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700 Club Interactive - April 17, 2017

Abandoned by her father, best-selling author Lysa TerKeurst shares how she overcame rejection. Read Transcript


Andrew: REJECTION.

IT'S AN UTTER

DEVASTATION OF WHAT WE

THOUGHT WAS REAL AND SAFE

AND SECURE.

Andrew: IT LEAVES YOU

FEELING LEFT OUT.

REJECTION STEALS THE

BEST OF WHO I AM BY

REINFORCING THE WORST THAT

HAS BEEN SAID TO ME.

THE TRUTH IS OUR GOD IS

A REDEEMER, A HEALER, THE

AUTHOR OF HOPE.

Andrew: ON TODAY'S

"700 CLUB INTERACTIVE."

GOOD MORNING AND WELCOME

TO THE SHOW.

SHE'S PRESIDENT OF

PROVERBS 31 MINISTRIES AND

BEST-SELLING AUTHOR OF THE

BOOKS "MADE TO CRAVE," AND

"THE BEST YET."

DESPITE HER SUCCESS, LYSA

THERE WERE STILL DAYS SHE

WOULD PUT ON THE RATTY

ROBE OF REJECTION AND WEAR

IT ALL DAY LONG.

Terry: IT IS AS A

RESULT OF EVENTS IN HER

CHILDHOOD, THAT LEFT HER

BELIEVING THREE LIES,

YOU'RE NOT WANTED, YOU'RE

NOT ACCEPTED, AND YOU'RE

NOT WORTHY.

Reporter: LYSA WAS A

LITTLE GIRL WHEN HER

FATHER WOULD DRIVE AWAY

AND IT LEFT HER DEVASTATED

FOR YEARS.

IN HER BOOK, "UNINVITED,"

SHE SHARES HOW SHE DEALT

WITH THAT DEVASTATION, AND

OFFERS ADVICE ON MOVING

PAST THESE SETBACKS IN OUR

LIVES.

Terry: LISA JOINS US

NOW, AND WE WELCOME YOU

BACK TO THE SHOW.

THANK YOU, TERRY.

IT IS ALWAYS WONDERFUL TO

BE HERE.

Terry: YOU'VE GONE

THROUGH A RECENT HEALTH

ISSUE THAT REALLY WAS OUT

OF THE BLUE AND

LIFE-THREATENING.

ARE YOU OKAY NOW?

I AM.

I WOKE UP ON A MONDAY

MORNING AT 5 a.m., AND

THAT BEEN FEELING JUST

FINE.

BUT ON SUNDAY MORNING I

WAS IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN,

AND WHAT WE DIDN'T KNOW

THEN, AND OF COURSE WE NOW

KNOW, BUT THE RIGHT SIDE

OF MY COLON HAD RIPPED

AWAY FROM THE ABDOMINAL

WALL, SLIPPED OVER TO THE

LEFT SIDE, WRAPPED AROUND,

CUTTING OFF THE BLOOD

FLOW.

Terry: GOOD GRIEF.

BY THE TIME THEY FOUND

OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON,

THEY HAD TO RUSHED INTO

EMERGENCY ROOM.

AND I LOOK LIKE I'VE BEEN

BITTEN BY A SHARK.

I COULD MAKE UP ALL KINDS

OF FABULOUS STORIES.

AND MY DAUGHTER SAID, MOM,

YOU'RE NOT WEARING BIKINIS

RIGHT NOW ANY WAY, SO NO

ONE IS GOING TO SEE.

Terry: I'M WITH YOU

ON THAT ONE.

I'M FINE RIGHT NOW.

NO LASTING CHANGES.

Terry: PRAISE GOD.

YEAH, PRAISE GOD.

> THERE WAS A LADY THAT

CAME UP TO ONE OF MY STAFF

MEMBERS, AND SHE SAID, HER

MOM WENT INTO THE

HOSPITAL, AND IT WOUND UP

SHE HAD EXACTLY WHAT I

HAD.

AND BECAUSE THE DOCTORS

COULD ACT QUICKLY, IT

SAVED HER LIFE.

IT IS REALLY AMAZING HOW

GOD CAN TAKE THINGS REALLY

HARD AND TURN THEM TO

GOOD.

Terry: AND YOU CAN BE

CRUISING AROUND AND OUT OF

THE BLUE, BAM.

WHAT YOU WRITE ABOUT IN

YOUR BOOK, THOUGH, IS

THINGS CAN HAPPEN TO YOU

THAT YOU CAN KIND OF TUCK

AWAY, HIDE, HARBOR, AND AT

JUST THE RIGHT MOMENT

LATER IN YOUR LIFE CAN DO

THE SAME THING, KIND OF

KICK YOUR FEET OUT FROM

UNDER YOU.

