEW US

SOME MORE.

Terry: I'VE GONE

THROUGH A DIVORCE MYSELF, SO

I KNOW HOW VERY, VERY

PAINFUL SOMETHING LIKE THIS

IS.

NO MATTER WHAT SIDE OF THE

AISLE, SO TO SPEAK, THAT

YOU'RE ON, NOW YOU HAVE YOUR

STORY BEING TOLD IN THIS

DOCUMENTARY, AND YOU'RE SO

CANDID ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS

AND YOUR PAIN IN IT.

DOES THAT KIND OF RUB SALT

IN THE WOUND A LITTLE BIT.

I KNOW YOU'VE MOVED ON, BUT

IT IS BEING SEEN BY PEOPLE

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ALL OVER

THE PLACE.

YOU KNOW, IT CAN BE A

LITTLE THERAPEUTIC, TO BE

HONEST.

ON THE OTHER HAND, I WATCHED

IT AGAIN BEFORE WE MET

TODAY, AND IT'S GOOD TO SORT

OF RELIVE IT A LITTLE BIT,

TO REMEMBER WHERE YOU COME

FROM, AND TO BE GRATEFUL TO

THE LORD.

WOW, HE REALLY BROUGHT ME

THROUGH SOME CRAZY STUFF, SO

IT IS NOT THAT BAD.

Terry: YOU WAITED FOR A

LONG TIME -- WE SHOULD SAY

THAT YOU ALL MARRIED AND

SYDNEY KIND OF SAYS IT IN

THERE, EVERYTHING WAS

PLANNED.

BUT YOU DID TALK THE NIGHT

BEFORE, AND THERE WAS SOME

QUESTION ABOUT WHETHER YOU

SHOULD DO THIS OR NOT.

RIGHT.

Terry: IT'S HARD TO

PULL OUT OF SOMETHING LIKE

THAT WHEN FAMILY HAS ARRIVED

AND THE PLANS HAVE BEEN

MADE --

IT IS EMBARRASSING.

Terry: -- AND

EVERYTHING IS READY.

IN HINDSIGHT, WHEN YOU LOOK

BACK AT THAT, WAS IT A

HEADS-UP?

WERE THERE SOME RED FLAGS

THERE?

Terry: UH-HUH.

YES, MA'AM.

IF I COULD RELIVE IT AGAIN,

I WOULD TELL MYSELF, HEY, NO

REASON TO GO THROUGH WITH

THIS RIGHT NOW.

BECAUSE ONCE YOU'RE MARRIED,

I BELIEVE YOU'RE MARRIED.

YOU MADE A COVENANT AND A

PROMISE, AND YOU DON'T TAKE

THAT LIGHTLY AT ALL.

THERE WERE SOME MAJOR RED

FLAGS.

Terry: HINDSIGHT IS

ALWAYS 20/20, RIGHT?

HOW DID YOU BEGIN TO HEAL

AFTER THIS?

YOU WERE HEARTBROKEN,

DEVASTATED, WORLD CAME TO A

SCREECHING HALT, AND THEN ON

TOP OF THAT, YOU HAD THE

CHURCH TO CONTEND WITH, AND

PEOPLE WHO WERE ALL VERY

OPINIONATED ABOUT WHO'S

FAULT IT WAS, AND THIS,

THAT, AND THE OTHER THING.

HOW DID GOD BEGIN TO GIVE

YOU A HEALED HEART AND A

FRESH BEGINNING?

THAT IS ONE OF THE

BIGGEST VICTORIOUS PARTS OF

THIS STORY.

I BELIEVE LOOKING BACK, I

HAD -- BEFORE THE DIVORCE, I

HAD PUT MY VALUE AND

IDENTITY IN MY RELATIONSHIP

WITH HER AND MY STATUS OR

TITLE AT THE CHURCH, THINGS

LIKE THAT.

AND WHEN THAT WAS ALL

STRIPPED AWAY FROM ME, I HAD

NOBODY ELSE BUT GOD TO TURN

TO.

SO I REALLY BEGAN TO GET MY

VALUE AND IDENTITY IN HIM,

SPECIAL ALONE TIME, SEEKING

HIM IN PRAYER AND READING

THE WORD.

AND THAT CHANGED MY LIFE

FOREVER.

BEING CONTENT WAS NO LONGER

AROUND THE CORNER.

