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700 Club Interactive: Loved Back to Life - January 28, 2015

A “heart-to-heart” with Sheila Walsh – hear what got this “Woman of Faith” through the hardest part of her life! Read Transcript


Gordon: SHE WAS A

SUCCESSFUL WRITER, SINGER,

AND TELEVISION HOST, BUT

WALKED AWAY FROM IT ALL.

SHEILA WALSH SHARES ABOUT

HER STRUGGLE WITH

DEPRESSION, AND HOW SHE WAS

LOVED BACK TO LIFE, ON

TODAY'S "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE."

ON "700 CLUB INTERACTIVE,"

WE USE TECHNOLOGY TO PRAY

FOR EACH OTHER AND EXPLORE

TOPICS THAT MATTER TO YOU.

WATCH WHAT GOD IS DOING IN

THE WORLD TODAY.

WELL, GOOD MORNING, AND

WELCOME TO "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE."

TODAY WE'RE GOING TO TALK

ABOUT DEPRESSION.

AND THE CENTER FOR DISEASE

CONTROL SAYS THAT ONE IN

FIVE AMERICANS ARE BEING

TREATED FOR IT.

THE WORLD HEALTH

ORGANIZATION CONSIDERS

DEPRESSION THE FOURTH

LEADING CAUSE OF DISABILITY

WORLDWIDE.

AND TODAY WE'RE GOING TO GET

INTO THAT ISSUE WITH SOMEONE

WHO IS VERY DEAR TO US.

SHEILA WALSH, SHE WAS THE

CO-HOST OF "THE 700 CLUB,"

AND AT THE PINNACLE OF HER

CAREER SHE FOUND HERSELF

FEELING HOPELESS, ALONE,

ANGRY.

AT ONE POINT SHE EVEN WANTED

TO DIE.

Reporter: WHEN SCOTTISH

-BORN SHEILA WALSH JOINED

"THE 700 CLUB" IN 1988, HER

HUMOR, HONESTY, AND

VULNERABILITY QUICKLY MADE

HER A FAN FAVORITE.

FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS SHE

INTERVIEWED CELEBRITIES,

ATHLETES, AND AUTHORS, AND

SHARED THE LOVE OF CHRIST

WITH MILLIONS OF VIEWERS.

ON THE SURFACE, EVERYTHING

WAS FINE.

THEN IN 1992, WITHOUT

WARNING, SHEILA LEFT THE JOB

AND MINISTRY SHE LOVED.

Gordon: PLEASE WELCOME

FORMER "700 CLUB" CO-HOST,

BEST-SELLING AUTHOR AND

WOMEN OF FAITH SPEAKER,

SHEILA WALSH.

NICE TO HAVE YOU HERE.

THANKS, IT'S NICE TO BE

HERE.

Gordon: I WAS WATCHING

THE OLD CLIPS, AND YOU WERE

ALWAYS THIS ENERGY, THIS

BALL OF SCOTTISH FIRE.

I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH

YOUR DAD.

HE IS A BRILLIANT MAN, AND

HE IS A TREMENDOUS MAN OF

ANOINTING, BUT YOU CAN HAVE

A LOT OF FUN WITH YOUR DAD.

Gordon: THERE ARE

LIMITS.

THERE ARE MANY TIMES WHEN

THE CREWS SAID, OKAY, YOU'RE

DEFINITELY FIRED TODAY.

Gordon: YOU LIKELY GOT

A PASS I WOULDN'T GET.

YOU CAN TAKE HIM TO CERTAIN

LIMITS, BUT THERE ARE SOME

BOUNDARIES.

ANYWAY, BACK TO YOU.

YOU WERE THE SCOTTISH BALL

OF FIRE.

BUT UNDERNEATH ALL OF THAT,

THERE WAS ANOTHER STORY

GOING ON.

YEAH.

IT'S REALLY INTERESTING.

I THINK THAT A LOT OF US

KNOW THAT THERE IS SOMETHING

NOT RIGHT, BUT WHEN IT'S NOT

SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN SEE

ON AN X-RAY, IT IS HARD

TO -- IT IS HARD TO SEEK

HELP FOR WHAT YOU CAN'T

NAME.

I MEAN, FOR YEARS AND THEN

MONTHS AND THEN THE FINAL

WEEKS, I JUST FELT AS IF I

WAS DISAPPEARING A LITTLE

MORE EVERY DAY.

I WOULD WAKE UP AT 3:00 IN

THE MORNING, PANICKING,

LITERALLY ON MY KNEES

SAYING, LORD, PLEASE HELP

ME.

I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING.

