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When God Speaks

As a teen, Chris lost his direction in life with the untimely death of his father. Read Transcript


I FIGURED IF I'M GOING TO

HELL, I'M GOING TO ENJOY

MYSELF.

AND I'M GOING TO GO DOWN

THAT PATH.

IT WAS LEADING ME INTO

OCCULTISM.

IT WAS LEADING ME INTO

WITCHCRAFT.

IT WAS LEADING ME INTO, YOU

KNOW, EVERY TYPE OF DARKNESS

THAT YOU COULD THINK.

Reporter: THERE WAS A

TIME WHEN CHRISTOPHER

GREGORY WANTED TO LIVE HIS

LIFE FOR GOD.

HE WAS JUST A BOY WHEN HE

ASKED JESUS INTO HIS HEART.

THAT EVENING, AS I CAME

HOME WITH MY PARENTS, TO THE

HOUSE, I STEPPED OUT OF THE

CAR, AND AS MY FAMILY WALKED

INTO THE HOUSE AND I LOOKED

UP AND I SAID, GOD, I'M ONLY

EIGHT YEARS OF AGE, BUT IF

YOU USE ME, I'LL SERVE YOU.

Reporter: 10 YEARS

LATER, HIS FATHER DIED.

THE WORLD STOPPED.

FOR ME, THE WORLD STOPPED.

GOD, HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?

MY FAMILY LIFE IS GREAT.

AND ME AND MY DAD ARE

STARTING TO COMMUNICATE.

WE'RE STARTING TO HAVE A

RELATIONSHIP.

AND NOW HE'S GONE.

I JUST SHUT EVERYTHING DOWN

AND SAID, I'M DONE.

WHATEVER HOPE THAT GOD HAD

FOR ME, YOU KNOW, I WAS

GOING TO DESTROY THAT.

Reporter: HE PACKED UP

HIS CAR AND MOVED TO

HOLLYWOOD IN SEARCH OF A NEW

LIFE, AWAY FROM GOD.

I WAS FULL OF ANGER.

I WAS FULL OF HATE.

AND I WAS BEGINNING TO FEED

OFF OF THAT.

AND THE MORE THAT I LEFT IT

UNCHECKED, THE MORE THAT IT

BECAME -- IT STARTED TAKING

OVER MY LIFE.

THAT ANGER, THAT

BITTERNESS.

Reporter: BEFORE LONG,

HE WORKED HIS WAY INTO

PORNOGRAPHIC MOVIE

PRODUCTION.

HE CREATED A NEW FORM OF

PORNOGRAPHIC MOVIE, LENDING

DEMONIC HARM AND EXPLICIT

SEX.

SO I COULD ACTUALLY TAKE

THAT AND PUT IT INTO MY

FILMS TO LIFT ME UP.

AND IN THE PROCESS DESTROY

ME AND ALSO DESTROY OTHERS

WHO ARE WATCHING THIS

STUFF.

WHO ARE GETTING CAUGHT INTO

THIS.

Reporter: HE PRODUCED

CONTENT FOR LARRY FLYNT AND

HUSTLER, AMONG OTHERS.

AND HE DID HIS BEST TO

IGNORE THE CALL OF GOD AND

THE CALLING HE ONCE HAD.

I'M FIGHTING WHAT I KNOW

IN MY HEART IS RIGHT, BUT

SATAN IS SAYING, DON'T

LISTEN TO THAT.

I'VE GOT SOMETHING BETTER.

YOU WANT WOMEN, I'LL GIVE

YOU WOMEN.

IF YOU WANT MONEY, I'LL GIVE

YOU MONEY.

BUT THAT'S JUST THE TIP OF

IT.

I'LL GIVE YOU FAME.

I THOUGHT THAT THE MONEY AND

NOW THE NOTORITY OF WHAT I

WAS BECOMING IN THE INDUSTRY

WOULD SATISFY THE VOID IN MY

LIFE, THE HURT AND THE

ANGER, BUT IT DIDN'T.

