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700 Club Interactive - March 29, 2017

On today’s 700 Club Interactive, author Erin Weidemann discusses the devastation of a cancer diagnosis and giving her life to God. Read Transcript


Gordon: THE

UNDERGROUND RAP SCENE WAS

AN OUTLET FOR HER ANGER.

AND SO IN MY THOUGHTS

BACK THEN, THERE WAS A LOT

OF PAIN.

Gordon: AND A HAVEN

FOR TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS.

THE LONELINESS, THE

BETRAYAL OF FRIENDS AND

PEOPLE THAT I THOUGHT THAT

LOVED ME SO MUCH.

Gordon: FIND OUT HO WHO

WAS PRAYING FOR HER AND

WHY SHE NEVER STOPPED.

ON TODAY'S "THE 700 CLUB."

WELL, WELCOME TO THE SHOW.

THE EVANGELICAL CHURCH IN

CUBA IS REPORTEDLY GROWING

IN SPITE OF THE SECULAR

GOVERNMENT MAKING

CHRISTIAN LIFE DIFFICULT.

THE CUBAN CONSTITUTION

TECHNICALLY RECOGNIZES

FREEDOM OF RELIGION BUT

WILL NOT ALLOW NEW CHURCH

CONSTRUCTION.

Terry: RECENTLY THE

CUBAN GOVERNMENT HAS

DEMOLISHED CHURCH

BUILDINGS, THOUGH

OFFICIALS STILL ALLOW

CHRISTIANS TO MEET IN HOME

CHURCHES.

FORMER PRESIDENT OBAMA'S

STRENGTHENED RELATIONSHIP

WITH CUBA IS SET TO BE

REVIEWED BY THE TRUMP

ADMINISTRATION, WHICH HAS

VOWED TO FOCUS ON CUBA'S

RELIGIOUS FREEDOM.

Gordon: WHAT IS

HAPPENING IN CUBA SINCE

SUPPOSEDLY THE BARRIERS

WENT DOWN, IT REALLY DOES

STIR ME THAT HERE WE HAVE

THIS REVIVAL HAPPENING,

JUST A FLOWERING OF

CHRISTIAN BELIEF.

IT'S JUST WONDERFUL.

AT THE SAME TIME, IT IS

GOING TO CREATE ALL KINDS

OF TENSION BECAUSE WHEN

YOU'RE COMING OUT OF A

SOCIALIST, COMMUNIST

IDEOLOGY, WHAT DO YOU DO

WITH THIS?

AND HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH

IT?

IT IS CURIOUS THEY'VE

TAKEN A PAGE FROM THE

CHINESE ABOUT NEW CHURCH

CONSTRUCTION AND WHERE

CHURCHES SHOULD BE.

AND THAT, CURIOUSLY, COMES

FROM THE U.S., WHERE THEY

MIMICKED WHAT WAS

HAPPENING IN SOME OF THE

SUBURBS OF AMERICA, WHERE

THEY HAD ZONING

RESTRICTIONS ON CHURCHES.

Terry: HUH.

Gordon: WHERE YOU

COULDN'T -- YOU STARTED

HAVING HOUSE MEETINGS ON

SUNDAY MORNING AND A LOT

OF CARS IN YOUR DRIVEWAY

AND AROUND YOUR HOME, AND

THE NEIGHBORS DIDN'T LIKE

THAT, AND SO THEY HAD

ZONING RESTRICTIONS, AND

THAT'S WHAT THESE OTHER

GOVERNMENTS HAVE TRIED TO

FOLLOW TO CLAMP DOWN NEW

CHURCH CONSTRUCTION.

Terry: IT IS

INTERESTING THAT THE

CHURCH CONTINUES TO FLOR

FLOURISH.

Gordon: IT ALWAYS

DOES.

> OUR RELIGIOUS

COMMUNITY HERE IN THE

UNITED STATES ALLOW BIBLES

TO INMATES.

WITH SO MANY BIBLES BEING

DISTRIBUTED, IT SHOULDN'T

SURPRISE US WHEN SOMEONE

TRIES TO TAKE ADVANTAGE.

A MISSISSIPPI WOMAN

ALLEGEDLY TRIED TO SMUGGLE

METH INSIDE A BIBLE TWO TO THE

INMATE.