I WOULD BE INTERVIEWING A

GUEST AND COULDN'T REMEMBER

THEM WHAT I JUST ASKED THEM

AND WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO ASK

THEM NEXT.

IT'S A VERY SCARY THING.

A LOT OF PEOPLE SAY, COME

ON, PULL YOURSELF UP BY YOUR

BOOT STRAPS.

IT IS NOT LIKE JUST FEELING

A BAD DAY.

IT IS THIS OVERWHELMING

HOPELESSNESS AND SADNESS.

Gordon: I THINK A LOT

OF PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT DON'T

UNDERSTAND THERE IS

SOMETHING HAPPENING

CHEMICALLY, HORMONES ARE

INVOLVED.

THERE IS A WHOLE BUNCH OF

INDECES ACTIONS OCCURRING

THAT YOU LITERALLY DON'T

HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER.

ABSOLUTELY.

AND I THINK THAT'S ONE OF

THE THINGS THAT IS HARD

ABOUT IT, GORDON.

A LOT OF PEOPLE GO UNTREATED

BECAUSE THEY'RE EITHER TOLD

BY THEIR PASTOR OR THEIR

CHURCH, WE DON'T BELIEVE IN

THAT.

YOU NEED TO PRAY MORE AND

CONFESS YOU SIN.

YOU WOULDN'T SAY THAT FROM

SOMEBODY WHO FELL OFF A

SWING AND BROKE THEIR LEG --

YOU WOULDN'T SAY, OKAY, GET

UP AND WALK.

YOU WOULD LOOK TO SEE WHAT

THE PROBLEM IS.

AND THERE IS A STIGMA TO ANY

KIND OF MENTAL ILLNESS.

IF I HAD A BRAIN TUMOR, WE

GET PRAYER CHAINS ALL OVER

THE WORLD FOR THAT.

I THINK THAT'S WHY SO MANY

PEOPLE ARE PUSHED TO THE

EDGE OF SUICIDE BECAUSE THEY

FEEL HOPELESS WITH NO EVEN

RAY OF HOPE.

Gordon: AND I THINK WE

NEED TO CHANGE SOME OF THE

NAMES FOR IT BECAUSE THE

NAMES CARRY A VERY NEGATIVE

STIGMA.

I'M HEARING THEY'RE GOING TO

CHANGE POST TRAUMATIC STRESS

DISORDER INTO POST-TRAUMATIC

INJURY.

YOU GET RID OF THE STIGMA,

AND THE BRAIN, JUST LIKE ANY

OTHER ORGAN, CAN BE

INJURED.

RIGHT.

Gordon: WHAT WAS GOING

ON -- YOU GOT A LETTER FROM

A VIEWER, SO SOMETHING WAS

BEING PROJECTED BY YOU THAT

SOMEONE HAD THE INSIGHT TO

SAY, YOU HAVE PAIN.

THAT LETTER TOUCHED ME SO

DEEPLY.

IT WAS AN OLDER VIEWER, A

FAITHFUL VIEWER, WHO

ACTUALLY WAS STRUGGLING

HERSELF.

SHE HAD CANCER.

IN HER LETTER, SHE SAID, I

DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON

WITH YOU, MY DEAR, BUT I CAN

SEE IT IN YOUR EYES.

PLEASE GET HELP.

THAT LETTER JUST BROKE

SOMETHING IN ME.

THE THOUGHT THAT SOMEBODY

ACTUALLY SAW BEYOND THE

MAKEUP AND THE HOLDING

MYSELF TOGETHER AND CARED

ENOUGH TO SAY, IT'S OKAY NOT

TO BE OKAY, YOU ACTUALLY

COULD GO AND GET HELP, IS

ONE OF THE GREATEST CONSISTS

ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN ME.

Gordon: WHY DO WE NOT

WANT TO GET HELP?

IT IS INTERESTING,

SOMEONE WHO WAS A GOOD

FRIEND OF YOUR DAD'S, AND A

MAN I RESPECTED TREMENDOUSLY

ON MOST DAYS, APART FROM

THIS ONE DAY, BUT THE DAY I

WAS GOING TO GO TO THIS

HOSPITAL, THIS GENTLEMAN

WALKED ME AROUND THE LAKE AT

THE FOUNDERS' INN, AND HE

SAID MAYBE YOU'RE JUST A

WEAK LINK IN THE CHAIN.

PAT IS A GODLY MAN, AND

MAYBE THE DEVIL IS TRYING TO

USE YOU TO DESTROY THIS

MINISTRY.

I FELT SO HELPLESS.

THE THOUGHT THAT THE DEVIL

WOULD BE TRYING TO HARM A

MINISTRY THAT I LOVED SO

DEARLY.