OH, WHEN WE GET MARRIED, OR

WHEN WE CAN HAVE THE SPECIAL

HONEYMOON NIGHT, OR WHEN I

GET THIS NEW PROMOTION.

CONTENTMENT WAS IN JESUS

NOW.

Terry: AND IN THE

MOMENT.

YOU GUYS WERE SO FAITHFUL

AND DILIGENT IN WANTING TO

DO THE RIGHT THING AND DO

THE BEST THING.

NOT KISSING UNTIL YOU WERE

MARRIED, AND NOT BEING SEEN

IN PUBLIC DEMONSTRATING YOUR

AFFECTION PUBLICLY.

AND, YOU KNOW, STRIVING FOR

PERFECTION -- I THOUGHT, AS

I WATCHED THIS, WOW, THIS IS

ALSO KIND OF A LESSON IN THE

FACT THAT IT IS OKAY -- I'M

NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT IT IS

FINE TO FALL AND GO AHEAD

AND DO YOUR THING, BUT OKAY

NOT TO BE PERFECTION, NOT TO

BE THE IDEAL SET BEFORE

EVERYONE.

DO YOU REGRET HAVING MADE

THAT CHOICE?

THE PARTS THAT I REGRET,

AND I WOULD WARN SOMEBODY

ABOUT IS IF YOU'RE LIVING

LIFE AS IF YOU'RE IN A GLASS

BOWL, YOU'RE NOT REALLY

BEING HONEST WITH YOURSELF.

I SAY IN THE DOCUMENTARY

THAT WE WERE DOING A DANCE.

AND I REALLY BELIEVE THAT

PEOPLE CAN BE AT RISK FOR

JUST DOING WHAT THEY THINK

OTHERS WANT THEM TO SEE, AND

THEY'RE NOT BEING REAL WITH

THEMSELVES, AND MAYBE NOT

EVEN WITH THE LORD.

I DEFINITELY SORT OF

REGRET -- MAYBE EVEN THE

KISSING THING WAS A BAD

IDEA.

WHO WAS THAT FOR?

WAS THAT FOR THE LORD, OR

WAS THAT FOR OTHER PEOPLE

AND FOR MYSELF, THINKING,

WELL, PEOPLE WILL THINK I'M

SO GREAT AND I'M SO HOLY

THAT I HAVEN'T KISSED.

WHO DOES THAT?

I DON'T KNOW.

I THINK THAT CARING WHAT

OTHER PEOPLE THINK MAY LEAD

TO SOME BAD STUFF.

Terry: TODAY YOU ARE

HAPPILY MARRIED AND HAVE

MOVED ON WITH YOUR LIFE?

YES.

Terry: HOW DID THIS

EXPERIENCE THAT HAD SUCH

PAIN IN IT IMPACT THE LIFE

THAT YOU HAVE NOW, THE

CHOICES THAT YOU'VE MADE?

WELL, BEING MARRIED TO

HEATHER IS WONDERFUL, AND

SHE HAD A VERY SIMILAR

SITUATION TAKE PLACE.

WE OFTEN SAY THERE ARE JUST

CERTAIN THINGS THAT ARE NO

LONGER A BIG DEAL.

YOU MIGHT BE ABLE TO RELATE

TO THIS.

IT IS CERTAIN LITTLE THINGS,

LIKE THAT TOWEL ON THE FLOOR

IN THE BATHROOM -- I'LL PICK

IT UP.

Terry: I CAN GET OVER

THAT.

EXACTLY.

WE'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT.

WE'VE BEEN SORT OF REFINED

BY THAT FIRE-TYPE

EXPERIENCE.

YES, THERE IS A PERSPECTIVE

THAT COMES WITH BEING

THROUGH TRAGEDY.

Terry: AND HONESTY IS

SUCH A HARD THING TO REALLY

BE HONEST ABOUT.

YOU KNOW?

BUT IT IS A VERY COMPELLING

DOCUMENTARY.

I REALLY WAS FASCINATED BY

IT.

AND ESPECIALLY BY YOUR

CANDOR.

JUST THANK YOU FOR SHARING

YOUR HEART SO OPENLY IN THE

DOCUMENTARY, AND EVEN AFTER

THE FACT, FOR USING IT TO

KIND OF SPUR HONESTY IN ALL

OF US.

