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700 Club Interactive - April 6, 2018

Kevin Logan was raised in an abusive home and became a transvestite and a prostitute. While visiting a Christian church he met a kind, older lady who prayed for him. Read Transcript


Gordon: IN PRISON FOR

THREE DECADES...

I REMEMBER FEELING WHAT

FELT LIKE A BLOW IN MY

STOMACH.

Gordon: ...HE HEARD

GOD'S VOICE TELLING HIM TO

GIVE THANKS.

BELIEVE ME, IT WAS

PROBABLY THE LAST THING I

WANTED TO DO.

Gordon: PLUS...HE

YEARNED TO BE LOVED.

I ALWAYS FANTASIZED

ABOUT HAVING A FAMILY THAT

WANTED ME.

Gordon: BUT A PATTERN

OF ABUSE TWISTED HIS

UNDERSTANDING OF IT.

UNTIL A VISIT TO A CHURCH

WHERE A KIND-HEARTED,

OLDER WOMAN REACHED OUT.

ALL ON TODAY'S "700 CLUB

INTERACTIVE."

> WELL, WELCOME TO THE

SHOW.

A BRANCH OF PLANNED

PARENTHOOD TWEETED

RECENTLY: "WE NEED A

DISNEY PRINCESS WHO HAS

HAD AN ABORTION."

AFTER A LOT OF NEGATIVE

FEEDBACK, THEY DELETED THE

TWEET, BUT NOT BEFORE IT

WENT VIRAL.

A FORMER DISNEY PRINCESS

NOW RESPONDED TO THEIR

POSTAL AND NOW HER WORDS

ARE GOING VIRAL.

Terry: DIANA SAID

WHILE 18, WORKING AS A

PRINCESS, SHE HAD AN

ABORTION.

SHE SAID SHE KEPT WHAT SHE

HAD DONE TO HERSELF.

SHE SOON, HOWEVER,

REGRETTED HER DECISION.

FOR DEANNA, IT MEANT IT

BECAME TOO DIFFICULT

SINGING ABOUT DREAMS COME

TRUE WHEN SHE JUST WANTED

TO DIE.

SHE QUIT HER JOB AND SOME

TIME LATER FOUND HEALING

BY THE GRACE OF GOD.

DISNEY DOES NOT NEED A

PRINCESS WHO HAS HAD AN

ABORTION.

FOR YEARS FEMINISTS HAVE

BEEN PRINCESS BASHING

BECAUSE THEY DO NOT GRASP

THE POWER AND BEAUTY OF

THESE ICONIC FAIRYTALES,

AND WHAT THEY REPRESENT IN

THE LIVES OF WOMEN.

THEY DON'T REPRESENT A

WEEK EXAMPLE.

THEY REPRESENT STRENGTH.

THEY REPRESENT OVERCOMING

DARKNESS, AND FINDING A

WAY INTO THE LIGHT.

THEY REPRESENT BEING ABLE

TO SLAY DRAGONS.

MAYBE THE REASON WHY

PLANNED PARENTHOOD WANTS

TO REWRITE THESE STORIES

IS STORIES OF EVIL WITCHES

IN PER SUI PURSUIT OF KILLING OFF

BEAUTIFUL PRINCESSES HAS

ALREADY BEEN TOLD.

MAYBE THEY JUST DON'T LIE

DETECTOR THEIR PART IN THE

STORY.

Terry: FOR DEANNA,

THE HAPPILY EVER AFTER HAS

CONTINUED ONS AS SHE IS

NOON AS SHE IS NOWHAPPILY MARRIED WITH KID
S.

Gordon: WHY WOULD

PLANNED PARENTHOOD EXPRESS

THERE IS A NEED TO FIND

THAT KIND OF IMAGE?

WHAT'S THAT ABOUT?

Terry: I THINK THERE

IS AN AGENDA BEING

PROMOTED HERE.

IT IS A SOCIAL AGENDA.

WE ALL NEED TO WAKE UP AND

SMELL THE COFFEE, THAT

THIS ISN'T JUST A LITTLE

ORGANIZATION PROVIDING A

LITTLE SERVICE TO WOMEN IN

NEED.

THESE ARE PEOPLE MAKING A

BUCK OFF THE BACKS OF

WOMEN WHO ARE IN

CIRCUMSTANCES THAT THEY

SEE DIFFICULT.

THIS IS WHERE THE CHURCH

COMES IN AND PEOPLE OF

FAITH COME IN, AND WE ARE

THERE PROVIDING ANSWERS

AND ALTERNATIVES TO

PEOPLE.

