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Chemical Explosion Catalyst to Spiritual Awakening

Rodney knew he had a call from God on his life, but he chose to pursue a lifestyle of addiction with drugs and alcohol. Read Transcript


I'M IN A SMALL TRAILER

COOKING METHAMPHETAMINES,

THE JUICE BUILT UP AND A

SPARK WENT OFF THE HEAT

LAMP.

Reporter: AS A YOUNG

MAN, RODNEY WILLIAMS

BELIEVED GOD HAD A PLAN FOR

HIS LIFE, BUT HE WASN'T SURE

HE COULD CARRY IT OUT, OR

EVEN IF HE WANTED TO.

I JUST FELT LIKE I WAS

STRONG ENOUGH TO WIN THE

BATTLE, AND I KIND OF QUIT

ON GOD.

I SAID, I'LL BE BACK LATER.

I'M GOING TO SOW MY OATS AND

GO OUT AND SEE THE WORLD.

WHEN I'M STRONG ENOUGH, I'LL

COME BACK.

Reporter: BY THE TIME

RODNEY REACHED HIGH SCHOOL,

HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND A

DRUG ADDICT, CHASING HIS

NEXT HIGH.

WE BEGAN BREAKING INTO

HOMES AND GETTING ALCOHOL

AND GETTING DRUNK.

I WAS EXPERIMENTING, TRYING

ALL OF THESE DIFFERENT

THINGS I THOUGHT WOULD

SATISFY ME, AND MAKE ME

HAPPY.

Reporter: RODNEY GOT A

JOB AND EVENTUALLY MARRIED.

BUT EVEN THE BIRTH OF HIS

SON DIDN'T CHANGE HIS

FOCUS.

MY MIND NEEDED TO BE

GOING TOWARDS MY KID AND THE

FAMILY, AND INSTEAD I WAS

SPENDING MONEY ON MY

ADDICTION.

IT WAS ALL ABOUT ME GETTING

HIGH, TAKING CARE OF MY GOD,

WHICH WAS THE ALCOHOL, THE

DRUGS, AND THE GAMBLING.

IT WAS ALL ABOUT THAT.

Reporter: A SHORT TIME

LATER RODNEY'S WIFE DIVORCED

HIM.

AND HE TRIED TO NUMB THE

PAIN HE FELT THE ONLY WAY HE

KNEW HOW.

AS LONG AS I STAY HIGH,

IT WILL BE OKAY.

YOU WILL DO WHATEVER IT

TAKES TO STAY IN THIS WORLD

BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO GO

OVER HERE AND DEAL WITH

LIFE.

THE INITIAL HIGH IS

AWESOME.

BUT AS YOU CONTINUE TO TRY

AND DO IT, IT BEGINS TO

DIMINISH, AND BEFORE YOU

KNOW IT, YOU'RE IN THIS

BONDAGE, WHERE YOU'RE DOING

IT JUST TO FUNCTION.

Reporter: RODNEY WAS

WITH A FRIEND ONE NIGHT WHEN

HE WAS INTRODUCED TO METH.

WE'RE JUST RIDING AROUND

AND SNORTING WHAT WE THOUGHT

WAS COCAINE, WHICH WAS

METHAMPHETAMINES.

AFTER SNORTING ABOUT A

BOTTLE, MY HEART BEGAN TO

RUSH.

AND I COULD JUST FEEL THE

BLOOD JUST PUMPING THROUGH

YOUR VEINS.

Reporter: HIS FIRST

EXPERIENCE WITH METH NEARLY

KILLED HIM.

THE INCIDENT WAS ONE OF OVER

A DOZEN DRUG OVER DOSES.

EVENTUALLY RODNEY DECIDED HE

NEEDED HELP AND WENT THROUGH

REHAB, BUT IT DIDN'T WORK.

HE EVEN TRIED GOING BACK TO

CHURCH.

I EVEN WALKED UP AND

PRAYED A PRAYER OF

REPENTANCE, BUT IN REALITY,

THERE WAS NO HEART CHANGE.

I REALLY WAS NOT PREPARED TO

GIVE UP THE LIFESTYLE THAT

WAS LIVING.

Reporter: RODNEY'S

ADDICTION SOON CONSUMED

EVERYTHING HE HAD LEFT.

I HAD A GOOD GOVERNMENT

JOB, AND ON THE WAY HOME ONE

DAY, I WAS, LIKE, I'M NOT

GOING BACK THERE.