Terry: THE SHERIFF

SAID SHE DID NOT EXPECT

THE BIBLE TO BE CHECKED --

OBVIOUSLY.

THE WOMAN WAS ARRESTED AND

CHARGED WITH POSSESSING AN

ILLEGAL DRUG AND ATTEMPT

TO DISTRIBUTE.

HER BOND WAS SET AT

$75,000.

WOW.

Gordon: AND ONE OF

THE TIPS HERE WAS THE

INMATE WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO

GET THE BIBLE STARTED

ASKING THE JAIL OFFICIALS,

WHERE IS MY BIBLE?

[LAUGHTER]

Terry: HEADS UP.

AND HE WASN'T EXACTLY

KNOWN FOR HIS CHRISTIAN

PRACTICE.

IT KIND OF GAVE A LITTLE

BIT OF A HEADS-UP.

> A CANCER SURVIVOR

FOUND OUT SHE WAS

PREGNANT, AND THEN HAD THE

CANCER RETURN.

SADLY JAMIE SCHNEIDER DIED

JUST A DAY AFTER

DELIVERING TWINS AT

STANFORD HOSPITAL.

Terry: DOCTORS COULD

ONLY GIVE HER SMALL DOSES

OF CHEMOTHERAPY TO ENSURE

THAT THE A BABIES'

DEVELOPMENTAL HEALTH

CONTINUED.

JAMIE IS BEING CALLED

SELFLESS, STAYING ALIVE SO

SHE COULD DELIVER HER

BABIES.

SHE POSTED "GOD HAS BEEN

BY MY SIDE THE WHOLE TIME.

ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS AND

LOVE HAVE KEPT ME GOING AS

WELL."

AND SHE GOES ON TO SAY,

"THANK YOU, GOD, FOR

KEEPING ME POSITIVE

THROUGH ALL OF THE HARD

TIMES."

FAMILY AND FRIENDS

REMEMBER HER POSITIVE

SPIRIT.

SHE TRADED HER LIFE.

WHAT GAVE ME PEACE OF

MY HEART WAS SHE GOT TO

SEE THOSE BABIES AND HOLD

THEM AND BE WITH THEM FOR

A LITTLE BIT.

Terry: THE BABIES ARE

OUT OF THE NEONATAL

INTENSIVE CARE UNIT, BUT

THEY'RE STILL AT THE

HOSPITAL.

THEY'RE HEALTHY AND

SURROUNDED BY FAMILY.

Gordon: NO GREATER

LOVE THAN SOMEONE WHO WILL

LAY DOWN THEIR LIFE.

YOU KNOW THE PRESSURE MUST

HAVE BEEN ON TO TAKE THE

FULL CHEMO AND GO THROUGH

ABORTION AND TERMINATE THE

PREGNANCY, BUT SHE SAID,

NO, I'M GOING TO GIVE

LIFE.

> TWO MONTHS AGO J.R.

SMITH AND HIS WIFE

ANNOUNCED THEIR DAUGHTER

WAS BORN FIVE MONTHS

PREMATURE.

DAKOTA SMITH NOW WEIGHS

TWO POUNDS AND CONTINUES

TO DEFY THE ODDS.

Terry: DOCTORS

RECENTLY REMOVED THE

BABY'S BREATHING TUBE, AND

JUST LAST WEEK THE COUPLE

WAS ABLE TO HOLD THEIR

DAUGHTER FOR THE FIRST

TIME.

SHIRLEY SMITH WROTE ON THE

COUPLE'S WEBSITE, "I WAS

BEYOND EXCITED TO HOLD OUR

TWO POUND, 13-OUNCE

MIRACLE IN THE PALM OF MY

HANDS FOR THE VERY FIRST

TIME.

WHAT SOME WOMEN EXPERIENCE

THE FIRST FEW HOURS OF

GIVING BIRTH, I HAD TO

WAIT 78 DAYS FOR IT.

I SMILED AT HER LIFE, AND

NOW IT HAS BECOME OUR

LIFE, AND TO GOD BE THE

GLORY."

Gordon: THAT IS A

WONDERFUL STORY.

> RESEARCH CONFIRMS THAT

FAMILIES WHO EAT DINNER

TOGETHER HAVE BETTER

RELATIONSHIPS.

BUT THAT DOESN'T INCLUDE

THOSE WHO USE CELL PHONES.

