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700 Club Interactive: Stay True to You – November 10, 2015

A nightclub owner and a former top model struggle with identity issues. Read Transcript


Gordon: STAYING TRUE

IN THE MIDST OF STRUGGLE.

A PART OF ME FELT

DEPRESSED.

Gordon: AND PAIN.

I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH.

I WASN'T THIN ENOUGH.

IT WAS DESTROYING MY OWN

HEART.

Gordon: ON TODAY'S

"700 CLUB INTERACTIVE."

Andrew: HI, GOOD

MORNING, AND WELCOME TO

THE SHOW.

JEREMY ANDERSON GREW UP IN

A CHRISTIAN HOME.

HE WAS KNOWN IN HIGH

SCHOOL AS THE GOOD CHURCH

BOY, BUT THAT CHANGED ONCE

JEREMY WENT OFF TO

COLLEGE.

Terry: JEREMY STARTED

STRUGGLING WITH WHO HE

WAS.

HE GOT A JOB AS A

NIGHTCLUB PROMOTER WITH A

BUILT-IN DRUG CONNECTION

ON THE SIDE.

THEN ONE DAY EVERYTHING

STOPPED: NO JOB, NO DRUGS,

NO MONEY, AND JEREMY WAS

FORCED TO REMEMBER WHO HE

WAS.

THERE WOULD BE NO

SMOKING, NO DRUG SELLING,

NO DRUG USING, NO

PREMARITAL SEX.

I SAID I'M GOING TO LIVE

MY LIFE 100% FOR THE LORD.

Reporter: JEREMY

ANDERSON GRADUATED FROM

HIGH SCHOOL WITH A

REPUTATION FOR BEING A

GOOD CHURCH BOY.

BUT JUST BEFORE HE STARTED

COLLEGE, HIS PARENTS MOVED

TO A NEW STATE, AND JEREMY

GOT A NEW TASTE OF

FREEDOM.

NOW I'M IN A CITY THAT

I'VE BEEN ALL MY LIFE --

AT LEAST HALF MY LIFE, AND

I'M THERE WITHOUT MY

PARENTS.

BUCK WILD.

Reporter: JEREMY SAID

SMALL COMPROMISES LED HYMN

TO DO ALL OHIMTO DO ALL OF THE THINGS HE

PROMISED HE NEVER WOULD.

BEFORE HE KNEW IT, HE

BEGAN DRINKING AND HAVING

SEX.

I THOUGHT, I'M GOING TO

BE THE COOL GUY.

I WANT ALL OF THE MONEY,

ALL OF THE CLOTHES, AND

IT'S ALL ABOUT ME, ME, ME.

Reporter: JEREMY SAYS

HE WAS TRYING TO FIGURE

OUT HIS TRUE IDENTITY.

IN COLLEGE, I REALLY

STRUGGLED WITH IT BECAUSE

THAT'S WHEN I WAS BECOMING

A MAN.

AND I WAS TRYING TO FIGURE

OUT WHAT TYPE A MAN WOULD

I BE.

Reporter: AFTER

COLLEGE, JEREMY BECAME A

MANAGER AT A RENTAL CAR

DEALERSHIP, AND DRUG

DEALERS WERE FREQUENT

COSTUMERS.

THEY WOULD GIVE ME

MONEY AND THEY WOULD GIVE

ME WEED AS A FAVOR FOR ME

TO PUT THEM IN A CAR THEY

DIDN'T QUALIFY FOR.

Reporter: THEN HE

STARTED PROMOTING

NIGHTCLUBS.

THE PAY WAS BETTER THAN

HIS DAY JOB, SO HE QUIT.

WHEN THE MUSIC WOULD

STOP PLAYING AND THE

LIGHTS WERE ON, AND I

WOULD WAKE UP AND SOBER

UP, I WOULD FEEL DEPRESSED

BECAUSE I KNEW THERE WAS

MORE TO LIFE.

Reporter: JEREMY'S

FATHER KNEW GOD HAD MORE

FOR HIS SON, SO HE PRAYED.

I THINK AT HEIGHT OF MY

SUCCESS IN DRUGS AND

CLUBS, MY FATHER WAS AT

THE HEIGHT OF HIS PRAYERS.

HE TRANSITIONED FROM

PRAYING FOR ME TO PRAYING

ON ME.

WHATEVER I WAS DOING THAT

WAS NOT BRINGING GOD THE

GLORY, THAT I WOULD FAIL

AT IT.

MY NIGHTCLUB OPERATION

GOT CUT OFF, AND WITHIN A

MONTH'S TIME, I FOUND

MYSELF BROKE, OWING PEOPLE

MONEY.

Reporter: JEREMY WAS

ON HIS WAY HOME TO GET

HIGH WHEN HE HAD A

CONVERSATION WITH HIS

GRANDMOTHER.

