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700 Club Interactive: Temple of the Holy Spirit - Sept. 17, 2013

She was a dancer with the wrong body, and years of pills and purging did nothing. See what changed her self-image in the end. Read Transcript


Terry: A YOUNG DANCER

WITH EVERYTHING TO LOSE.

I THINK I HAD STARVED

MYSELF SO LONG, ONCE I

ACTUALLY GAVE MYSELF

PERMISSION TO EAT, I WOULD

JUST START IN AN OUT OF

CONTROL BINGE.

Terry: HOW SHE LEARNED

TO LOVE HERSELF ON TODAY'S

"700 CLUB INTERACTIVE."

Gordon: ON "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE," WE USE

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OTHER AND EXPLORE TOPICS

THAT MATTER TO YOU.

WATCH WHAT GOD IS DOING IN

THE WORLD TODAY.

Terry: HELLO, WELCOME

TO THE SHOW, AND THANKS FOR

SPENDING YOUR MORNING WITH

US.

GORDON IS OUT TODAY, SO

JOINING US IS "700 CLUB"

SENIOR REPORTER SCOTT ROSS.

WELCOME BACK TO THE

INTERACTIVE SHOW.

THAT'S WHO WE ARE, WE'RE

INTERACTIVE.

TWO COMMENTS.

YOU SAY, WHO -- HOW DO YOU

ANY O-U-T?

Terry: OUT.

I'M FROM WISCONSIN.

I'M FROM SCOTLAND, SO I

SAY FUNNY WORDS, TOO.

Terry: OUT.

DID I SAY IT RIGHT?

WE'RE A MESS TOGETHER.

IF YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND US,

GO ON LINE AND SPEAK TO

MARGUERITE IN THE CHATROOM.

SHE SPEAKS PROPER ENGLISH.

AND THEN YOU CALL ME A

SENIOR SOMETHING, AS OPPOSED

TO A JUNIOR SOMETHING.

Terry: WELL, THAT MEANS

YOU'VE BEEN HERE A WHILE AND

YOU HAVE CREDIBILITY.

THIS IS A GOOD THING.

THAT'S A FIRST.

ALL RIGHT, FOLKS, WE'RE

GOING TO DO SOME SERIOUS

BUSINESS HERE.

EVERY YEAR, GET THIS,

AMERICANS SPEND AROUND

$60 BILLION, WITH A "B,"

DOLLARS ON DIET PROGRAMS.

I HAVE NEVER DONE IT.

FROM MEAL REPLACEMENT TO

WEIGHT LOSS PILLS, AMERICANS

ARE FIXATED ON LOSING

WEIGHT.

Terry: THAT'S BECAUSE

YOU'RE A RUNNER.

I'VE SEEN YOU OUT THERE

BEFORE.

TODAY WE'RE GOING TO MEET A

DANCER, ANGELA HUNTLEY, AND

SHE PAID GREAT ATTENTION TO

HER FOOD INTAKE AND HER BODY

SHAPE, SO MUCH SO SHE TOOK

LAXATIVES AND STEARVED

STARVED HERSELF, ALL UNTIL

HER DEPRESSION THREW HER

INTO A PIT OF DEPRESSION.

I LOOKED AT MY STOMACH,

AND MINE SEEMED SO MUCH

BIG.

IN MY MIND, MY ALWAYS SEEMED

SO MUCH LARGER.

I SEEMED WRONG, LIKE I WAS

MADE WRONG.

I STARTED TAKING DANCE.

I WAS ALWAYS VERY MUSCULAR,

AND I HAVE A LARGER FRAME.

AND I LEARNED AT A YOUNG AGE

THAT BECAUSE OF THAT, I WAS

GOING TO WEIGH MORE THAN

SOMEONE ELSE NEXT TO ME.

AND THAT DEVASTATED ME.

I JUST STARTED THIS CYCLE OF

PURGING, AND I WOULD STARVE

ALONG WITH THAT.

AND I WOULD GET POSITIVE

ATTENTION.

I WOULD GET PRAISE, OH, MY

GOSH, YOU LOOK THINNER

TODAY.

AND THAT FELT SO GOOD.

I WOULD FEED OFF OF THAT,

AND IT BECAME AN OBSESSION.

IT STARTED TO OCCUPY ALL OF

MY THOUGHTS.

WHEN I WAS A SENIOR IN HIGH

SCHOOL, I STARTED NOTICING

THAT IT WASN'T WORKING

ANYMORE AND I WAS GAINING

WEIGHT.