Gordon: I THINK I KNOW

WHO THAT ONE IS.

I'LL TELL YOU LATER.

Gordon: PARTICULARLY IF

YOU'RE IN MINISTRY -- AND

I'LL ADD A LOT, WHY NOT PUT

POLITICS IN THERE OR ANYBODY

IN SHOW BUSINESS --

YUP.

Gordon: -- ANYBODY WITH

A PUBLIC PROFILE, TO ADMIT

THAT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM AND

YOU NEED TO GET HELP FOR

THAT PROBLEM, THERE IS A

WHOLE BUNCH OF SHAME THAT

COMES WITH THAT.

AND I SPENT A MONTH IN

THE HOSPITAL, GORDON, AND

YOUR DAD SAID, WHY DON'T YOU

COME BACK ON THE SHOW ONE

TIME AND THANK THE VIEWERS

WHO PRAYED FOR YOU AND KIND

OF FILL THEM IN ON THE NEXT

PART OF YOUR JOURNEY.

BUT ONE OR TWO OF THE STAFF

AND THE PRODUCERS FELT,

LOOK, DON'T TELL THEM WHERE

YOU'VE BEEN.

TELL THEM YOU WERE

OVERSTRESSED AND

OVERWORKED.

I SAID, HONESTLY, NOT

TELLING THE TRUTH IS WHAT

GOT ME THAT IN PLACE IN THE

FIRST INSTANCE.

SO I HAVE TO.

AND I THINK THEY BASICALLY

FELT, IT'S YOUR FUNERAL.

SOMEONE SAID, IF PEOPLE KNOW

WHERE YOU'VE BEEN, NO ONE

WILL EVER TRUST YOU AGAIN.

SO WE PRE-TAPED THE

INTERVIEW TO MAKE SURE I WAS

NOT SEEING FLYING DOGS OR

DROOLING ON MYSELF, WHICH I

MANAGED TO DO FOR THAT

SEGMENT -- BUT IT'S JUST

PEOPLE ARE SCARED OF WHAT

THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Gordon: TALK TO THE

VIEWERS, THIS IS A COMMON

PROBLEM.

THIS ISN'T UNUSUAL.

A LOT OF PEOPLE SUFFER WITH

DEPRESSION, EITHER

CHRONICALLY OR

OCCASIONALLY.

AND IT'S JANUARY, SO THAT

OCCASIONAL IS KICKING IN

FULL STEAM RIGHT NOW.

RIGHT.

Gordon: WHAT WOULD YOU

TELL THEM?

WELL, I THINK SOME

DEPRESSION IS PURELY

SITUATIONAL.

YOU'RE GOING THROUGH A BAD

SEASON AND YOU KNOW YOU'LL

GET THROUGH IT, AND YOU HANG

IN THERE AND YOU HAVE GOOD

FRIENDS.

SOME DEPRESSION, LIKE MINE,

IS A CHRONIC CONDITION.

I'LL PROBABLY BE ON

MEDICATION THE REST OF MY

LIFE.

BECAUSE THIS WAS 23 YEARS

AGO, AND I STILL TAKE THAT

LITTLE PRAYER EVERY MORNING

WITH THE PRAYER OF

THANKSGIVING THAT THE HELP

IS AVAILABLE.

I WOULD SAY, DON'T BE AFRAID

TO ASK QUESTIONS.

GO TO YOUR DOCTOR AND

EXPLAIN HOW YOU'RE FEELING.

DON'T BE ASHAMED TO DO

THAT.

I FOUND THAT CANCELLING WAS

JUST AS IMPORTANT A --

COUNSELLING IS AS WONDERFUL

AS GETTING TREATMENT.

SHE SAID, JESUS HASN'T COME

TO GET YOU OUT OF THIS, HE

HAS COME TO GET YOU THROUGH

IT.

Gordon: IT IS IMPORTANT

TO UNDERLINE BOTH THE

TREATMENT AND THE CAUSE.

THERE IS A CHEMICAL REASON

FOR DEPRESSION, BUT THERE IS

ALWAYS TRAUMA.

MY FATHER HAD A MASSIVE

BRAIN INJURY WHEN I WAS FIVE

AND HE TRIED TO KILL ME.

I THINK CHILDREN ARE THE

BEST RECORDERS OF

INFORMATION, BUT THEY'RE THE

POOREST INTERPRETERS OF

THAT.

AS AN ADULT, I CAN THINK, OF

COURSE MY FATHER WAS NOT IN

CONTROL OF THAT DAY WHEN HE

TRIED TO BRING HIS CANE DOWN

ON MY SKULL, BUT AT FIVE --

Gordon: YOU CAN'T

FIGURE THAT OUT.