SHE WAS, LIKE, LOOK,

YOU'VE GOT TO GET YOUR

LIFE BACK TOGETHER.

GIVE YOUR LIFE BACK TO

GOD.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY

GRANDSON?

I SAID, GRANDMA, PEOPLE

CHANGE.

I'VE CHANGED.

AND SHE SAID, LOOK, YOU'VE

CHANGED, BUT GOD CAN

CHANGE YOU BACK.

I STARTED THINKING ABOUT

THAT, GOD CAN CHANGE ME

BACK?

THIS WAS A PIVOTAL MOMENT.

SHE SAID GOD LOVES YOU AND

GOD CAN RESTORE YOU, AND

GOD STILL WANTS TO USE

YOU.

AND AT THAT TIME I DECIDED

TO GIVE MY LIFE TO GOD.

Reporter: JEREMY

SURRENDERED TO GOD, BUT HE

STILL HAD TO FACE HIS

ADDICTION TO DRUGS AND

ALCOHOL.

I BELIEVE THE LIES OF

THE DEVIL.

I THOUGHT THE ONLY WAY I

WOULD GET A GOOD NIGHT'S

REST AFTER MAKING THIS

DECISION WAS IF I GOT HIGH

OR DRUNK ONE MORE TIME.

I WAS SMOKING AND SMOKING,

AND I CAN'T GET HIGH.

AND I INSTANTLY BROKE DOWN

CRYING.

GOD SAID, YOU'VE BEEN

USING DRUGS AND ALCOHOL

AND WOMEN TO FILL A HOLE

WITHIN YOUR HEART AND

WITHIN YOUR SOUL.

SINCE YOU'VE ACCEPTED ME,

SON, THERE IS NO ROOM FOR

THE OTHER STUFF.

I'LL FILL THAT VOID IN

YOUR LIFE, AND YOU'VE BEEN

MADE NEW AGAIN.

Reporter: JEREMY

HASN'T TOUCHED DRUGS OR

ALCOHOL SINCE.

HE WAS REBAPTIZED BY HIS

FATHER, AND SOON AFTER HE

MARRIED TRACY.

NOW JEREMY IS A FATHER.

HE SHARES HIS STORY

THROUGH THIS BOOKS AND

SPEAKING ENGAGEMENTS.

TODAY JEREMY LOOKS TO HIS

HEAVENLY FATHER FOR HIS

IDENTITY.

THE FATHER THAT SAID, I

SEE A VISION AND A PLAN

FOR YOUR LIFE, AND I WILL

NOT LET THE DEVIL CONQUER

YOUR LIFE -- ALTHOUGH YOU

WENT FAR OFF, I'M GOING TO

TAKE WHAT THE DEVIL MEANT

FOR EVIL AND TURN IT

AROUND.

THAT'S WHAT MY FATHER WILL

DO.

Andrew: IT'S A COMMON

STORY, AND MAYBE IT IS

YOUR STORY.

A LOT OF US HAVE HAD

RELATIONSHIP WITH

RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS

AND WE'VE WALKED AWAY FOR

WHATEVER REASON.

WE SEE WHATEVER THE WORLD

HAS TO OFFER, WHATEVER OUR

FLESH COURAGEOU CRAVES AND WANTS TO

GO FOR, AND WE BELIEVE THE

LIE OF THE ENEMY THAT THIS

WILL MAKE US HAPPY,

PURSUING DRUGS OR PURSUING

PORNOGRAPHY, OR THIS GROUP

OF PEOPLE THAT I WANT TO

HANG WITH, THIS

LIFESTYLE -- THESE THINGS

OF THE WORLD, THAT WILL

MAKE US HAPPY.

AND THEN WHAT BEGINS TO

HAPPEN IS IT LEAVES US

UNSATISFIED.

AND THAT'S BY DESIGN.

BECAUSE THE WAY GOD

DESIGNED YOU IS SO THAT

JESUS CHRIST IS THE

SATISFACTION AND THE

FULLNESS THAT WILL MAKE

YOUR SPIRIT COME ALIVE.

WHEN WE PURSUE THE THINGS

OF THE WORLD AND OF THE

FLESH, AND WE FIND THIS

DISSATISFACTION, WE SENSE

THIS FEELING OF DISGUST,

MAYBE EVEN ANGER.

FOR SOME OF US IT IS

DEPRESSION AND LONELINESS.

FOR SOME IT IS JUST A

MELANCHOLY FEELING OF NOW

I'M DISGUSTED BECAUSE I'M

DISSATISFIED.

TAKE COMFORT IN THE FACT

THAT THAT IS VERY NORMAL.

