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Replacing Hate with Love

Drugs and crime were just the beginning of Tracy's problems. He was filled with hate and rage, but God’s love overpowered him in prison. Read Transcript


THE TATTOOS TELL THE

STORY OF HIS LIFE.

THESE SKULLS -- THESE

WERE HOW I FELT IN MY LIFE.

I WANTED EVIL.

I WANTED MEAN, EVIL STUFF ON

MY ARMS.

Reporter: TRACY KOVAC

WAS A DRUG ADDICT, A WANTED

CRIMINAL, AND FULL OF HATE

AND RAGE.

THIS IS THE SYMBOL OF

CHAOS, WHICH MY LIFE IN MY

HEAD, WAS NOTHING BY CHAOS.

Reporter: THE CHAOS

STARTED EARLY IN THIS LIFE.

AFTER HIS FATHER LEFT, TRACY

WATCHED HELPLESSLY AS HIS

MOTHER'S NUMEROUS DRUNKEN

BOYFRIENDS ABUSED HER.

AND THEN SHE MARRIED ONE OF

THEM AND LEFT HER SON WITH A

NEIGHBOR.

I KEPT ASKING THE LADY,

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY MOM.

SHE SAID, SHE IS NOT COMING

BACK FOR YOU.

AND SHE STARTED BEATING ME

UP.

Reporter: HIS FATHER

EVENTUALLY TOOK HIM TO LIVE

WITH HIM, BUT HE WAS ALSO

ABUSIVE.

AND TRACY FELT EVEN MORE

ALONE.

AT THIS POINT, I SHUT

DOWN.

I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO

ANYBODY OR COMMUNICATE WITH

ANYBODY.

I FELT NOBODY LOVED ME.

Reporter: EVENTUALLY

TRACY MOVED OUT AND REUNITED

WITH HIS MOTHER, BUT THINGS

WERE ABOUT TO GET WORSE.

MY MOTHER STARTED GOING

OUT WITH THIS BIKER GUY, AND

HE INTRODUCED ME TO METH.

IN THAT GROUP OF PEOPLE, THE

MORE DRUGS AND ALCOHOL YOU

DID, THE COOLER YOU WERE.

Reporter: AT 17, HE

LANDED IN JUVENILE HALL FOR

BREAKING AND ENTERING.

HE COULD HAVE BEEN RELEASED

INTO HIS MOTHER'S CUSTODY.

SHE SAID, NO, I CAN'T

TAKE YOU, AND SHE TURNED

AROUND AND WALKED OUT.

I WAS IN SUCH A RAGE BECAUSE

I COULDN'T BELIEVE SHE LEFT

ME AGAIN.

AND NOW I WAS IN JUVENILE

HALL UNTIL I WAS 18 YEARS

OLD BECAUSE I HAD NO ONE TO

GET RELEASED TO.

I HAD NO PARENTS.

I WANTED TO DESTROY

EVERYBODY.

Reporter: AFTER HIS

RELEASE, TRACY BECAME

ADDICTED TO CRYSTAL METH.

WITH A TWISTED SENSE OF

JUSTICE, HE STARTED ROBBING

DRUG DEALERS.

THE DRUG ADDICTS WERE

JUST ABUSIVE, TO THEIR KIDS

AND TO THEIR WOMEN.

AND HERE I AM DOING MORE

DRUGS THAN MOST OF THESE

PEOPLE, AND MY SICK MIND, I

THOUGHT THIS IS GOING TO BE

MY WAY OF GIVING BACK TO

THIS SITUATION, BUT AT THE

SAME TIME GET MY DRUGS AND

NOT GO BACK TO JAIL.

IF I ROB A DRUG CONNECTION,

WHO IS GOING TO TELL ON ME.

PEOPLE SAY, WHO DO YOU THINK

YOU ARE?

AND I TELL THEM, I'M GOD,

THAT'S WHO I AM.

Reporter: HE HAD

NUMEROUS RUN INS WITH THE

LAW.

I HATED EVERYBODY.

I TOOK IT OUT ON BLACKS,

JEWS.

I WANTED TO GET BIG AND

MEAN.

AND BEING IN THIS GROUP OF

PEOPLE, I KNEW THEY ALWAYS

HAD MY BACK.

Reporter: AT HOME,

PARANOIA KEPT HIM ON EDGE.

HE SEPARATED HIMSELF FROM

HIS FRIENDS AND STAYED

HIGH.