THE PURGING WASN'T HAVING

THAT SAME EFFECT.

EVENTUALLY, TWO LAXATIVES

DON'T WORK, SO YOU TAKE

THREE, AND THEN FOUR.

I REMEMBER ONE TIME GRABBING

18.

BUT I WAS GAINING WEIGHT.

I STOPPED EATING.

ALL OF IT JUST FLIPPED AND

PEOPLE STARTED SAYING,

YOU'RE TOO THIN.

YOU LOOK GROSS.

YOU NEED TO STOP THAT.

I GOT A SCHOLARSHIP TO DANCE

AT A PROFESSIONAL DANCE

SCHOOL IN CHICAGO.

I HAD TO DANCE SIX HOURS A

DAY TO KEEP THE

SCHOLARSHIP.

IT REACHED A POINT WHERE I

NEEDED TO EAT.

AND WHEN I STARTED TO EAT, I

COULDN'T STOP EATING.

I THINK I HAD STARVED MYSELF

SO LONG, THAT ONCE I

ACTUALLY GAVE MYSELF

PERMISSION TO EAT, I WOULD

JUST START AND THEN AND OUT

OF CONTROL BINGE.

IT CREATED A HUGE

DEPRESSION.

I GAVE UP MY SCHOLARSHIP.

A WOMAN I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW

VERY WELL CAME UP TO ME AND,

UM, JUST GOT IN MY FACE.

SHE SAID, WE'RE GOING TO

NEED TO TALK.

SHE SAID, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE

DOING.

AND I SAID, WHAT?

AND SHE SAID I KNOW EXACTLY

WHAT YOU'RE DOING.

I KNOW WHY YOUR FACE IS SO

SWOLLEN, AND WHY YOU GO TO

THE BATHROOM AND FLUSH THREE

TIMES SO NO ONE CAN HEAR

YOU.

AND SHE WAS, LIKE, HERE IS

THE DEAL, YOU COULD DIE.

I CANNOT NOT TELL YOUR

PARENTS.

SO SHE WENT WE M WITH ME TO

MY PARENTS.

AND I THOUGHT, IT IS ALL OUT

IN THE OPEN AND IT'S DONE.

BUT IT WASN'T DONE.

I COULDN'T STOP.

THAT'S WHEN MY PARENTS KNEW

I NEEDED HELP.

SO THEY CALLED A TREATMENT

FACILITY AND CHECKED ME IN.

SO I STARTED THREE MONTHS OF

TREATMENT.

WHICH HELPED ME CONTROL THE

BEHAVIOR.

I CREATED AT THAT POINT IN

TREATMENT, JUST A SET OF

FOOD RULES THAT WOULD ALLOW

ME TO FUNCTION, IN MY MIND,

WITHOUT LOSING IT.

SO I CONTROLLED IT WELL.

VERY WELL.

SO EVERYTHING WAS SECONDARY

TO MY PLAN FOR KEEPING

MYSELF GUARDED IN THIS WAY.

AND IT WAS EXHAUSTING.

I WAS IN A BIBLE STUDY AT

THE TIME.

I REMEMBER FEELING THE HOLY

SPIRIT URGING ME, LIKE YOU

NEED PRAYER.

AND I WAS, LIKE, THERE IS NO

WAY I'M LETTING THESE WOMEN

KNOW ABOUT.

AND ANYBODY NEED PRAYER?

AND ALL OF A SUDDEN MY HAND

WENT UP.

MY HAND WENT UP WITHOUT ME

PUTTING IT UP (laughing).

AND THEN I STARTED

SPEAKING.

I JUST TOLD THEM I NEEDED

HELP AND I WAS SICK OF

LIVING THIS WAY, AND THAT I

DIDN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH

THIS STRUGGLE ANYMORE.

AND THEY AGREED TO PRAY FOR

ME.

AND SHORTLY AFTER THAT, GOD

JUST SPOKE TO ME.

AND HE JUST SHOWED ME.

YOU FEEL SO RIGHTEOUS AND

YOU FEEL SO DISCIPLINED, BUT

IT IS IDOLATRY.

AND HE TOOK ME TO 1

CORINTHIANS 6: 19: "DO YOU

NOT KNOW THAT YOUR BODIES

ARE TEMPLES OF THE HOLY

SPIRIT WHO IS IN YOU, WHOM

YOU HAVE RECEIVED FROM GOD.

YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN.

YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE,

AND THEREFORE HONOR GOD WITH

YOUR BODIES."

HE SAID, THAT'S YOU.

YOU'RE MY TEMPLE, AND I

DESIGNED IT JUST PERFECT.

HE JUST WENT THROUGH AND

SHOWED ME HOW WHAT I WAS

DOING WAS CAUSING, ON MY

PART, A SEPARATION FROM

HIM.

THE MEANING OF THE WORD

REPENTANCE, THE GREEK WORD,

METANEO, IS CHANGE THE WAY

YOU PERCEIVE THE WORLD

AROUND YOU.

AND THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED.

EVERYTHING AROUND ME

CHANGED, MY PERCEPTION

CHANGED.

WHEN YOU LET GOD DEFINE YOU

AND SHOW YOU, IT ENDS YOUR

SELF-IMAGE PROBLEM.

AND YOUR SELF-IMAGE BECOMES

HIS REFLECTION.

I TAKE JOY IN WHO I AM NOW

BECAUSE HE CONSTANTLY SHOWS

ME HOW HE DELIGHTS IN ME.

Terry: WHEN THINGS ARE

GO AWRY IN OUR LIVES AND IN

OUR HEARTS AND OUR MINDS,

THE FIRST AUTOMATIC REACTION

WE SEEM TO HAVE IS TO TRY TO

CONTROL ALL OF THAT.

SO THERE IS NOTHING WRONG

WITH GOING AND GETTING

COUNSELLING, AND THERE IS

NOTHING WRONG WITH HAVING AN

EATING SYSTEM THAT YOU

ADHERE TO, BUT THE BIBLE HAS

THE SECRET.

IT SAYS, "YOU'LL THE TRUTH,

AND IT IS THE TRUTH THAT

WILL SET YOU FREE."

ALL OF THOSE OTHER THINGS,

KNOWING IT WAS WRONG, THE

SHAME THAT IT CREATED, GOING

FOR COUNSELLING, HAVING THE

EATING SYSTEM DEVELOPED --

NONE OF IT CHANGED ANGELA.

BUT AS SHE DREW NEAR TO GOD

AND READ HIS WORD AND READ

THE TRUTH OF WHAT WAS

WRITTEN THERE, THE HOLY

SPIRIT OF GOD, THE POWER OF

GOD, THE BREATH OF GOD CAME

INTO THE CENTER OF HER

BEING.

AND SET HER FREE.

ONE OF THE THINGS THAT SHE

SAID THAT I THINK IS SO

POWERFUL IS THAT SHE WAS

JUST TIRED OF THE STRUGGLE,

YOU KNOW?

SOMETIMES WE WORK AND WE

WORK AND WE WORK AND WE

STRUGGLE AND WE STRUGGLE AND

WE STRUGGLE UNTIL WE COME TO

THE END OF OURSELVES.

AND WE SAY, GOD, I CAN'T DO

THIS ANYMORE.

I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS

ANYMORE.

PLEASE BE REAL, BE THE

ANSWER FOR ME.

BE THE POWER I NEED.

BE THE ONE WHO KNOWS.

WHO KNOWS AND LOVES ANYWAY.

AND THAT'S WHO YOUR GOD IS.

HE KNOWS YOU INSIDE AND

OUT.

HE KNOWS ALL OF THE HOPES,

ALL OF THE ASPIRATIONS, ALL

THE FEARS.

ALL OF THE NEEDS.

AND HE LOVES YOU ANYWAY.

AND HE SAYS, COME TO ME.

I WANT TO SET YOU FREE.

TODAY GOD WANTS TO DO THAT

FOR YOU.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS THAT

IS HOLDING YOU.

MAYBE IT IS JUST THE WAY YOU

PERCEIVE YOURSELF, OR THE

WAY YOU PERCEIVE OTHER

PEOPLE AROUND YOU.

YOU KNOW, LIFE LEAVES A MARK

ON ALL OF US AS WE GO ALONG

OUR WAY.

BUT JESUS CAME TO SET THE

CAPTIVE FREE.

AND UNTIL WE EXPERIENCE

THAT, WE'RE ALL CAPTIVE TO

SOMETHING OR SOMEONE.

TODAY CAN BE YOUR DAY.

JUST PRAY WITH ME.

ASK HIM TO DO IT.

