A transgender man lives as â€œScarlettâ€ until he finds his true identity in Christ.
- I started struggling withsame-sex attraction around 12,
and around 15 years old I acted on it.
- [Host] Jeffery McCallalways wanted love.
But over the years, his sexual encounters
left him feeling empty and used.
- So from 18 to 23, I livedin Nashville, Tennessee.
And in those years, my whole identity
was in being homosexual.
I just partied and wouldshop and that was my life,
shopping, partying, andwhoever was my boyfriend
at the time.
I was addicted to drugs.
I was taking a ton of Xanaxand smoking crystal meth.
I'm about six foot fouralmost, and I weighed
about 160 pounds at that time.
I was very sick.
So I knew that if I didn'tleave Nashville physically,
I would die.
- [Host] Jeffery moved toGeorgia to attend college.
Four years later, he had a degree
and a new identity, Scarlet.
- The summer after graduating,I did my first drag show.
I had grown up around a lotof transgender, transsexual,
drag queens because I had afamily member who did shows,
and after that summer Istarted living as Scarlet
and I would start dressing andeven dating men as Scarlet.
And so from there, itfed it even more that
this is who I am.
I'm in the wrong body.
And I thought, I'm gonnahave surgeries and transition
into a woman, and this iswhat's going to make me happy.
And during those years as Scarlet,
I was beginning to be very promiscuous,
sometimes it was more than one guy a day.
During those years, Ialso prostituted my body.
That's when the drinkingreally heavily began.
- [Host] One wild night,Jeffery got violently drunk
and threatened to commit suicide.
He spent two days in thepsychiatric ward of the hospital.
- Here I was hitting rock bottom.
I'm in graduate school,I'm prostituting my body,
I'm with all these different guys.
I'm drunk every other day.
I have nothing really.
- [Host] While living asScarlet, Jeffery had a secret.
Behind closed doors, he waslistening to Jenson Franklin,
pastor of Free Chapel, a churchJeffery had visited twice
while in college.
- He would come on television,
or I would look him up on YouTube.
I would listen to him,
and the Holy Spirit was usingit to convict me of sin.
And it was around the lastsemester of graduate school,
I was sitting in my room,
and I was just crying.
It was really, really late at night,
and I was just weeping.
I spoke to God throughmy crying and weeping.
And I said, God, I knowpeople live for you,
not just go to church on Sunday,
not just play a religiousgame, like something happened,
and their life was transformed.
And I said, will I ever live for you?
My voice went silent, my thoughts stopped.
I heard God say, yes,you will live for me.
- [Host] A few months later,
Jeffery made a difficult decision.
- I'm gonna throw awaythe hair, the make-up,
the clothes, the shoes.
And everything that I have as Scarlet,
June of 2016 I threw it all away.
I went to a dumpster and Ijust threw my whole life away.
And it wasn't a joke to me.
It wasn't something I took light.
I was planning to transitionand have surgeries
and change my body.
So throwing that away was a huge step.
I thought, maybe I'lljust give God a chance.
He did speak to me and sayI was gonna live for him.
And that summer, the Lord and I
began to try to have a relationship
It was almost as if Godstripped everything I learned
from the church, from theLGBTQ community, from everyone,
and said, everything you'veheard, just throw it out
and I'm gonna lay aclear foundation for you.
- [Host] One night after church,
Jeffery received another message from God.
- I heard the Holy Spirit speak to me.
He said, you're gonna make a video.
You're gonna make a Facebook live video,
and cut ties witheverything from your past.
You need to publicly acknowledgeJesus Christ as your Savior
and that you wanna cutties with being a drunkard,
homosexuality, the lifeas Scarlet, all of it.
I made the video, andthousands of people viewed it.
I started getting messages and calls,
like you can't leave homosexuality.
You're transitioning,like, this is who you are.
What do you mean you'rejust leaving everything?
When I started losing thefriends and some family members,
my relationship with theLord just kept blossoming.
The day that I made theFacebook live video,
that was the day I wasfilled with the Holy Spirit.
The Bible became completely alive to me.
All of a sudden, I had apeace and joy I hadn't had
since I was a little, little, little, boy.
That peace and joy of likeeverything was lifted.
And then the Lord startedspeaking to me and said,
go out and share.
My whole life's purpose now is to continue
to share Christ's love,not just speaking of it,
but acting it out,showing it to the people,
that He loves them, He wants them.
This is so real.
It's like having the best thingyou could get in the world
and you want everyone to have it.