THAT'S MY TAKE ON IT.

HOW CAN YOU YOU HEAR THE

THINGS WE HEARD ABOUT

SELLING BABY PARTS AND NOT

COME TO THAT CONCLUSION?

Gordon: WELL, YOU AND

I, AS TAXPAYERS, ARE

ACTUALLY HELPING PAY FOR

IT AS WELL.

Terry: YEAH.

Gordon: AND TO MY

ABSOLUTE AMAZEMENT, THE

LATEST BUDGET THAT WAS

PASSED BY A REPUBLICAN

SENATE, A REPUBLICAN HOUSE

OF REPRESENTATIVES, AND A

REPUBLICAN PRESIDENT

INCLUDED $500 MILLION OF

OUR TAX MONEY TO PLANNED

PARENTHOOD.

> WELL, IT HAS BEEN A

MONTH SINCE THE SCHOOL

SHOOTING IN FLORIDA THAT

CLAIMED 17 STUDENTS'

LIVES.

NOW STUDENTS ARE ADJUSTING

TO ANOTHER CHANGE: CLEAR

BACKPACKS.

MARJORY STONEMAN DOUGLAS

HIGH SCHOOL HANDED OUT

THOUSANDS OF SCHOOL BAGS

TO STUDENTS WHEN THEY

RETURNED TO SCHOOL BREAK.

THE CHANGE IS NOT SITTING

WELL WITH MANY STUDENTS,

WHO HAVE VOICED THEIR

CONCERN THAT THIS IS A

PRIVACY VIOLATION.

THE SCHOOL ENACTED MORE

SAFETY PRECAUTIONS AS

WELL.

THEY PLACED METAL

DETECTORS AT THE SCHOOL,

AND STUDENTS WILL ONLY USE

ONE ENTRANCE, AND ALL

STUDENTS WILL HAVE TO WEAR

THEIR STUDENT I.D.s.

THE SUPERINTENDENT SAID

SPORTS EQUIPMENT AND

MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS CAN BE

CARRIED IN NON-CLEAR BAGS,

BUT WILL BE SEARCHED.

IT'S A LITTLE LATE FOR

SOME OF THESE, OBVIOUSLY,

AND I'M NOT TRYING TO

THROW STONES.

LET'S PROTECT NOW.

LET'S HAVE THIS.

LOTS OF SCHOOLS IN AMERICA

HAVE METAL DETECTORS.

Terry: I THOUGHT MOST

DID NOW, HONESTLY.

Gordon: AND TO SAY,

OKAY, LET'S ENHANCE THE

SCHOOL.

AND IS THAT AT THE

SACRIFICE OF PRIVACY?

YES.

BUT AT THE SAME TIME,

LET'S PROTECT THE

STUDENTS.

Terry: YEAH.

YOU KNOW, I THINK ALSO THE

STUDENTS THEMSELVES WANT

PROTECTION.

WELL, THEN YOU HAVE TO

OPEN THAT DOOR OF OPTIONS

TO EVERYONE INVOLVED IN

LEADERSHIP AND THAT.

AND SO TO BE OFFENDED BY A

CLEAR BACKPACK IS KIND OF

OFSUPELFU LUS.

OFSUPELFULUS.

> TEACHERS ARE ASKING

FOR HIGHER PAY, AS WELL AS

SUPPLIES THEY SAY THE

SCHOOL DESPERATELY NEEDS.

MANY SAY MORE NEEDS TO BE

DONE.

THE STATES' TEACHERS ARE

STILL AMONG THE LOWEST

PAID IN THE COUNTRY.

Gordon: THE TEACHERS

SAY THE FUTURE OF PUBLIC

ACTOREDUCATION IS AT STAKE, AND

MANY ARE FINDING JOBS IN

OTHER STATES, WHICH COULD

LEAD TO A TEACHER CRISIS.

THIS COMES LESS THAN A

MONTH AFTER TEACHERS IN

WEST VIRGINIA -- THEY WENT

ON A NINE-DAY STRIKE,

WHICH ENDED WHEN THE

GOVERNOR SIGNED

LEGISLATION GRANTING

TEACHERS A 5% PAY RAISE,

AND THAT WAS THEIR FIRST

PAY RAISE IN FOUR YEARS.

AND IT'S -- THIS IS AN

ONGOING CRISIS.

YOU LOOK AT THE PAY THAT

TEACHERS GET, AND, YES,

THEY ARE UNDERPAID.

AND YOU CONSIDER THE

SACRIFICE THAT THEY DO, TO

SAY I WANT TO NOT HAVE A

CAREER IN THE PRIVATE

SECTOR.