A RESTAURANT IN POCONOS IS

ENCOURAGING PEOPLE TO TURN

OFF THEIR CELL PHONE

DURING DINNER.

Terry: THEY ARE

OFFERING 10% OFF THEIR TAB

FOR A FAMILY OF FOUR OR

MORE, AS LONG AS THE

FAMILIES KEEP THEIR EYES

OFF THEIR CELL PHONES.

YOU NEED MORE

ONE-ON-ONE WITH PEOPLE.

THERE IS TOO MUCH

TECHNOLOGY.

THERE IS NO INTERACTION

WITH PEOPLE.

IT'S GOOD.

I BELIEVE IT IS COOL

BECAUSE WE CAN TALK TO OUR

FAMILIES INSTEAD OF BEING

ON OUR PHONES AND TEXTING

OTHER PEOPLE.

Gordon: MAYBE I

SHOULD DO THAT AT MY

DINING ROOM TABLE.

Terry: YOU DON'T?

Gordon: IT IS TOUGH

TO ENFORCE.

Terry: YOU HEAR THE

LITTLE DING, DING, DING

UNDER THE TABLE.

[LAUGHTER]

Terry: I KNOW, I

KNOW.

IT'S A BATTLE.

Gordon: UP NEXT ON

THE PROGRAM, A FIVE-TIME

CANCER SURVIVOR TALKS

ABOUT HER JOURNEY FROM

ATHEISM TO CHRISTIANITY.

ERIN WITAMAN JOINS US IN

THE STUDIO.

DON'T GO AWAY.

Terry: IN 2006, ERIN

WITAMAN WAS DIAGNOSED WITH

THYROID CANCER.

AND THAT DIAGNOSIS BEGAN A

JOURNEY WITH MANY TWISTS

AND TURNS.

PERCENTAGE.

ReporterTURNS.

Reporter: IN 2006,

ERIN WAS A SELF-PROCLAIMED

ATHEIST WHEN SHE GOT THE

SHOCK OF A LIFETIME.

ERIN, AN AVID ATHLETE, HAD

CANCER.

WHEN A POWERFUL RADIATION

TREATMENT QUARANTINED HER,

SHE HIT HER KNEES, ASKING

GOD FOR HELP.

ERIN BATTLED CANCER FOUR

MORE TIMES IN THE LAST 10

YEARS.

Terry: QUITE A STORY.

PLEASE WELCOME TO THE SHOW

ERIN WITA MAN.

THANK YOU SO MUCH,

TERRY.

IT IS GREAT TO BE HERE.

Terry: YOU GREW UP IN

CHURCH AND KNEW ABOUT GOD.

HOW DID YOU MOVE INTO THE

REALM OF CALLING YOURSELF

AN ATHEIST?

I THINK I WAS BOMBARDED

WITH WHAT CULTURE TELLS

REALLY ALL GIRLS THEY NEED

TO BE, IN ORDER TO BE

BEAUTIFUL, TO BE LOVED, TO

BE VALUED.

SO I WAS VERY INSECURE.

I FOUND MYSELF, IN MIDDLE

SCHOOL AND HIGH SCHOOL

PARTICULARLY, JUST

COMPARING MYSELF TO EVERY

OTHER GIRL I MET, FEELING

LIKE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL AND

I'M NOT ENOUGH.

Terry: WE TEND TO

THINK THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE

HEALTHY -- AND YOU WERE IN

THOSE YEARS OF YO YOUR LIFE

AND BEYOND -- YOU WERE AN

ATHLETE.

YOU WERE VERY ACTIVE.

YOU HAD A LITTLE KNOT ON

YOUR THROAT, AND HOW DID

YOU GET A DIAGNOSIS ON

THAT, AND WHAT WAS IT?

WELL, I WAS ENCOURAGED

AT MY SISTER'S WEDDING, OF

ALL PLACES, BY A FAMILY

FRIEND TO GO TO AN EAR,

NOSE, AND THROAT DOCTOR,

ABOUT A LUMP I HAD BEEN

FEELING FOR THE LAST

COUPLE OF YEARS THAT

DOCTORS AT SCHOOL TOLD ME

WASN'T A REAL CONCERN.