SO ALL I THOUGHT IS MY

FATHER SAW SOMETHING

TERRIBLE IN ME, AND IT

ALMOST DESTROYED ME FOR

YEARS.

THAT'S WHY I LIVED A VERY

PUBLIC LIFE.

I KEPT A WALL AROUND MYSELF,

AND I WOULD REACH OVER THE

WALL TO HELP YOU OR PRAYER

PRAY FOR YOU, BUT NOBODY GOT

BACK INTO ME, IN YOU SAW

WHAT MY FATHER SAW.

Gordon: WHY DID THAT

GIVE YOU SUCH A PROFOUND

SENSE OF REJECTION.

BECAUSE HE WAS MY DAD AND

I WAS VERY MUCH A DADDY'S

GIRL.

MY SISTER WAS THE

WELL-BEHAVED ONE WHO WEARS

THE RIBBONS, AND I WAS A

TOMBOY.

I A ADORED MY FATHER.

HE WAS THE CLOSEST PERSON TO

ON THIS EARTH.

SO WHEN THAT PERSON NOT ONLY

TRIES TO TAKE YOU OUT, BUT

THAT MORNING, WHAT I

REMEMBER MORE THAN THE NOISE

WAS THE LOOK IN HIS EYES OF

ABSOLUTE HATRED.

AND I TOOK THAT IN.

I ABSORBED THAT.

I THOUGHT, THERE IS

SOMETHING IN ME THAT IS SO

DEEPLY FLAWED, THAT IF YOU

LET ANYONE ELSE GET TOO

CLOSE -- EVEN WHEN I BECAME

A CHRISTIAN WHEN I WAS 11,

AND I REALIZED, NOW I HAVE

GOD, THE FATHER, I THOUGHT

YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO SEE

WHATEVER MY DAD SAW.

I BLEW IT THE FIRST TIME, I

WILL NOT BLOW IT THE SECOND

TIME.

I WILL BE THE PERFECT

CHRISTIAN WOMAN IF IT KILLS

ME, AND IT NEARLY DID.

Gordon: SO FROM A

TRAUMATIC TRIGGER, YOU

STARTED BEHAVING, I'LL NEVER

LET THAT HAPPEN AGAIN?

ABSOLUTELY.

WE WEAR MASKS TO COPE.

SOME PEOPLE USE DRUGS OR

ALCOHOL OR SEX.

I FOUND THE PERFECT PLACE TO

HIDE, CHRISTIAN MINISTRY.

WHO IS GOING TO SAY TO YOU,

PUT THAT BIBLE DOWN OR WE'RE

GOING TO HAVE AN

INTERVENTION.

IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.

Gordon: STOP BEING SO

GOOD.

BUT ONLY GOD KNOWS IF

YOU'RE MINISTERING OUT OF

PAIN OR A GENUINE PASSION.

I THINK THAT'S WHAT IS SO

RIDICULOUSLY AMAZING ABOUT

THE MERCY OF THE LOVE OF

GOD.

HE SAW I WAS SURVIVING.

AND JESUS SAID, I'VE COME TO

GIVE YOU LIFE, NOT

SURVIVAL.

I HAVE COME TO GIVE YOU

LIFE.

GOD HAD TO REMOVE EVERYTHING

I HAD TO SHOW ME HE LIVES

CLOSE TO THOSE ON THE

FLOOR.

Gordon: HAS HE SHOWN

YOU HE WAS WITH YOU IN THAT

MOMENT?

THE MOMENT WHEN MY FATHER

WAS THERE?

Gordon: YES.

YES.

AND, ACTUALLY, ONLY

RECENTLY.

I HAD A STRANGE EXPERIENCE

ONE MORNING.

MY FAMILY HAD BEEN THROUGH A

LITTLE BIT OF A CRISIS,

WHICH WE SOUGHT GOD'S HELP

FOR AND WE GOT THROUGH IT.

AND I FOUND MYSELF HAVING

FEELINGS AGAIN OF THINKING

EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT.

AND I WAS IN THE SHOWER ONE

MORNING, AND I FELT THE LORD

SAY TO ME, SHEILA, I WAS

THERE THAT DAY.

YOU WERE NOT ALONE.

I WAS THERE.

AND I WAS THE ONE WHO

PROTECTED YOU.

MY MEMORY IS THAT I PULLED

THE CANE OR I PUSHED IT.

BUT IF I THINK ABOUT THAT,

MY DAD WOULD HAVE LANDED ON

ME OR BEHIND ME.