I WANT TO DEVOTE MY LIFE

TO SERVING THE NEXT

GENERATION.

I WANT TO WORK IN THE

PUBLIC SECTOR.

I THINK WITH THAT COMES

SELF-SACRIFICE, BUT HOW

DEEP IS THAT?

AND IF YOU HAVEN'T HAD A

RAISE IN 10 YEARS, THAT'S

AN AWFUL LONG TIME.

Terry: I'M SURE

YOU'VE CONTEMPLATED THIS,

BUT NOW I'M THINKING OF IT

IN A DIFFERENT

PERSPECTIVE, AT THIS STAGE

OF MY LIFE, AS I'M SEEING

MY GRANDCHILDREN GO OFF TO

SCHOOL.

WE DROP THEM OFF IN THE

MORNING, AND WE SOMETIMES

DON'T PICK THEM UP UNTIL

OUR WORKDAY IS DONE AT THE

END OF THE DAY.

THEY'RE WITH SOMEBODY ELSE

MORE THAN THEY'RE WITH US,

SO LET'S PAY THOSE PEOPLE

WELL AND MAKE SURE THEY'RE

THE GOOD ONES.

Gordon: TERRY'S

BEHIND IT.

Terry: WELL, ATLANTA

IS SLOWLY RECOVERING AFTER

A WIDESPREAD CYBER ATTACK

CRIPPLED THE CITY'S

COMPUTER SYSTEM.

THE CITY ALLOWED EMPLOYEES

TO TURN ON THE COMPUTERS

FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE

THE ATTACK.

FEW DETAILS ARE KNOWN

ABOUT WHO IS BEHIND THE

ATTACK THAT PARALYZED THE

CITY'S COMPUTERS.

HOWEVER, AUTHORITIES DO

KNOW THE TYPE OF RANSOM

RANSORANSOMWARE.

Gordon: AND WHETHER

IT IS THE LOSS OF OUR

PRIVATE DATA, WHETHER IT

IS SURRENDERING

VOLUNTARILY OUR PRIVATE

DATA TO A SEARCH ENGINE OR

TO A SOCIAL MEDIA SITE,

THESE THINGS ARE SERIOUS.

AND NOT EVERYTHING IS GOOD

OUT THERE IN INTERNET

LAND.

THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO WANT

TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE

TECHNOLOGY IN ORDER TO

TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU AND

I.

AND RANSOMWARE IS JUST

PART OF IT.

THE NUMBER OF DANGERS IN

THIS WONDERFUL INTERNET

THAT WE HAVE -- WE ALL

NEED TO BE PROTECTED.

> WELL, HERE IS A STORY

TO HELP RESTORE FAITH IN

HUMANITY, FOLLOWING ALL OF

THAT.

PEOPLE WORKED TOGETHER TO

SAVE THE LIFE OF A MAN IN

DANGER OF DROWNING.

ARTIST JAMES MCGEERY

CAUGHT THE EVENT ON HIS

CAMERA.

A MAN FELL INTO COASTAL

WATERS IN THE TOWN OF

REDCAR, AND THEN A FEW

WELL-INTENTIONED ON LOOK

LOOKERS SPRANG INTO

ACTION, AND THEN THEY,

TOO, FELL INTO DANGER.

AND OTHERS NOTICED AND

FORMED A HUMAN CHAIN TO

NAVIGATE THE SLIPPERY

SHORE LINE AND PULL

EVERYONE TO SAFETY.

KUDOS TO EVERYBODY IN THAT

HUMAN CHAIN.

Terry: BOY, IT MAKES

YOU APPRECIATE SAND,

DOESN'T IT?

Gordon: SO YOU'RE NOT

GOING TO NORTHERN ENGLAND?

Terry: I'D LIKE TO GO

TO NORTHERN ENGLAND, BUT

I'M NOT GOING INTO THE

WATER.

> DO YOU KNOW FRAGRANCES

ARE BEING CALLED THE NEW

SECONDHAND SMOKE.

AND SOME PEOPLE GET RASHES

AND SNEEZES.

SO WHAT'S TO BE DONE?

PAYING ATTENTION TO

INGREDIENTS ON CONTAINERS

IS A GOOD START.

AND, GUESS WHAT, THE BEST

AIR FRESHENER IS ACTUALLY

FRESH AIR.

AIR FRESHENERS DON'T

REMOVE ODORS.

THEY SIMPLY COVER THEM,

WHICH IS TWICE AS

DISTURBING, IF YOU

ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT IT.

ON THE OTHER HAND, I'M

KIND OF FOR THAT.