THAT'S WHAT HE IS WAITING

FOR.

HE IS NOT WAITING FOR YOU TO

GET GOOD ENOUGH FOR CLEAN

YOURSELF UP.

HE IS ASKING YOU TO ASK HIM,

TO GIVE HIM PERMISSION TO

COME INTO YOU, EVEN THOUGH

HE HAS CREATED YOU WITH A

PLAN AND A PURPOSE.

HE WAITS FOR YOU TO INVITE

HIM.

SO ASK HIM NOW.

JUST SAY THESE SIMPLE WORDS

AND MEAN THEM IN YOUR

HEART.

JESUS, I AM A SINNER IN NEED

OF A SAVIOR.

I'VE BLOWN IT.

YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT

ME.

TODAY I'M RECEIVING NOT JUST

YOUR LOVE, BUT YOUR

FORGIVENESS AND THE NEW

BEGINNING YOU OFFER, AND THE

POWER TO LIVE DIFFERENTLY.

AND I'M JUST SURRENDERING IT

ALL TO YOU, GOD.

COME INTO MY LIFE, COME INTO

MY HEART.

TEACH ME YOUR WAYS.

CHANGE ME.

I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU AND

FOR YOU, AND I WANT YOU TO

LIVE THROUGH ME.

AS UNWORTHY AS I AM, I WANT

TO BE THE VESSEL YOU CREATED

ME TO BE.

WILL YOU DO THAT FOR ME

TODAY?

LORD, IN JESUS' NAME I

PRAY.

LET ME, ONCE AGAIN, REPEAT

THAT VERSE FROM CORINTHIANS

THAT ANGELA TALKED ABOUT.

DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT YOUR

BODY IS THE TEMPLE OF THE

HOLY SPIRIT?

WHO IS IN YOU, WHO YOU HAVE

FROM GOD.

YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN.

FOR YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A

PRICE.

THEREFORE GLORIFY GOD IN

YOUR BODY AND IN YOUR

SPIRIT, WHICH ARE GOD'S.

IF YOU WANT TO PRAY WITH

SOMEBODY ABOUT A NEED IN

YOUR LIFE, CALL THAT

TOLL-FREE NUMBER,

1-888-777-1999.

SCOTT?

Scott: FOR SOME FOLKS,

DIET WAS THE LAST THING IN

THEIR MINDS WHEN THE

TORNADOES HIT OKLAHOMA THIS

YEAR.

FAMILIES WERE LEFT WITHOUT

FOOD, WATER, AND EVEN THEIR

HOMES.

HEAR HOW VIEWERS LIKE YOU

ARE HELPING TO REBUILD

LIVES.

Scott: EARLIER THIS

YEAR, TORNADOES SWEPT

THROUGH OKLAHOMA, LEAVING

NOTHING BUT A TRAIL OF

DESTRUCTION.

SOME FAMILIES WERE LEFT WITH

NOTHING.

BUT VIEWERS LIKE YOU WERE

DETERMINED TO CHANGE THAT.

[HORN BLOWING AND SIRENS]

WHEN I HEARD IT COMING,

AND I KNEW IT WAS A BIG ONE,

I COULD TELL BY THE SOUND OF

IT.

DID YOU HEAR IT?

OH, YEAH.

OVER THE COURSE IT GETS

LOUDER AND LOUDER UNTIL IT

WAS HERE, AND OUTRAGEOUS,

THE SOUND.

IT IS NO WONDER IT DIDN'T

BUST MY EARDRUMS.

BUT IT DIDN'T.

I'M CAME OKAY ON THAT.

IN FACT, I CAME OKAY ON ALL

OF IT.

HERE IS MY STORM CELLAR THAT

WAS IN.

WE HAD A BIG ELM TREE HERE,

AND WHEN IT CAME THROUGH,

ALL OF A SUDDEN MY CEILING

STARTED FALLING APART.

AND I HEARD A LOUD BOOM, AND

THERE YOU CAN SEE WHERE THE

TREE JUST FELL RIGHT IN

THERE, WHERE I WAS SITTING,

ABOUT, YOU KNOW, A MINUTE OR

TWO BEFORE.

I THOUGHT, NOBODY IS GOING

TO HEAR ME DOWN IN THERE,

YOU KNOW.

REALLY AT ONE POINT IT WAS

SO BAD THAT THE SKY -- I

REALLY THOUGHT I WAS A

GONER.