THAT'S RIGHT.

Terry: YOU REALLY

OPENED UP ABOUT SOME

REALLY PAINFUL CHILDHOOD

MEMORIES IN THE BOOK.

WHAT MADE YOU DECIDE TO DO

THAT?

I DECIDED IT WAS TIME

FOR THE LORD TO REALLY

ADDRESS THE SOURCE OF MY

PAIN.

I THINK SOMETIMES, JUST

LIKE WHEN I WAS IN THE

HOSPITAL AND I HAD

PHYSICAL PAIN, I KEPT

BEGGING GOD, TAKE AWAY THE

PAIN.

HAD HE TAKEN AWAY THE

PAIN, I WOULD HAVE GONE

HOME AND DIED.

BECAUSE SOMETHING WAS

REALLY, REALLY WRONG, THAT

NEEDED TO BE FIXED.

MORE THAN NUMBING THE

PAIN.

SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME

NEEDED TO BE FIXED.

AND BECAUSE I HAD PAIN, IT

FORCED ME TO STAY IN THE

HOSPITAL, TO ALLOW THE

DOCTORS TO CUT ME OPEN AND

FIX ME, AND NOW I CAN

CONTINUE LIVING.

EMOTIONAL PAIN IS VERY

SIMILAR TO THAT.

SOMETIMES WE BEG GOD, TAKE

AWAY THESE FEELINGS THAT

I'M HAVING.

BUT THE FEELINGS ARE

INDICATORS THAT THERE IS

SOMETHING GOING ON.

AND I WAS HAVING EMOTIONAL

PAIN, BUT I JUST KEPT

THINKING, IF I'M BUSY

ENOUGH, IF I'M SUCCESSFUL

ENOUGH, IT WILL JUST FIX

ITSELF.

Terry: IT IS NOT FUN

TO GO IN AND EVALUATE

THAT?

NO, IT'S NOT FUN.

MY STAFF WAS, LIKE, LET'S

NOT WRITE ANOTHER BOOK

LIKE THIS ONE BECAUSE THIS

ONE WAS PAINFUL.

BUT HERE IS THE GREAT

THING, ON THE OTHER SIDE

OF THIS IS A DEEP,

PROFOUND SENSE OF GOD'S

LOVE.

AND EVEN MORE IMPORTANT

THAN UNDERSTANDING GOD'S

LOVE, I FINALLY UNDERSTAND

THAT GOD'S LOVE IS NOT

BASED ON ME.

IT IS SIMPLY PLACED ON ME.

Terry: THAT IS SO

HARD TO ACCEPT.

IT IS.

IT IS.

Terry: EVERYTHING

ELSE IN LIFE IS

PERFORMANCE.

TO JUST RECEIVE THAT GOD

LOVES US, JUST LOVES US,

AND WE DON'T HAVE TO DO

ANYTHING.

THAT'S HARD FOR US TO

ACCEPT, DON'T YOU THINK?

IT IS.

I BELIEVE THAT WHILE IT IS

NOT BASED ON US, GOD'S

LOVE IS PLACED ON US, AND

IT IS THE PLACE FROM WHICH

WE SHOULD LIVE.

IT IS NOT THE SUCCESS OF

OUR LIFE OR THE LACK OR

ABUNDANCE OF OUR LIFE, BUT

IT IS OUR PROFOUND KNOWING

THAT GOD LOVES ME.

AND THEN I CAN WALK INTO

EVERY DAY CARRYING THAT

SENSE OF I AM LOVED.

Terry: AND THEN WHEN

YOU COME TO THE OTHER SIDE

OF THAT, IT IS A LITTLE

LIKE THE REPORT THAT THE

WOMAN TOOK TO HER DOCTOR.

NOW YOU GET TO TAKE THAT

BROKENNESS MADE WHOLE AND

TURN AROUND AND PASS THE

TRUTH OF THAT OFF TO OTHER

PEOPLE.

AND IT'S LIKE A

MULTIPLYING SCENARIO,

WHERE PEOPLE JUST KEEP

BEING REDEEMED AND SET

FREE.

WELL, THAT'S MY HOPE,

REALLY.

WHILE THE BOOK,

"UNINVITED," IS ABOUT

REJECTION, THAT'S JUST THE

STARTING PLACE.

I WANT TO GET PEOPLE TO

WHERE FROM THAT, CAN COME

THIS AMAZING DESTINY FROM

GOD.

FROM DESPERATION,

OFTENTIMES WE'LL GET OUR

GREATEST INSPIRATION.

I WROTE "UNINVITED"

BECAUSE I THOUGHT, I'M

GOING TO DEAL WITH THESE

REJECTIONS.