IT IS GREAT TO HAVE YOU WITH

US TODAY.

THANKS FOR BEING WITH US.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Terry: TH IF YOU WANT

TO FIND OUT MORE ABOUT

GILL'S STORY, GO TO

700clubinteractive.com WITH

MORE INFORMATION.

AND IF YOU'RE DEALING WITH

THIS ISSUE, WE WANT YOU TO

KNOW THAT WE'RE HERE TO PRAY

FOR YOU.

BREAKING UP IS HARD TO DO.

HEALING IS HARD TO DO.

OUR NUMBER, BY THE WAY, IF

YOU WOULD LIKE PRAYER, IS

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COMING UP, A FATHER WHO WAS

SO DISTRESSED ABOUT THE

BIRTH OF THIS DAUGHTER THAT

HE ACTUALLY CONTEMPLATED

SUICIDE.

FIND OUT WHAT CHANGED HIS

MIND WHEN WE RETURN.

Terry: WELL, THE BIRTH

OF A CHILD IS SUPPOSED TO BE

A HAPPY TIME.

BUT WHEN BABY ANNIE'S FATHER

FIRST SAW HER, HE ACTUALLY

CONSIDERED KILLING HIMSELF.

AND YOU'RE ABOUT TO SEE

WHY.

Reporter: LITTLE BABY

ANNIE WAS BORN WITH A CLEFT

LIP.

SHE IS DOUGLAS AND ANNA'S

ONLY CHILD.

AT THE HOSPITAL, A DOCTOR

TOLD THEM TO SCHEDULE

SURGERY RIGHT AWAY FOR THE

BABY, BUT THEY COULD NOT

AFFORD IT.

WHEN I LOOKED AT HER ON

THE BED, I WOULD BEGIN TO

CRY.

I ASKED GOD TO HEAL HER, TO

SEND SOMEONE TO OPERATE ON

THE CHILD.

Reporter: DOUGLAS'

REACTION WAS EVEN MORE

HEARTBREAKING.

I WAS SO DISTRESSED.

I WOULD CRY.

AND AT TIMES, THE IDEA OF

KILLING MYSELF CAME INTO MY

MIND.

Reporter: ONE DAY ANNA

SAW A FLIER FOR "OPERATION

BLESSING," WHICH WAS

OFFERING FREE CLEFT LIP AND

PALATE SURGERY.

ANNA APPLIED, AND A FEW DAYS

LATER "OPERATION BLESSING"

CALLED.

I WAS SO HAPPY.

IT WAS A MIRACLE.

I WAS NOT EXPECTING IT AT

ALL.

Reporter: BABY ANNA'S

SURGERY WAS SUCCESSFUL.

JUST A FEW DAYS LATER, WE

WENT BACK TO SEE HOW THE

YOUNG FAMILY WAS DOING.

I FEEL SO GREA GRATEFUL

TO THOSE WHO HELPED OUR

LITTLE GIRL.

THEY ARE WONDERFUL.

I AM GRATEFUL THAT MY

DAUGHTER HAS A NEW SMILE AND

HOPE FOR THE FUTURE.

THANK YOU.

Terry: YOU KNOW, IT

MIGHT SEEM EXTREME TO YOU

THAT A DAD WOULD CONSIDER

TAKING HIS LIFE BECAUSE HIS

DAUGHTER HAS A CLEFT LIP AND

CLEFT PALLET, BECAUSE HERE

IN AMERICA, IF A CHILD IS

BORN LIKE THAT, IT IS

CORRECTED IMMEDIATELY.

IN A COUNTRY LIKE THEY'RE

IN, NOT ONLY IS IT NOT

IMMEDIATELY CORRECTED, YOU

HAVE TO PAY FOR THAT.

THERE ARE NO FUNDS FOR

THAT.

THIS IS A YOUNG COUPLE.

THEY HAD NO CAPACITY TO DO

IT.

THE CHILD IS OSTRACIZED IN

THE COMMUNITY THEY LIVE IN.

IT IS DIFFICULT TO GET FOOD

AND DRINK INTO HER SO SHE

CAN BE NEWER RISHED. NOURISHED.

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DAVE?

STILL AHEAD, SHE GAVE ONE

MAN EVERYTHING, BUT HE GAVE

LITTLE IN RETURN.

HE STILL DIDN'T MARRY

ME.

