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Wounded Soldier to Inspirational Conquerer

Carlos Evans was a husband, a father, and a Marine when he began his fourth combat deployment. While on foot petrol, he stepped on an IED, losing both his legs and his left hand in the explosion. He struggled with depression, anger and a body ... Read Transcript

I wanted to serve my country after what I saw in 9/11.

And I was watching in the news of the invasion of the Marines

in Fallujah, and I said I should be doing that.

So I joined the Marine Corps.

Before 2010, I deployed to Iraq three different times,

and those were three combat deployments

with First battalion, Second Marines.

In 2010, now I'm married.

I have a family.

[INAUDIBLE] was four years old, and my youngest one

was a couple of months.

May 16, 2010, I was getting ready to go on a full patrol,

group of 19 Marines.

We ended the mission.

We're ready to go.

And when I was walking, I stepped on an IED.

It was before the Father's Day and before our anniversary.

I was on my way to the post office to send my care package,

and then somebody called me.

And they just asked me, are you Mrs. Evans?

And at that moment, I know something wrong

happened to Carlos.

But I thought he was already dead.

I heard a big explosion.

That's how I knew I stepped on it.

Both my legs got blown up.

My left arm got blown up, too.

I started losing so much blood I had nine tourniquets

in my body.

I had four here, four here, and one here.

At that time, I wanted to die because I

was going through so much pain.

The marine that was with me, he kept asking me,

what's your wife's name?

And I told him Rosemary.

What are your daughters' names?

I'm like Nairobi Genesis.

He's like, you're going to go home to them.

You're not going to die here today.

And that's the last thing I remember.

I think six days passed by, and I woke up

in Bethesda Washington, DC, Hospital.

I opened my eyes, and I saw my wife right next to me.

But it didn't sink in what actually happened to me

after I left the hospital.

That's when I really had to adjust to life.

I was struggling with a body that I didn't want.

There were days that I wanted to die.

I woke up every day, and I'm like, how can I die?

And I had a lot of mood swings because I

was taking a lot of medication.

Some days I was in my room all day crying.

I was thanking God because I was alive.

But at the same time, I was mad because I

didn't understand why if I'm a Christian

this could happen to me.

You know, I am going through so much pain, where are you God?

My mostly prayer all the time was God

gave me the wisdom to make the right decisions

or say the right words to him, or encourage him and encourage

my family.

Keep them together because I don't want to lose them.

I don't want to lose my family through this situation.

I think three months after my injury, I go to the living room

and I see my wife, and I'm getting ready to tell her.

I'm like, you know what?

You should just continue with your life,

and I'll continue with mine.

I'll just stay here because you don't deserve this.

And she just looks at me right straight in the eyes,

and she tells me, I pray to God to bring you back home alive

and you are here alive.

You are my husband, and I love you for who you are.

I am not a widow, and your daughters are not orphans.

You are their father.

She tells me I love you for who you are.

And I was like, no, you can't love me for who I am.

Look at all my wounds and my body.

And she tells me this the difference between you and me.

I don't see your wounds.

I only see your scars, and the scars

are the evidence of who healed your wounds.

And that is Jesus, and he's the center of my life

and we're going to make it through.

That same week, my wife told me we're going

to go to church this week.

I haven't been to my church six or seven months.

I had this moment by myself in the church,

and I was like, you know what, Lord?

I just don't know how to do this.

I don't know how to live this way.

There in my heart and my mind comes scripture.

You can do all things through Christ that strengths you.

And I'm like, Lord, I have so much pain in my body.

I have all these wounds.

Right there, I look at the cross, and I see Jesus.

And I see his wounds.

He was wounded so I could be healed.

And that was a big breakthrough in my life.

He was more positive.

He was more focused and more determined to change.

I started not focusing on what I don't have

and focusing on the things that I have,

and I started enjoying my life, waking up with a smile.

Finding God's purpose behind all this,

that God could use our scars to heal others.

We speak to a lot of wounded veterans like myself.

There's a lot of people out there

that are going through a lot and want to give up,

and they need to see an example.

So we share our lives with them.

Not everybody have a husband that lost both legs,

but everybody have hard time.

On my part, what I can say is ask God for wisdom.

The only right decisions come from him.

When God looks at you, he doesn't look at you

as a victim, as a cripple, sick.

God looks at you as his son and as a conqueror.

And when you look at yourself through that mirror, whatever

looks impossible it becomes possible.

So I looked at this experience.

I'm like, wow, this is a blessing

in disguise because we have grown so much from it.

I'm a better father.

I'm a better husband.

I'm a better person.

And we're touching a lot of people through God's grace.

So I don't regret it.

If I have to go through it all over again,

we'll do it the same way.


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