AND I'M TELLING YOU, GOD,

THROUGH THE WRITING AND

EDITING OF THIS BOOK,

MINISTERS TO ME SO DEEPLY,

IT GAVE ME A DIFFERENT

SENSE OF APPRECIATION FOR

THIS MESSAGE BECAUSE I

REALIZED I NEEDED IT MOST

OF ALL.

Terry: THIS ALL

STARTED WITH YOUR DAD

WALKING AWAY WHEN YOU'RE A

CHILD.

LOTS OF TIMES WHEN

SOMETHING HAPPENS IN OUR

CHILDHOOD, WE GO THROUGH

MANY YEARS AND WE COME TO

A PLACE WHERE WE THINK,

I'VE DEALT WITH THAT.

RIGHT.

Terry: TELL ME ABOUT

THE GARDEN OF GETHSEMANE.

MANY YEARS LATER YOU'RE IN

ISRAEL, AND IN THAT

GARDEN, OF ALL PLACES,

WHAT HAPPENED?

I HAD READ ABOUT THE

GARDEN OF GETHSEMANE IN

THE BIBLE.

AND I PICTURED IT VERY

DIFFERENTLY FROM WHAT IT

ACTUALLY LOOKED LIKE.

IT LITERALLY IS JUST A

SERIES OF OLIVE TREES.

AND I WAS STANDING THERE

IN THE GARDEN OF

GETHSEMANE, THINKING ABOUT

THIS IS WHERE JESUS WAS IN

HIS MOMENT, WHERE THE

BIBLE DESCRIBED JESUS IN

THAT MOMENT OF BEING IN

THE GARDEN, THAT WHEN HE

WAS PRAYING, REALIZING I'M

ABOUT TO GO TO THE CROSS

AND FULFILL THE DESTINY

THAT GOD HAS SET FORTH FOR

ME, I THOUGHT TO MYSELF,

JESUS WAS THERE WHEN GOD

CREATED THIS SCENE.

AND WE KNOW THAT FROM JOHN

CHAPTER 1.

AND SO JESUS WAS THERE, SO

WHY THE OLIVE TREE.

WHY WOULD JESUS PICK THE

OLIVE TREE TO BE THE THING

HE WOULD PICK WHEN HE WAS

DESPERATE.

MY SOUL IS OVERWHELMED

WITH SORROWFUL DEATH.

THERE ARE FACTS ABOUT THE

OLIVE TREE.

IT TAKES BOTH THE EAST

WINDS AND THE WEST WINDS

BLOWING ON THE TREE FOR IT

TO PRODUCE FRUIT.

THE HARSH WINDS OF THE

EAST REPRESENT, I THINK IN

OUR LIFE, THE DEVASTATING

TIMES, THE HARD TIMES.

AND THEN THERE ARE THE

REFRESHING WINDS OF THE

WEST.

BUT THAT TREE WILL NOT

PRODUCE FRUIT IF IT ONLY

HAS THE REFRESHING WINDS.

IT TAKES BOTH TO PRODUCE

FRUIT.

AND I BELIEVE WE ARE THE

SAME WAY.

AS I SAT THERE -- AND

THERE WERE THE OTHER

TRUTHS ABOUT THE OLIVE

TREE THAT I LEARNED, AND I

WAS SO PROFOUNDLY

IMPACTED, REALIZING THAT

I'M STANDING ON THIS

GROUND WHERE JESUS STOOD,

IN THIS SAME SCENE, AND IT

WAS IN THAT MOMENT I

WANTED MY TEARS TO BECOME

PART OF THAT GROUND.

BECAUSE I HAD TO JUST LET

THE REALITIES ENVELOPE ME.

IT WAS IN THAT MOMENT I

REALIZED I'M NOT A CHILD

OF A BROKEN MARRIAGE.

I'M A CHILD OF THE

ALMIGHTY GOD.

Terry: THE YES TO THE

CROSS IS WHAT TOOK PLACE

IN GETHSEMANE.

AND THE YES TO YOUR

HEALING IS PART OF WHAT

HAPPENED IN YOU.

BOY, IT IS A POWERFUL

BOOK.

WE HAVE JUST SKIMMED THE

SURFACE.

IT IS A MUST-READ.

AND IT'S CALLED

"UNINVITED."

IT'S AVAILABLE WHERE ALL

BOOKS ARE SOLD.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR

BEING WITH US TODAY.

THANK YOU, TERRY.

BLESS YOU.

Andrew: THANKS,

TERRY.

STILL AHEAD, COULD YOU BE

PUTTING YOURSELF AT RISK

FOR CANCER ONE SPOONFUL AT

A TIME.