I WENT WITH MY MOM ABOUT A

WEEK LATER, AND IT WAS

VERY APPARENT VERY QUICKLY

THAT I WAS HAVING A BIG

PROBLEM THAT NEEDED TO BE

DEALT WITH RIGHT AWAY.

Terry: WERE YOU

SHOCKED?

TO SAY I WAS SHOCKED

WAS THE UNDERSTATEMENT OF

THE CENTURY.

I HAD NEVER BROKEN A BONE.

THE ONLY INJURY I HAD

DEALT WITH WAS, LIKE, A

PULLED MUSCLE.

Terry: DID YOU HAVE

ANY SYMPTOMS?

ZERO SYMPTOMS.

NO WEIGHT LOSS.

NO IRREGULAR HEART BEAT.

NOTHING THAT WOULD HAVE

TOLD YOU THIS WOMEN IS

VERY DISEASED.

WE NEED TO DEAL WITH IT

RIGHT NOW.

Terry: YOU SEA "VERY

DISEASED," AND WHAT DID

THE DOCTOR TELL YOU?

THE REPORT THAT THE

DOCTOR GAVE ME

POST-SURGERY SAID THE

PHRASE "VERY DISEASED

WOMAN" PROBABLY 40 TIMES

IN IT.

AS I READ THROUGH THAT

REPORT, I COME TO KNOW THE

GRAVITY OF THE SITUATION I

FACED.

WE DID NOT CATCH IT EARLY.

IT WAS IN THE LATER STAPES

OF THE DISEASE, HAVING

METASTASIZED TO BASICALLY

THE ENTIRE HALF OF MY

UPPER BODY.

IT WAS IN NEED OF

IMMEDIATE SOLVING.

Terry: DID YOU THINK

YOU WERE GOING TO DIE?

I DEFINITELY THOUGHT I

WAS GOING TO DIE.

I WASN'T WALKING WITH THE

LORD DURING THAT FIRST

DIAGNOSIS, AND FELL INTO A

VERY DARK, HYSTERICAL

PANIC.

THERE WERE ALL OF THESE

THINGS I WANTED TO DO IN

MY LIFE, AND I JUST

THOUGHT THOSE WERE NEVER

GOING TO HAPPEN.

Terry: IT IS EASY TO

BE AN ATHEIST WHEN ALL IS

GOING WELL, BUT HERE YOU

ARE WITH THIS INCREDIBLY

SERIOUS DIAGNOSIS.

WHAT HAPPENED FAITH-WISE?

I FOUND MYSELF ON THE

FLOOR OF MY PARENTS'

BATHROOM DURING A 72-HOUR

QUARANTINE, AND HAVING

NEVER REALLY PRAYED IN THE

WAY I KNEW GOD WAS

LISTENING, I CRIED OUT FOR

HELP.

I ASKED HIM TO HELP ME.

I TOLD HIM I COULDN'T DO

ANYTHING ANYMORE WITHOUT

HIS HELP.

AND I NEEDED HIS COMFORT

AND HIS PEACE.

AND I INSTANTLY FELT

BETTER.

I WAS ABLE TO SIT UP.

AND THAT WAS REALLY THE

MOMENT WHERE THINGS

CHANGED FOR ME.

I STARTED ASKING

QUESTIONS, IF I DON'T

BELIEVE IN GOD, WHO WAS I

TALKING TO IN THERE?

MAYBE THERE IS MORE TO

FAITH THAN I KNOW AND IT

WAS TIME TO GO FIND OUT.

Terry: SO HOW DID YOU

PURSUE THAT?

I JUST SPENT TIME IN

PRAYER IN THOSE EARLY

DAYS.

AND STRUGGLING THROUGH

DISEASE AND NOT REALLY

KNOWING, AM I GOING TO

COME OUT OF THIS?

AM I GOING TO BE HEALED?

JUST TALKING TO DWO GOD AND

ASKING HIM QUESTIONS.

I WAS WORKING IN FINANCE

AT THE TIME, WHICH WAS

ILL-SUITED FOR ME.

I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A

STORY-TELLER AND

COMMUNICATOR AND A WRITER,

AND I ASKED GOD, IF I'M

NOT GOING TO LIVE VERY

LONG, WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE

ME DO?

I FELT A LITTLE TUG ON MY

HEART THAT WAS TELLING ME

TO BE A TEACHER.

Terry: WOW!