Gordon: I'M ALL FOR

IT.

I'M ACTUALLY ONE OF THOSE

THAT HAS THE REACTION.

AND YOU CAN REALLY TELL,

IS IT A NATURAL SCENT OR

IS IT A

CHEMICALLY-MODIFIED SCENT.

AND THOSE THAT ARE

CHEMICALLY MODIFIED, I

HAVE A HUGE REACTION

AGAINST IT.

I HAVE TO LEAVE THE ROOM.

Terry: SO HE'S GONE

IF HE DOESN'T LIKE MY KA

COLOGNE.

WHAT CAN I SAY.

Gordon: IF YOU CAN'T

STAND THE SOUND OF PEOPLE

CHEWING, BLAME YOUR BRAIN.

IT IS CAUSED WHEN PEOPLE

HERE CERTAIN REPETITIVE

NOISES.

IT COULD BE A TICKING

CLOCK, THE SMACKING OF

LIPS -- CHEWING -- OR THE

CLACKING OF A KEYBOARD.

SCIENTISTS HAVE RECOGNIZED

MISOPHONIA SINCE 2000.

IT IS A NEUROLOGICAL

RE-WIRING TO SOUNDS THAT

COULD AFFECT UP TO 20% OF

THE POPULATION.

RECENTLY A RESEARCH TEAM

FROM NEW CASTLE UNIVERSITY

FOUND EVIDENCE THAT THE

BRAIN'S FRONTAL LOBE COULD

ACCOUNT FOR THE DISORDER.

I THINK EVERYBODY IS

BOTHEREDEBOTHERED BY CHEWING.

Terry: I THINK 20% IS

PROBABLY A LOW PERCENTAGE.

NONE OF US LIKE FINGER

NAILS ON A BLACK BOARD,

BUT I DON'T LIKE --

Gordon: I DON'T LIKE

SMACKING LIPS AND CHEWING

SOUNDS, NO.

Terry: DIDN'T YOU

GROW UP BEING TAUGHT THAT

YOU SHOULD CHEW WITH YOU

MOUTH SHUT?

Gordon: YES.

Terry: EVEN GUM.

Gordon: I WAS BROUGHT

UP, DON'T CHEW GUM.

Terry: I KNOW YOU

WERE.

Gordon: BECAUSE MOM

HAD A THING...

Terry: YUP.

Gordon: MAYBE IT WAS

MISPHONEIA.

> COMING UP, THE

TROUBLED BOY WHO GREW UP

TO BECOME A CROSS-DRESSING

WOMAN.

I HAD THE ESTROGEN

LEVEL OF A NORMAL FEMALE,

AND SO I COULD NOT PASS AS

A MALE.

THERE WAS NO REAL POWER TO

CHANGE MY LIFE.

Gordon: WELL, HE

FOUND THAT POWER IN A

STRANGE LOCATION.

FIND OUT WHERE WHEN WE

COME BACK.

Gordon: IN HIGH

SCHOOL, KEVIN LOGAN

STARTED WEARING EYELINER,

AND SOON HE ADDED MASCARA.

AND BY THE TIME HE WAS A

SENIOR, KEVIN WAS LIVING

AS A FULL-BLOWN WOMAN.

BEFORE LONG, HE WAS

WORKING AS A HIGH-END

ESCORT AND A MADAM.

BUT THROUGH IT ALL, KEVIN

WANTED TO END HIS LIFE.

UNTIL HE HEARD THE VOICE

OF GOD IN AN UNLIKELY

PLACE: A GAY BAR.

THERE ARE TWO THINGS I

REALLY YEARNED FOR GROWING

UP.

IT WAS LOVE AND A FAMILY.

I ALWAYS WANTED IT AND I

ALWAYS FELT LIKE I

FANTASIZED ABOUT HAVING A

FAMILY THAT WANTED ME.

I WAS ALWAYS LOOKING TO BE

LOVED.

Reporter: KEVIN LOGAN

GREW UP IN A HOME WHERE

VIOLENCE AND ABUSE, NOT

LOVE, WERE THE NORM.

HIS PARENTS FOUGHT AND

EVEN TRIED TO STAB EACH

OTHER.

KEVIN WAS ALSO SEXUALLY

ASSAULTED BY OTHER FAMILY

MEMBERS.

MY FIRST PERSON THAT

ABUSED ME WAS MY FEMALE

COUSIN.

AND IT WAS EXCRUCIATING.

REPEATED ABUSE HAPPENED

WITH MOM'S BOYFRIENDS AND

FRIENDS OF THE FAMILY.

