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700 Club Interactive - January 10, 2018

A woman loses 5 children to miscarriage, see how writing letters helped her heal. Read Transcript


I WAS DEVASTATED.

FELT ALONE AND ASHAMED.

Gordon: A MOM LOSES

FIVE BABIES TO

MISCARRIAGE.

I WONDER WHAT YOU WOULD

LOOK LIKE, WHAT WOULD OUR

FAMILY BE LIKE.

Gordon: SEE HOW

WRITING LETTERS HELPED HER

FEAR.

I KNOW GOD CARES FOR

YOU BETTER THAN I EVER

COULD.

Gordon: PLUS, FORMER

NETWORK TV HOST CYNTHIA

GARRETT, TALKS ABOUT HER

JOURNEY AS A PRODIGAL

DAUGHTER.

ALL THAT AND MORE ON

TODAY'S "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE."

> WELCOME TO THE SHOW.

A VIDEO OF AN EPIC

DANCE-OFF IS GOING VIRAL,

SHOWING THAT YOU'RE NEVER

TOO OLD TO DANCE OR GET

INTO THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT.

Terry: CHRISTOPHER

TATE LEARNED THAT FIRST

HAND WHEN AN ELDERLY WOMAN

IN A CHRISTMAS HOME HE WAS

VISITED ON CHRISTMAS EVE

STARTED TO BUST OUT SOME

MOVES.

HE WAS HANDING OUT GIFTS

HE HAD COLLECTED WHEN HE

MET A 90-YEAR-OLD WOMAN

WHO WAS FULL OF LIFE.

TAKE A LOOK AT THIS.

* COME AND BEHOLD HIM

* O COME LET US ADORE

HIM *

* O COME LET US A ADORE

HIM *

* O COME LET US A ADORE HIM,

CHRIST THE LORD *

*

Gordon: THAT WAS A

DANCE MOMENT.

CHRISTOPHER HAS BEEN

VISITING NURSING HOMES

AROUND CHRISTMAS FOR

YEARS, AND IS HAPPY THAT

THE VIDEO IS GOING VIRAL

WITH OVER 10 MILLION

VIEWS.

HE LOVES THAT IT IS

ENCOURAGING OTHERS TO

VISIT AND CARE FOR

SENIORS.

AND THAT'S A WONDERFUL

THING TO DO.

THAT'S JUST DURING

CHRISTMAS --

Terry: AND SHE WAS

GETTING A LITTLE NERVOUS.

SHE WAS GETTING READY TO

LET GO OF THAT WATER.

I WAS, LIKE, DON'T DO IT.

Gordon: SPEAKING WITH

VIRAL VIDEOS, SANTA BOWED

HIS HEAD AND DELIVERED A

PRAYER AND THE MIDDLE OF A

BASS PRO SHOP, ASKING THE

GREAT PHYSICIAN TO HEAL A

LITTLE GIRL'S COUSIN.

HERE IS A CLIP.

[INAUDIBLE]

LORD, I KNOW YOU ARE

THE GREAT PHYSICIAN, AND

YOU CAN HEAL.

I PRAY THAT YOU WOULD

BEGIN THE HEALING PROCESS.

Terry: WOW, TAYLOR

COULD HAVE ASKED SANTA FOR

JUST ABOUT ANYTHING, BUT

ASKED FOR HER COUSIN,

ASHLEY, WHO HAS LEUKEMIA,

TO BE HEALED.

THAT VIDEO HAS GONE VIRAL

WITH OVER 8.2 MILLION

VIEWS.

IT STRUCK A CORD WITH A

LOT OF PEOPLE.

Gordon: ALL I WANT

FOR CHRISTMAS IS FOR MY

COUSIN TO BE HEALED.

Terry: THAT IS

PRECIOUS.

> EVERY NOW AND THEN

SOMEONE IN THE PUBLIC EYE

DOES SOMETHING KIND BY

COMMITTING THEIR RESOURCES

AND THEIR INFLUENCE TO

HELP OTHERS.