SO, TO LEAP AHEAD A LITTLE

BIT, YOU ACTUALLY DID WELL

IN TREATMENT.

YOU GOT YOUR DEGREE.

YOU BECAME A TEACHER.

YOU FELL IN LOVE.

YOU GOT MARRIED.

DID YOU THINK YOU WERE

THROUGH THE BATTLE?

I DRUG MY FEET FOR A

LONG, LONG TIME,

ESPECIALLY DURING THE

DATING PERIOD WITH MY

HUSBAND.

HE WAS VERY PERSUASIVE AND

PERSISTENT IN HIS PURSUIT

OF ME, AND I TARTED

ENTERTAINING AFTESTARTEDENTERTAINING AFTER A FEW

MONTHS THAT MAYBE GOD DOES

HAVE A PLAN, AND IT'S

SOMETHING I CAN'T SEE

RIGHT NOW, AND DO I HAVE

THE COURAGE TO FIND OUT

WHAT THAT IS, BECAUSE IS

THERE MORE?

Terry: SO YOU'RE

MARRIED, YOU HAVE A

FAMILY -- TALK TO ME, FOUR

MORE TIMES YOU'RE STRUCK

WITH CANCER.

WHAT DID YOU THINK DURING

THAT TIME?

WE GOT MARRIED IN 2010,

SO IT WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF

THE SEA OF THE CANCER WAS

INITIALLY DIAGNOSED, WE

TREATED IT, AND YOU'RE

HEALED.

A FEW MONTHS LATER, A

RECURRENCE, OKAY, WE'LL

DEAL WITH IT.

MY LAST ONE WE HAD TO HAVE

A SURGERY.

AND HE WAS WITH ME

THROUGHOUT THAT PROCESS.

I THINK GOD WAS BUILDING

STRENGTH INSIDE OUR

MARRIAGE FOR SOME OF THE

THINGS WE WERE GOING TO

FACE IN THE FUTURE.

I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THAT

TIME IN GROWING CLOSER TO

HIM AND GROWING CLOSER TO

THE LORD IN THAT PROCESS.

Terry: WHAT IS YOUR

PROGRESS TODAY?

I AM CANCER-FREE, SINCE

2012.

THERE IS HOPE FOR A LIFE,

AN ABUNDANT, FAVORED LIFE

THAT GOD HAS FOR YOU.

SO IF THAT CAN BE AN

ENCOURAGEMENT TO ANYBODY,

I HOPE SO.

Terry: GOD GAVE YOU A

DESIRE TO WRITE BOOKS.

AND YOU'VE DONE THAT IN

YOUR SERIES, "THE BIBLE

BELLES."

THAT WAS AN IDEA BORNE

ON THE IDEA FROM CHURCH.

MY HUSBAND AND I WERE

DEBATING WHAT TO GET OUR

FIVE-YEAR-OLD NIECE,

HANNA, FOR HER BIRTHDAY.

AND SHE CAN NAME AND TELL

THE STORIES OF EVERY

DISNEY PRINCESS.

BUT THEY CAN'T NAME ANY

WOMEN IN THE BIBLE THAT

THEY HAVE A TRUE

CONNECTION WITH.

SO THE MORE WE THOUGHT

ABOUT THIS INFATUATION

WITH PRINCESSES, WE

THOUGHT, CAN WE GET OUR

GIRLS EXCITED ABOUT

BIBLICAL WOMEN WHO GOD

USED IN A POWERFUL WAY

BECAUSE IT WAS SOMETHING

ABOUT THEIR CHARACTER, WHO

THEY WERE.

CAN THOSE WOMEN BE HEROS

FOR GIRLS?

Terry: I WANT TO

MENTION, "HANNA, THE BELLE

OF PRAYER," IS ONE OF

THEM.

"ESTHER, THE BELLE OF

PATIENCE," AND "ABIGAIL."

AND THE BOOK OF RUTH IS

COMING OUT.

THAT'S WHERE THE SERIOUS

TAKES AN EXCITING TURN

AWAY FROM THE FOCUS ON

YOURSELF, AND GOES TOWARDS

AN OUTWARD FOCUS ON

SERVICE TOWARDS OTHERS.