IT IS VERY NORMAL THAT WE

WOULD PURSUE THINGS OF THE

FLESH, BE LEFT FEELING

EMPTY, AND THEN WE HAVE

THIS NEGATIVE FEELINGS.

THIS IS BY DESIGN BECAUSE

GOD DESIRES TO FILL THAT

VOID IN YOUR LIFE AND

OCCUPY THAT SPACE.

IT IS ALL OF THIS PROCESS

OF MORE OF HIM IN YOU AND

LESS OF YOU.

THAT'S SOMETHING I'VE BEEN

BATTLING LATELY, WHICH IS

THIS STIRRING IN MY

SPIRIT, THAT SOMETHING IS

OCCURRING, AND I'M

BEGINNING TO PRAY ABOUT IT

MORE, AND GOD IS SAYING,

I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU YET.

THERE IS MORE TO BE DONE.

AND THERE NEEDS TO BE LESS

OF YOU, ANDREW, AND MORE

OF ME.

THAT CAN BE A SCARY THING

IF WE'RE ANXIOUS AND

FEARFUL.

BUT GOD TELLS US TO FEAR

NOT AND BE ANXIOUS FOR

NOTHING.

WHEN WE'RE FEARFUL, WE'RE

TELLING GOD, I KNOW THIS

SITUATION BETTER THAN YOU.

THE WONDERFUL THING ABOUT

JESUS CHRIST IS THAT WE

ARE DESIGNED BY HIM AND

FOR HIM.

SO WHEN YOU PURSUE THE

THINGS OF THE WORLD AND

THE THINGS OF THE FLESH

THAT YOU ARE TOLD WILL

MAKE YOU HAPPY, AND YOU'RE

UNSATISFIED BY IT, TAKE

COMFORT AND HOPE IN THE

FACT THAT JESUS KNEW THIS

WOULD OCCUR.

AND HE IS READY,

AVAILABLE, AND WILLING TO

PICK UP THE PIECES AND

SAY, LET ME RESTORE YOUR

LIFE.

IT IS NOT TOO LATE.

AND NOW THAT YOU'VE TASTED

THE WORLD, I WANT YOU TO

SEE THAT I AM GOOD AND

THAT JESUS CHRIST IS THE

ONE TO BRING FULLNESS OF

LIFE.

TERRY?

Terry: WELL, WE DO

LIVE IN A WORLD THAT IS

CONSTANTLY BOMBARDING US

WITH LIES AND IMPOSSIBLE

EXPECTATIONS.

LOTS OF US STRUGGLE WITH

SELF-WORTH, HONOR, AND

PURPOSE, LEAVING US STUCK

IN CONFUSING GAMES OF

IDENTITY CHARADES.

IT IS A CRISIS, A

PROBLEM THAT PLAGUES OUR

GENERATION.

IT HAS BECOME AN OBJECT OF

FIX SATIONATION, AND IT IS EVERY

GIRL AND GUY'S

FRUSTRATION.

WHO AM I?

WHAT IS MY IDENTITY?

WE TRY TO FIND IT IN

DIFFERENT PLACES BECAUSE

OUR HEART IS FILLED WITH

EMPTY SPACES.

WE TRY TO FIND IT IN OUR

RELATIONSHIPS WITH OUR

FRIENDS, ARE MAYBE

ROMANTIC THINGS WE SWEAR

WILL NEVER END.

MAYBE WITH OUR SUCCESS AND

DOING WELL IN SCHOOL.

WEARING THE RIGHT CLOTHES

AND TRYING TO BE COOL.

OR TRYING TO BE THE

CREATIVE ONE IN THE GROUP.

GIRLS STRIVING FOR A SIZE

2 INSTEAD OF REALIZING

WHAT GOD SEES IN YOU.

ALL OF THOSE THINGS WILL

NOT FILL THAT HOLE.

INSTEAD, THOSE WORLDLY

THINGS WILL TAKE THEIR

TOLL.

THE WORLD'S IDENTITY

LEAVES YOU STRIVING FOR

SOMETHING UNREAL, AND YOU

BECOME STUCK IN THIS

IMPOSSIBLE IDEAL.

BUT, LISTEN, HERE'S WHAT'S

REAL: ALL OF THE THINGS

THE WORLD SAYS YOU ARE ARE

UNREAL.

GENESIS TELLS US WE'RE

MADE IN HIS IMAGE, YES,

GOD.

ALPHA, OMEGA, THE

BEGINNING AND THE END, WHO

SITS THERE WITH THE WHOLE

WORLD IN THE PALM OF HIS

HAND.

IT TELLS YOU WHO YOU ARE.

GOD SAYS YOU'RE THE SALT

OF THE EARTH.

GOD SAYS HE HAS KNOWN YOUR

PLANS BEFORE YOUR VERY

BIRTH.