THOMAS DAVIS RECENTLY

DONATED $15,000 TO BUY 60

CHAMPIONSHIP RINGS FOR

HARDING UNIVERSITY HIGH

SCHOOL'S FOOTBALL TEAM

AFTER HEARING THAT THE

SCHOOL COULDN'T AFFORD TO

BUY THE RINGS.

Gordon: DESPITE

FINANCIAL HARDSHIP, THE

TEAM HAS HAD A WINNING

14-1 SEASON, SENDING THE

SCHOOL TO ITS FIRST STATE

CHAMPIONSHIPS SINCE 1953.

THE PLAYERS WERE ESTATIC

TO HEAR THAT THEY WOULD

EACH RECEIVE A RING.

WHAT A WONDERFUL THING TO

DO.

Terry: THAT'S

WONDERFUL.

Gordon: ATHLETE IS

GIVING BACK IN A BIG WAY.

MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL

PITCHER COLE HAMELS AND

HIS WIFE ARE GIVING AWAY

THEIR $5.7 MILLION MANSION

TO A CHRISTIAN CAMP FOR

CHILDREN WITH SPECIAL

NEEDS AND CHRONIC ILLNESS.

Terry: CAMP BARNABUS

ALSO SERVES THE CAMPERS'

FAMILY.

IT IS ON TABLE LOCK LAKE

IN BRANSON, MISSOURI, AND

HAS MORE THAN A HUNDRED

ACRES OF LAND.

THE HAMELS SAY THEY FELT

CALLED TO HELP AND TO

DONATE.

Gordon: THAT'S A BIG

HOUSE, AND 100 ACRES TO GO

ALONG WITH IT.

KEEP IN MIND, WE DON'T GET

TO KEEP ANYTHING HERE.

WHAT A WAY TO GIVE

FORWARD, TO SAY, OKAY, I'M

GOING TO GIVE AWAY A

MANSION.

LAY OUT YOUR TREASURE IN

HEAVEN.

> THE PHILADELPHIA

EAGLE'S HAVE BEEN MAKING

HEADLINES FOR THEIR

DISPLAYS OF CHRISTIANITY.

BUT IT SEEMS THE DALLAS

COWBOYS ARE FOLLOWING SUIT

WITH THEIR OWN PUBLIC

PROFESSIONS OF FAITH.

[INAUDIBLE]

IN THE NAME OF THE

FATHER, THE SON, AND THE

HOLY SPIRIT.

[APPLAUSE]

IN THE FAME OF THE NAME OF THE

FATHER, THE SON, AND THE

HOLY SPIRIT.

AMEN.

[APPLAUSE]

I BAPTIZE YOU IN THE

NAME OF THE FATHER, THE

SON, AND THE HOLY SPIRIT.

[APPLAUSE]

LET'S PRAY NOW.

Terry: THE COWBOYS'

TEAM CHAPLAIN SHARED THIS

VIDEO ON Facebook, OF

HIM BAPTIZING LINEBACKERS

JUSTIN LILARD, AND ANTHONY

HIGGINS, AND THREE PLAYERS

PROUDLY PROFESSED THEIR

FAITH, ALONG WITH THEIR

TEAMMATES, WHO CHEERED

THEM FROM THE SIDES FROM

THE TEAM'S REHABILITATION

POOL.

Gordon: IT IS USED

FOR INJURIES AND ALSO FOR

BAPTISM.

Terry: THAT IS

WONDERFUL TO SEE.

GO COWBOYS.

Gordon: COMING UP,

ONE MOM LOSES FIVE BABIES

TO MISCARRIAGE.

I FELT ABANDONED AND I

FELT GUILT, WONDERING IF I

HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG

TO LOSE YOU, AND FEARED

THAT I WOULD NEVER HAVE A

CHILD OF MY OWN.

Gordon: SEE HOW SHE

FOUND HEALING WRITING

LETTERS, WHEN WE COME

BACK.

CLERICAL

Gordon: OVER THE SPAN

OF 15 YEARS, MICHELLE

DWORSKE STRUGGLED WITH A

DEEP SENSE OF LOSS, ANGER,

AND GRIEF, AFTER LOSING

FIVE CHILDREN TO

MISCARRIAGE.