I REALLY THOUGHT WHEN THE

DUST SETTLES, YOU KNOW, I'M

SEEING THE LIGHT.

I MAY BE ALREADY GONE.

I'VE GOT A LITTLE

GRANDDAUGHTER.

SHE WAS MY FIRST THOUGHT,

YOU KNOW.

WHEN I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS

THE END ON THIS EARTH,

ANYWAY.

I THOUGHT, WELL, I WANTED

MORE TIME WITH HER.

AND THEN I HEARD THAT

PRECIOUS VOICE.

HELLO, HELLO, YOU KNOW?

OH, WOW.

AND THEY HAD TO LIFT ME

OUT OF IT.

*

RCHTIONZ

*

Scott: CBN DOES SO MANY

DIFFERENT THINGS, BUT I'LL

TELL YOU, I VOTE FOR O.B.

I LOVE WHAT O.B. DOES.

AND IF YOU'VE EVER BEEN ON

THE RECEIVING END -- I'VE

BEEN IN BOTH, BEEN WITH THEM

AND HELPED PASS OUT FOOD IN

DIFFERENT PARTS OF THE

WORLD, INDIA, PHILIPPINES,

CHINA, AND WHATEVER ELSE.

BUT CBN PARTNERS ARE MAKING

A DIFFERENCE ALL OVER THE

WORLD.

YOU CAN SIT AT HOME AND

WATCH THIS AND SAY, WHAT CAN

I DO?

WELL, $20 A MONTH, THAT'S 65

WHOLE CENTS A DAY, WHAT'S

THAT, A PACK OF GUM?

I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE.

CIGARETTES USED TO COST 65

CENTS, AND NOW THEY COST,

WHAT, $44?

I DON'T KNOW.

JUST 65 CENTS A DAY AND YOU

CAN HELP REBUILD LIVES.

YOU CAN DO THAT BY CALLING

1-888-777-1999.

THAT'S 1-888-777-1999.

OR YOU CAN LOG ON TO

cbn.com AND HELP FOLKS

REBUILD THEIR ENTIRE LIVES.

I LOVE IT.

Terry: IT'S SOMETHING

TO SEE THOSE TRUCKS PULL IN,

ISN'T IT?

IN THE MIDDLE OF THAT

DEVASTATION, AND IT JUST

SPELLS H-O-P-E, AND WE'RE

HERE AND YOU'VE COME.

Scott: I REMEMBER WHEN

WE'VE ONLY HAD ONE TRUCK.

AND NOW I DON'T KNOW HOW

MANY THEY HAVE.

Terry: A LOT.

AND THEY'RE AT WORK THE

WHOLE TIME.

PRETTY EXCITING.

YOU WANT TO BE A PART OF

THAT.

COMING UP, SHE WAS ADDICTED

TO BEING SKINNY.

I WOULD ALWAYS CHOOSE TO

EAT AND KNOW IN THE BACK OF

MY MIND IT WAS ALWAYS AN

OPTION TO GO MAKE MYSELF

THROW UP.

Terry: SEE WHAT SAVED

HER LIFE.

THAT'S NEXT.

CRIERCH

Scott: IT HAS BEEN

SAID -- I DON'T KNOW WHO

SAID IT, BUT IF YOU REPEAT A

LIE ENOUGH TIMES, PEOPLE

WILL BELIEVE YOU, OR BELIEVE

IT.

ASK A POLITICIAN.

ANYWAY, AMY WOODS KNOWS THIS

FROM EXPERIENCE.

SHE WAS LIED TO HER ENTIRE

LIFE.

AND IT WAS KILLING HER.

THERE WERE TIMES WHEN AT

NIGHT, IN MY BEDROOM, I

WOULD DO, LIKE, WORKOUT

ROUTINES.

I KNOW I WAS VERY AWARE OF

WANTING TO MAKE SURE I

LOOKED LIKE ALL OF THE OTHER

GIRLS IN HIGH SCHOOL.

AND DRILL TEAM AND

CHEERLEADING.

Reporter: AMY WOULD

STRUGGLE WITH HER BODY

IMAGE, WHICH CARRIED OVER

INTO HER MARRIAGE TO HER

HUSBAND, BRIAN.

IT WAS SIX MONTHS INTO

OUR MARRIAGE THAT I

PHYSICALLY STARTED MAKING

MYSELF THROW UP.

I WAS VERY DETERMINED TO

APPEAR ALWAYS I WAS THE

PERFECT WIFE.