Terry: IT'S THE THING

WE SO WANT TO INSTILL IN

OUR GIRLS, BUT SOMETIMES

ARE NOT QUITE SURE HOW TO

GET THERE FROM HERE IN A

CULTURE THAT GIVES SUCH A

WRONG MESSAGE.

GOD HAS SO USED YOUR LIFE

IN SO MANY WAYS YOU DRCHT DIDN'T

EXPECT.

AND THE CANCER WAS PART OF

MOVING YOU TOWARDS THIS

GREAT END, BEING ABLE TO

INVEST IN THE LIVES OF

OTHERS.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

I WANT TO MENTION ERIN'S

BOOK SERIES OF BIBLE HEROS

FOR GIRLS IS CALLED "BIBLE

BELLES," I LOVE THAT.

THIS ONE IS CALLED "HANNA,

THE BELLE OF PRAYER."

THERE ARE A NUMBER OF

OTHERS, AND THEY'RE ALL

AVAILABLE WHEREVER BOOKS

ARE SOLD.

WHAT A GREAT GIFT FOR THE

YOUNG GIRLS IN YOUR LIFE.

> UP NEXT, A

DYSFUNCTIONAL HOME LED TO

AN EVEN MORE DYSFUNCTIONAL

LIFE.

I WOULD DO IT IN THE

MUSIC TO GET THAT

SATISFACTION I WAS

YEARNING FOR.

Terry: FIND OUT HOW

HER MOTHER'S FAITHFUL

PRAYERS WERE ANSWERED,

WHEN WE RETURN.

Gordon: AT THE HEIGHT

OF HER CAREER, VENUS

BURDEN QUIT.

SHE HAD BEEN A STAR IN THE

UNDERGROUND RAP SCENE, BUT

AFTER YEARS OF LIVING A

LIFESTYLE CONSUMED BY

HATE, SHE FINALLY FOUND

TRUE LOVE.

HERE IS HER STORY.

*

Reporter: PEOPLE

TODAY KNOW VENUS BURTON AS

A CHRISTIAN RAPPER.

*

I'M FREE, I'M FREE.

*

NO MORE SHACKLES, NO

MORE CHAINS.

Reporter: THERE WAS A

TIME PEOPLE KNEW HER BY A

DIFFERENT NAME.

THEY WOULD CALL ME

BUSKEY, THAT WAS ONE OF MY

RAPPING NAMES.

UNDERGROUND RAP, GANGSTER

RAP -- I WAS MORE OF AN

OUTLAW.

IT WAS LIKE, YOU DON'T

MESS WITH ME AND I WON'T

MESS WITH YOU KIND OF

THING.

IN MY THOUGHTS BACK THEN,

THERE WAS A LOT OF PAIN

THAT I WENT THROUGH.

Reporter: VENUS GREW

UP IN SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA.

SHE LIVED WITH HER

BROTHER, KENNY, AND HER

SINGLE MOM, VICKI, WHO

WORKED SEVERAL JOBS.

THEY DIDN'T SEE A LOT OF

THEIR MOTHER OR WAYWARD

FATHER.

I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE A

DADDY'S GIRL.

AND I THOUGHT THAT I WAS

CHEATEDED.

CHEATED.

WHY CAN'T I HAVE THAT?

WHY CAN'T I HAVE A FATHER?

THAT CAUSED ME TO REBEL,

AND THOSE DIFFERENT

EMOTIONS BEGAN TO CONTROL

MY LIFE.

Reporter: VENUS WAS

13 WHEN HER MOM GAVE HER

LIFE TO CHRIST AND STARTED

TAKING THEM TO CHURCH.

AT THE SAME TIME, VENUS

ALSO STARTED RAPPING,

WHICH HELPED VENT HER

ANGER.

I HAD TO POUR IT OUT,

TO EMPTY MYSELF, TO GET

RID OF IT.

SO I WOULD DO IT IN THE

MUSIC, TO GET THAT RELIEF,

OR TO GET THAT

SATISFACTION THAT I WAS

YANKINYEARNING FOR.

Reporter: BY 16,

VENUS WAS DRINKING OFTEN.

SHE ALSO DECIDED TO HIDE

HER FEMININE SIDE.

BECAUSE IT SHOWED A

SOFT SIDE OF ME.

SHOWED THE EMOTION.

IT SHOWED THINGS THAT I

WAS GOING THROUGH, THE

HURT AND THE PAIN THAT I

WAS GOING THROUGH, THAT I

WAS DEALING WITH.