I THOUGHT, WHAT WAS I DOING

WRONG?

IS MY TECHNIQUE WRONG?

MAYBE I'LL CHANGE MY

MAKEUP.

THE STAR OF "GIRLFRIENDS"

ON HOW SHE FOUND TRUE LOVE,

AFTER THIS.

WHEN ACTRESS C.C. WALKED

AWAY FROM THE SHOW

"GIRLFRIENDS," NO ONE WAS

MORE SURPRISED THAN C.C.

HERSELF.

BUT SHE HAS NEVER LOOKED

BACK.

SHE NOW HAS A DIFFERENT

STAGE AND A ROLE THAT IS

CHANGING YOUNG LIVES.

FROM BROADWAY TO

HOLLYWOOD, HER GLITTERING

SMILE AND SPARKLING

PERSONALITY HAVE CAPTURED

AUDIENCES.

SHE IS BEST KNOWN FOR HER

UNFORGETTABLE ROLE ON THE

HIT TV SHOW, "GIRLFRIENDS."

SHE PLAYED YVONNE.

YET AT THE HEIGHT OF HER

SUCCESS, SHE WALKED AWAY

FROM A GLAMOROUS SUCCESS TO

FIND SOMETHING MORE.

I WAS SUCH A SINGER AND

DANCER, BROADWAY WAS

EVERYTHING FOR ME.

Reporter: HER SINGLE

MOTHER SCRAPED MONEY

TOGETHER FOR SINGING AND

DANCE LESSONS.

ALTHOUGH C.C. GREW UP

SINGING IN CHURCH, SHE

DIDN'T FULLY UNDERSTAND HOW

TO HAVE A REAL RELATIONSHIP

WITH GOD UNTIL SHE GOT

OLDER.

BUT SHE REMEMBERS THE DAY

SHE CRIED OUT TO HIM IN A

PANIC.

I WAS ON MY WAY TO

SCHOOL, AND THE CAR WENT

EXTREMELY OUT OF CONTROL.

IT WAS GOING STRAIGHT FOR

THE TELEPHONE POLE.

AND I JUST SAID, JESUS!

AND I CRAWLED OUT WHAT WAS

LEFT OF A WINDOW, AND NOT

EVEN A RUN IN MY PANTIHOSE.

I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT.

Reporter: C.C. BELIEVED

THE LORD HAD SPARED HER

LIFE.

BUT SHE WASN'T READY TO MAKE

GOD HER TOP PRIORITY.

SHE HEADED TO NEW YORK AND

HER CAREER.

SHE GOT HER FIRST BIG BREAK

IN THE POPULAR MUSICAL

"JELLY'S JAM."

WHAT WAS IT LIKE BEING ON

THE STAGE WITH PEOPLE LIKE

GREGORY HINES?

IT WAS AMAZING TO SEE ALL

OF THE SEATS AND TO THINK,

PEOPLE ARE GOING TO BE

SITTING HERE LIKE MADONNA,

AND HALLE BERRY AND MICHAEL

JACKSON AND DIANA ROSS.

THEY WOULD ALL COME TO SEE

THE STAGE.

AND THEY WOULD COME BACK

STAGE AND SAY YOU'RE

AWESOME.

AND I WAS, LIKE, ME?

Reporter: SOON AFTER,

C.C. MOVED TO HOLLYWOOD.

SHE LANDED GUEST SPOTS ON

SOME OF TELEVISION'S TOP

SHOWS, INCLUDING "THE FRESH

PRINCE OF BELAIRE," AND

"CHICAGO HOPE."

BUT INSIDE THERE WAS AN

EMPTY FEELING SHE COULDN'T

SHAKE.

IN TRYING TO GROW UP AND

LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL OF

THE WRONG PLACES BECAUSE I

DIDN'T HAVE A FATHER, I HAD

NO IDEA IT WOULD CAUSE ME TO

REALLY YEARN AND WANT TO BE

WANTED, SO TO SPEAK.

EVEN THOUGH I HAD IT ALL

TOGETHER, AND I WAS MAKING

MONEY, I THOUGHT IT WAS SO

IMPORTANT TO HAVE A

BOYFRIEND.

AND IT FELT GOOD.

THE COMFORT OF HAVING A

FRIEND, SOMEONE THERE TO

TALK TO.