GOD SAYS YOU ARE SEATED ON

THE RIGHT SIDE WITH

CHRIST.

GOD SAYS YOU ARE WORTH HIS

SON PAYING THE ULTIMATE

PRICE.

GOD SAYS YOU'RE A

WORKMANSHIP OF BEAUTIFUL

CREATION.

GOD SAYS YOU HAVE A POWER

TO BE A FORCE FOREHIM FOR HIM, TO

CHANGE NATIONS.

GOD SAYS YOU ARE NOTHING

WITHOUT HIM.

GOD SAYS WE ARE THE LIGHT

IN THE WORLD SO DIM.

GOD SAYS HE IS LIMITLESS,

AND WE HAVE ACCESS TO THAT

POWER.

HE SAYS YOU ARE PRECIOUS

TO BOTH ME AND MY SON.

GOD HAS TOLD YOU YOUR

IDENTITY.

IT IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF

YOUR FACE.

STOP SETTLING FOR THE

WORLD'S DEFINITION IN ITS

PLACE.

I KNOW WHO I AM.

I KNOW WHO I AM.

I KNOW WHO I AM.

I AM WHO GOD SAYS I AM.

Terry: THAT'S A

POWERFUL WORD AND TRUTH

FOR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF

US.

GOD NOT JUST CREATED US IN

HIS IMAGE, HE CREATED US

WITH A PLAN AND A PURPOSE

IN MIND AND TO GIVE US

HOPE AND A FUTURE.

SO DON'T SETTLE FOR LESS.

FIND OUT WHO HE SAYS YOU

ARE, AND THAT IS AVAILABLE

IN HIS LOVE LETTER.

HIS WORD.

AN OPEN BOOK TO ALL OF US

WHO ARE WILLING TO OPEN IT

AND READ.

LET'S GO OVER TO JESS.

COMING UP, WHEN PERFECT

ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH.

THE COMPETITION WAS

JUST RUTHLESS.

I WAS JUST FEELING LESS

AND LESS SECURE IN WHO I

WAS.

ONE COVER GIRL SHARES

WHY SHE LEFT THE MODELING

INDUSTRY, RIGHT AFTER

THIS.

Terry: NICOLE READER

WAS A RISING STAR IN THE

MODELING WORLD.

SHE POSED FOR VICTORIA

SECRET AND MAGAZINES LIME

MAXIM AND ESQUIRE.

HER CAREER WAS SUPPOSED TO

BE THE FULFILLMENT OF A

GIRL'S DREAM.

BUT THE REALITY WAS

COMPROMISE AFTER ANOTHER.

Reporter: NICOLE WAS

JUST A YOUNG GIRL WHEN SHE

STARTED FOLLOWING HER

DREAM OF BECOMING A STAR.

AT 16 SHE MOVED TO

HOLLYWOOD AND WAS SOON

APPEARING IN SOME OF

AMERICA'S TOP MAGAZINES.

AFTER EIGHT YEARS OF

MODELING, NICOLE HAD SEEN

TOO MANY LIVES DESTROYED

BY THE CUT-THROAT INDUSTRY

AND THOUGHT HERS COULD BE

NEXT.

Jessica: JOINING US

NOW IS FORMER MODEL AND

ALTER NICOLE WEEDER.

I'M SO EXCITED TO HAVE YOU

HERE.

THANK YOU.

IT'S MY PLEASURE.

Jessica: WE KNOW WE

ALL LIVE IN THIS CONSULT

OF PERFECTIONISM AND

BEAUTY AND GLAMOUR, BUT

YOU HAVE A REAL HISTORY

WITH THAT AND A REAL

EXPERIENCE WITH THAT,

CHASING YOUR DREAMS IN

HOLLYWOOD TO BECOME A

MODEL.

WHAT KIND OF TRIALS DID

YOU FACE?

I FACED SO MANY TRIALS.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT WAS SO

INTERESTING?

IT WAS ALWAYS SUPERFICIAL.

IT WAS NEVER WORRYING

ABOUT MY CHARACTER OR MY

HEART OR WHO I WAS AS A

PERSON.

IT WAS ALWAYS IS YOUR SKIN

PERFECT ENOUGH, OR IS YOUR

HAIR LONG AND THICK

ENOUGH?

ARE YOU SKINNY ENOUGH?

MY AGENTS AND

PHOTOGRAPHERS WERE

LITERALLY PICKING ME APART

AND CRITIQUING EVERY FLAW

I HAD.

AS A MODEL, THERE IS

EXTREME PRESSURE ON THE

WAY YOU LOOK.

Jessica: IT SEEMS

LIKE THIS VICIOUS CYCLE OF

TRYING TO MAKE YOURSELF

BETTER BUT NEVER BEING

ABLE TO REACH THAT GOAL.

YES.