BUT HE DIDN'T.

HE LANDED RIGHT BESIDE ME.

I FELT LIKE THE LORD SAID,

YOU WERE NEVER ALONE FOR A

MOMENT.

Gordon: WHAT DOES THAT

DO TO YOU?

IT SET ME FREE.

IT SET ME FREE FROM FEELING

AS IF I'M WAITING FOR THE

OTHER SHOE TO DROP, OR THAT

I OWE THE WORLD EVERYTHING,

THAT I HAVE TO GET IT

RIGHT.

PART OF IT NOW IS I'M 57, SO

I DON'T FEEL I HAVE TO GET

IT RIGHT ANYMORE.

AND IF YOU WRITE NASTY

E-MAILS, I'M NOT GOING TO

REPLY TO THEM.

Gordon: IT'S A GREAT

RELEASE WHEN YOU'RE OLDER

BECAUSE YOU DO NOT CARE AS

MUCH.

AND IT GOES BACK TO, YOU

DID NOT CHOOSE ME; I CHOSE

YOU.

Gordon: HER BACK "BACK

TO LIFE" IS AVAILABLE

NATIONWIDE.

AND SHEILA IS GOING TO BE

WITH US LATER.

THIS IS "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE," WHERE WE

INTERACT WITH YOU.

AND IF YOU HAVE A NEED IN

DEPRESSION, IF YOU WANT

SOMEONE TO PRAY WITH YOU,

WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.

AND SHEILA IS GOING TO BE

PRAYING.

BUT, FIRST, A MAN WITH A

PAST THAT HAUNTED HIM.

PEOPLE REMIND ME WHAT MY

MOTHER DID TO MY FATHER.

MY MOM SNAPPED.

MY MAMA KILLED MY DADDY.

Gordon: SEE HOW THREE

WORDS FROM A SONG SET HIM

FREE, WHEN WE COME BACK.

Gordon: JAMES HAD A

DIFFICULT CHILDHOOD.

AT A YOUNG AGE, HE WAS

SEXUALLY ABUSED, AND THEN

HIS FATHER WAS MURDERED BY

HIS OWN MOTHER.

BEFORE LONG, JAMES WANTED TO

DIE HIMSELF UNTIL THREE

WORDS FROM A SONG GAVE HIM

HOPE.

HE SAID HE WAS LEAVING,

PACKING HIS CLOTHES.

AND MY MAMA -- ACCORDING TO

MY MAMA, HER MIND SNAPPED

AND HE GRABBED THE GUN AND

SHE FELT HERSELF PULLING THE

TRIGGER UNTIL THERE WAS NO

MORE BULLETS.

Reporter: JAMES WAS

JUST A BOY WHEN HE GOT WORD

HIS MOTHER HAD SHOT HIS

FATHER.

WE WERE PLAYING BALL, AND

MY NEPHEW CAME AND SAID YOU

ALL NEED TO GO TO THE

HOSPITAL.

SOMETHING BAD HAS HAPPENED

TO YOUR DAD.

WE GOT TO THE HOSPITAL AND

HE DIED THREE HOURS LATER.

Reporter: THAT WASN'T

THE FIRST TIME JAMES

SUFFERED A TRAUMATIC

EXPERIENCE.

WHEN I WAS NINE YEARS

OLD, I WAS MOLESTED BY A

FAMILY MEMBER.

AND HE TOLD ME IF I TOLD

ANYBODY, HE WOULD KILL ME.

I NEVER DID SAY NOTHING FOR

42 YEARS.

Reporter: THOSE EVENTS

LEFT JAMES WITH A DISTORTED

VIEW OF PEOPLE AND OF GOD.

MY WORLD IS COMING APART,

AND I'M THINKING, IF THERE

IS A GOD, WHY WOULD GOD

ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME.

I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND IT.

Reporter: WITH THEIR

FATHER DEAD AND THEIR MOTHER

IN PRISON, JAMES AND HIS

SIBLINGS WERE SENT TO A

FOSTER HOME.

WHEN THEY WERE NEGLECTED,

JAMES RAN AWAY.

AT THAT POINT I DIDN'T

CARE ABOUT LIFE NO MORE.

I TOOK A BOTTLE OF PILLS TO

TRY TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

Reporter: THE RELATIVE

NOTIFIED THE POLICE, WHO

FOUND JAMES AND TOOK HIM TO

THE HOSPITAL.

WHEN HE WAS RELEASED, HE

STARTED LIVING ON THE

STREETSMENT.

THAT' STREETS.

THAT'S WHEN I STARTED

TURNING TO DRUGS AND ALCOHOL

TO NUMB THE PAIN, BUT IT

MADE IT WORSE.

