Brady had his first homosexual encounter as a boy and continued to have hookups with gay men as an adult. Then his pastor invited him to attend a conference.
- It was really a cycleof going through guilt
and conviction and thenhaving all these desires
and so I'll feed thosedesires and then crashing down
with guilt and conviction again.
It was just a rollercoaster.
- [Reporter] Brady Rand was 12
when he was first exposed to pornography.
- One of my friends,he had taken a magazine
from his dad's collectionand even to this day,
I can still remember thatfirst image that I looked at.
It opened my mind up to a world
that I had never been exposed to.
And so I really wantedto just explore that.
- [Reporter] Not longafter Brady and another
male friend had theirfirst sexual encounter.
- We began talking aboutsex and then eventually,
we did start experimentingwith each other.
It occurred to me thatI should probably talk
to somebody about this but I never did
just out of fear of what they would think,
fear of what my parents would think.
- [Reporter] After highschool, he joined the Navy.
- I had been stationed in Hawaii.
My desires to be with other men really
kind of amped up at that point.
And there's a lot of opportunities,
there's different barsand there's different
hang outs and those kind of things.
- [Reporter] Brady's promiscuitywas always in conflict
with his Christian upbringing.
- God was convicting me during those times
and trying to let me knowhey, this isn't the right way.
But after that guilt and thoseconvictions would wear off,
it'd be more and more difficult
to abstain from those things.
- [Reporter] Brady wasdischarged from the service
and returned to Oklahoma where he married
his high school sweetheartand they had two children.
All the while, Brady kepthis secret life hidden.
- I loved my first wifewith my whole heart.
I believed that if I married this woman,
if I had this woman withme every day of my life
maybe that would helpstave off this desire.
- [Reporter] For many years,Brady was faithful to wife
and stayed active in his church.
But in 2006, the couple made plans
to celebrate their 10th anniversary.
- We had planned aneight day trip to Hawaii.
And I should have recognized that
that was gonna be a trigger for me.
It was probably about threeor four days into our trip,
I went back to that firstgay beach that I had gone to
back whenever I had first moved to Hawaii.
And I had a hookup with a gentleman
that I had met on the beach.
- [Reporter] That trip set Brady back
on his old pattern for several more years.
- I had gone six yearswithout cheating on my wife.
I had made this commitmentto God that I had now broken.
Whenever we got back from our trip,
I kind of had this mindsetof I just didn't really care
anymore about that andabout suppressing that.
I had gotten my first desktop computer
and of course that justopens up a whole new world
as far as pornography is concerned.
I did kind of go into thisdeep hole of pornography
and just kind of buried myself in that.
I started meeting other men.
- [Reporter] Brady and his wifebegan attending a different
church despite the fact that her health
began deteriorating from diabetes.
- She wanted to be at church.
She knew that she wasn'tgonna be here a lot longer
and she wanted to make the most of it.
- [Reporter] Brady'spastor then invited him
to attend a conference.
- I really had reachedthis point of hopelessness.
I would have thoughtsof suicide just because
of that despair and justthat guilt that I had felt.
I had really stopped hearing from God
and I wasn't able tohear His voice anymore.
All of a sudden, I felt this desire to go
to the conference thatI needed to be there.
And looking back at thatmoment, I know that it was God,
it was the Holy Spirit.
- [Reporter] Brady's lifechanged forever that weekend.
- I had never been to a prayer conference.
And Pastor Cory Jones, thatwas one of his conferences.
He's felt led to just bringthe church back to praying
and back to commitment ofreally crying out to God.
And that's what his conference was about.
- [Reporter] At onepoint in the conference,
Brady felt a hand on his shoulder.
I connected eyes with the pastor.
Within about 25 or 30 seconds,he was standing next to me.
And he had his hand on my shoulder
and he had begun to pray over me.
He said that whenever he was sitting there
on the stage looking out at the crowd,
that my face was the onlyface that he could see
that everything was kinda blurred out.
And God told Pastor Cory I want you to go
and pray that he would befilled with the Spirit.
For the first time in my life,
I began to feel the manifestpresence of the Holy Spirit
just falling on me.
And it was a powerful, powerful thing.
And all of that sin,I could literally feel
it leaving my body.
And it was in thatmoment that I just began
to weep uncontrollably, justtears pouring out of my face.
And it was maybe about 10 seconds later,
I realized that sin that I had asked God
for 26 years to take out of my life,
I could feel that leaving my body,
literally leaving my body.
And at that point, I beganto laugh uncontrollably
because I was so happyand I was so excited
to finally be free of this.
I knew that it was authentic.
I knew that this was an actual encounter
with the Holy Spirit, with God.
- [Reporter] Brady started being discipled
at this church and has never looked back.
- The freedom that Ifelt from that encounter
with the Holy Spirit was life changing.
I knew that this was forever.
It's not just somethingthat I did on my own.
- [Reporter] Sadly, Brady'sfirst wife passed away in 2014
as a result of complicationsfrom her diabetes.
Two years later, Brady married Raquel.
They now have a blended family of four
and are both involved in ministry.
- If I could say anything to anybody
that's struggling todaywith maybe suicidal thoughts
or maybe just depressionor maybe just hopelessness,
I want them to know that Jesus is real,
that Jesus is still in thebusiness of changing people,
that He cares about you deeply,
and there is true freedomthat's available to them.
Just don't give up on hope.