Jessica: AND BODY

ISSUES ARE HUGE IN THE

U.S.

UPWARDS OF THREE MILLION.

WHAT KIND OF BODY ISSUES

DID YOU FACE, ESPECIALLY

BEING IN THE MODELING

INDUSTRY?

I FACED EXTREME

PRESSURE BECAUSE MY AGENT

WAS MARKETING ME AS SEXY,

AND IT WASN'T EVEN 18 YET.

I FELT PRESSURE TO BE THIS

SEX OBJECT, WHEN IN

REALITY IT WAS DESTROYING

MY SELF-ESTEEM.

Jessica: AND WHAT

KIND OF LIES DID THAT

INSTILL IN YOU?

IT HAD TO HAVE AN AFFECT

ON YOUR MOST BASIC SENSE

OF SELF AND WORTH AND

DIGNITY.

YES.

I REALLY BELIEVE THE ENEMY

ATTACKS US AS WOMEN.

HE IS THAT NEGATIVE VOICE

THAT SAYS YOU'RE NOT

PRETTY ENOUGH.

YOU'RE NOT BEAUTIFUL

ENOUGH.

THERE WERE A LOT OF LIES

THROWN AT ME TELLING ME WE

DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR

ATTITUDE.

WE ONLY CARE ABOUT HOW YOU

LOOK.

AND IF YOU DON'T GET THIS

JOB, YOU'RE NOT WORTHY.

Jessica: YOU

EXPERIENCED A VERY EXTREME

VERSION, BUT THIS IS

HAPPENING TO GIRLS

EVERYWHERE AND ALL

DIFFERENT AGES.

WHY DO YOU THINK THESE

BODY IMAGES ARE ON THE

RISE TODAY?

THE MEDIA DOESN'T CARE

ABOUT BUILDING UP YOUR

HEART OR YOUR CHARACTER.

THERE IS NO REENFORCEMENT

THAT YOUR WORTH IS WHO YOU

ARE IN YOUR HEART.

THE EXTREME PRESSURES ON

WOMEN IS, I REALLY

BELIEVE, IS BECAUSE OF THE

MEDIA AND THE FACT THAT IT

IS ALL VERY SUPERFICIAL.

Jessica: BUT YOU

DIDN'T KNOW THE LORD.

SO WHAT WAS YOUR TURNING

POINT?

I STARTED FEELING

REALLY ANXIOUS ONSET.

MY INNER HEART WAS GIVING

ME WARNING SIGNS.

IT WAS TELLING ME, NICOLE,

THIS ISN'T WHAT YOU'RE

MEANT TO DO.

YOU'RE NOT MEANT TO BE

JUST PARADING YOUR

SEXUALITY FOR PICTURES.

I STARTED TO FEEL REALLY

BAD ABOUT MYSELF.

AFTER I POSED IN THESE

MAGAZINES, IT LED ME TO A

CRISIS IN WHO I WAS.

HERE I WAS, I DIDN'T WANT

TO MODEL ANYMORE FOR A

LIVING, BUT I PLACED MY

IDENTITY, FOR SO LONG, IN

MODELING.

Jessica: AND WAS

THERE ANY ONE PERSON WHO

REALLY STEPPED IN AND

SHARED THE LOVE OF THE

LORD WITH YOU?

MY BEST FRIEND CRISTINA

OF, GOSH, ALMOST 15 YEARS

NOW.

SHE IS THE ONE WHO PLANTED

SEEDS IN MY HEART.

SHE IS THE ONE WHO TOLD

ME, GOD HAS A PURPOSE FOR

YOU.

HE LOVES YOU.

HE MAKES ALL THINGS NEW.

SHE SAID I CAN USE MY PAST

AS ATIVIT A TESTIMONY FOR MY

FUTURE.

Jessica: AND THE COOL

THING IS NOW YOU'RE DOING

THE SAME THING WITH YOUR

BOOK, "PROJECT INSPIRED,"

AND WITH YOUR WEBSITE.

IT IS SO IMPORTANT FOR

WOMEN AND GIRLS TO KNOW

WHO THEY ARE IN CHRIST AND

THEIR IDENTITY IN CHRIST.

YES.

Jessica: WHY IS THAT?

BECAUSE AS I MENTIONED,

THE WORLD TRIES TO FORCE

YOU INTO BEING SOMETHING

YOU'RE NOT.

IT PLACES THEIR ONLY

EMPHASIS ON HOW YOU LOOK.

AND YOUR WORTH IS HOW MANY

FOLLOWERS YOU HAVE.

AND IT IS ALL VERY

DAMAGING TO A WOMAN'S

SELF-ESTEEM.

MY BOOK IS ALL ABOUT YOU

ARE MADE WITH A PURPOSE.