IT ABSOLUTELY AMAZES ME

THAT MEDICAL SCIENCE IS

JUST NOW FINDING THIS OUT.

Andrew: FIND OUT WHAT

THE CULPRIT IS, AND YOU'LL

BE STUNNED WHEN YOU FIND

OUT HOW MUCH OF IT YOU'RE

EATING.

THAT'S NEXT.

Andrew: SCIENTISTS

BELIEVE TWO-THIRDS OF ALL

CANCERS ARE CAUSED BY OWN

OWN BAD CHOICES, LIKE

SMOKING AND NOT

EXERCISING, AND, THE GRAND

DADDY OF THEM ALL, WHAT

YOU EAT.

LORIE JOHNSON TELLS US

ABOUT THE DRAMATIC LINK

BETWEEN CANCER AND SUGAR.

Lorie: A CLEAR

RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN SUGAR

AND CANCER LEADS

SCIENTISTS TO TWO

CONCLUSIONS: SUGAR USE

CONTRIBUTES TO CANCER, AND

GOING WITHOUT IT CAN SLOW

GROWTH OF THE DISEASE.

100 YEARS AGO, MOST FOLKS

CONSUMED ONLY FOUR POUNDS

OF SUGAR A YEAR.

THAT'S THIS MUCH.

NOW, HOWEVER, THE AVERAGE

PERSON TAKES IN 40 TIMES

THIS AMOUNT, 160 POUNDS OF

SUGAR A YEAR.

THAT'S THIS MUCH.

FOOD MANUFACTURERS ADD

ENORMOUS AMOUNTS OF SUGAR,

USUALLY IN THE FORM OF

HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP,

TO PRODUCTS WE CONSUME ALL

DAY, EVERY DAY.

COFFEE DRINKS AND CEREAL,

SODA AND SNACKS.

EVEN FOODS YOU WOULDN'T

EXPECT, LIKE SPAGHETTI

SAUCE AND PEANUT BUTTER.

THIS TINY CONTAINER OF

YOGURT CONTAINS MORE SUGAR

THAN A CANDY BAR.

NOW SCIENTISTS TELL US

SUGAR DIRECTLY INFLUENCES

CANCER CELLS.

THE AMOUNT WE CONSUME CAN

EITHER FEED THOSE CELLS OR

STARVE THEM.

IN A LANDMARK STUDY,

RESEARCHERS AT U.T.M.D.

CANCER CENTER FED MICE

HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP

IN PERCENTAGES EQUAL TO

WHAT MANY HUMANS CONSUME.

THOSE MICE HAD HIGHER

RATES OF BREAST CANCER.

AND THE STUDY TELLS US

SOMETHING ABOUT PEOPLE WHO

ALREADY HAVE CANCER.

ONE RESEARCHER SAID A LOT

OF PATIENTS ARE TOLD, IT

DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU

EAT AFTER YOU ARE

DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER.

THIS PRELIMINARY ANIMAL

RESEARCH SUGGESTS THAT IT

DOES MATTER.

IT ABSOLUTELY AMAZES ME

THAT MEDICAL SCIENCE IS

JUST NOW FINDING THIS OUT.

Reporter: FRED

HATFIELD KNOWS FIRSTHAND,

SUGAR INTAKE MATTERS AFTER

A CANCER DIAGNOSIS.

BACK IN 2012, HIS

DIAGNOSIS WAS BASICALLY A

DEATH SENTENCE.

THE DOCTORS GAVE ME

THREE MONTHS TO LIVE

BECAUSE OF WIDESPREAD

METASTATIC CANCER IN MY

SKELETAL STRUCTURE.

THREE MONTHS.

THREE DIFFERENT DOCTORS

TOLD ME THAT SAME THING.

IT'S A HORRIBLE,

HORRIBLE FEELING TO HAVE

SOMEONE TELL YOU THAT THE

PERSON THAT YOU LOVE ONLY

HAS THREE MONTHS TO LIVE

AND YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE

WITH HIM ANYMORE.

Lorie: THEN FRED

HEARD ABOUT A LOW SUGAR

DIET, CALLED A KETOGENIC

DIET.

WITH NOTHING TO LOSE, HE

GAVE IT A TRY, AND TO HIS

ASTONISHMENT, IT WORKED.

AND THE CANCER WAS GONE

COMPLETELY.

Lorie: FRED'S

RECOVERY DIDN'T SURPRISE

THIS DOCTOR.

HIS TEAM AT THE UNIVERSITY

OF SOUTH FLORIDA

DISCOVERED MICE WITH

HIGHLY AGGRESSIVE

METASTATIC CANCER

CONTINUED LIVING WHEN FED

A KETOGENIC DIET.