Reporter: FINALLY HE

WAS ARRESTED AND SERVED TWO

TERMS IN PRISON.

THE SECOND ONE FOR 14

YEARS.

EVEN AFTER HE WAS RELEASED,

HIS PAST CONTINUED TO HAUNT

HIM.

PEOPLE REMIND ME WHAT MY

MOTHER DID TO MY FATHER.

THERE IS SO MUCH DARKNESS IN

MY LIFE THAT I COULDN'T SEE

THE LIGHT.

PEOPLE TRIED TO POINT ME TO

THE LIGHT, BUT I JUST

COULDN'T SEE THE LIGHT.

Reporter: HE BEGAN

DRINKING HEAVILY AND BECAME

ADDICTED TO COCAINE.

AFTER A 14-HOUR BINGE ON

COCAINE AND ALCOHOL, JAMES

ONCE AGAIN HIT BOTTOM.

I TOLD GOD I DIDN'T WANT

TO LIVE NO MORE.

I SAID, IF YOUR SO BIG, GOD,

WHY DID I HAVE TO GO THROUGH

ALL OF THE THINGS I WENT

THROUGH?

I GOT THE GUN AND PUT IT TO

MY HEAD AND PULLED THE

TRIGGER, AND IT WOULDN'T

SHOOT.

SO I GAVE UP TRYING TO KILL

MYSELF.

Reporter: THE NEXT DAY

JAMES WAS SWEEPING FLOORS AT

WORK WHEN HE HEARD A

CO-WORKER SINGING "JESUS

LOVES ME."

I SAID, HOW CAN JESUS

LOVE ME.

I WAS MOLESTED AS A LITTLE

BOY.

MY MAMA KILLED MY DADDY.

I TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

I'VE BEEN BAD ALL MY LIFE.

I HAVE STOLEN AND BROKEN

PEOPLE'S STUFF.

AND YOU MEAN TO TELL ME THAT

JESUS LOVES ME?

HOW CAN HE LOVE ME?

Reporter: JAMES SAYS

THE MAN'S WORD TOUCHED

SOMETHING INSIDE.

"FOR GOD SO LOVED THE

WORLD THAT HE BEGAVE HIS

ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, THAT WHO

SO EVER LIBERALS WILL

BELIEVES, WILL HAVE

EVERLASTING LIFE."

I THOUGHT, IF JESUS IS REAL,

I WANT HIM.

Reporter: THAT NIGHT

JAMES WENT HOME TO HIS

APARTMENT AND PRAYED A

SIMPLE PRAYER.

I BEGAN TO CRY OUT TO

GOD.

I SAID, GOD, MEN TELL ME YOU

LOVE ME.

ALL I HAVE TO DO IS ASK YOU

TO COME INTO MY LIFE AND ASK

YOU TO FORGIVE ME.

SO, LORD, I'M ASKING YOU

RIGHT NOW TO FORGIVE ME, AND

I PROMISE YOU -- AFTER I

SAID THAT, ALL OF THE WEIGHT

OF THIS WAS GONE.

I FELT LIKE I HAD WINGS.

Reporter: HE COULDN'T

WAIT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT

GOD.

I COULDN'T WAIT TO READ

THE BIBLE.

I SAW GOD BEGIN TO CHANGE

ME.

"IF ANY MAN BE IN CHRIST, HE

IS A NEW CREATURE.

OLD THINGS WILL PASS AWAY,

BUT OLD THINGS BECOME NEW."

I TOOK A COUPLE OF DAYS

OFF.

WHEN I CAME BACK TO WORK,

PEOPLE LOOKED AT ME AND

SAID, WHAT'S WRONG WITH

YOU?

AND I SAID, I MET JESUS TWO

DAYS AGO AND I GOT SAVED.

Reporter: AND JAMES

ALSO KNEW TO FULLY RELEASE

HIS PAIN, HE WOULD HAVE TO

FORGIVE THOSE WHO HURT HIM.

I HAVE FORGIVEN THE GUY

WHO MOLESTED ME, AND IT WAS

HARD.

BUT GOD SAID, IF YOU CAN'T

FORGIVE, I WON'T FORGIVE

YOU.

Reporter: JAMES ALSO

FORGAVE HIS MOTHER, WHO NOW

ATTENDS THE CHURCH WHERE HE

IS THE PASTOR.

JAMES SAYS WHEN HE WAKES UP

EACH DAY, HE THANKS GOD FOR

ALL HE HAS DONE.

LIFE IS GOOD.