GOD LOVES EACH AND EVERY

ONE OF YOU SO MUCH.

WE ALL HAVE OUR NATURAL,

SPIRITUAL GIFTS HE INS

STILLINSTILLS IN US.

HE HAS A PURPOSE AND A

PLAN FOR OUR LIFE THAT IS

NOT WHAT THE WORLD WANTS

US TO DO.

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT IN

TODAY'S CULTURE TO REALLY

VALUE YOUR HEART AND YOUR

BODY BECAUSE IT IS

SOMETHING THAT IS VERY

PRECIOUS TO GOD.

I LOVE WHAT YOU SAID

BECAUSE THIS REALLY ALL

COMES BACK TO LOVING

OURSELVES THE WAY GOD

LOVES US.

EVERYTHING WE'VE TALKED

ABOUT TODAY, TO BODY IMAGE

ISSUES, TO SELF-ESTEEM, TO

PEER PRESSURE.

US LOVING OURSELVES AND US

SAYING I'M WORTHY BECAUSE

I'M CREATED IN GOD'S

IMAGE.

NICOLE, IT HAS BEEN A

PLEASURE GETTING TO TALK

TO YOU AND GETTING TO HEAR

ABOUT PROJEC "PROJECT INSPIRED."

THIS IS A WONDERFUL BOOK.

I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT FOR

OLD GIRLS, YOUNGER GIRLS,

ANYBODY.

HER WEBSITE IS

www.projectinspired.com

OR GET HER BOOK.

IT CONTAINS EVERYTHING

FROM HER PERSONAL STORIES

TO TIPS ON FINDING THE

PERFECT PAIR OF JEANS.

AND YOU CAN GET IT

WHEREVER BOOKS OR SOLD.

NICOLE, THANK YOU SO MUCH

FOR BEING HERE.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

IT'S MY PLEASURE.

Jessica: TERRY?

Terry: THANKS,

JESSICA.

STILL TO COME, WE'LL PRAY

FOR YOU.

FIRST, MANY PEOPLE ARE

CARRYING A SECRET, AND IT

IS ONE THAT CAN KILL THEM.

SO MANY PEOPLE ARE

GOING UNDIAGNOSED AND

UNTREATED, AND NO ONE

DESERVES TO LIVE A LIFE

LIKE THAT.

Terry: LEARN HOW TO

RECOGNIZE THE WARNING

SIGNS OF THIS DISORDER

WHEN WE COME BACK.

Terry: MILLIONS OF

AMERICANS LIVE WITH AND

HIDE EATING DISORDERS,

EVEN THOUGH THEY CAN

THREATEN THEIR PHYSICAL

AND MENTAL HEALTH.

LORI JOHNSON TELLS US WHAT

IS AT STAKE AND HOW SOME

PEOPLE ARE BREAKING FREE.

Lori: FOR 15 YEARS,

McCALL DEMOCRACY

APPEARED TO BE THE PICTURE

OF SUCCESS, BUT SHE WAS

HIDING A DANGEROUS EATING

DISORDER.

ALL THE WHILE, NOBODY

KNEW BEHIND CLOSED DOORS,

I WAS REALLY KILLING

MYSELF TO TRY TO FIND SOME

COMFORT IN FINDING

PERFECTION AND SHRINKING

MY BODY INTO TRYING TO BE

THIS PERFECT SIZE.

Lori: EATING

DISORDERS ARE THINGS LIKE

STARVING YOURSELF, MAKING

YOURSELF VOMIT AFTER

EATING, ABUSING LAXATIVES,

AND OVEREXERCISING.

DEMPSEY DID ALL OF THAT

AND BECAME ADDICTED TO

DIET PILLS.

I'M NEVER FORGET THE

NIGHTS I WOULD LAY ON THE

FLOOR IN COLD SWEATS AND I

WOULD LOOK IN THE MIRROR

AND I WAS GREY.

Reporter: SHE FINALLY

DECIDED SHE NEEDED HELP

AND CHECKED INTO CAROLINA

HOUSE.

EXECUTIVE DIRECTOR TAMMY

HOLCOM SAYS AMONG

PSYCHIATRIC DISORDERS,

EATING DISORDERS ARE THE

MOST FATAL.

WE SEE PEOPLE AS YOUNG

AS 16 HAVING HEART

ATTACKS.

Lori: THESE DISORDERS

CAN ALSO LEAD TO KIDNEY

AND LIVER PROBLEMS, HAIR

LOSS, INSOMNIA, AND MUCH

MORE.

WE SEE A LOT OF

PROBLEMS WITH THROAT AND

ESOPHAGUS AND WITH TEETH.

AND WHEN THEY BRING ACID

BACK UP TO THEIR MOUTH, IT

CAUSES TOOTH DAMAGE.