BUT I HAD NO IDEA THAT GOD

COMES FIRST.

Reporter: IN THE PEWS

OF A SMALL CHURCH IN

HOLLYWOOD, C.C. DISCOVERED

THE LOVE SHE HAD SEARCHED

FOR SO LONG.

AS SHE READ THE BIBLE, SHE

BEGAN TO UNDERSTAND THE

TRUTH ABOUT GOD.

AT A STOREFRONT CHURCH BY

THE NAME OF THE BURNING BUSH

CHURCH, PASTOR LES

ROBERTSON, HE JUST BROKE

DOWN THE WORD AND IT WAS SO

EASY TO APPLY IT.

EVERY SUNDAY I WOULD RUN

HOME AND WANT TO APPLY IT

QUICKLY.

I DIDN'T WANT TO WAIT.

AS I BEGAN TO LEARN THE WORD

OF GOD, HONESTLY AND TRULY,

I SAID, WOW, I'VE GOT TO

CLEAN UP MY ACT.

THE WAY THAT I SPEAK, THE

WAY THAT I TALK, THE WAY

THAT I WALK.

Reporter: C.C.

SURRENDERED EVERY PART OF

HER LIFE TO JESUS.

EVEN HER DATING

RELATIONSHIPS.

SHE FINALLY HAD ENOUGH OF

THE HEARTACHE BROUGHT ON BY

PRE-MARITAL SEX.

WHAT PROMPTED YOU TO

BECOME PURE, TO LIVE A LIFE

OF ABSTINENCE?

IT WAS THE HEARTBREAK.

IT WAS THE EMOTIONS.

GIVING HIM MY EVERY BODY,

AND EVERYTHING HE DESIRED

AND WANTED, AND HE STILL

DIDN'T MARRY ME.

AND I'M GOING, YOU KNOW,

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

IS MY TECHNIQUE WRONG?

AND I'M THINKING, LET ME DO

IT AGAIN.

LET ME GET IT RIGHT.

MAYBE IT IS THE OUTFIT.

MAYBE I'LL CHANGE MY

MAKEUP.

MAYBE I'LL CHANGE MY HAIR.

AND NO MATTER WHAT I DID,

THEY STILL DIDN'T MARRY ME.

AND I FINALLY SAID,

SOMETHING'S WRONG.

SOMETHING'S WRONG.

I WENT OVER TO GOD IN

PRAYER, AND I BEGAN TO READ

THE WORD, AND THAT'S HOW

PROVERBS 18: 22 -- AND I

FOUND OUT, YOU KNOW WHAT,

SATAN?

BECAUSE OF THE LACK OF

KNOWLEDGE, MANY THINGS

PERISH.

MY VIRGINITY PERISHED, AND

MY EMOTIONS PERISHED, AND I

FELT EMPTY.

I SAID, GOD, YOU'VE GOT TO

COME AND FILL ME UP.

AND HE DID.

HE CAME AND FILLED ME WITH

HIS WORD AND HE LET ME BE

KNOW I CAN BE RESTORED.

AND THAT I AM STILL

BEAUTIFUL, AND I'M NOT UGLY

AND USED.

AND I'M NOT ABUSED.

YOU MAY FEEL LIKE THAT, BUT

I'M GOING TO CLEAN YOU UP,

BABY.

WHITE AS SNOW.

Reporter: AS C.C. GREW

IN HER FAITH, HER CAREER

TOOK A TURN.

AT THE TIME, SHE HAD A

RECURRING ROLE ON THE TV

SHOW "GIRLFRIENDS."

I HEARD IT SO CLEARLY

FROM GOD, THE HOLY SPIRIT

SAID, "THIS IS YOUR LAST

DAY."

AND I WAS, LIKE, IS THE SHOW

CLOSING?

AND WASN'AND IT WASN'T.

Reporter: WHEN SHE READ

OVER HER SCRIPT THAT DAY, IT

ALL BECAME CLEAR.

I READ OVER THE SCRIPT,

BY THE TIME I GOT TO PAGE

THREE OR FOUR, MY CHARACTER,

YVONNE, WAS WRITTEN SO

DIFFERENTLY.

YVONNE IS USUALLY VERY

STRONG, FUNNY.

SHE SEEMED WEAKER TO ME.