MICHELLE NEVER IMAGINED

THAT SHE WOULD FIND

HEALING THROUGH WRITING.

TO MY FIVE CHILDREN IN

HEAVEN, MANY YEARS HAVE

PASSED SINCE I LOST YOU.

BUT SOMETIMES IT FEELS

LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY.

AS I SIT HERE, I CAN

REMEMBER THE EXCITEMENT OF

EACH PREGNANCY, THINKING

OF THE HOPE THAT MIGHT BE

AND A CHILD THAT MIGHT BE.

I THEN THE DEPTH OF LOSS,

WHEN THERE WAS NO

HEARTBEAT ON THE SCREEN.

AND THE PAIN THAT CAME

WITH LOSING EACH ONE OF

YOU AND HAVING TO SAY

GOOD-BYE TO THE HOPE AND

THE PROMISE THAT WAS

THERE.

IN THOSE EARLY YEARS, WHEN

I HAD LOST THREE OF YOU,

ONE AFTER ANOTHER, I WAS

DEVASTATED.

I FELT ALONE AND ASHAMED.

GOD WAS AGAINST ME BECAUSE

HE LET OTHER WOMEN HAVE

BABIES SO EASILY.

I FELT ABANDONED BY HIM.

AND I FELT GUILT,

WONDERING IF I HAD DONE

SOMETHING WRONG TO LOSE

YOU, AND I FEARED THAT I

WOULD NEVER HAVE A CHILD

OF MY OWN.

BABY SHOWER AFTER BABY

SHOWER I SMILED, ALL THE

WHILE FEELING LIKE I WAS

DYING INSIDE.

SINCE NO ONE HAD SEEN YOU,

THE LOSS WAS NOT REAL TO

THEM.

BUT TO ME YOU WERE, AND

ARE, STILL VERY REAL.

[CHILDREN LAUGHING]

YOU ARE MY CHILDREN,

AND EVEN THOUGH WE NEVER

MET, I HAD NAMED EACH ONE

OF YOU.

DURING THOSE PAINFUL

YEARS, GOD GAVE ME A

SCRIPTURE, JEREMIAH 29:

11.

"FOR THE KNO I KNOW THE PLANS I

HAVE YOU, DECLARES THE

LORD, PLANS TO PROSPER YOU

AND NOT TO HARM YOU, PLANS

TO GIVE YOU A HOPE AND A

FUTURE."

SOMETIMES MY ANGER WAS

DIRECTED AT HIM, AND I

WOULD SHAKE MY FIST AT HIM

AND I WOULD YELL AT HIM

BECAUSE HE HAD TAKEN WHAT

I LOVED SO MUCH.

BUT HE SPOKE GENTLY TO ME.

AND HE PROMISED ME HOPE,

NO MATTER WHAT I WAS GOING

THROUGH.

EVENTUALLY I HAD YOUR TWO

BROTHERS, DURING WHICH

TIME I ALSO LOST TWO MORE

OF YOU.

IT WAS A SEASON OF JOY,

MIXED WITH SADNESS.

MY PREGNANCIES WERE HIGH

RISKS, AND FILLED WITH

TESTS, ULTRASOUNDS, AND

HORMONE INJECTIONS.

I LONGED TO HAVE A NORMAL

PREGNANCY, LIKE SO MANY

OTHERS.

BUT WHEN THOSE TWO BOYS

WERE BORN, IT WAS PURE

JOY.

I CANNOT ADEQUATELY

EXPRESS HOW MUCH JOY YOUR

BROTHERSS HAVE BROUGHBROTHERS HAVE BROUGHT
TO

ME AND YOUR DAD.

WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG, I

LOVED JUST HOLDING THEM

AND LOOKING AT THEM IN

THEIR EYES, AND TOUCHING

THEM AND SMELLING THEM.

I HAD LONGED FOR A BABY

FOR SO LONG.

