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Healing After AIDS

Isaiah lost his mother and sister to AIDS as a young boy. For years, he struggled to find purpose in life. Read Transcript


AT TIMES I STILL TEND TO

THINK ABOUT MY PAST.

WHY DID THIS HAPPEN?

WHY DID GOD LET THIS

HAPPEN?

Reporter: IT'S A

QUESTION ISAIAH BORGAM HAS

ASKED FOR MOST OF HIS LIFE.

WHY WAS HE BORN OUT OF

WEDLOCK?

WHY DID HIS FATHER ABANDON

HIM?

WHY DID HIS MOTHER DO THE

THINGS SHE DID?

WHY DID SHE GET AIDS?

AT FIRST ISAIAH BLAMED HIS

MOM.

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO

ME?

HOW CAN YOU BE SO SELFISH?

I HAVE NOTHING NOW.

I WAS MAD AT MY MOM BECAUSE

MY MOM SLEPT AROUND AND

ENDED UP GETTING AIDS.

Reporter: ISAIAH WAS

JUST SEVEN YEARS OLD WHEN

HIS MOTHER DIED FROM AIDS.

HE AND HIS SIBLINGS MOVED IN

WITH THEIR GRANDMOTHER.

BUT THINGS GOT WORSE.

GRANDMA HAD A BOYFRIEND WHO

WAS OFTEN DRUNK WHO LASHED

OUT AT THE KIDS.

ISAIAH BLAMED HER, TOO.

WHY DID SHE LET ME

EXPERIENCE THIS?

WHY DID I HAVE TO GO THROUGH

THIS?

Reporter: AS THE ELDEST

CHILD, ISAIAH TOOK IT UPON

HIMSELF TO LOOK AFTER HIS

BROTHER AND SISTER.

HE TRIED TO PROTECT THEM,

BUT HE COULDN'T.

AND THEN CAME THE ULTIMATE

WHY?

HE LEARNED HIS 4-YEAR-OLD

SISTER ALSO HAD AIDS.

IN MY HEART, I THINK I

KNEW SHE WASN'T GOING TO BE

HERE FOREVER.

SO I JUST WANTED TO SPEND AS

MUCH TIME WITH HER AS

POSSIBLE, SO I COULD BUILD

MEMORIES AND MOMENTS WITH

HER.

I THINK THAT'S WHY IT

IMPACTED ME SO DEEPLY.

Reporter: JASMINE HAD

CONTRACTED THE DISEASE IN

HER MOTHER'S WOMB.

ISAIAH WATCHED HER SUFFER

FOR A YEAR BEFORE SHE DIED,

SHORT OF HER FIFTH

BIRTHDAY.

THE NIGHT BEFORE SHE

DIED, SHE SAID THAT THE

ANGELS ARE COMING TO GET HER

AND TAKE HER TO BE WITH

JESUS.

Reporter: NOTHING

CHANGED FOR ISAIAH AND HIS

BROTHER UNTIL GRANDMOTHER

KICKED OUT HER BOYFRIEND.

BUT THE DAMAGE WAS DONE.

NOW A TEENAGER, ISAIAH

BATTLED DEPRESSION AND

SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.

HE NOW BLAMED GOD FOR HIS

PROBLEMS.

I WORE MY ANGER ON MY

SLEEVE.

HOW I FELT INSIDE MY HEART,

AND BEING MAD TOWARDS THE

WORLD AND TOWARDS GOD.

Reporter: IN HIGH

SCHOOL, ISAIAH WAS GETTING

IN TROUBLE FOR FIGHTING AND

BEING DISRUPTIVE IN CLASS.

HE WAS SUSPENDED SEVERAL

TIMES AND ALMOST DIDN'T

GRADUATE.

HE TURNED MOST OF HIS

ATTENTION TO GIRLS AND

DRINKING, BUT THAT HAD

CONSEQUENCES.

HE GOT A D.U.I. AND LOST HIS

LICENSE.

A YEAR AND A HALF LATER, HE

GOT HIS SECOND D.U.I. AND

HAD TO GO TO JAIL.

BUT THIS TIME THERE

WASN'T AVOIDING OR NOT GOING

TO JAIL.

I HAD TO GO TO JAIL.

Reporter: ISAIAH WAS

SENTENCED TO 30 DAYS.

THERE HE HAD TIME TO REFLECT

ON HIS LIFE, WHERE HE HAD

BEEN AND WHERE HE WAS

GOING.

JAIL WAS PRETTY MUCH THE

WAKING UP POINT, WHEN I

REALIZED, OKAY, I CAN EITHER

CONTINUE TO KEEP GOING DOWN

THE PATH I'M ON, OR I CAN

CHANGE AND SEEK THE LORD AND

ASK FOR FORGIVENESS AND ASK

HIM TO HEAL MY BROKEN

HEART.

Reporter: ISAIAH ALSO

BEGAN TO READ THE BIBLE, AND

HE REALIZED THAT HE WAS NO

BETTER THAN THOSE WHO BLAMED

FOR HIS SUFFERING.

BUT THE ONE WHO WAS BETTER

WAS JESUS CHRIST.

AND ISAIAH WANTED TO BE LIKE

HIM.

AND JUST IN READING AND

LEARNING ABOUT HIS LIFE,

THAT'S WHEN I REALIZED,

OKAY, I'D RATHER BE THIS

TYPE OF MAN AND LIVE LIKE

THIS, THAN BE OUT HERE

DATING WOMEN AND HOOKING UP

WITH THEM A FEW MONTHS

LATER, AND HAVING ALL OF

THESE BROKEN AND POINTLESS

RELATIONSHIPS, AND THINKING

THAT MADE ME A MAN BECAUSE I

HAD ALL OF THAT STUFF.

IT WAS THE READING ABOUT

JESUS AND HOW HUMBLE HE

WAS.

THAT WAS MUCH MORE PLEASING

TO MY HEART AND SOUL, TO BE

THAT TYPE OF A MAN.

Reporter: AFTER MUCH

THOUGHT AND PRAYER, ISAIAH

RELEASED HIS BITTERNESS TO

JESUS CHRIST.

THIS RIGHT HERE BEHIND ME

HAPPENS TO BE THE JAIL THAT

I WENT TO FOR MY SECOND

D.U.I., AND ITALY'S HAPPENS

TIT ALSO HAPPENS TO BE THE

PLACE WHERE I ACCEPTED JESUS

CHRIST AS MY SAVIOR.

Reporter: NOW ATTENDING

SEMINARY IN SOUTH DAKOTA, HE

HELPS OUT WITH THE YOUTH

GROUP AT CHURCH.

HE SAYS HE HAS LEARNED MUCH

ABOUT GOD'S LOVE, BUT HE

UNDERSTANDS HE HAS ONLY

BEGUN THE JOURNEY.

I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND HE

WAS GOOD UNTIL I SAW HIM

WORK WHILE I WAS IN JAIL AND

HOW HE DELIVERED ME AND

BROUGHT ME OUT OF MY

SUFFERING.

I REALIZED, JESUS SUFFERED

ON THE CROSS AND DIED ON THE

CROSS FOR MY SINS.

IF HE CAN DO THAT, I

THOUGHT, I COULD SUFFER

ANYTHING IF IT IS GOING TO

BRING ME CLOSER TO THE

LORD.

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