I WANTED TO COOK THE

METHAMPHETAMINES AND SELL

THEM.

I LOST MY HOME.

I WAS FINDING DIFFERENT

PLACES TO GO AND COOK IT.

MY LAST NIGHT AS A DRUG

ADDICT I'M HIGH; I'VE BEEN

UP FOR DAYS.

I'M IN A SMALL TRAILER.

I'M PARANOID.

I'VE GOT THE DOORS BOLTED

DOWN IN THE TRAILER.

I'M COOKING

METHAMPHETAMINES, THE FUMES

BUILT UP, AND A SPARK WENT

OFF THE HEAT LAMP.

THE TRAILER IGNITED AND THE

FLAMES -- IT WAS LIKE I WAS

SURROUNDED.

I COULDN'T GET OUT BECAUSE

THE DOOR WAS LOCKED.

I BEGAN UNLOCKING THE DOORS,

AND I RUN OUTSIDE ON FIRE.

AND NOW I'M STANDING HERE

2:00 IN THE MORNING, ALL

BURNED UP.

I'M HOMELESS.

I'VE LOST EVERYTHING I'VE

GOT.

MY FAMILY DOES NOT LIKE ME

BECAUSE I'VE BURNED THEM SO

MANY TIMES.

Reporter: RODNEY

STUMBLED TO A NEIGHBORING

HOUSE FOR HELP.

AS THE PEOPLE SPED HIM TO

THE HOSPITAL, HE BEGAN TO

THINK ABOUT HIS LIFE.

I WAS JUST MISERABLE.

DEATH WOULD HAVE BEEN A

VICTORY AT THAT TIME.

I FELT LIKE JUST LET ME

DIE.

IT WAS LIKE THE LIGHT TURNED

ON.

I REMEMBERED THE LORD THAT

HAD COMFORTED ME AS A CHILD,

AND I TURNED TO HIM AND I

CRIED OUT TO GOD.

I CRIED OUT TO JESUS.

I CRIED OUT HE COULD TAKE MY

EAR, WHATEVER IS LEFT.

I MADE AN UNCONDITIONAL

SURRENDER TO THE LORD JESUS

CHRIST ON THE WAY TO THE

HOSPITAL.

Reporter: RODNEY WAS IN

THE HOSPITAL FOR WEEKS AND

UNDERWENT SKIN GRAPHS FOR

SECOND AND THIRD-DEGREE

BURNS.

WHEN HE WAS RELEASED, HE

WENT BACK TO REHAB, BUT THIS

TIME THINGS WERE DIFFERENT.

I'M READING THE BIBLE AND

IT IS MAKING SENSE.

GOD IS SHOWING ME STUFF IN

THE HOLY WORD.

HE IS TRANSFORMING ME,

CHANGING ME, RENEWING MY

MIND AND SETTING ME FREE.

Reporter: HIS RECOVERY

WAS NOT ALWAYS EASY, BUT

RODNEY SAYS GOD HELPED HIM

GET THROUGH IT.

THROUGH A LOF LOT OF MY

WEAK POINTS, GOD HAS BEEN

THERE TO CARRY ME THROUGH.

I'M SO THANKFUL HE IS GOD

AND HE DOES THAT.

Reporter: RODNEY WENT

ON TO SEMINARY AND HAS BEEN

A PASTOR SINCE 2006.

HE IS NOW REMARRIED AND HAS

A FAMILY.

I'VE GOT A GREAT LIFE.

GOD HAS PROVEN FAITHFUL.

WHEN I DID GIVE IT ALL TO

HIM, IT IS A LOT DIFFERENT

THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS.

THE THINGS UARY WORRIE I

WAS WORRIED ABOUT, THAT I

WOULD BE MISERABLE, GOD HAS

PROVEN ME WRONG.

TODAY I AM HAPPY.

I'VE GOT JOY.

IT IS NOT WHAT I THOUGHT IT

WAS GOING TO BE.

IT IS GREAT.

Reporter: RODNEY

ENCOURAGES OTHERS TO TRUST

GOD WITH THEIR LIFE.

A LOT OF TIMES I WANTED

TO MAKE DEALS WITH GOD, BUT

WHEN YOU'RE READY TO

SURRENDER, JUST GIVE HIM

YOUR LIFE.

GOD CAN TAKE IT AND GIVE YOU

A VICTORY THAT YOU CAN NEVER

IMAGINE.

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