AND THEN WHEN I GOT TOOK

AWAY AND WENT TO THE

ORPHANAGES, IT WOULD

HAPPEN WITH STAFF, AS WELL

AS PEERS.

Reporter: THE PATTERN

OF ABUSE GAVE KEVIN A

TWISTED VIEW OF SEX AND

LOVE.

IT WAS SOME ATTENTION.

I REALLY FELT LIKE THAT

SOMEHOW I WAS BEING CARED

FOR, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT

WAS MORE SEXUAL IN NATURE.

I ALWAYS EQUATED SEX WITH

LOVE.

IT WAS A VALIDATION.

IT WAS AFFECTION.

AND I NEEDED IT

DESPERATELY THE PHYSICAL

ABUSE, OF COURSE -- IT

JUST MADE ME -- IT

VALIDATED THE FEELINGS OF

JUST UNWORTHINESS AND

CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT.

Reporter: KEVIN

REMEMBERS ONE BRIGHT SPOT

IN HIS CHILDHOOD.

WELL, THERE WAS A

SUNDAY SCHOOL BUS THAT

CAME, AND THEY PICKED UP

THE KIDS IN THE

NEIGHBORHOOD WHEN I WAS

GROWING UP.

AND THEY HAD A PLACE

CALLED JOY LAND.

AND THERE IS WHERE I

ENCOUNTERED JESUS.

I JUST REMEMBER IT BEING

ONE OF THE MOST SAFEST

PLACES.

I ALSO FELT JOY THERE.

AND I DON'T REALLY FEEL

THAT I CAN IDENTIFY THAT

REALLY WITH TOO MANY OTHER

TIMES IN MY LIFE.

Reporter: THE CHURCH

MADE A POSITIVE IMPRESSION

ON KEVIN.

HOWEVER, AS HE GREW OLDER,

THE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL

ABUSE MANIFESTED IN A

VARIETY OF MENTAL

ILLNESSES.

I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BY

POLAR, MULTIPLE

PERSONALITIES, MAJOR

RECURRING DEPRESSION, AND

THEY WERE ALL ACCURATE.

Reporter: DURING

THESE YEARS, KEVIN ALSO

EXPERIENCED GENDER

CONFUSION.

HE BEGAN TO TAKE HORMONES

AND BECAME A TRANSGENDER

FEMALE.

I REALLY KIND OF THREW

IT ALL TOGETHER WITH JUST

CONFUSION THROUGHOUT MY

LIFE.

IT WAS JUST MASS

CONFUSION, ESPECIALLY WHEN

THE ABUSE STARTED AT SUCH

AN EARLY AGE.

Reporter: SOON HE WAS

LIVING ON THE STREETS,

SELLING HISED BOD HIS BODY AND DOING

WHATEVER HE COULD TO

SURVIVE.

WHEN I GOT INTO

PROSTITUTION, IT WAS

ACTUALLY BECAUSE I WAS IN

SURVIVOR MODE.

WHEN I MET A TRANS SEXUAL

PERSONAL, THEY SHOWED ME

THE ROPES.

THERE WAS A WARM BED, EVEN

IF IT WAS JUST FOR THE

NIGHT.

FOR ME IT WAS MONEY.

IT WAS POWER.

IT WAS, UM, VALIDATION.

Reporter: AT ONE

POINT KEVIN WAS MAKING

GOOD MONEY AND EVEN GOT

OFF THE STREETS FOR A

WHILE.

BUT HE WAS STILL EMPTY.

HE THEN WENT ON A

SPIRITUAL JOURNEY.

I WAS MUSLIM FOR FOUR

YEARS.

I HAD SPELLS CAST ON ME.

I HAD DONE BUDDHISM AND

WAS A REIKI MASTER, FUNG

SHWAY MASTER -- EVERYTHING

YOU CAN THINK OF.

I NEVER GOT WHAT I WAS

LOOKING FOR.

I NEVER FELT HAPPINESS.

I NEVER FELT PEACE.

IN FACT, IT USUALLY MADE

THINGS WORSE FOR ME.

THERE WAS NO REAL POWER TO

CHANGE MY LIFE.

Reporter: KEVIN BEGAN

LIVING WITH ANOTHER MAN,

BUT EVEN WHILE HE WAS

FREQUENTING CLUBS AND

BARS, HE COULD HEAR THE

STILL, SMALL VOICE OF GOD.

I JUST BEGAN TO HEAR

GOD SAY TO ME, I HAVE MORE

FOR YOU.

THIS IS NOT WHAT I CREATED

YOU FOR.

IT WAS A VOICE THAT WAS

EMPOWERING.