AND THEN AS THEY GOT

OLDER, TO WATCH THEM JUMP

AND PLAY, TO CHEER FOR

THEM ON THE SIDELINES, TO

WATCH ONE OF THEM GET

MARRIED.

IT WAS A MIRACLE THAT I

NEVER THOUGHT WOULD HAPPEN

TO ME.

THEY ARE AMAZING MEN.

AND I THANK GOD EVERY DAY

FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS.

HAVING TWO CHILDREN ON

EARTH EASES THE PAIN OF

LOSING YOU, BUT IT DOES

NOT REMOVE IT.

I WAS ABLE TO FIND OUT THE

LAST ONE OF YOU I LOST WAS

A GIRL.

I NAMED YOU ABIGAIL ROSE.

EVERYBODY READY?

YES!

I WONDER WHAT YOU WOULD

LOOK LIKE, WHAT WOULD OUR

FAMILY BE LIKE?

WOULD YOU BE TALL, LIKE

YOUR BROTHER BROTHERS PROCEEDING

WOULBROTHERS?WOULD WE BE FRIENDS?

WOULD YOU ROLL YOUR EYES

AT ME?

WOULD YOU HAVE LONG HAIR?

WHAT HOPES AND DREAMS

WOULD YOU HAVE FOR YOUR

FUTURE?

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I THINK YOU LOOK

PERFECT.

YOU JUST HAVE TO SAY

THAT BECAUSE YOU'RE MY

MOM.

NO.

SOMETIMES THE PAIN HITS

ME OUT OF THE BLUE, LIKE

THE OTHER DAY AT THE

CHECK-OUTLINE AT THE

STORE, BY A MOTHER AND A

DAUGHTER.

THEY LOOKED LIKE THEY HAD

BEEN SHOPPING FOR SCHOOL

CLOTHES, AND THEY WERE

LAUGHING AND SMILING AND

HAD LITTLE JOKES THAT I

KNEW WERE JUST BETWEEN

THEM.

JUST LIKE ALL THOSE YEARS

AGO, I SMILED, BUT WHEN I

LEFT THE STORE AND WENT TO

MY CAR, I CRIED FOR MY

ABIGAIL, AND I CRIED FOR

ALL OF YOU.

ONCE AGAIN IN MY SADNESS,

GOD WAS THERE WITH ME IN

THE CAR.

I COULD FEEL HIS PRESENCE,

COMFORTING ME, COLLECTING

MY TEARS, PROMISING ME

HOPE.

SOMETIMES I FEEL SELFISH.

I KNOW YOU ARE IN

PARADISE.

I KNOW GOD CARES FOR YOU

BETTER THAN I EVER COULD.

YOU NEVER EXPERIENCED

PAIN.

YOU WERE NEVER SICK.

YOU NEVER CRIED OR HAD

YOUR HEARTBROKEN.

BUT, STILL, I MISS WHAT

COULD HAVE BEEN AND WISH

YOU WERE ALL HERE WITH OUR

FAMILY.

[LAUGHTER]

YOU HAVE TO DO THE

MONKEY IN THE MIDDLE.

SOME DAY I WILL SEE

YOU.

I WILL MEET YOU, MY

BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN, FOR

THE FIRST TIME.

THERE WILL BE NO MORE

TEARS.

GOD PROMISES THAT WHEN HE

SAYS THAT IN REVELATION

21: 4: "HE WILL WIPE EVERY

TEAR FROM THEIR EYES.

THERE WILL BE NO MORE

DEATH OR MOURNING OR

CRYING OR SHAME.

FOR THE OLD THINGS HAVE

PASSED AWAY."

THE ONE THING I HAVE

LEARNED IS THAT HE IS

FAITHFUL TO HIS PROMISES.

[LAUGHTER]

UNTIL THEN, I LOVE YOU.

MOM.

Gordon: WHAT A

BEAUTIFUL LETTER.

A LETTER WRITTEN FORWARD

TO SAY, ONE DAY I'M GOING

TO MEET YOU IN HEAVEN.

REALIZE THAT WE MAY NOT

KNOW THE REASON.