Lori: AND THERE ARE

OTHER WARNING SIGNS, SUCH

AS A PREOCCUPATION WITH

WEIGHT.

YOUR WHOLE WORLD IS

CONSUMED BY FOOD AND BODY.

AND THAT'S NOT LIVING.

Lori: OTHER SIGNALS

TO WATCH FOR: GOING TO THE

BATHROOM IMMEDIATELY AFTER

EATING, LARGE AMOUNTS OF

FOOD MISSING, AND EXCUSES

NOT TO EAT.

I WOULD ALWAYS GO TO

DINNER WITH MY FRIENDS,

BUT I WOULD ALWAYS TELL MY

FRIENDS THAT I ALREADY

ATE, AND I WOULD TELL MY

FAMILY I ATE WITH MY

FRIENDS.

Lori: EVEN THOUGH

PATIENTS ATTEMPT TO HIDE

THE PROBLEM, IT IS OFTEN

FAMILIES AND FRIENDS WHO

FIRST RECOGNIZE AND

RECOMMEND THE NEED FOR

TREATMENT.

MOST PEOPLE STAY HERE

ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF.

RESIDENTS ARE CLOSELY

MONITORED TO MAKE SURE

THEY EAT ENOUGH AND HELP

THEM KEEP IT DOWN.

WHEN SOMEONE HAS BEEN

PURGEING AND VOMITING, IT

IS PAINFUL TO SIT WITH

FOOD IN THEIR BODY.

Lori: AFTER THE BODY

HAS HEALED, THE PATIENTS

HAVE TO RECOGNIZE THE ROOT

CAUSE OF THEIR PROBLEM.

FOR MANY PEOPLE, IT IS

A WAY TO HAVE CONTROL IN

THEIR LIFE.

BECAUSE OF OTHER

SITUATIONS, BE IT LIFE

CHANGES OR FAMILY EVENTS,

THEY FEEL LIKE THEY LOSE

CONTROL.

THIS FEELS LIKE THEY CAN

GAIN SOME SENSE OF CONTROL

BY CONTROLLING WHAT THEY

EAT, CONTROLLING WHAT THEY

DON'T EAT.

Lori: MENTAL HEALTH

PROFESSIONALS STAY

AVAILABLE AROUND THE

CLOCK, TO HELP PATIENTS

LEARN APPROPRIATE WAYS TO

COPE WITH LIFE.

I DON'T HAVE TO BE

PERFECT ANYMORE.

SO MANY PEOPLE ARE GOING

UNDIAGNOSED AND UNTREATED,

AND NO ONE DESERVES TO

LIVE A LIFE LIKE THAT.

TO THEM, IT FEELS LIKE

I'M TAKING CONTROL AWAY

FROM THEM, BECAUSE I'M

GOING TO TELL THEM, THESE

ARE THE PORTIONS YOU NEED

TO BE EATING.

AND THEY'RE, LIKE, OH, MY

GOSH, YOU'RE TAKING AWAY

MY CONTROL.

I LIKE TO THINK OF IT AS

TEACHING THEM TO LEARN THE

POWER AND THE CHOICES THEY

NEED TO BE TAKING AND HOW

TO TAKE THAT BACK FOR

THEMSELVES.

Lori: AND MOST OF

ALL, THEY LEARN HOW TO

STOP OBSESSING ABOUT FOOD.

IT WAS LIKE I FOUND A

WHOLE NEW ME.

AND NOW I LIVE EVERY DAY

IN THAT AWESOME PLACE.

Lori: LIKE MANY OTHER

MENTAL CONDITIONS, PEOPLE

WITH EATING DISORDERS FACE

THE RISK OF RELAPSE.

THE KEY HERE IS LEARNING

TO RECOGNIZE THOSE

DANGEROUS BEHAVIORS AND

HOPEFULLY CORRECT THEM

BEFORE LOSING CONTROL.

LORI JOHNSON, CBN NEWS.

Terry: I THINK ONE OF

THE INTERESTING THINGS

ABOUT THIS EARLY ON, THAT

YOUNG WOMAN TALKED ABOUT

HER NEED TO FIND

PERFECTION IN HER LIFE.

AND I THINK ONE OF THE

REASONS THIS IS OFTEN

HIDDEN, ANDREW AND

JESSICA, IN PEOPLE LIKE

THIS, IF YOU'RE LOOKING TO

FIND PERFECTION, THESE

PEOPLE ARE USUALLY

PERFORMANCE-ORIENTED, AND

EVERYTHING LOOKS GREAT ON

THE OUTSIDE.

AND YET THAT EMPTINESS

INSIDE IS SO STRONG THAT

THEY'RE STILL LOOKING FOR

SOMETHING THAT WILL GIVE

THEM PEACE ABOUT WHO THEY

ARE AND THEIR VALUE.