SHE WAS DOING THINGS SHE

WOULDN'T NORMALLY DO, AND

THERE WAS SOME SEXUAL

ACTIONS AND THINGS AND WORDS

THEY HAD WRITTEN.

Reporter: C.C. ASKED

THE PRODUCERS TO CHANGE THE

SCRIPT.

AND THEY SAID, YOU HAVE

TO DO IT THE WAY WE WROTE

IT.

I SAID, I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND

YOU HAVE A JOB TO DO THERE,

AND THIS IS THE SHOW, THIS

IS "GIRLFRIENDS," AND IT HAS

TO BE DONE.

I UNDERSTAND.

SO I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND

THE GOD THAT I SERVE AND WHO

MY FATHER IS, AND HIS NAME

IS JESUS CHRIST.

AND AT THIS TIME, BECAUSE IT

CAN'T BE CHANGED AND IT IS

GOING AGAINST WHAT I BELIEVE

AS A CHRISTIAN, I'M GOING TO

HAVE TO WALK AWAY FROM THE

SHOW.

BASICALLY I WALKED RIGHT OFF

OF THAT SET.

IT TOOK ME ABOUT 15 MINUTES

TO PACK EVERYTHING UP.

AND THE GATES OF PARAMOUNT

CLOSED AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN

BACK SINCE.

MAYBE ONE DAY.

BUT I'M HAPPY.

I AM HAPPY ABOUT THE MOVE

THAT I MADE.

I WALKED RIGHT OFF OF THE

SET AND REALLY INTO MY

MINISTRY.

GOD'S NETWORK.

Reporter: NOW C.C.

SHARES THE JOY SHE HAS FOUND

IN CHRIST WITH HUNDREDS OF

YOUNG GIRLS.

SHE ENCOURAGES THEM TO LIVE

A LIFE OF PURITY, JUST AS

SHE HAS FOR THE LAST EIGHT

YEARS.

HER STORY REMINDS THEM THAT

IN CHRIST THERE IS FREEDOM

FROM PAST MISTAKES AND HOPE

FOR A FRESH START.

THANK GOD FOR THE WORD

AND THE TRUTH.

AND THAT TRUTH SET ME FREE.

GOD'S TRUTH REALLY WILL

SET YOU FREE.

BUT GOING BACK IN THAT

STORY, I WAS REALLY STRUCK

BY C.C. BEING REJECTED, AND

THE GRIEF THAT REALLY CAME

OUT OF THAT.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE A WOMAN

TO FEEL THAT REJECTION.

I'VE EXPERIENCED IT MYSELF

BEFORE I WAS MARRIED.

BUT THE GOOD THING IS THIS,

IS THAT YOU CAN TURN TO A

GOD WHO CARES ABOUT

EVERYTHING THAT HAS EVER

HAPPENED TO YOU.

IT EVEN SAYS IN THE BIBLE

THAT HE KEEPS TRACK OF OUR

WANDERINGS AND HAS STORED

ALL OF OUR TEARS IN A

BOTTLE.

THAT'S HOW MUCH HE CARES FOR

YOU.

HE EVEN LOOKS AT EVERY

SINGLE TEAR, EVERYTHING THAT

HAS EVER HURT YOU, HE CARES

ABOUT IT.

AND THAT GRIEF THAT YOU HAD

FROM REJECTION, MAYBE YOU

NEED TO RECONSIDER THAT IT'S

POSSIBLE THAT WHAT WAS THEIR

REJECTION ACTUALLY IS WHAT

GOD USED FOR YOUR

PROTECTION, AND THAT HE HAS

SOMETHING FAR BETTER FOR YOU

THAN WHAT YOU WERE PURSUING

SO HARD.

AND THAT CAUSED YOU SO MUCH

HURT.

WE HAVE TO JUST REALLY LOOK

AT WHAT GOD HAS THAT'S

BIGGER FOR US AND BETTER FOR

US THAN WE COULD EVER

CONSIDER.

AND IF YOU FEEL THAT WAY,

AND IF YOU'RE SOMEONE WHO

HAS EXPERIENCED THAT KIND OF

GRIEF, THAT KIND OF

REJECTION, YOU NEED TO

UNDERSTAND THAT GOD IS THERE

FOR YOU.

HE WANTS YOU.

HE CARES ABOUT YOU.