I CAN'T SLEEP.

I CAN'T HARDLY EAT.

I'M DYING ON THE INSIDE.

AND I'M HEARING DEMONIC

VOICES.

YOU KNOW, I GO ON TO A MOVIE

SET THAT I HELPED CREATE.

I HIRE PEOPLE AND THEY BUILD

THESE SETS, AND WE SHOOT IN

A MANSION, AND WE CREATE

THIS VAMPIRE PROJECT.

AND I'M THERE BY MYSELF.

AND I FEEL SPIRITS AROUND

ME.

I FEEL THIS DARKNESS

STARTING TO CREEP IN.

AND I'VE GOT TO LEAVE.

I WAS SCARED TO BE ALONE.

I WOULD HAVE ONE-NIGHT

STANDS, NOT FOR SEX, PER SE,

BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BE

ALONE.

Reporter: HIS NIGHTS

RESEMBLED THE HORROR MOVIES

HE MADE IN THE DAY.

ONE NIGHT HE HAD A VIVID

DREAM THAT HE WAS IN HELL

WITH DEMONIC FIGURES

TOWERING OVER HIM.

HE KNEW HIS LIFE WAS DRAWING

TO AN END.

CHRISTOPHER CALLED OUT TO

GOD.

EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE

EMBEDDED INTO MY LIFE BEGINS

TO SURFACE.

THE HATE, THE BITTERNESS,

THE ANGER, THE RESENTMENT,

THE BETRAYAL, THE

LONELINESS, THE FEELING OF

GOD, WHY, WHY, WHY?

AND THE LORD SPOKE TO ME AND

HE SAID, BECAUSE I LOVE

YOU.

I CARE FOR YOU.

I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE

LOST.

AND I JUST SAID, IF YOU CAN

STILL TAKE ME, FORGIVE ME.

THAT MOMENT IT JUST SEEMED

LIKE DARKNESS LEFT.

CHRIST CAME INTO THAT ROOM

AND HE SAID, I FORGIVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU.

AND FROM THAT MOMENT, MY

LIFE CHANGED.

HE TOOK ME BACK.

AND I WEPT FOR, I THINK,

FOUR HOURS.

I JUST WEPT.

I JUST WEPT.

EVERYTHING WAS GONE.

MY PAIN.

EVERYTHING.

I GO BACK TO THAT 8-YEAR-OLD

BOY AND SAID, FROM THIS DAY,

IF YOU CAN USE ME, USE ME.

Reporter: THE NEXT DAY

HE SHUT DOWN THE PROJECTS HE

WAS WORKING ON AND LEFT THE

BUSINESS OF DARKNESS IN THE

PAST.

ON I WALKED AWAY FROM

EVERYTHING.

PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY,

BUT, YOU KNOW, I CAN'T GO

WRONG SERVING GOD.

MY HEART HAD A HEART

CHANGE.

Reporter: CHRISTOPHER

IS NOW AN EVANGELIST AND

MISSIONARY.

HIS MESSAGE IS ALL ABOUT

GOD'S LOVE AND GRACE, EVEN

FOR THOSE WHO HAVE WALKED

AWAY.

HE DOESN'T HATE YOU.

HE WENT TO A CROSS TO DIE

FOR US.

SO THAT WHEN WE DO MAKE

MISTAKES, WHEN WE DO SIN,

THAT WE WILL COME TO KNOW

HIM AND HIS LOVE AND HIS

GRACE AND HIS MERCY.

I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE THAT

THERE IS HOPE, THAT THERE'S

GRACE, THAT THERE'S MERCY.

HE CAN TAKE A SHATTERED

LIFE, A BROKEN LIFE, FILLED

WITH BITTERNESS AND ANGER,

BETRAYAL AND HURT, AND MAKE

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL OUT OF

THAT.

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