IT WAS A VOICE THAT I FELT

LIKE KNEW ME BETTER THAN I

DID.

AND MORE THAN ANYTHING, IT

WAS AFFIRMING.

IT GAVE ME SO MUCH HOPE

THAT CHANGE WAS POSSIBLE.

Reporter: ONE SUNDAY

MORNING KEVIN ASKED HIS

BOYFRIEND IF HE WANTED TO

GO TO CHURCH.

I HAD TRIED EVERYTHING.

IT CAME TO THE POINT WHERE

IT WASIT WAS LIKE, YOU KNOW

WHAT?

I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS

ANYMORE.

I HAD THE ESTROGEN LEVEL

OF A NORMAL FEMALE.

SO I COULD NOT PASS AS A

MALE.

I SAID, YOU GO IN FIRST.

IF THEY GREET YOU NICELY,

THEN MAYBE THEY'RE READY

TO HANDLE THIS CIRCUS SHOW

THAT IS ABOUT TO WALK

THROUGH THE DOOR.

Reporter: AT THE END

OF THE SERVICE, AN OLDER

WOMAN ASKED KEVIN IF SHE

COULD PRAY FOR HIM.

SHE SAID, MA'AM, CAN I

PRAY FOR YOU.

AND I SAID, I'M NOT A

MA'AM.

I'M A SIR.

AND SHE SAID, I'M SO

SORRY, SIR, CAN I PRAY FOR

YOU?

AND I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT

HER FEELINGS, SO SHE

PRAYED FOR ME.

AND ALL I KNOW IS I FELT

THE LOVE OF GOD IN SUCH A

TANGIBLE WAY IT WAS

UNDESCRIBABLE.

Reporter: KEVIN BEGAN

GOING TO CHURCH.

AS HE DID HE BEGAN TO

CHANGE.

THE LADY OLD LADY AT

THE CHURCH WOULD COME AND

GET ME, AND WE WOULD DO

40-DAY FASTS, AND WE WOULD

READ FROM GENESIS TO

REVELATION.

AND SHE WOULD MAKE IT

PERSONAL.

KEVIN LAMONT LOGAN SHALL

NOT WANT.

AND WE JUST WENT DEEP IN

THE WORD OF GOD.

Reporter: KEVIN

PRAYED TO RECEIVE CHRIST

AND ASKED TO BE BAPTIZED

TWO MONTHS LATER.

I WENT DOWN IN THE

WATER, AND I CAME UP.

AND I WAS FILLED WITH THE

HOLY SPIRIT.

I NEVER HAD DEPRESSION.

THINGS WERE BROKEN OFF OF

ME.

LIKE I HAD JOY, REAL JOY.

AND EVERYTHING ABOUT ME,

EVEN MY VERY CONTINENCE

BEGAN TO CHANGE AT THAT

ROINT.

POINT.

Reporter: TODAY KEVIN

LIVES TO SHARE HIS STORY.

THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN

FORGIVEN MUCH LOVE MUCH.

I SEE PEOPLE EXPERIENCE

THE LOVE AND KINDNESS OF

GOD THAT I HAVE

EXPERIENCED.

TO SEE THAT TRUE CHANGE IS

POSSIBLE, AND THAT WHAT

YOU THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE

LOOKING FOR CAN ONLY BE

FOUND IN CHRIST.

THAT IT IS THE LORD AND

THE LORD ALONE THAT WILL

BRING YOU THE CONTENTMENT,

WILL BRING YOU HAPPINESS,

WHICH IS REALLY JOY, THAT

YOU'RE LOOKING FOR, AND

THE CHANGE.

HE HAS JUST CHANGED MY

LIFE IN WAYS THAT ARE

INDESCRIBABLE.

Gordon: AND HE CAN

CHANGE YOUR LIFE, TOO.

HE CAN CHANGE YOU FROM

YOUR INNERMOST BEING, MAKE

YOU NEW AGAIN.

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY GIVE

YOU THE LOVE THAT YOU'RE

LOOKING FOR.

THAT LOVE, THAT DEEP,

SATISFYING LOVE, OF

KNOWING YOUR CREATOR.

NOW, FOR KEVIN, WHAT A

WONDERFUL STORY.

BUT THE BEGINNING OF IT,

WHEN HE COMES INTO CHURCH,

YOU KNOW, THAT HE WOULD

ACTUALLY EXPECT TO BE

REJECTED.

THAT'S NOT WHAT JESUS IS

ALL ABOUT.