Reporter: THE PRESSURE

AMY PUT ON HERSELF TO

MAINTAIN THAT IMAGE WAS TOO

MUCH.

SHE DESPERATELY GRASPED FOR

CONTROL IN HER OWN LIFE.

I WOULD EAT SUPER SMALL

AMOUNTS.

AND THEN I WOULD GO FROM

EATING THOSE SAME THINGS AND

NOT SWALLOWING IT, AND

SPITTING IT IN THE TRASH.

AND I REMEMBER LOVING TO

EAT.

I REMEMBERED IN THE BACK OF

MY MIND, IT WAS ALWAYS AN

OPTION TO GO AND MAKE MYSELF

THROW UP.

IN THE BEGINNING, IT WAS NOT

VERY OFTEN.

AND THEN IT WOULD GO TO

EVERY DAY.

AND THEN IT WOULD GO TO

SEVERAL TIMES A DAY.

Reporter: BRIAN WAS A

MEDICAL RESIDENT AND WORKED

LONG HOURS AT THE HOSPITAL.

AMY HAD NO PROBLEMS HIDING

HER BULEMIA FROM HIM.

I GOT REALLY GOOD AT

LYING AND EXPLAINING MY

WEIGHT LOSS.

MY FACE WAS VERY SUNKEN IN,

AND I WAS WAY SMALLER THAN A

PERSON MY HEIGHT SHOULD BE.

AND PEOPLE NOTICED.

Reporter: THE BATTLE

CONTINUED THROUGH THREE

PREGNANCIES AND 11 YEARS OF

MARRIAGE.

IT IS LIKE A DRUG.

IT IS LIKE A DRUG WITH

PEOPLE, THEY DON'T WANT TO

DO THAT BUT THEY CAN'T HELP

IT.

AND I WAS ADDICTED TO BEING

SMALL.

I WAS ADDICTED TO BEING IN

CONTROL.

Reporter: IN 2005 AMY

WAS OUT ON THE FRONT PORCH

WATCHING HER KIDS PLAY.

I PRAYED FOR THE FIRST

TIME.

I SAID, GOD, I DON'T KNOW

WHAT IT IS I'M MISSING.

I DON'T GET IT.

GOD TOOK ME ON A LITTLE

JOURNEY, I GUESS.

AND IT WAS SORT OF LIKE A

MOVIE CLIP.

WHERE HE TOOK ME BACK

THROUGH SOME TIMES WHEN I

HEARD THINGS FROM FAMILY

MEMBERS OR FROM SOCIETY.

WHEN YOU'RE FAT, YOU'RE NOT

LOVABLE.

HE TOOK ME BACK THROUGH

RELATIONSHIPS THAT I HAD IN

HIGH SCHOOL, THAT THE

BOYFRIEND THAT WOULD SAY

THAT REALLY MY VALUE CAME

FROM BEING PRETTY OR SMALL,

AND I BELIEVED IT.

THE DOCTOR TELLING ME I WAS

TWO POUNDS FROM BEING WHAT

THEY CALL OBESE.

AND I WASN'T.

BUT I BELIEVED IT.

AT THE END OF EACH ONE, HE

KEPT TELLING ME HOW MUCH HE

LOVED ME, AND HOW THAT WAS

NOT WHO I WAS.

AT THE VERY END, I WAS ON A

BOAT.

AND MY KIDS WERE ON THE BOAT

WITH ME.

AND THE BOAT WAS SINKING.

AND HE SAID, YOU'RE TAKING

YOUR CHILDREN THERE, TOO.

AND IN THAT MOMENT, I KNEW

THAT I COULD NO LONGER LIVE

LIKE THAT.

AND IT WAS NOT GOING TO BE

MY OWN STRENGTH AND MY OWN

POWER THAT WOULD MAKE IT

DIFFERENT, OR BE DIFFERENT.

IT WAS GOING TO BE HIM.

FOR THE FIRST TIME I KNEW I

WAS GOING TO BE ABLE TO GET

UP FROM THAT PORCH AND WALK

AWAY FROM THE ACTUAL

BEHAVIOR OF MAKING MYSELF

THROW UP.

I WAS TRANSFORMED.

IN THAT MOMENT.

I SAW THE TRUTH FOR THE

FIRST TIME.

Reporter: SHE FINALLY

TOLD BRIAN EVERYTHING.