IN FACT, HE WANTS TO GIVE

YOU SOMETHING THAT IS SO

GREAT THAT IT IS ETERNAL.

HIS LOVE FOR YOU DOESN'T

JUST HAPPEN ONCE AND IT'S

OVER WITH.

IT IS WITH YOU FOR THE REST

OF YOUR LIFE AND THROUGHOUT

ALL OF ETERNITY.

IF YOU COME TO KNOW HIM.

AND HE MAKES IT SO SIMPLE

FOR US, ALSO.

HE SAYS THAT IF YOU CONFESS

WITH YOUR MOUTH THAT JESUS

IS LORD AND BELIEVE IN YOUR

HEART THAT GOD RAISED HIM

FROM THE DEAD, YOU'LL BE

SAVED.

IT'S AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

YOUR SALVATION IS AS SIMPLE

AS BELIEVING AND

CONFESSING.

SO IF YOU WANT THAT, IF YOU

WANT HIS SALVATION, IF YOU

WANT HIM TO INTERVENE IN

YOUR LIFE AND DRY UP ALL OF

THE TEARS AND TAKE AWAY THE

GRIEF AND MAKE YOU A NEW

PERSON, WHY DON'T YOU PRAY

WITH ME.

JUST BOW YOUR HEAD AND PRAY

WITH ME RIGHT NOW, AND I'M

JUST GOING TO PRAY FOR YOU.

HEAVENLY FATHER, WE THANK

YOU FOR THE PEOPLE WHO ARE

BOWING THEIR HEADS NOW AND

SUBMITTING TO YOU,

SUBMITTING TO YOUR LOVE,

SUBMITING TO WHAT YOU HAVE

FOR THEM THAT'S BETTER THAN

ANYTHING THEY COULD EVER

IMAGINE.

GOD, WE THANK YOU FOR THE

FACT THAT YOU ARE FORGIVING

THEIR SINS, EVEN NOW, AS

THEY CONFESS THEM, LORD

GOD.

AND AS THEY CONFESS YOU AS

LORD, AND BELIEVE IN THEIR

HEART THAT YOU WERE RAISED

FROM THE DEAD, THAT THEY ARE

SAVED.

LORD, WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR

GREAT SALVATION.

WE THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING

YOU DO FOR US.

AND WE THANK YOU FOR THE NEW

LIFE THAT YOU HAVE PREPARED

FOR EACH AND EVERY PERSON

WHO HAS PRAYED THIS PRAYER.

WE GIVE YOU PRAISE AND

THANKS IN JESUS' NAME.

IF YOU WANT TO GO ANY

FURTHER INTO THIS AND FIND

OUT MORE ABOUT WHAT YOU JUST

DID, THE COMMITMENT YOU JUST

MADE, CALL THE NUMBER THAT'S

ON THE SCREEN.

IT'S 1-888-777-1999.

AND THERE WILL BE SOMEBODY

THERE TO PRAY WITH YOU A

LITTLE BIT MORE.

GOD BLESS YOU.

TERRY?

Terry: MARGUERITE, WE

HAVE SOMEONE IN THE CHATROOM

WITH A REQUEST TODAY.

THIS IS FROM HANNA WHO

SAYS, "MY AUNT RECENTLY

PASSED AWAY.

WE HAD NOT SPOKEN IN ALMOST

FIVE YEARS.

I REGRETTED THE WAY WE LEFT

THINGS, AND I WANTED TO MAKE

AMENDS.

I JUST THOUGHT WE HAD MORE

TIME.

HOW CAN I MOVE ON WHEN WE

NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO

FORGIVE EACH OTHER?"

Terry: HANNA, ONE GREAT

THING ABOUT FORGIVENESS IS,

IT DOESN'T HAVE TO COME FROM

BOTH SIDES.

YOU CAN BE SET FREE FROM

FORGIVING YOURSELF, AND

FORGIVING YOUR AUNT, AND

COMING BEFORE THE LORD

HUMBLY AND ASKING HIS

BLESSING.

HE IS ALWAYS LISTENING.

IN FACT, OUR SCRIPTURE TODAY

IS FROM THE PSALMS, AND IT

SAYS: "THE RIGHTEOUS CRY

OUT, AND THE LORD DELIVERS

THEM FROM ALL OF THEIR

TROUBLES."

GOD BLESS YOU, WE'LL SEE YOU

NEXT

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