AND SO OFTEN WE ARE FILLED

WITH THE QUESTION OF WHY?

WHY DID THESE BAD THINGS

HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE?

WHY DO MISCARRIAGES

HAPPEN?

WHY DO CHILDREN DIE?

WHY?

WHY DO THESE THINGS

HAPPEN?

BUT REALIZE THIS: GOD THE

FATHER KNOWS WHAT IT IS

LIKE TO LOSE A CHILD.

AND HE WATCHED AS HE SON,

HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, WAS

CRUCIFIED.

AND THROUGH ALL OF THAT,

HE KNEW THAT THERE WOULD

BE A DAY OF RESURRECTION.

AND IN THAT DAY, YES, ALL

THE TEARS WOULD BE WIPED

AWAY.

THERE WOULD BE NO MORE

GRIEVING.

AND WE LOOK FORWARD TO

THAT DAY, A DAY WHERE

THERE IS A NEW HEAVEN AND

A NEW EARTH.

BUT RIGHT NOW, LET'S JUST

STOP AND LET'S PRAY FOR

PEOPLE WHO HAVE LOST

CHILDREN.

AND LET'S ALSO PRAY FOR

COUPLES WHO ARE STRUGGLING

TO GIVE BIRTH, AND WHETHER

THAT'S THROUGH MISCARRIAGE

OR INFERTILITY, LET'S PRAY

THAT THEY WOULD HAVE THE

POWER TO GIVE LIFE,

SATISFYING THE LONGING OF

THEIR SOULS TO RAISE UP

ANOTHER GENERATION.

FULFILL THE COMMANDMENT,

BE FRUITFUL AND MULTIPLY

AND REPLENISH THE EARTH.

LET'S DO THAT RIGHT NOW.

LORD, WE LIFT THOSE WHO

ARE GRIEVING.

WE LIFT THOSE WHO HAVE

LOST, WHETHER IT'S A CHILD

OR A LOVED ONE.

WE JUST KNOW THAT YOU WILL

BE FOR THEM THE GOD OF ALL

COMFORT.

AND SO COME TO THEM NOW.

AND COMFORT THEM IN THEIR

TIME OF GRIEF.

AND, LORD, I ASK THAT

THEY, TOO, WOULD HAVE A

VISION OF THE FUTURE, WHEN

EVERY TEAR WILL BE WIPED

AWAY, WHERE THERE WILL BE

JOY AND PEACE IN YOU.

AND NOW FOR THE COUPLES

WHO ARE SUFFERING WITH IN

INFERTILITY, WE JUST ASK

THAT YOU WOULD GIVE THEM

THE POWER TO GIVE LIFE.

AS THEY CRY OUT TO YOU, AS

HANNAH CRIED OUT TO YOU AT

THE DOOR TO THE TEMPLE,

SAYS HE CRIED OUT FOR A

SON, GIVE THEM THE ANSWER

TO THEIR PRAYERS.

GIVE THEM THE POWER TO

HAVE CHILDREN, TO BE

FRUITFUL AND TO MULTIPLY.

AND, LORD, WE ALSO PRAY

FOR THE ORPHANED, THOSE

WHO ARE ALONE IN THIS

WORLD.

AND WE WOULD ASK THAT YOU

WOULD PLACE THEM IN

FAMILIES.

WE ASK THAT YOU WOULD

PLACE THEM IN CARE.

WE ASK THAT YOU WOULD SEND

PEOPLE AFTER YOUR OWN

HEART TO WATCH OVER THEM

AND TO RAISE THEM UP IN

THE KNOWLEDGE OF YOU AND

PROVIDE FOR THEIR EVERY

NEED.

LORD GOD, DO ALL OF THESE

THINGS.

WE COME BOLDLY TO YOUR

THRONE OF GRACE, FOR WE

KNOW THAT YOU HEAR OUR

PRAYER.

WE KNOW YOUR HEART.

AND WE KNOW THAT YOU HEAR.

SO DO IT, LORD, FOR WE ASK

IT IN JESUS' NAME.