HE IS ALL ABOUT FINDING

AND SAVING THOSE WHO ARE

LOST, THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN

ABUSED, THOSE WHO ARE

REJECTED BY THEIR OWN

FAMILIES.

HE IS ALL ABOUT FINDING

THEM.

AND RECEIVING THEM WITH

OPEN ARMS, TO LET THEM

KNOW THAT HE LOVES THEM.

HE HAS A PLAN AND PURPOSE

FOR THEM.

IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR THAT

TRANSFORMATION, AND MAYBE

LIKE KEVIN YOU'VE LOOKED

IN A LOT OF WRONG PLACES,

AND YOU DABBLED IN A LOT

OF THINGS, AND MAYBE YOU

GOT REALLY GOOD AT A LOT

OF THOSE THINGS, BUT YOU

KNOW IT DOESN'T SATISFY.

IT DOESN'T BRING YOU THE

LOVE THAT YOU LONG FOR.

IT DOESN'T BRING YOU THE

ACCEPTANCE YOU LONG FOR.

I'VE GOT GREAT NEWS FOR

YOU: JESUS IS WAITING

JUST FOR YOU.

AND HE SAYS TO YOU,

"BEHOLD, I STAND AT THE

DOOR AND KNOCK.

IF ANYONE HEAR MY VOICE

AND OPEN THE DOOR, I'LL

COME IN."

SO WHAT DOOR IS HE

STANDING NEXT TO?

WELL, IT IS THE DOOR OF

YOUR HEART.

THE DOOR OF YOUR LIFE.

AND ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS

OPEN IT AND SAY, PLEASE

COME IN.

PLEASE.

I WANT TO KNOW YOU.

I WANT TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE

MY SAVIOR.

YOU'RE MY MESSIAH.

IF YOU WANT THIS, BOW YOUR

HEAD WITH ME.

LET'S PRAY THAT PRAYER AND

LET JESUS DO ALL THE REST.

PRAY WITH ME.

JESUS -- THAT'S RIGHT,

JUST SAY HIS NAME, SAY IT

OUT LOUD.

JESUS, I OPEN THE DOOR TO

YOU AND I ASK THAT YOU

COME IN.

I ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE ME,

THAT YOU SET ME FREE FROM

THE THINGS THAT I'VE DONE

WRONG.

AND THAT YOU SET ME FREE

FROM THE THINGS THAT WERE

DONE TO ME.

COME INTO MY HEART.

MAKE ME NEW.

GIVE ME THE JOY AND THE

PEACE THAT I SO WANT AND

SO NEED.

LET ME FEEL YOUR LOVE

TODAY, FOR I ASK IT IN

JESUS' NAME.

AMEN.

AND AMEN.

IF YOU PRAYED WITH ME,

THERE IS ONE MORE THING I

WANT YOU TO DO.

I WANT YOU TO MAKE A PHONE

CALL.

IT IS FREE:

1-800-700-7000.

WHEN YOU CALL, I'VE GOT

SOMETHING FOR YOU.

IT'S A FREE PACKET CALLED

"A NEW DAY."

AND, YES, IT IS A NEW DAY

FOR YOU.

IT IS A C.D. TEACHING.

HOW DO YOU LIVE THE

CHRISTIAN LIFE?

WHAT DO YOU DO NOW?

IT IS ALL FREE.

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CALL

US: 1-800-700-7000.

TERRY?

Terry: WELL, UP NEXT,

AT 17, GENE MCGUIRE WAS

GIVEN A LIFE SENTENCE FOR

A MURDER HIS COUSIN

COMMITTED.

AFTER SERVING 10 YEARS,

GENE VISITED A PRISON

REVIVAL WHERE A WHOLE NEW

PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE CAUGHT

HIS ATTENTION.

I WAS I INCARCERATED IN

THE STATE PRISON OF

PENNSYLVANIA, SERVING A

LIFE SENTENCE WITHOUT THE

POSSIBILITY OF PAROLE FOR

A HOMICIDE THAT MY COUSIN

COMMITTED WHEN WE WERE OUT

DRINKING ONE NIGHT.

I WAS 17, AND HE WAS 24.

I HAD NO BUSINESS BEING

OUT.

I SPENT ABOUT 10 YEARS AT

A STATE CORRECTIONAL

FACILITY IN PENNSYLVANIA

BEFORE I WAS INVITED TO

COME AND LISTEN TO A

PRISON REVIVAL MESSAGE

ABOUT JESUS AND THE

GOSPEL.

AND I WAS LOST.

I WAS CAUGHT UP INTO

DRUGS.

I WAS CAUGHT UP IN

PORNOGRAPHY.