HE REACTED WITH JUST

LOVE, SUPPORT.

JUST NO JUDGMENT FROM HIM

WHATSOEVER.

HE WAS SAD.

I MEAN, HE WAS SAD THAT I

HAD BELIEVED THOSE THINGS

ABOUT MYSELF.

IN REALITY, MY HUSBAND

ALWAYS FOUND ME ATTRACTIVE.

IT WAS MY MIND, THE LIES I

WAS BELIEVING ABOUT MYSELF

THAT MADE ME GO THERE.

SO I WANT MY KIDS TO KNOW

WHERE I'VE BEEN, HOW THE

LORD SAVED ME, AND IT WASN'T

ON MY OWN.

I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO MAKE

IT BETTER, THAT THE LORD DID

THAT.

AND THAT THERE IS NOTHING

TOO BIG, THERE IS NO PLACE

TOO FAR THAT YOU'VE GONE

THAT GOD WON'T BE THERE.

I WANT THEM TO KNOW THE

PLACES THAT I'VE BEEN AND

THE TRUE JOY, THE TRUE

FREEDOM YOU GET FROM GOD AND

CHRIST ALONE.

Scott: WHAT A LOVELY

LADY.

A BEAUTIFUL LADY.

AND YOU SAID IT EARLIER,

TERRY, THAT THE TRUTH WILL

SET YOU FREE.

AND THIS LADY BELIEVED THE

LIE.

HOW MANY YEARS DID SHE SAY,

12 YEARS?

SOMETHING LIKE THAT?

THAT'S UNBELIEVABLE.

THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE IN

THIS AUDIENCE RIGHT NOW THAT

MAY BE EMBRACING LIES.

AND THERE IS THIS WHOLE AREA

OF SELF-CONTROL.

THE SCRIPTURE TALKS ABOUT

SELF-CONTROL AS BEING ONE OF

THE FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT.

THIS LITTLE THING I LEARNED

YEARS AGO, ABOUT YOUR LIFE

AND CONTROLLING YOUR LIFE

AND ALL OF THAT.

JESUS SAID HE HAD COME TO

SET US FREE.

AND HE SAID, IF YOU WANT TO

SAVE YOUR LIFE FOR MY SAKE,

THEN YOU HAVE TO LET IT GO.

NOW, THIS IS A DICHOTOMY.

BUT IF YOU WANT TO REALLY

FIND YOUR LIFE FOR ME, THEN

YOU LET IT GO TO ME, AND I

WILL TAKE CARE OF IT.

SO IF YOU TRY TO SAVE YOUR

LIFE YOURSELF, YOU'RE GOING

TO LOSE IT.

IF YOU WANT TO LOSE YOUR

LIFE FOR MY SAKE, THEN YOU

FIND IT.

IT IS VERY INTERESTING.

BUT THAT'S THE WAY GOD

WORKS.

HE WORKS AGAINST OUR HUMAN

NATURE, THAT WE ARE SINFUL

PEOPLE, AND HE BRINGS YOU

INTO YOUR VERY OWN

PERSONHOOD.

DAVID, THE PSALMIST, WROTE

MY VERY FAVORITE PSALM, 139:

"I AM FEARFULLY AND

WONDERFULLY MADE."

THAT'S HIS PERCEPTION.

GOD'S PERCEPTION OF YOU IS

YOU ARE FEARFULLY AND

WONDERFULLY MADE.

AND MAY I JUST ADD HERE,

TOO.

IT IS NOT JUST WOMEN.

MEN GO THROUGH THIS STUFF.

I HAVE KNOWN MEN WHO HAVE

THIS SAME ISSUE OF

CONTROLLING THEIR BODIES.

THEY'RE OVERWEIGHT, THEY'RE

UNDERWEIGHT, WHATEVER.

THEY WANT TO BE A BIG

FOOTBALL PLAYER.

OR THEY DON'T HAVE ANY

CONTROL OVER DRINK OR FOOD

OR ANY OF THAT.

SEX -- THERE ARE SO MANY

ISSUES IN OUR LIVES.

SO IF YOU WANT TO LOSE YOUR

LIFE, YOU FIND IT IN JESUS

CHRIST.

HE SAID, "I HAVE COME TO

GIVE YOU LIFE, AND GIVE IT

TO YOU MORE ABUNDANTLY."

SO ASK HIM RIGHT NOW, JUST,

LORD, I'M OUT OF CONTROL.