AMEN.

AND AMEN.

IF YOU NEED PRAYER, WE'RE

HERE FOR YOU.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS PICK

UP THE PHONE AND CALL US.

AND WE BELIEVE IN

PREVAILING PRAYER.

THAT'S THE PRAYER THAT

GETS AN ANSWER.

THAT'S THE REASON JESUS

GAVE US PARABLES, TO SHOW

US WE SHOULD ALWAYS PRAY

AND FAINT NOT.

SO IF YOU NEED PRAYER,

WE'RE HERE, 24 HOURS A

DAY, SEVEN DAYS A WEEK.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS

CALL.

1-800-700-7000.

TERRY?

Terry: WELL, IF YOU'D

LIKE TO SHARE THAT STORY

WITH SOMEONE THAT MAY NEED

TO SEE IT OR MAY NEED MORE

PRAYER, YOU CAN GO TO OUR

Facebook PAGE.

THE STORY IS PINNED TO THE

TOP OF OUR PAGE, AND WE

HAVE PEOPLE THERE TO

PRAYER FOR YOU RIGHT NOW.

> STILL AHEAD, SHE HAS

BEEN FEATURED ON NBC, ABC,

AND V.H.1.

CYNTHIA GARRETT CHAIRS HER

JOURNEY HOME AS A PRODIGAL

DAUGHTER.

YOU DON'T WANT TO MISS IT.

SHE IS HERE LIVE RIGHT

AFTER THIS.

Terry: CYNTHIA

GARRETT IS HOST OF "THE

LONDON'S SESSION," AND SHE

CALLS IT A WALK SHOW, NOT

A TALK SHOW, AND SAYS WE

CAN'T BREAK FREE FROM THE

LIES OF THE ENEMY UNTIL

YOU'RE WALKING IN THE

TRUTH OF GOD'S LOVE,

ESPECIALLY SINCE THAT

TRUTH CAN SET US FREE.

Reporter: AS A LITTLE

GIRL, CYNTHIA GARRETT HAD

DREAMS OF BEING ON TV.

BUT SHE WAS SEXUALLY

ABUSED AT THE AGE OF NINE,

WHICH LEFT HER BROKEN AND

NUMB FOR MANY YEARS.

IN HER BOOK, "PRODIGAL

DAUGHTER," CYNTHIA SHARES

HOW SHE EXPERIENCED TRUE

FREEDOM AND HOW GOD

OPENEDS DOORS FOR HER

TELEVISION CAREER.

Terry: CYNTHIA

GARRETT JOINS US NOW, AND

THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE.

THANK YOU.

Terry: YOUR BOOK IS

CALLED "PRODIGAL

DAUGHTER," AND WE'RE GOING

TO GET TO THAT PART, BUT

WHAT ARE THE THINGS THAT

LENT YOUR LIFE TO THAT

DIRECTION IS SOMETHING

THAT HAPPENED TO YOU AS A

CHILD.

YOU WERE MOLESTED MULTIPLE

TIMES AS A CHILD, AND HOW

DID YOU COPE WITH IT AS A

CHILD?

CHILDHOOD SEXUAL ABUSE,

WE COPE WITH IT AS KIDS, I

THINK, BY SHUTTING DOWN

THE PAIN AND THE EMOTIONS

OF IT, THE BROKENNESS THAT

OCCURS, ALL THOSE

DIFFERENT EMOTIONAL PARTS

THAT HONESTLY COME BACK TO

TRY TO CONTROL YOUR LIFE.

Terry: DEFINITELY.

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN,

UNTIL YOU FIGURE OUT HOW

TO BE SET FREE.

AND THAT'S WHAT YOUR BOOK

IS REALLY ALL ABOUT.

YOU KNOW, YOU HAD ROUGH

BEGINNINGS.

YOU HAD THE ABUSE AS A

CHILD.

YOUR PARENTS DIVORCED,

WHICH IS ALSO VERY

DEVASTATING TO CHILDREN --

REALLY TOUGH.

I ADORED MY FATHER AND MY

MOM.