Andrew: I'M SO GLAD

IN THE PIECE IT IS

REFLECTED THAT A LOT OF IT

COMES DOWN TO A CONTROL

ISSUE.

THIS IS AN AREA I CAN

CONTROL.

THE THING, UNFORTUNATELY,

WITH EATING DISORDERS, A

LOT OF TIMES THERE IS A

LACK OF EMPATHY OR

SYMPHONY FOR PEOPLE

UNDERGOING THIS.

BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T

REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT

WOULD BE CAUSING THIS,

THERE IS AN ADDITIONAL

SHAME.

IF YOU'RE DRUG-ADDICTED OR

HAVE GOT A BATTLE WITH

ALCOHOL, THERE IS MORE

SYMPATHY THAN IF YOU HAVE

AN EATING DISORDER.

Terry: IT INDICATES A

NEED.

AND THERE IS A FEAR IF I

NEED SOMETHING, THERE MUST

BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME

BECAUSE I'M NOT PERFORMING

UP TO STANDARD.

JESS, EARLIER, YOU HAD

THAT WONDERFUL INTERVIEW

WITH NICOLE.

AND THERE ARE PICTURES

RETOUCHED IN MAGAZINES

TODAY.

THERE ARE PEOPLE WITH

BEAUTIFUL BODIES AND THEY

GAIN WEIGHT DURING

PREGNANCY, AND THEY ARE

MERCILESSLY PUT DOWN.

Jessica: THAT'S

RIGHT.

ABSOLUTELY.

YOU KNOW WHAT IS CRAZY IS

THAT THE AGE OF YOUNG

GIRLS WHO START HAVING

EATING DISORDERS AND BODY

IMAGES IS GOING DOWN TO

LOWER NUMBERS.

YOU'RE SEEING GIRLS AT SIX

YEARS OLD AND SEVEN YEARS

OLD HAVE BODY IMAGES, AND

NOW EVEN MEN AND YOUNG

BOYS ARE HAVING THESE

ISSUES.

Terry: WILL YOU TAKE

A MOMENT AND TUA PRAY?

Jessica: ABSOLUTELY.

WE'RE GOING TO PRAY TODAY

AND WE'RE GOING TO AND GOD

FOR A BREAKTHROUGH AND A

HEALING IN YOUR LIFE.

LET'S PRAY.

HEAVENLY FATHER, WE JUST

THANK YOU SO MUCH, GOD,

THAT YOUR WORD SAYS THAT

WE ARE CREATED,

MARVELOUSLY IN YOUR IMAGE.

FATHER, WE PRAY RIGHT NOW

FOR ANYBODY WHO IS

WATCHING AND THEY HAVE

BEEN STRUGGLING WITH AN

EATING DISORDER OR WITH

SELF-LOATHING OR

SELF-HARM.

FATHER, RIGHT NOW WE PRAY

THAT YOU WOULD INVADE

THEIR LIFE WITH YOUR LOVE.

LORD, THAT THEY WOULD

EXPERIENCE YOUR

ACCEPTANCE, THAT YOU WOULD

REMOVE THE SHAME, THAT YOU

WOULD REMOVE THE GUILT,

THAT YOU WOULD REMOVE THE

VOICE OF ACCUSATION THAT

CAUSES THEM TO NEED TO

SELF-PUNISH.

FATHER, WE JUST PRAY RIGHT

NOW THAT TODAY WOULD BE A

DAY OF BREAKTHROUGH.

AND I JUST SENSE THAT

THERE IS SOMEBODY WHO IS

WATCHING, AND THEY HAVE

BEEN HIDING THIS.

THEY HAVE BEEN LIVING IN

FEAR OF REJECTION.

AND THE LORD IS SAYING TO

YOU TODAY THAT TODAY IS A

DAY OF VICTORY.

AND WE BELIEVE FOR YOU.

AND WE JUST ENCOURAGE YOU

TO CALL US.

WE'RE HERE FOR YOU, AND

WE'RE NOT GOING TO STAND

IN JUDGMENT.

AND NEITHER IS OUR LOVING

HEAVENLY FATHER.

LORD, WE PRAISE YOU AND WE

THANK YOU FOR THE VICTORY

TODAY IN YOUR NAME.

AMEN.

Andrew: AMEN.

THANKS, JESS.

WE LEAVE YOU WITH THIS

SCRIPTURE FROM PETER 2: 9:

"BUT YOU ARE A CHOSEN

PEOPLE, A ROYAL

PRIESTHOOD, A HOLY NATION,

GOD'S SPECIAL PROCESSION.

SO YOU MAY DECLARE THE

PRAISES OF HIM WHO CALLED

YOU OUT OF DARKNESS AND

INTO HIS WONDERFUL LIGHT."

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