I'M ASKING YOU TO HELP ME

CONTROL MY LIFE.

HOLD MY HAND.

HELP ME CONTROL MY LIFE.

I GIVE EVERYTHING I AM TO

YOU.

AND THERE IS A TRADEOFF.

HE GIVES EVERYTHING HE IS TO

YOU.

SO DO IT.

YOU CAN DO IT RIGHT NOW.

Terry: ABSOLUTELY.

AVAILABLE TO ANYBODY WHO

WILL CALL UPON HIS NAME.

SPEAKING OF CALLING UPON HIS

NAME, WE HAVE A PHONE CALL

FROM MARY IN CALIFORNIA.

MARY, WE, FIRST OF ALL,

WELCOME YOU TO THE

INTERACTIVE PROGRAM.

Caller: THANK YOU.

I WOULD LIKE PRAYER FOR MY

FAMILY.

I HAVE TWO DAUGHTERS, 19 AND

14, AND MY HUSBAND.

THEY ARE -- I'M JUST PRAYING

FOR THEM TO HAVE A HUNGER

AND THIRST FOR THE THINGS OF

THE LORD.

THEY'RE REALLY BEING

SWALLOWED UP BY THE THINGS

OF THIS WORLD, AND

ESPECIALLY MY DAUGHTER, WHO

IS AWAY AT COLLEGE IN SAN

FRANCISCO.

SHE HAS COMPLETELY TURNED

HERSELF 360 AWAY FROM GOD

AND SAID HE DOESN'T EXIST.

AND JUST LISTENING TO THE

PROGRAM ABOUT THE GIRL WITH

THE EATING DISORDER, AND

SHE, TOO, HAS AN EATING

DISORDER.

I'M JUST PRAYING FOR THEM TO

SEE THAT THE LORD IS

REVEALING HIMSELF AS WHO HE

IS TO THEM.

Terry: OKAY.

Caller: THAT'S JUST

WHAT I WANT.

Terry: THAT'S WHAT

EVERY MOM WANTS, MARY, AND

EVERY DAD WHO IS WALKING

WITH THE LORD.

LET'S TAKE A MOMENT TO PRAY

FOR YOU AND YOUR CHILDREN

TODAY.

FATHER, YOU ARE THE ONE WHO

SETS US IN FAMILY.

GOD, YOU KNOW MARY'S

MOTHER'S HEART AND HOW SHE

IS LONGING TO SEE HER

CHILDREN COME BACK TO LOVING

YOU, KNOWING YOU, SERVING

THEM.

SO, GOD, WE LIFT HER

CHILDREN AND HER HUSBAND UP

TO YOU TODAY.

WE ASK YOU TO DO A MIGHTY

WORK.

YOU SAID YOU CHOOSE US AND

YOU SEND FORTH YOUR WORD AND

YOUR SPIRIT.

AND WE PRAY YOU WOULD PUT

PEOPLE IN YOUR PATHWAYS.

WE PRAY THEY WOULD HAVE A

SPIRITUAL ENCOUNTER WITH

YOU, LORD GOD.

A TIME WHERE YOU WOULD JUST

BRING THEM TO THE END OF

THEMSELVES, AND THEY WOULD

SAY, SURELY GOD IS WHO HE

SAYS HE IS, AND I WILL SERVE

HIM WITH ALL OF MY LIFE.

GOD, ONLY YOU CAN DO THESE

THINGS.

YOU CALL US TO LOVE AND PRAY

FOR OUR KIDS, BUT YOU ARE

THE ONE WHO SAVES US.

AND WE'RE ASKING YOU TODAY

TO SAVE MARY'S HOUSEHOLD SO

THEY MIGHT WORSHIP YOU,

FATHER.

WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR

GOODNESS AND YOUR

FAITHFULNESS, IN JESUS'

NAME.

MARY, THANK YOU FOR YOUR

PHONE CALL.

TO ALL OF YOU, THANK YOU FOR

BEING WITH US.

WE WANT TO LEAVE YOU WITH 1

CORINTHIANS 6, DO YOU NOT

KNOW YOUR BODY IS THE TEMPLE

OF THE HOLY SPIRIT WHO IS IN

YOU, WHOM YOU HAVE FROM

GOD.

AND YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN.

YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE.

THEREFORE GLORIFY IN YOUR

BODY AND IN YOUR SPIRIT,

WHICH ARE GOD'S.

GOD BLESS YOU.

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