WE HAVE A DRAMATICALLY

INCREASED SURVIVAL WITH

METABOLIC THERAPY.

WE THINK IT IS IMPORTANT

TO GET THIS INFORMATION

OUT.

Lorie: AND IT IS NOT

JUST LAB ANIMALS.

THE DOCTOR HAS SEEN

SIMILAR RESULTS IN HUMANS.

I'VE BEEN IN

CORRESPONDENCE WITH A

NUMBER OF PEOPLE, PROBABLY

AT LEAST A DOZEN PEOPLE.

AND OVER THE LAST YEAR AND

A HALF TO TWO YEARS, AND

ALL OF THEM ARE STILL

ALIVE.

SO -- DESPITE THE ODDS.

THAT'S VERY ENCOURAGING.

Lorie: THE KETOGENIC

DIET MEANS NO SUGAR AND NO

STARCHY CARBOHYDRATES,

LIKE BREAD AND PASTA, THAT

CONVERT TO SUGAR.

CANCER CELLS LOVE SUGAR

AND STARCH BECAUSE CANCER

THRIVES ON THE GLUCOSE

FROM THOSE FOODS.

REMOVE THE GLUCOSE AND

STARVE THE CANCER CELLS.

GLUCOSE ALSO FUELS OUR

HEALTHY CELLS, BUT IF IT

IS NOT THERE, THOSE CELLS

CAN SWITCH TO AN ALTERNATE

FUEL SOURCE CALLED KETONE

BODIES.

CANCER CELLS ONLY RUN ON

GLUCOSE.

YOUR NORMAL CELLS HAVE

THE METABOLIC FLEXIBILITY

TO ADAPT.

BUT CANCER CELLS LACK THIS

METABOLIC CAPABILITY.

Lorie: SINCE

PROCESSED FOOD CONTAINS SO

MUCH SUGAR AND STARCH,

PEOPLE FOLLOWING THE

KETOGENIC DIET TEND TO

COOK WHOLE FOODS FROM

SCRATCH.

YOU CAN GO ONLINE AND

THERE ARE COOKBOOKS.

IT IS CLEAN EATING.

NONE OF THE SUGARS, THE

SALTS, THE TRASH FOOD.

Lorie: SO WHEN IT

COMES TO CANCER, SUGAR IS

CONSIDERED PUBLIC ENEMY

NUMBER ONE.

AVOIDING IT COULD LEAD TO

PREVENTION OR SLOW IT DOWN

IN PEOPLE FIGHTING THE

DISEASE.

LORIE JOHNSON, CBN NEWS.

Andrew: TERRY, THIS

MIGHT HAVE BEEN GOOD FOR

ME TO SEE TODAY.

MY LITTLE GIRL WAS HELPING

ME MAKE COFFEE.

I HAD TWO CUPS AND I HAD

TWO SUGAR CUBES.

I DIDN'T KNOW THE DAMAGE

THAT COULD BE DONE WITH

TOO MUCH.

Terry: I THINK PART

OF THE PROBLEM IS WHAT

LORIE POINTED OUT EARLY

ON, WE EAT WAY MORE SUGAR

THAN WE REALIZE.

Andrew: THAT WAS

STAGGERING TO SEE THAT.

WE DON'T TO THAT, OF

COURSE.

Terry: OF COURSE NOT.

I HAVE LISTENED TO SOME

THINGS LIKE THIS OVER THE

YEARS, BUT I AM AT THE

PLACE WHERE I'M STARTING

TO TURN DOWN DESSERTS.

BUT THE BROWNIES THAT ONE

OF OUR CAMERA GUYS BROUGHT

IN --

Andrew: HOW ABOUT

SODAS?

Terri: I DON'T DRINK

SODAS.

I WONDER ABOUT FRUIT

BECAUSE IT IS NATURAL.

BUT BE WISE UP FRONT.

DON'T WAIT UNTIL YOU GET

THE CANCER DIAGNOSIS.

Andrew: IT IS GOOD

INFORMATION, ABSOLUTELY.

> WHEN YANNI'S SON WAS

BORN WITH A CLEFT LIP, SHE

WAS HEARTBROKEN.

THEN SHE HAD A SECOND SON

BORN WITH A CLEFT LIP, AND

SHE FEARED THE RUMORS

SURROUNDING HER FAMILY MAY

ACTUALLY BE TRUE.

Reporter: THEY ARE

BROTHERS, AND BOTH WERE

BORN WITH CELESTICA LIPS.

CLEFT LIPS.

I WONDERED IF IT WAS TRUE.