I'M PASTORING THE CHURCH,

AND I'VE GOT A BUS MINISTRY,

WHERE WE GO OUT INTO THE

COMMUNITY, AND I SHARE THE

GOSPEL.

I'M JUST TRYING TO DO THE

RIGHT THING, IN SHARING WHAT

GOD HAD DONE FOR ME.

I WANT IT TO BE A GIFT IN

SOMEBODY'S LIFE.

WHEN YOU LOOK BACK ON MY

LIFE AND YOU LOOK AT WHERE I

AM TODAY, I SAY, NOBODY BUT

GOD CHANGED ME AND GAVE ME A

BEAUTIFUL FAMILY AND WIFE.

I COULDN'T ASK FOR NO MORE.

IN 1997, WHEN I GAVE MY LIFE

TO CHRIST, I SEEN THE LORD,

I'VE SEEN THAT LIGHT.

AND I HAVEN'T BEEN THE SAME

SINCE.

Gordon: THE SAME LIGHT,

YOU CAN HAVE THE SAME

SCHEERNEXPERIENCE AND IT

COMES THE SAME WAY.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS PRAY

THAT SIMPLE PRAYER THAT

JAMES PRAYED.

IF YOU WANT HELP WITH THAT,

WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.

THE NUMBER IS ON THE SCREEN,

1-888-777-1999.

WELL, THIS IS "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE," AND WE ARE

GOING TO PRAY FOR YOU.

SO LET'S GO OVER TO JESSICA

TO SEE WHAT'S HAPPENING IN

THE CHATROOM.

WELL, GORDON AND SHEILA,

WE HAD A LOT OF FOLKS ON OUR

Facebook PAGE ASKING FOR

PRAYER REQUEST ABOUT

DEPRESSION.

CINDY WRITES IN, "I'M IN A

DARK PLACE.

I HAVE ANXIETY, DEPRESSION,

AND FEEL ISOLATED AND

ALONE.

SOMETIMES I THINK OF ENDING

MY LIFE.

I HURT SO MUCH ABOUT

EVERYTHING.

PLEASE PRAY THAT GOD WILL

TAKE IT ALL AWAY."

AND SHEENA SAYS, "PLEASE

PRAY FOR ME.

I NEED HEALING IN EVERY AREA

OF MY LIFE.

I'VE BEEN SUFFERING WITH

DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, AND

PANIC ATTACKS FOR YEARS.

PRAY THAT GOD DELIVERS ME

FROM ALL OF IT.

I CLAIM MY HEALING BY HIS

STRIPES."

SHEILA?

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR

SHARING THOSE WITH US.

SO LET'S PRAY TOGETHER.

AND IF YOU FIND YOURSELF

RIGHT NOW IN A PLACE WHERE

YOU'RE JUST DESPERATE,

REMEMBER THAT GOD IS CLOSE

TO THE BROKENHEARTED, CLOSE

TO YOU RIGHT NOW, AND SAVES

THOSE WHO ARE CRUSHED IN

SPIRIT.

LET'S PRAY.

FATHER GOD, IT'S ALMOST TOO

HARD TO TAKE IN, THE BROKEN

SINNERS LIKE US, RIGHT NOW,

BECAUSE OF THE SHED BLOOD OF

JESUS CHRIST, CAN ENTER INTO

THE VERY THRONE ROOM OF

HEAVEN AND BE HEARD BY THE

GOD WHO HOLDS ALL OF THIS IN

PLACE.

SO RIGHT NOW, LORD, BECAUSE

OF JESUS, WE COME BOLDLY

INTO YOUR PRESENCE.

AND I PRAY FOR MY SISTERS.

I PRAY FOR THOSE WHO ARE

STRUGGLING WITH ANXIETY,

WITH DR DEPRESSION, WITH

FEAR.

WE KNOW THAT THE ENEMY IS A

LIAR.

THE FATHER OF ALL LIARS.

AND WE REBUKE HIM IN JESUS'

NAME.

AND JESUS, WE REMEMBER THAT

YOU ARE PEACE.

YOU SAID, IN THIS WORLD YOU

WILL HAVE TROUBLE, BUT TAKE

HEART, I HAVE OVERCOME THIS

WORLD.

SO, LORD JESUS, WE DO WHAT

YOU TELL US TO DO.

WE CAST ALL OF OUR CARES ON

YOU BECAUSE YOU CARE FOR

US.

LORD JESUS, FOR THE ONE

RIGHT NOW WHO IS SITTING

ALONE IN THAT ROOM, ON THE

FLOOR, DESPERATE, READY TO

END THEIR LIFE, JESUS, WILL

YOU WALK RIGHT INTO THAT

ROOM AND LET THEM KNOW THAT

YOU'RE HERE.