SO MY HOME BREAKING UP

WAS -- A LOT OF PEOPLE, I

THINK, DISCOUNT HOW

DAMAGING DIVORCE IS.

Terry: BECAUSE WE

DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT

IT.

ESPECIALLY IN THE WORLD

OF BABY MOMMIES AND

DADDIES IN THE WORLD WE

LIVING IN, AND EVERYBODY

IS SO CAVALIER ABOUT IT.

Terry: AND THEN YOU

GO ON TO GET A LAW DEGREE,

AND ALL OF THESE THINGS

DIDN'T STOP YOUR DRIVE TO

MOVE FORWARD.

YEAH.

I BECAME -- I READ AN

ARTICLE THAT SAID THERE

ARE TWO KINDS OF ABUSE

SURVIVORS.

THEY BECOME DIFFERENT

PERSONALITY TYPES.

I BECAME ONE OF THE

CLASSIC TYPES.

CLASSIC OVER-ACHIEVER,

DRIVEN FOR SUCCESS.

AND I HONESTLY WAS DRIVEN

TO FIND MY IDENTITY IN

SUCCESS.

SO FROM THE TIME I WAS A

LITTLE GIRL, I WOULD SAY,

I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN TV

SHOW, LIKE BARBARA

WALTERS, AND I WANT TO GO

E TO LAGOTO LAW SCHOOL SO EVERYBODY

KNOWS I'M SMART.

Terry: AND YOU DID

ALL OF THAT.

AND THEN WHAT HAPPENED

THAT THIS SELF-SUFFICIENT,

SELF-BELIEVING, VERY

MOTIVATED, HIGHLY-GIFTED

WOMAN MARRIES SOMEBODY WHO

IS AN ABUSIVE CONTROLLER,

MANIPULATOR.

YEAH, BECAUSE I THINK

AT THE END OF THE DAY, I

WAS STILL CHAINED TO MY

CHILDHOOD ABUSE ISSUES.

SEVERELY LOW SELF-ESTEEM.

OVER-ACHIEVER ON THE

OUTSIDE.

ON THE INSIDE, I FELT

UNLOVABLE.

I FELT LIKE GOD HAD

FORGOTTEN ME.

I FELT LIKE -- SOMETIMES I

THINK I WAS ANGRY WITH

GOD.

EVEN THOUGH I BELIEVED HIM

AND LOVED HIM, I FELT

LIKE, WHY DID YOU LET

THESE THINGS HAPPEN TO ME?

Terry: WHERE WERE

YOU?

YEAH, WHERE WERE YOU.

I THINK ON A LOT OF LEVELS

I WAS DRIVEN TO BE

SUCCESSFUL TO PROVE I WAS

WORTH SOMETHING BECAUSE ON

THE INSIDE, I JUST DIDN'T

HAVE ANY REAL ABILITY TO

UNDERSTAND MY OWN

IDENTITY.

AND I WAS REALLY LOST.

Terry: "PRODIGAL

DAUGHTER" IS SUCH AN

EYE-OPENER, AND A

REMINDER, TO NOT EVER

JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.

BECAUSE IF YOU HAD SEEN

YOU AS AN OUTSIDER, IF I

HAD LOOKED AT YOU AT THAT

TIME IN MY LIFE, I NEVER

WOULD HAVE KNOWN ALL OF

THIS WAS GOING ON INSIDE

OF YOU.

IT IS AMAZING THAT YOU

JUST SAID THAT.

I JUST SAID TO SOMEBODY

EARLIER, I LEARNED IN MY

JOURNEY NEVER TO LOOK AT

SOMEBODY WHO'S LIFE LOOKS

LIKE A MESS AND JUDGE THEM

BECAUSE I KNOW THERE ARE

PEOPLE WHO LOOKED AT ME 15

YEARS AGO, ON RED CARPETS,

DRESSED PROBABLY

COMPLETELY

INAPPROPRIATELY, SAYING I

WAS A CHRISTIAN AND LIVING

AN UNCHRISTIAN LIFE, AND

THEY WOULD HAVE NEVER

LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, GOD

IS GOING TO HAVE THAT GIRL

ON PULPITS AROUND THE

WORLD READING THE GOSPEL.