Reporter: HEN YANNI'S

HUSBAND DIED, LEAVING HER

TO CARE FOR THEIR TWO

CHILDREN.

SHE TOOK HIS OLD JOB ON A

RUBBER PLANTATION, BUT

THAT BARELY PROVIDED FOOD

FOR THEM.

PAYING FOR SURGERY FOR THE

BROTHERS WAS OUT OF THE

QUESTION.

ONE DAY A RELATIVE TOLD

YANNI ABOUT CBN AND THE

CHANCE FOR FREE SURGERY

FOR THE BOYS.

CBN BROUGHT YANNI AND THE

BOYS TO A HOSPITAL IN THE

CITY, WHERE SURGEONS

REPAIRED THEIR CLEFT LIP.

WHEN I SAW THAT BOTH OF

MY SONS LIPS WERE

REPAIRED, I COULDN'T

BELIEVE IT.

EVEN NOW, MY SONS ARE MORE

CONFIDENT TO PLAY WITH

OTHER KIDS.

Reporter: THEN TO

HELP HER BRING IN A LITTLE

EXTRA MONEY, WE GAVE HER

SOME CHICKENS TO START A

POULTRY BUSINESS.

I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU

FOR GIVING US THE SURGERY

THAT YOU PROVIDED FOR MY

SONS.

AND I AM SO BLESSED WITH

THE HENS THAT YOU GAVE ME.

I KNOW THE BUSINESS WILL

GROW QUICKLY.

THANK YOU.

Andrew: THERE WAS

THAT TREMENDOUS NEED IN

THE VILLAGE, THESE TWO

CHILDREN WITH THE CLEFT

LIPS, AND SOMEONE COMES TO

THE VILLAGE AND SAYS,

PEOPLE FROM CBN WANT TO

HELP AND MAKE A

DIFFERENCE.

AND THAT'S TO PEOPLE LIKE

YOU, WHO HAVE PARTNERED

WITH US.

IF YOU'D LIKE TO DO THAT,

YOU CAN JOIN "THE 700

CLUB."

IT IS JUST $20 A MONTH.

YOU CAN CALL

1-888-777-1999.

OR JUST LOG ON TO

cbn.com.

WHEN YOU JOIN AND PARTNER

WITH CBN, WE WANT TO SEND

YOU SOMETHING CALLED

"VICTORY THROUGH LIFE'S

STORMS."

IF YOU'RE IN A SEASON

WHERE YOU'RE QUESTIONING

THE PRESENCE OF GOD OR

YOU'RE IN SADNESS, THIS IS

A GREAT TEACHING AND

RESOURCE TO SHOW THAT GOD

IS EVER PRESENT WITH YOU

AND WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU

NOR FORSAKE YOU.

1-888-777-1999.

TERRY?

Terry: STILL AHEAD, A

TEEN GIRL STRUGGLES WITH

DEPRESSION AND ACTUALLY

TRIES TO KILL HERSELF.

THE RAZOR BLADES WERE A

SECURITY BLANKET FOR ME.

I TRIED ATTEMPTING SUICIDE

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN

EIGHTH GRADE.

Terry: SEE HOW SHE

WAS SAVED FROM SELF-HARM

Terry: BY THE TIME

CALLIE CLAUSEN BECAME A

TEENAGER, SHE WANTED TO BE

ANYBODY EXCEPT HERSELF.

SHE TURNED SULLEN AND SHE

FOUND A VERY DANGEROUS WAY

TO COPE WITH HER PROBLEMS.

TAKE A LOOK.

THE RAZOR BLADES WERE A

SECURITY BLANKET FOR ME.

IT GOT TO THE POINT WHERE

I WOULD FEEL ANXIOUS IF I

DIDN'T HAVE ONE ON ME.

I COULDN'T GO ANYWHERE

WITHOUT HAVING AT LEAST

ONE ON ME IN CASE I FELT

THE URGE TO SELF HARM.

I WAS THE CHURCH GIRL ON

SUNDAYS, AND THEN THE REST

OF THE WEEK LIVED TO GET

PEOPLE TO LIKE ME.

I STARTED STRUGGLING WITH

DEPRESSION IN SEVENTH

GRADE.

I FELT VERY LONELY.

I STARTED WEARING DARKER

CLOTHES, USING HEAVY

EYELINER AND DARK MAKEUP,

AND PHYSICALLY WAS VERY

DARK.

I EVEN SCARED MYSELF.

I STARTED COPING WITH MY

DEPRESSION THROUGH

SELF-HARM.

EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE

CUTTING MYSELF AND IT GOT

WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE.

THE RAZOR BLADES WERE A

SECURITY BLANKET FOR ME.

I OFTEN KEPT THEM IN THE

BACK OF MY PHONE CASE.