I WAS CAUGHT UP IN A LOT

OF DARKNESS.

I HEARD THE MESSAGE OF

JESUS CHRIST.

I WENT UP FRONT AND GOT ON

MY KNEES.

WHEN I HAD SERVED 11

YEARS, I WAS DENIED

COMPUTATION BY THE

GOVERNOR'S BOARD.

AND I HAD BEEN READING

THESSALONIANS, WHICH SAYS,

"REJOICE ALWAYS, PRAY

WITHOUT CEASING, AND GIVE

THANKS TO GOD IN CHRIST

JESUS, FOR THIS IS THE

WILL OF GOD IN HIM

CONCERNING YOU."

AND I THOUGHT, GIVING

THANKS WHEN THINGS ARE

GOING GOOD IS WHAT WE DO,

BUT WHEN THINGS AREN'T

GOING THAT WELL, WHEN

CIRCUMSTANCES AREN'T TO

OUR BENEFIT, WILL WE GIVE

THANKS?

WHEN I HAD 12 YEARS IN THE

PRISON SYSTEM, I WAS

DENIED AGAIN.

WHEN I HAD 17 YEARS IN THE

PRISON SYSTEM, I WAS

DENIED.

WHEN I HAD 24 YEARS IN, I

WENT UP AGAIN, AND I WAS

DENIED.

WHEN I HAD 30 YEARS, I

WENT UP AGAIN, AND I

REMEMBER RECEIVING THE

RESPONSE FROM THE

GOVERNOR'S OFFICE, AND IT

WAS DENIAL.

I REMEMBER FEELING LIKE A

BLOW IN MY STOMACH.

AND I TRIED TO HOLD MYSELF

TOGETHER.

AND I BEGAN TO LISTEN TO

THE HOLY SPIRIT TELL ME, I

WANT YOU TO GO BACK TO

YOUR CELL, GET ON YOUR

KNEES, AND GIVE ME THANKS.

BELIEVE ME, IT WAS

PROBABLY THE LAST THING I

WANTED TO DO.

WHEN I BEGAN TO SAY THANK

YOU OUT LOUD, THESE THREE

THINGS CAME TO MY MIND: I

BEGAN THANKING HIM FOR

PROTECTING ME, THANK YOU

FOR PROVIDING FOR ME, AND

THANK YOU FOR PROMOTING

ME.

I HEARD THE LORD SAYING,

I'M GOING TO RELEASE YOU.

TWO YEARS LATER, I FOUND

MYSELF BACK IN COURT, AND

THE JUDGE RELEASED ME ON

APRIL 3 OF 2012.

THE JUDGE RELEASED ME,

SAYING I HAD SPENT 25

YEARS OVER ANY SENTENCE

THAT I SHOULD HAVE

RECEIVED AS A 17-YEAR-OLD,

SPENDING 34 YEARS, NINE

MONTHS, AND 15 DAYS.

I WAS RELEASED AND I WENT

HOME WITH MY SISTER.

ABOUT A WEEK LATER, I

ASKED MY SISTER TO CALL

THE COURTHOUSE AND ASK IF

I CAN GO BACK AND THANK

EVERYBODY.

I REMEMBER SITTING IN THE

COURTROOM WITH ABOUT 20 OF

THE STAFF.

AND I REMEMBER THANKING

THEM FOR EVERYTHING THEY

HAVE EVER DONE FOR ME,

OVER THE PAST 20 MONTHS

THAT IT TOOK FOR MY

RELIEF.

IT WAS SO HUMBLING.

I HAVE A MESSAGE FOR MY

PEERS AND EVERYBODY, TO BE

GRATEFUL.

BECAUSE THAT'S GOD'S WILL

FOR OUR LIVES.

GOD LOVES WHEN YOU SAY

THANK YOU.

YOU BEGIN TO GIVE GOD

THANKS AND YOU WATCH HIM

COME INTO IN SITUATION,

JUST AS HE DID FOR ME.

Terry: WHEN WE GIVE

THANKS IN ALL THINGS, WE

RELEASE THE POWER OF GOD.

Gordon: HE INHABITS

THE PRAISES OF HIS PEOPLE.

AND SO RESOLVE TODAY,

REGARDLESS OF YOUR

SITUATION, RESOLVE TO GIVE

THANKS IN ALL THINGS.

> HERE IS A VERSE FOR

YOU: "IN PEACE, I WILL

BOTH LIE DOWN AND SLEEP,

FOR YOU ALONE, O LORD,

MAKE ME DWELL IN SAFETY."

> GOD BLESS YOU.

WE'LL SEE YOU AGAIN.

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