THAT YOU WOULD SAY PEACE, BE

STILL.

BE WITH OUR SISTER RIGHT

NOW, LORD JESUS.

AND, FATHER, FOR MEN WHO ARE

WATCHING THIS, WHO WANT TO

GET HELP BUT THEY'RE SO

ASHAMED -- HOW CAN THEY EVEN

ADMIT THEY'VE GOT

PROBLEMS -- FATHER, ON THAT

CROSS, JESUS CHRIST, YOU

TOOK OUR SHAME.

YOU, WHO KNEW NO SHAME,

BECAME SHAME SO THAT WE

COULD BE FREE.

TO HELSO HELP US TO LIVE A

LIFE OF SPEAKING WHAT IS

TRUE.

OUR BROKENNESS IS A GREATER

BRIDGE TO OTHER PEOPLE

PRETENDING TO BE WHOLE.

LORD, I PRAY RIGHT NOW FOR

EVERY SINGLE PERSON WITH US,

THAT THE HEALING OIL WOULD

FLOW, THAT THEY WOULD FEEL

IT FROM THE TOP OF THEIR

HEAD TO THE BOTTOM OF THEIR

FEET.

THAT THEY WOULD REALIZE EVEN

NOW WE'RE SURROUNDED BY

ANGELS.

WE'RE SURROUNDED BY THOSE

WHO ARE CRYING OUT, HOLY,

HOLY, HOLY IS THE LAMB OF

GOD WHO TAKES AWAY THE SIN

OF THE WORLD.

JUST REACH OUT RIGHT NOW IN

JESUS' NAME AND RECEIVE HIS

PEACE.

THANK YOU, FATHER.

THANK YOU, JESUS.

Gordon: AMEN.

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AND REALIZE GOD LOVES YOU,

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I LOVED IT, GORDON.

Gordon: STILL AHEAD, A

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EXECUTIVE DIRECTOR GRACE

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CBN HAS BEEN SUCH A

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THERE WERE CRITICAL TIMES IN

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THAT GOD WOULD SEE ME AND

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Terry: NOW ROSE IS

PURSUING HER MASTER'S DEGREE

IN CHRISTIAN MINISTRY.

SHE IS GRATEFUL TO CBN

PARTNERS FOR HELPING TO

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IT IS BECAUSE OF THEM

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IF I DIDN'T COME HERE, I

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WE LEAVE YOU WITH THESE

WORDS FROM PSALMS: "BUT YOU,

O LORD, ARE A GOD OF

COMPASSION AND MERCY, SLOW

TO GET ANGRY AND FILLED WITH

UNFAILING LOVE AND

FAITHFULNESS."

FOR ALL OF US HERE, GOD

BLESS YOU.

AND MAY HIS PEACE BE ON

YOU.

THANKS, JAMES!

*

AND WELCOME TO "THE

WATCHMAN".

AS 2014 WOUND DOWN, AND IN

THE WAKE OF ISIS-INSPIRED

JIHADI ATTACKS IN OTTAWA,

NEW YORK CITY, AND

AUSTRALIA, I WARNED HERE ON

THE PROGRAM THAT WE WOULD BE

SEEING AN INCREASE IN

TERRORIST ACTIVITY ON

WESTERN SOIL.

WELL, WE'RE NOT FAR INTO

2015, BUT UNFORTUNATELY,

FOLKS, THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT'S

HAPPENING.

WE BEGAN THE YEAR WITH

DEADLY ATTACKS IN FRANCE, AS

TWO BROTHERS, BOTH FRENCH

CITIZENS, MASSACRED 12

PEOPLE, INCLUDING TWO POLICE

OFFICERS, AT THE PARIS

OFFICES OF THE FRENCH

SATIRICAL MAGAZINE "CHARLIE

HEBDO".

NOW THE MAGAZINE HAD LONG

POKED FUN AT ISLAM'S PROPHET

MUHAMMAD AND CHRISTIANITY

AND JUDAISM, BUT ONLY

MUSLIMS THOUGHT THE MAGAZINE

STAFF DESERVED A DEATH

SENTENCE.

THE TWO TERRORISTS WHO

CARRIED OUT THE MASSACRE

WERE LATER SHOT AND KILLED

BY FRENCH POLICE AFTER A

HOSTAGE STANDOFF, AND AT THE

SAME TIME, AN ACQUAINTANCE

OF THOSE TWO BROTHERS WAS

CARRYING OUT HIS OWN JIHAD,

MURDERING A FRENCH POLICE

POLICE OFFICER AND TAKING

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