AND SHE IS GOING TO BE IN

FAITH-BASED MEDIA -- NO

ONE WOULD HAVE EVER

THOUGHT THAT.

Terry: ONE OF THE

THINGS YOU ADDRESSED IN

YOUR BOOK THAT YOU DO SO

WELL IS TACKLING THE

ISSUE, WHICH I THINK IS SO

PREVALENT IN OUR DAY.

JESUS SAID, IF YOU LOVE

ME, YOU'LL OBEY ME.

BUT WHEN IT COMES TO

PHYSICAL RELATIONSHIPS, IN

THE CHURCH -- I'M NOT

TALKING ABOUT THE WORLD --

BUT IN THE CHURCH, WE WALK

WITH ONE FOOT IN THE JESUS

SIDE AND ONE FOOT IN THE

WORLD SIDE, AND WE LIVE

LIKE IT IS OKAY.

WHY DO WE DO THAT?

I THINK AT THE END OF

THE DAY, WE, ESPECIALLY IN

THE WESTERN CHURCH, WE

STILL WANT TO BE OUR OWN

GOD.

WE ARE STILL ALLOWING OUR

FLESH TO BE SATISFIED

FIRST.

AND WE DON'T UNDERSTAND

WHAT IT MEANS TO BE

SERVANTS BECAUSE NOBODY

WANTS TO BE A SERVANT.

IT IS LIKE THE WHOLE

PHENOMENON, I MEET ALL

THESE YOUNG MEN AND WOMEN

OF GOD WHO FEEL CALLED TO

HOLLYWOOD.

WHY HOLLYWOOD?

WHO IS CALLED TO THE

HOMELESS PEOPLE?

WHO IS CALLED TO THE POOR?

WE'RE SORT OF OBSESSED.

WE'VE GOT A CELEBRITY

SPIRIT THAT IS ACTUALLY A

PART OF THE CHURCH.

Terry: JUST ENOUGH

JESUS TO STAY OUT OF HELL,

BUT NOT ENOUGH TO CHANGE

OUR LIVES.

RIGHT.

AND THEN WE GET MAD AT HIM

WHEN HE DOESN'T ANSWER OUR

PRAYERS.

HOW DO WE WALK IN

ABUNDANCE IF WE DON'T

CHANGE OUR LIVES

ABUNDANTLY.

Terry: YOUR BOOK IS

YOUR JOURNEY FROM

WOUNDEDNESS AND

INDEPENDENCE AND

GUARDEDNESS AND

SELF-SUFFICIENCY TO

DAUGHTER OF THE KING.

AND THAT'S QUITE A

PROCESS, AS WE ALL KNOW.

WHAT WOULD YOUR MESSAGE

TODAY BE FOR THOSE WHO ARE

WITH US, TO PRODIGALS BE?

ISAIAH 61: ONLY JESUS

CAN BIND UP THE

BROKENHEARTED AND SET THE

CAPTIVES FREE.

THAT CAPTIVITY IS OFTEN

OUR OWN CAPTIVITY, OUR

FEAR ISSUES, OUR SADNESS,

OUR DEPRESSION, OUR FEAR

OF REJECTION AND

ABANDONMENT.

THOSE ARE ISSUES WE NEED

FREEDOM FROM.

Terry: YOU CAN LEARN

MORE ABOUT CYNTHIA'S LIFE

AND CAREER IN HER MEMOIR,

AND IT'S CALLED "PRODIGAL

DAUGHTER," AND IT WILL

SPEAK TO YOUR LIFE IF

YOU'RE STRUGGLING WITH

SOME OF THESE ISSUES.

THANK YOU FOR BEING WITH

US.

THANKS FOR BEING HERE.

THANK YOU.

Terry: THANK YOU FOR

BEING WITH US.

WE HOPE YOU'LL JOIN US

AGAIN ON "700 CLUB

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