THERE CAME A POINT WHERE

I DID DRUGS SO MUCH, I WAS

INJECTING UP TO AN OUNCE OF

METH A DAY.

I FELT I COULDN'T SLEEP.

I COULDN'T TRUST EVERYBODY.

THE COPS HATED ME.

THE ROBBERS HATED ME.

EVERYBODY HATED ME.

Reporter: EVENTUALLY

TRACY BAR BARRICADED

HIMSELF IN A HOUSE.

WHEN THE POLICE EVENTUALLY

CAUGHT UP WITH HIM, THEY

BOTHER KNOCKING.

5:30 IN THE MORNING, A

CAR CAME THROUGH MY GATE.

THEY BUSTED MY HOUSE OPEN,

LOOKING FOR A METH LAB AND A

CHOP SHOP.

Reporter: AT 41 YEARS

OLD, TRACY FACED UP TO 100

YEARS FOR DRUG CHARGES AND

BREAKING PAROLE.

YET HE FELT HE NEVER TRULY

HAD A CHANCE TO LIVE.

I SPENT ME WHOLE LIFE

LOOKING FOR SOMETHING, AND

NOW I'M GOING TO SPEND THE

REST OF MY LIFE IN PRISON.

I NEVER FOUND WHAT I WAS

LOOKING FOR.

I WAS JUST BROKEN.

Reporter: ONE DAY A

FELLOW INMATE INVITED HIM TO

A CHAPEL SERVICE.

TRACY SAW IT AS A WAY TO GET

OUT OF HIS CELL, SO HE

ACCEPTED.

I NEVER TOUCHED A BIBLE

IN MY LIFE.

HE STARTED READING OUT OF

THE BIBLE.

AND I THOUGHT, WHAT WAS

THAT?

I WANT TO HEAR MORE OF

THIS.

Reporter: TRACY SAYS

THE PREACHER'S WORDS STIRRED

SOMETHING IN HIS HEART.

I COULD ALMOST HEAR GOD

TELLING ME, UNTIL YOU

ACKNOWLEDGE ME AS YOUR LORD

AND SAVIOR, NOTHING WILL

EVER WORK FOR YOUR LIFE.

Reporter: THE NEXT DAY

ANOTHER INMATE SPOKE WITH

TRACY AND HELPED HIM

UNDERSTAND AND ACCEPT GOD'S

FORGIVENESS.

I GAVE MY LIFE TO THE

LORD, AND AT THAT POINT I

WAS JUST CRYING EVERY DAY.

BECAUSE ALL OF THIS STUFF

WAI CAME BACK AT ME.

ALL OF THIS STUFF I DID IN

MY LIFE WAS COMING AT ME.

I FELT SO SORRY AND SO BAD

FOR THE STUFF I HAD DONE.

HE WOULD TELL ME, THE LORD

FORGIVES YOU.

Reporter: TRACY SAYS

THAT IN CHRIST, HE FOUND

ANOTHER WAY TO LIVE.

I REALIZED THE WHOLE TIME

I WASN'T FIGHTING AGAINST

PEOPLE, I WASN'T FIGHTING

AGAINST ANYBODY.

I WAS BLOCKING GOD FROM

COMING INTO MY LIFE.

Reporter: THEN CAME AN

UNBELIEVABLE TURN OF

EVENTS.

EVIDENCE AGAINST TRACY WAS

PROVEN TO BE FALSE, AND THE

SENTENCE WAS REDUCED.

AFTER SERVING ONLY TWO

YEARS, TRACY WAS A FREE

MAN.

THAT WAS NOTHING I DID.

IT WAS WHAT GOD DID TO

PREDIC PROTECT ME.

I ENDED UP GOING TO TEEN

CHALLENGE.

Reporter: TRACY IS

STILL DRUG-FREE AND GOES

BACK TO TELL INMATES ABOUT

JESUS CHRIST.

I GOT APPROVED TO GO BACK

INTO THE SAME JAIL I WAS IN

TO TALK TO THESE GUYS.

I WANT TO SHAKE THEM AND GO,

GUYS, GOD IS REAL.

Reporter: TODAY TRACY

IS MARRIED TO DEBRA.

FOREVER THEY FOUND PEACE AND

ACCEPTANCE THROUGH A

RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

I AM SO IN AWE OF THE

LORD FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE IN

MY LIFE.

THE BIBLE TELLS US THE LORD

WILL SEPARATE YOUR SINS AS

FAR AS THE EAST IS FROM THE

WEST, AND THAT IS ABSOLUTELY

TRUE FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE IN

MY LIFE.

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