I NEVER IMAGINED I WOULD

EVER BE ABLE TO GET RID OF

THEM.

EVERY TIME I TRIED TO

STOP, I COULDN'T.

I COULDN'T CONTROL IT.

SOME OF THE THOUGHTS THAT

WENT THROUGH MY HEAD WERE,

YOU DESERVE THIS.

YOU'RE NOT WORTH ANYTHING.

YOU'RE FAT.

YOU'RE UGLY.

PEOPLE DON'T LIKE YOU.

AND I WOULD JUST, LIKE,

SIT THERE AND DWELL ON

THEM.

AND I NEED TO DO

SOMETHING.

SO I WOULD DO SELF-HARM.

I WOULD FEEL YOU DESERVE

THIS.

AND THEN AFTER ALL OF THAT

WHOLE CYCLE, I WOULD FEEL

GUILT.

I TRIED ATTEMPTING SUICIDE

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN

EIGHTH GRADE.

I WAS JUST VERY BROKEN.

EVENTUALLY MY PARENTS,

LIKE, FOUND OUT AND I WENT

TO COUNSELLING.

BUT IT NEVER REALLY DID

HELP.

I WAS VERY ANGRY AT GOD.

I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, IF

GOD LOVES ME, WHY WOULD HE

LET ME GO THROUGH THIS?

WHY WOULD I BE FEELING

THIS WAY?

WHY WOULD HE LET ME GO

THROUGH DEPRESSION?

WHY WOULD HE LET ALL OF

THESE BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO

ME?

IF PEOPLE ASKED ME IF I

WAS A CHRISTIAN, I WOULD

OFTENTIMES TELL THEM, I

BELIEVE IN GOD, BUT I

DON'T THINK HE BELIEVES IN

ME.

FEBRUARY 12 OF 2013 WAS

THE LAST TIME I TRIED TO

COMMIT SUICIDE.

AFTER I'D OVERDOSED, I

IMMEDIATELY CALLED POISON

CONTROL.

I JUST REMEMBER SITTING IN

THE EMERGENCY ROOM, LIKE,

ON THE BED WITH MY DAD IN

THE ROOM.

I WAS TERRIFIED.

I'M GETTING CHILLS JUST

THINKING ABOUT IT NOW.

IT WAS SUCH A SCARY

EXPERIENCE FOR ME.

I WAS RELEASED AND I

STAYED HOME THE NEXT FEW

DAYS AND I WAS PROCESSING

THINGS.

ALL OF A SUDDEN I BROKE

DOWN.

I WAS, LIKE, I CAN'T DO

THIS ANYMORE.

I WAS, LIKE, GOD, I CAN'T

DO THIS.

I HEARD HIM SAY, YOU DON'T

HAVE TO ANYMORE.

AND I HEARD GOD SAY, GO

BURY YOUR RAZORBLADES.

AND IT WAS JUST MY MOM AND

I, AND I TOLD HER WE NEED

TO BURY THESE.

AND WE WENT TO THE

BACKYARD AND WE BURIED

THEM TOGETHER AND I

LITERALLY FELT A BURDEN

LIFTED OFF MY SHOULDERS.

AND I GOT PLUGGED INTO A

YOUTH GROUP AND MADE SOME

FRIENDS IN THE YOUTH

GROUP.

IT WAS SO DIFFICULT

BECAUSE I HAD TO BREAK OFF

A LOT OF FRIENDSHIPS THAT

I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO.

I HAVEN'T STRUGGLED WITH

DEPRESSION, I HAVEN'T

STRUGGLED WITH SELF-HARM,

AND I HAVEN'T HAD SUICIDAL

THOUGHTS ON TENDENCIES.

GOD LITERALLY TOOK THE

WEIGHT OFF OF MY SHOULDERS

AND RELEASED ME FROM THAT.

I'VE JUST BEEN SO FULL OF

JOY EVER SINCE THEN.

I TRY TO PUT MY HOPE AND

TRUST IN A LOT OF

DIFFERENT THINGS

THROUGHOUT MY LIFE, AND

EVERYTHING FAILED.

GOD IS FAITHFUL, AND EVEN

IF YOU CAN'T SEE IT, HE IS

STILL THERE.

WHEN IT SEEMS LIKE YOUR

WORLD IS FALLING APART, HE

IS STILL THERE AND HE IS

HOLDING THE WORLD

TOGETHER.

IT WAS NOT OUT OF MY OWN

STRENGTH I STOPPED

SELF-HARMING.

I TRIED SO MANY TIMES.

IT WAS ULTIMATELY GOD.

I DID NOTHING.

I DID NOTHING BUT CRY OUT

TO HIM.