Reporter: SHE STARTED

CHANGING THE WAY SHE CUT

HER HAIR AND THE CLOTHES

SHE WORE.

SHE LOOKED AND ACTED MORE

LIKE A MAN WITH EACH

PASSING DAY.

BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE

THAT AGGRESSIVE ONE.

I WANTED TO BE THE MAN

ROLE.

I WANTED TO BE THE ONE

THAT WAS IN CONTROL.

I WANTED SOMEONE THAT HAS

THE POWER.

Reporter: AFTER TWO

YEARS THE TRANSFORMATION

WAS COMPLETE, AS VENUS

BECAME ATTRACTEDED TO ATTRACTED TO WOMEN.

IN THIS LIFESTYLE, I

WAS ACCEPTED.

SO I FOUND ACCEPTANCE.

I FOUND THAT SECURITY.

Reporter: VENUS

CONTINUED AS AN

UNDERGROUND RAP ARTIST.

HER POPULARITY GROWING

EACH YEAR.

IN THE MEANTIME SHE HAD

NUMEROUS RELATIONSHIPS

WITH WOMEN, AND ALL ENDED

BADLY.

THE LONELINESS, THE

BETRAYAL OF FRIENDS AND

PEOPLE THAT I THOUGHT THAT

LOVED ME SO MUCH.

OR EVEN BEING IN A

RELATIONSHIP, I WAS

DRINKING SO MUCH THAT I

WOULD BLACK OUT.

I DIDN'T KNOW PLACES THAT

I WAS.

AND I FOUND MYSELF IN SOME

REALLY DARK PLACES.

Reporter: ALL THIS

TIME HER MOM, VICKI,

PRAYED CONTINUALLY FOR HER

DAUGHTER, HOPING SHE WOULD

FIND A WAY TO CHRIST.

THERE WAS TIMES WHEN I

WOULD GO AND PUT ON HER

SHOES AND WALK AND PRAY IN

THEM.

JUST MAYBE TAKE AN

ANOINTING AND GO AND

ANOINT HER ROOM AND JUST

BELIEVE GOD.

Reporter: AT TIMES,

VENUS ALSO REACHED OUT TO

GOD.

THERE IS SOMETHING IN

ME THAT I WILL ALWAYS PRAY

TO GOD, SEEKINGED GOD.

I KNOW YOU'RE REAL, BUT I

NEED YOU TO SHOW UP.

I NEED YOU TO SHOW UP NOW.

YOU KNOW, I'M TIRED.

I'M TIRED OF BEING WHO I

WAS.

I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO GET

OUT.

I DIDN'T KNOW IF THERE WAS

A WAY TO GET OUT.

UP TO 5,000 BIRDS JUST

FELL FROM THE SKY --

Reporter: ONE

AFTERNOON, WHILE WATCHING

AN ALARMING STORY ON THE

NEWS, VENUS THOUGHT THE

WORLD WAS COMING TO AN

END, AS WELL AS HER LIFE.

I REMEMBER I SAID, GOD,

SAVE ME.

SAVE ME FROM THIS

LIFESTYLE.

I NEED YOU TO TAKE THIS

AWAY FROM ME.

AND AS I PRAYED TO GOD, HE

INSTANTLY TOOK AWAY THE

DESIRE OF WANTING TO SLEEP

WITH A WOMAN.

HIS LOVE AND HIS

COMPASSION FOR ME -- I

JUST FELT SEVE SO MUCH LIGHTER.

I FELT FREE, LIKE THE

CHAINS WERE BROKEN OFF OF

MY LIFE.

Reporter: IT TOOK

TIME, PRAYER, AND GOD'S

HEALING, BUT VENUS

EMBRACED HER IDENTITY AS

THE WOMAN GOD CREATED HER

TO BE.

IN MY PROCESS, HE WAS

UNVEILING -- HE UNPEELED

ME JUST LIKE AN UNION.

EVERY LAYER, EVERY HURT,

EVERY PAIN THAT I WAS

GOING THROUGH, EVERY

DISAPPOINTMENT, AND THEY

WERE JUST COMING OFF, ONE

BY ONE.

Reporter: VENUS AND

HER MOM JOINED FORCES AND

MINISTEREMINISTER TO HURTING PEOPLE

THROUGH THEIR RADIO SHOW.