FULLY RELYING ON GOD AND

FULLY TRUSTING IN HIM

RELEASED ME FROM ALL OF

THE CHAINS AND THE BURDENS

THAT I HAVE.

AND FINALLY UNDERSTANDING

THAT HE REALLY DOES LOVE

ME AND HE WANTS THE BEST

FOR ME.

Terry: IT IS REALLY

INTERESTING, ISN'T IT,

THAT WE HAVE A FATHER WHO

LOVES US SO

UNCONDITIONALLY.

WE HAVE A SAVIOR WHO GAVE

EVERYTHING HE HAD TO GIVE

BECAUSE HE LOVES US SO, SO

MUCH.

AND WE HAVE GOD'S SWEET

SPIRIT AVAILABLE TO US FOR

THE ASKING.

AND YET SOMETIMES WE LIVE

LIKE PAUPERS.

THERE IS NO JOY.

THERE IS NO HOPE.

THERE IS NO TOMORROW.

ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I

THINK REALLY BEGAN THIS

PROCESS FOR CALLIE -- OF

COURSE SHE FULLY RELIED ON

GOD AND OF COURSE SHE CAME

TO A POINT OF TRUSTING

HIM, BUT SHE BURIED THE

RAZORBLADES.

SHE SAID YES TO GOD'S

HEALING.

THERE IS A STORY IN THE

BIBLE OF SOMEONE WHO CAME

TO JESUS TO BE HEALED.

AND HE SAID TO THEM, WHAT

DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?

AND I USED TO THINK, WHAT

A CURIOUS QUESTION.

THE PERSON HAS A DEEP

PHYSICAL NEED, WHAT DO YOU

THINK THEY WANT YOU TO DO?

BUT I REALIZED AFTERWARDS

THAT A LOT OF US HANG ON

TO THE VERY THING THAT

MAKES US SICK.

THE VERY THING THAT BREAKS

US.

THE VERY THING THAT LIES

TO US ABOUT WHO WE ARE.

SOMETIMES IT IS A FEAR OF

TRUSTING THAT GOD WILL

REALLY BE WHO HE IS.

AND SOMETIMES WE HAVE SUCH

SELF-LOATHING.

IT IS AN INABILITY TO

ACCEPT.

WHAT LYSA TALKED ABOUT

EARLIER.

IN FACT, MANY TIMES THE

PLACE WHERE GOD MOST MEETS

US IS AT OUR VERY LOWEST

POINT, BECAUSE WE COME TO

THE END OF OURSELVES.

I WOULD SAY TO YOU TODAY,

WHAT DO YOU WANT GOD TO DO

FOR YOU?

MAYBE YOU'RE STRUGGLING,

LIKE CALLIE WAS, WITH

DEPRESSION, WITH WONDERING

WHO YOU ARE.

MAYBE YOU'RE STRUGGLING

LIKE LYSA HAS OVER THE

YEARS, AND SO MANY PEOPLE,

WITH WHO AM I?

WHY WOULD GOD LOVE ME?

WHAT'S MY VALUE?

WHAT WE DON'T UNDERSTAND

WHEN WE COME FROM THAT

PERSPECTIVE IS THAT GOD

DOESN'T JUST LOVE US, HE

IS LOVE.

AND WHEN WE CONNECT WITH

HIM, AND WHEN WE LET HIM

INTO THOSE DEEP PLACES IN

OUR HEART, THOSE SECRET

PLACES THAT HURT US, THAT

LOVE COMES IN LIKE A WARM

HONEY AND JUST BEGINS TO

SOAK OVER US.

AND WE BEGIN THE PROCESS

OF BECOMING WHOLE.

IF YOU WOULD LIKE SOMEONE

TO PRAY WITH YOU WHEREVER

YOU'RE AT IN YOUR LIFE, WE

HAVE PEOPLE STANDING BY

WHO WOULD LOVE TO DO THAT.

OUR NUMBER IS TOLL-FREE:

1-888-777-1999.

CALL NOW.

THE FRIEND ON THE OTHER

END OF THE LINE IS WAITING

TO HEAR FROM YOU.

ANDREW?

Andrew: TERRY, YOU

ARTICULATE THE LOVE OF

CHRIST SO WELL, BUT

SOMETIMES IT IS HARD TO

DESCRIBE THE PEACE AND

LOVE THAT COMES OVER US

WHEN WE REALLY SURRENDER

TO CHRIST.

IT'S A WONDERFUL THING.

> WE LEAVE WERE

"WHAT SHOULD WE SAYIN RESPONSE E

THINGS?

IF GOD IS FOR US, WHO CAN

BE AGAINST US."

THAT'S A GREAT REMINDER.

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