THAT EMPTINESS, THE

VOID THAT I WAS MISSING,

JESUS, HE FULFILLED THAT

VOID, THAT EMPTINESS THAT

I WAS FEELING IN MY HEART.

HE FILLED IT WITH HIS

LOVE.

HIS LOVE AND HIS

COMPASSION FOR ME.

AND THAT WAS REALLY THE

ULTIMATE HEALING FOR ME TO

HAVE, GOD ALMIGHTY AS MY

FATHER.

Gordon: THE ULTIMATE

HEALING.

DID YOU LISTEN TO THE

HEART IN WHAT SHE WAS JUST

SAYING?

THE ULTIMATE HEALING,

FINDING THE PEACE THAT

SURPASSES ALL

UNDERSTANDING.

UNDERSTANDING THAT GOD IS

OUR FATHER, YOUR FATHER.

HE CAUSED YOU TO COME INTO

BEING.

AND DID HE LEAVE YOU

ORPHANED?

NO.

HE WANTS TO BE THERE WITH

YOU EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF

YOUR LIFE.

HE DOESN'T SWITCH OFF.

HE DOESN'T RUN AWAY.

HIS PROMISE IS ETERNAL.

I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU.

I WILL NEVER FORSAKE YOU.

YOU CAN'T SIN ENOUGH.

YOU CAN'T REBEL ENOUGH.

YOU CAN'T OUTRUN THE LOVE

OF GOD.

AND THAT'S OVER AND OVER

AND OVER AGAIN IN THE

BIBLE.

YOU CAN'T GET AWAY FROM

HIS LOVE.

THE APOSTLE PAUL SAID, I'M

CONVINCED LIFE, DEATH,

PRINCIPALITIES, POWERS --

NONE OF THESE THINGS CAN

SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE

OF CHRIST.

HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH, HE

WAS WILLING TO DIE FOR

YOU.

SO THAT YOU WOULDN'T HAVE

TO PAY THE PENALTY FOR

YOUR SIN.

YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO PAY

THE PENALTY FOR YOUR --

FOR WHATEVER IT IS YOU'VE

DONE.

HE HAS OPENED THE DOOR SO

THAT YOU CAN BE FREE.

YOU CAN BE SET FREE FROM

WHATEVER IS CHAINING YOU.

AND JUST AS YOU SAW WITH

VENUS, ALL OF THE CHAINS

DROPPED OFF.

EVERYTHING THAT WAS

BINDING HER.

SOME OF IT HAPPENED

INSTANTANEOUSLY; SOME OF

IT WAS OVER A PROCESS OF

TIME.

SHE SAID IT WAS LIKE I WAS

AN UNION, AND THINGS WERE

BEING PEELED OFF OF ME,

THE OLD HURTS, THE OLD

RESENTMENTS, ALL OF THOSE

THINGS CAN GO.

SO THAT YOU CAN LIVE FREE.

IF YOU WANT THIS, ALL YOU

HAVE TO DO IS THE SAME

THING VENUS DID, AND THAT

IS TO PRAY AND ASK GOD TO

FORGIVE YOU AND TO SET YOU

FREE.

SO IF YOU WANT TO DO THAT,

BOW YOUR HEAD WITH ME AND

LET'S PRAY A VERY SIMPLE

PRAYER AND LET JESUS DO

ALL OF THE REST.

PRAY WITH ME.

JESUS -- THAT'S RIGHT,

JUST SAY HIS NAME, SAY IT

OUT LOUD.

JESUS, I COME TO YOU AND I

ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FOR

ALL OF THE THINGS THAT

I'VE DONE WRONG, FOR ALL

OF THE TIMES I RAN AWAY

FROM YOU.

LORD, FORGIVE ME.

SET ME FREE.

FOR I ASK IT IN JESUS'

NAME.

AMEN.

IF YOU PRAYED WITH ME,

THERE IS ONE MORE THING I

WANT YOU TO DO: TELL

SOMEBODY ELSE.

JUST PICK UP THE PHONE AND

CALL US: 1-800-700-7000.

> HERE IS A WORD FOR

YOU: "ACCORDING TO HIS

GREAT MERCY, HE HAS CAUSED

US TO BE BORN AGAIN TO A

LIVING HOPE."

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